Guess Who I Got To Meet?

This is Camille's maternal sister Shelby! Born October 20th to Tootsie and Booby, Shelby came home with her family yesterday. She is adjusting well and will, God willing, get to meet her sister and her cousin Reilly soon.

"Brit Chadashah" Doesn't Necessarily Work For Me. What Works Instead Is...

Something with "יגדל"—something like:

1. ימים עמנואל
2. געולה
3. דרושים
4. לסוף

In transliteration and translation:

1. Yamim Imanu'el (Days of Imanu'el)
2. Ge'ulah (Redemption)
3. D'rashim (Sermons, Expositions, Etc.)
4. Lesof (For the End)

Besides from יהוה (Whom gave me the idea; ב'ה), I received help from tools such as Google, Milon, and Yiddish Dictionary Online (believe me or not; since many Yiddish words are just Ashkenazized Hebrew words). Prior knowledge, of course, also helped.

Alternatives:

1. ישוע
2. גולה
3. דרושים
4. לטובת

In transliteration and translation:

1. Yeshua (Jesus. The whole point is magnifying Yeshua [e.g., "Yigdal Elohim Chai"], although the Gospels specifically cover Yeshua.)
2. Goleh (Exile. At this point, the disciples had become exiles among many of their own and were preaching to kehillot in the Diaspora.)
3. D'rashim (Sermons, Expositions, Etc.)
4. Letovat (For Favor or Benefit. See Revelation 22, and Daniel 8:26 and 12:4.)

Sticking in a "ח" into "Tanakh" somehow just didn't work for me after a while. "תנך—יגדל!" ("Magnified [is] the Word of God" or "The Word of God—May It Grow!") works:

"For as the rain cometh down and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, except it water the earth, and make it bring forth and bud, and give seed to the sower and bread to the eater; So shall My word be that goeth forth out of My mouth: it shall not return unto Me void, except it accomplish that which I please, and make the thing whereto I sent it prosper."

Repost: How Dammesek Has Fallen!

(Update: There are now few to no Jews in Dammesek/Aram/Syria, by the way. Also, "Damascus has grown feeble; [s]he turns to flee..."

(Yet, people continue to insist that Tanakh means nothing.)

WEDNESDAY, AUGUST 28, 2013

How Dammesek Has Fallen!

The burden placed on hanevi'im:




Isaiah 17:1-3
New King James Version (NKJV)
Proclamation Against Syria and Israel

17 The burden against Damascus.

“Behold, Damascus will cease from being a city,
And it will be a ruinous heap.
2 The cities of Aroer are forsaken;[a]
They will be for flocks
Which lie down, and no one will make them afraid.
3 The fortress also will cease from Ephraim,
The kingdom from Damascus,
And the remnant of Syria;
They will be as the glory of the children of Israel,”
Says the Lord of hosts.

Jeremiah 49:23-27
New King James Version (NKJV)
Judgment on Damascus

23 Against Damascus.

“Hamath and Arpad are shamed,
For they have heard bad news.
They are fainthearted;
There is trouble on the sea;
It cannot be quiet.
24 Damascus has grown feeble;
She turns to flee,
And fear has seized her.
Anguish and sorrows have taken her like a woman in labor.
25 Why is the city of praise not deserted, the city of My joy?
26 Therefore her young men shall fall in her streets,
And all the men of war shall be cut off in that day,” says the Lord of hosts.
27 “I will kindle a fire in the wall of Damascus,
And it shall consume the palaces of Ben-Hadad.”[a]

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When (I Feel Like) I've No Reason To Go To Bed At Night (And I'm Sure That Others Can Relate)

I think that these few verses really sum up for me why (I often feel like) I've no reason to go to bed at night—not to mention that I am Jewish, and I'm experiencing part of Moshe's prophecies through no fault of my own (I was not yet born, though I was in the desert those millennia ago.):

"65 And among these nations shalt thou have no repose, and there shall be no rest for the sole of thy foot; but the LORD shall give thee there a trembling heart, and failing of eyes, and languishing of soul. 66 And thy life shall hang in doubt before thee; and thou shalt fear night and day, and shalt have no assurance of thy life.67 In the morning thou shalt say: 'Would it were even!' and at even thou shalt say: 'Would it were morning!' for the fear of thy heart which thou shalt fear, and for the sight of thine eyes which thou shalt see."

Jews do indeed have higher rates of Depression and other mental illnesses. All the harder is when I am alone in general, anyway—

"9 Two are better than one; because they have a good reward for their labour. 10 For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow; but woe to him that is alone when he falleth, and hath not another to lift him up. 11 Again, if two lie together, then they have warmth; but how can one be warm alone? 12And if a man prevail against him that is alone, two shall withstand him; and a threefold cord is not quickly broken." 

Consider, too, that I have a physical disability as well (not to mention that I have OCD/Anxiety, ADD, and IBS):

"The poor is hated even of his own neighbour; but the rich hath many friends."

"Wealth addeth many friends; but as for the poor, his friend separateth himself from him."5 A false witness shall not be unpunished; and he that breatheth forth lies shall not escape."6 Many will entreat the favour of the liberal man; and every man is a friend to him that giveth gifts.

"7 All the brethren of the poor do hate him; how much more do his friends go far from him! He that pursueth words, they turn against him."

How many other people with disabilities—physical, mental (including mental illnesses), and other disabilities alike—can relate, I'm sure!

"And when ye offer the blind for sacrifice, is it no evil! And when ye offer the lame and sick, is it no evil! Present it now unto thy governor; will he be pleased with thee? or will he accept thy person? saith the LORD of hosts."

How people with disabilities and illnesses are used (including mocked), especially in the name of God! Then people wonder why I and others say "Were it morning!" in the evening and "Were it evening!" in the morning.

I'm sure, too, that, that was the experience of Great-Granddad Czarnecki 51 years ago today, after he'd had a rough life (regardless of that he caused much of it in his adult years) and lost his leg in a lawn-mowing accident on top of all that he endured—and he had Depression! (Great-Granduncle Bernie, BTW, had Schizophrenia; and Great-Great-Grandma likely had Schizoaffective Disorder).

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My Closing Thought For the Night, And.....

I'm definitely thinking about certain people with this one—I could name names, too, though I'm hopefully too nice to do that. If you're worried that you're one of those people, you're most likely not one of those people; and if you're one of those people whom's blaming me re people whom've ditched me (despite that I'm imperfect and as human as anyone else), you're most likely one of those people—and of course you're, I'm guessing, not worried since you're blaming me.

I'm sure, by the way, that others with, e.g., mental illnesses and physical disabilities are thinking the same thought about certain people whom were (or maybe even still are) in their lives that I'm thinking about whom were and still are in my life—e.g., certain family members who've ditched me and would like to think that I'm eradicated from existence, let alone our common families' bloodlines, just because they've ditched; or they'd even like to affect people to think of me as different from whom I really am, and they do this by basically slandering and libeling me,

I made this with Powerpoint 2013, by the way.

Part Of What the Target Shirtgate Highlights

One of the most-pressing issues in the modern world is the increasing mistreatment of others—whether that mistreatment is, e.g., sexism, racism, or ableism. 

When "Treat others as you want to be treated" becomes flouted, that's when societies begin breaking down. Look at, even, e.g., the correlation between bullying and suicides, which is a symptom of societal breakdown:

"Suicide is the third leading cause of death according to the Center for Disease Control. It results in about 4,400 deaths per year. Bullied victims are 7 to 9% more likely to consider suicide according to a study by Yale University. Studies in Britain have found half of the suicides among youth related to bullying.Jul 30, 2014" (Found via Google​) 

I'm not saying that I'm perfect in observing the mitzvah to treat others as I would like to be treated. Nonethless and in this case, Target needs to think about before they make jokes at the expense of people with mental disabilities—they are only affecting the further breakdown of society when they make fun of the less fortunate in society, among whom are those of us with mental disabilities.

As I stated on my Facebook page, "Target and others have no idea what even, e.g. (again, to be frank), having days on which I feel like drilling my brains out, pulling them out of my head, shooting myself in the head, etc. because of how terrible my OCD/Anxiey [sic.] can be is like—as I said, I am being frank: OCD/Anxiety can be that debilitating."

This goes back to my point about the bullying-and-suicide correlation, by the way: think about those of us whom suffer with OCD/Anxiety as is and don't need our suffering multiplied by those whom want to use us as the butts of jokes which they would not like made about them in light of their own situations. 

The Full Picture BTW

You also don't get how much harder getting older and not being able to afford even looking--let alone getting--older is. I'm only 25.75 years old, BTW.

If You're In 90% Of the Populus (Hardly To Not At All Affected By a Disability)

As far as I know and with all due respect, you don't get it--and never did and never will. You don't get what, e.g., having been better off dead at birth would be like--you think about what others'd've think without thinking about how you wouldn't care, since you'd be dead. You don't get, as one article put it, being among the 20% whom society has put on the "discard pile"--and maybe even being lucky to be even on that! You don't get ableism and intra-ableism, or at least haven't had to think about it as much. You don't get when stories of hope, etc. can be--and even are--slaps in the face to you and mockeries of your pain, even if those aren't what they were meant to be. You don't get being used as a mean to an ableist end, whether or not the ableism is intentional. You don't get wanting to die and not trying anything mainly--or even only--because of the possibility of a botched
attempt (like my aunt actually had) and/or because you care about your pet, whom wouldn't understand, too much. (BTW, "Monroe Township", I saw that you visited my blog--now you know, if you didn't know before--and think of me as crazy, a liar, or whatever else you want--so be if you think the same or worsely of me now.).

Teaching Judaism In English Catholic Schools And Notre Dame Of Maryland University

As long as they teach about Judaism without Anti Semitism, I'm okay with it. BTW, part of "Never forget" is, e.g., remembering that some Catholic schools (e.g., Notre Dame of Maryland University​) taught and still teach Pseudo-Christian Anti Semitism—for the record, by the way, Jews, for example, did not steal Passover from the Syrians and were not even "possibl[y]" influenced by the Devil (The prophets were wise and would have known if the Devil, and not the Holy Spirit, was speaking to and through them.).

England, take note—Jews and Christians (including Jewish Christians like me) are watching what you do; and we have no problem telling you when "[we're] tired of your Anti Semitism" (and I still remembering saying that to a certain Religious Studies professor.). Gasp as you will (as my classmates did) and tell us to mind our own business ("Leave!"), and we will maintain that affronting God is affronting the Jewish people—and saying that, e.g., "It's possible [that the prophets were influenced by the Devil]" is affronting God.

Also, Islam is not the root of Christianity (Messianic/Nazarene Judaism).

Where I've Been, And Why I've Been So Busy Lately—At Least In Short, Anyway

With my sister having graduated college and gotten Camille (who, by the way, is almost seven months old now), I have hardly had much space to myself of late. Thankfully, though, she finally got a job and will be around a lot less during the day—nonetheless, that does not spare me from, e.g., her random outbursts (and she does not have Tourette's Syndrome—she just likes to vocalize essentially every thought that she can vocalize. In fact, I have no peace right now—as I type, she is pestering me with a lack of peace and quiet; and I, thus, have a lack of focus).

In any case, making commentary-and-analysis—and other—videos has essentially become impossible. Any abstract forcefield of time, space, and other conducive factors that I have to make those videos is virtually gone—penetrated like a bubble that is popped with a needle. 

The same goes regarding my mother, at least because of the fact that her homecoming time and my waking-up time are less distant than they used to be. Hardly being able to sleep at night, I've sometimes slept well into the afternoon—and woken up just hours before she comes home. In the small space between those times is a lot on which a tired-and-frustrated me has to catch up.

Add that these two hardly give me space and time for and to myself, I can't drive, etc.—then you'll see why I can do hardly anything to maintain a conducive forcefield of peace and productivity, and why I'm even unable (read "forbidden") to deal with certain subjects (despite that, e.g., my and others' warnings about certain kinds of individuals and groups on all sides are becoming "I told you so" and "Who hath believed our report?" statements right before many eyes. If you need a hint, I'll remind you about the 20th Anniversary of the Million-Man March on one side, and Netanyahu and revisionism about the Holocaust on another side.).

I've also written and published a book that was written and published because of a God-sent opportunity, and I'm working on another one. Needlessly to say, the book is not yet selling—and I get that the international shipping prices are a part of it—and I'm working on another book in the meantime—and that writing has involved setbacks.

I'm also dealing with flareups of my OCD/Anxiety, Depression, ADD, and IBS—and I have Acute Otitis Media which was just diagnosed yesterday (and while the AOM should, Yehovah willing, go away soon, the OCD/Anxiety et. al. will not). The flareups affected and exacerbated the AOM, too, I bet. Meanwhile, the flareups have been affected by the writing setbacks and other issues—and it's been a vicious cycle. 

Nonetheless, people (at the very least) wonder why I persist in asking for prayer (and at the very most, they ditch me and/or even'd like to have me dead if they could have their way.).

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The girls chilling last night--I have so many pictures of them it's hilarious

The girls chilling last night--I have so many pictures of them, it's hilarious, BTW.
Nicole Czarnecki

A word of advice: never take false accusations of slander--I've had enough of th

A word of advice: never take false accusations of slander--I've had enough of them in my own life, as you may know. So, take it from me--it's what I've lived.

I stand by what I stated re Columbus, Caribeaños Nativos, and the Holocaust

I stand by what I stated re Columbus, Caribeaños Nativos, and the Holocaust--also, I don't recall Jews mitigating, making light of, or denying the horrors of what Columbus did. In fact, a ben Anusim by the name of Bartolomé de las Casas worked to help and pursue justice for mistreated Americanos Nativos in his own day, which followed the day of Columbus.

Something To Make Your Own and Share

I saw this on a Facebook friend's status, and I decided to personalize it. This isn't stuff that I haven't talked about in some capacity before, by the way. Incidentally, Great-Granddad Czarnecki could have (if God willed) lived to be 111 this month (October 24th) had he not committed suicide (Trust me; he has a certain cousin whom is 98 and will, if God wills, be 99 this year. He could easily have had that longevity gene, and only God knows if he did.).

Do me a favor, then, and make the following your own in a Facebook status, note, or something:

Depression is real and relentless. I and others have been on that edge, and I myself ended up in Sheppard Pratt over it in April of 2006 (To hide that is useless, especially when why the Depression was exacerbated affected me to threaten myself.). I'm therefore asking everyone to stop hiding their own Depression or whatever mental illness(es) you have (I also have, e.g., OCD, by the way.).

On the other hand, you can continue to hide it as many in my family have hidden it and did hide it—and let's see how well that works for you. Let me give you a hint: it doesn't work—if, for example, my father's paternal grandfather (Anthony Czarnecki, RIP) and maternal great-granduncles Alexander and Frank Fosko (z"l) could come back, they'd tell you.

So would their father, Istvan Foczko (z"l)—he was in his 50s when he died, had six sons and one daughter, and has never had his cause of death mentioned. Statistically, there is no other possibility that he died in any other way than by suicide—whether 29% of a chance (since two of his seven children committed suicide, and if you round the percentage up) or 66% (since two of his six sons committed suicide) the chance is well above 10%, and even 25%. The average of 29 and 66 is 47.5—so, think about that: almost 50% of a chance that he committed suicide, and the other 50-53% (that he didn't commit suicide, and that he even would have lived past his 50s) may well have happened if he had talked about what he endured. 

Meanwhile, I'm asking everyone to copy and paste this status—and personalize it. If only I was sharing a personal struggle with mental illness, it'd be a damned shame. Besides, you don't know whom you might help if you (in the words of my father's paternal grandmother, z"l) "talk about it" (When she broke down and told my aunt about many things before she died, those were her exact words after 90-plus years of life—"No; no, it's okay: I want to talk about it."). ♥

HaChodesh b'Sukkot

HaChodesh b'Sukkot

Camille post spay. Thank you for the continuing prayers.

Camille post spay. Thank you for the continuing prayers.

Prayer Request Re Michelle's Puppy Getting Spayed

Pray for Camille. She is getting spayed at 8:00. She is now almost 9 pounds and over a foot long. She is still small, though, despite that she is half of a year old.

Why I Do What I Do As A (Hopefully-To-Be-More-Than-Aspiring) Commentator, Etc.

I saw that (who I think is) a relative liked one of my posts on my public Facebook page. See; that's part of why I do what I do, too—to bring my families and families like mine back into the fold of Israel​. Mind you, I am not asking anyone to convert back to Rabbinical Judaism—whether you're Messianic or not is your schtick.

Frankly (and I've said this before), I wouldn't care about my Jewish heritage if Jesus (Yeshua) weren't in my life—or, on the other hand, I'd, with all due respect, end up Reform Jewish—and I myself cannot abide by a doctrine that states:

"[T]he texts are certainly divinely inspired and reflect our ancestors' best understanding of God and their covenant with God, as well as their view of God's will, but that is not the same as being divinely-authored."

I've even said that my own father would be Reform were he honest with himself (and he would; trust me), and other relatives (e.g., certain Daniloviches) have gone this way (and they weren't even among the kevorim whom were Anusim).

(By the way, I can assure that the URJ's position does not reflect the position of all Jews in the city in which I was raised; and I apologize for Rabbi Scheinerman on behalf of Columbia-born and -raised. Whatever any of us think of the Talmud, quite a few of us believe in the Torah m'Sinai.)

I don't want especially anyone in hamishpachot b'mispachah Yisra'el sheli to think that:

1. We ought to disown Yeshua just because we're Jewish and b'nei-Anusim.
2. We ought to disregard our Jewish heritage because of Yeshua.
3. We have no obligation to the rest of Beit Ya'akov. 
4. We have to assimilate.
5. We have any obligation to keep Torah, since it was fulfilled. 

There do not need to be any false mutual exclusions, let alone false dichotomies. As I said, then, part of why I do what I do, too is to bring my families and families like mine back into the fold of Israel​ without forcing them to give up or to accept Yeshua.

For An Easy Fast On Yom Kippur

Thinking About Especially Martyred Jews And My Family Tonight: May Yehovah aveng

Thinking About Especially Martyred Jews And My Family Tonight: May Yehovah avenge the blood of all martyred Jews (incl. Anusim & b'nei Anusim; kedoshim & chalalei alike; e.g., Great-Granduncle Bernie, Joseph A. Andrulewicz, Bronislawa "Bernice" z Andrulewiczów Pozniakowa, Antoni Andrulewicz, Franciszek and Witold Andrulewicz with Janina Andrulewiczówna) & Philosemites swiftly & soonly. BTW, the chalalei and kedoshim that were named: DOW 1963, KIA 1944, murdered at Orlinek in 1944, kidnapped in his town of residence by the Nazis, held hostage in a Suwalki prison, and then murdered by execution in Suwalki in 1944; and murdered by the Soviets at the Augustów Massacre--all of branches of the Litvish-Poylishe mishpacha of Kohanim known as the Andrulevic(i)uses. Incidentally, I have no clue why we made up or took that name at Stakliskes--or Vilna or wherever--and I wouldn't lie to, e.g., Jose Gutstein, either--he'll, God willing, find and add those records to his collection, and owe me an apology--I, God willing, guarantee it and will, God willing, see those records myself. I know that the Czarnetzkas from Radzilow were Jewish and mishpacha, too--I am not as dumb as I look, and to group me in with those whom haven't been blessed with as much mental capacity as I have is actually an insult to them--they can't help where they are in life. I am also not a fool, although I am not wise--and the dumb are not necessarily fools, and vice versa.

Meanwhile a cut and some bruising from when I fell when I was trying to get a c

Meanwhile, a cut and some bruising from when I fell when I was trying to get a copy of the Bible from a bottom shelf and had my arm land on a basket corner on the floor (and quite a bit of healing balm, lotion, etc. later), an Anti-Semitic threat on Twitter, and an upcoming HTML/CSS test, as well as brokenheartedness over quite a few news stories and other matters--all part of this night owl's day.
Nicole Czarnecki

'Then they do...'

"Then they do..."

What breaks my heart every time: knowing that these buggers grow up so fast

What breaks my heart every time: knowing that these buggers grow up so fast

Remember That Israel Was Also Attacked On 9/11 By Anti-Semitic Anti Americans

1) At least one of the 9/11 victims was Israeli, and others (e.g., the Falkenbergs and Alan David Cohen) were Diasporan Jewish.

2) One of Israel's allies was attacked, and for that very reason—the "9/11 Commission Report" states that OBL ordered Mullah Omar and KSM, whom wanted "to attack Jews, not necessarily the United States", to attack both "Jews and Crusaders".

3) Saudi Arabia, which may have been complicit in 9/11, borders Israel.

4) Mossad and other Jews have been Anti-Semitically blamed for 9/11.

A Reminder That A Cousin's Cousin Inspired Me To Give

I normally don't do this; so, bear with me:

To all of my Facebook friends and others, I'm asking you to think about this (as a friend of mine reminded me and others) for a second:

1. Among the strongest of people are those whom are also among the most sensitive of people—or at least the ones whom are willing to admit that they are sensitive and are willing to not desensitize themselves.
2. Many who at least try to be kind are also among the ones whom are usually the first ones to be treated unkindly. The reason for that is that unkind people like to take advantage of kind people and see how strong they really are—to them, sensitivity is weakness and/or a witness against them of their own weaknesses; and sensitivity, of course, includes putting the words "I want to talk about it [whatever 'it' is]"* into action.
3. Many who at least try to bear others' burdens are trying to do what someone refused to do for them—and frankly, they're hoping that someone will finally bear their burdens in turn (or at least that God will reward them for helping others)**.

If you find this reminder worth sharing, share it. If you don't find this reminder worth sharing, then decline to share it and leave it at that. Also, feel free to take this reminder and—for a lack of better wordage—modify it to put it in your own words, give your own examples that pertain to this reminder (See the asterisks.), and ultimately have it come from your heart.

Remember, too, that we're all imperfect; and many of us at least sometimes hurt others in the ways in which we ourselves were hurt, whether we realize or don't realize that we do—and I certainly grant that many others (for example, the aforementioned unkind people) do often, or even always, deliberately hurt others

* RIP Mary Trudnak Czarnecki (Those were her words to my aunt when she finally broke down. "No, no; it's okay—I want to talk about it."

(I wish that I knew and understood that that's why I knew such a vulnerable Great-Grandma Czarnecki when she was still alive—she was trying to be strong and hold her own for at least 73 years, 16 of them in which I was alive—she married Great-Granddad when she was 20-going-on-21 years old in 1934, and she died when she was 93-going-on-94 years. I was born in 1990 when she was 76-going-on-78 years old.).

** RIP Mary DeBoy Pundt (I only heard about her and never had the chance to meet her.).

Prayer anymore: I have actually--forgive my language--pissed off and even turned

Prayer anymore: I have actually--forgive my language--pissed off and even turned off people by asking for prayer--for as many times as I have asked. That's why I often note what a bother, burden, &c. I can be when I ask for prayer--at least when I ask online.

Nobody who comes has to live in Howard County--'free and open to the public' mea

Nobody who comes has to live in Howard County--"free and open to the public" means exactly that.

'Donald Trump can't be an Anti Semite--he has a Jewish daughter!' Nu? To be hone'

"Donald Trump can't be an Anti Semite--he has a Jewish daughter!" Nu? To be honest, I'll bet that Ivanka Trump Kushner converted to Orthodox Rabbinical Judaism not just because of Jared, but also because she was attracted to Judaism in the first place--and even though I'm a Jewish Christian/Messianic Jew, I understand why she converted from Dutch Reformism--after all, being Orthodox Rabbinical Jewish and married to Jared Kushner has to be a far cry from being Dutch Reform and like and/or married to someone like Donald Trump, whom is a Pseudo-Christian womanizer, feinshmeker, gadlen, and Anti Semite.

Why I've Been Low Profile Of Late, Despite That Confronting Certain Evils Is Not Just About Me

To work up the courage to do what is right when your own loved ones arepersecuting you is tough, especially when they claim to want what is right whilethey actually would rather have safety—at least partly—in the status quo andnormalcy. Going out on a limb and literally risking your own limbs for the sakeof others becomes even tougher when your loved ones can force you to stop takingthat risk, despite that taking that risk is righteous and worth more than evenlife. Having nobody in lieu of your loved ones to support you—or to confrontyour loved ones—is all the more tough—and so is having your potential in-lieusupport system support your loved ones (even if they mean well in doing so).

That is why I have been low profile of late—and with nowhere to go if I takethe risk and am caught. I can only imagine, by the way, if the attitudes ofloved ones and positions in the cases of those such as MLK, Mark Potok, Jay Sekulow, and even Miep Gies had been like those in my case.

: I have just a few final thoughts for the night: 1) I disclose that I'm not in

: I have just a few final thoughts for the night: 1) I disclose that I'm not in the Trump camp, and I fully understand if I lose friends who are--while I'd like to just agree to disagree, I know that some'd not be satisfied with an agree-to-disagree approach. 2) NFL Commissioner Gooddell did what is right re Tom Brady. 3) The life changer is moving a little forward. 4) I will catch up later today on responding to messages, &c., should Yehovah will. 5) Watching Reilly and Camille bond has been amazing. 6) I know that (and remind me to tell how) HaRu'ach Yehovah was with me on my daily walk as He reminded me of 102-year-old Great-Grandma Czarnecki (Miryam Trudni'ak Tsharnetski bat Mikha'el Trudny'ak v'Chanah Amalyah Shlomi* Trudni'ak, z"l). Nine birthdays later and for eight years of February 12ths, she has awaited HaTechiyat HaMetim--she joined hametim hakedoshim b'Gan 'Eden on February 12, 2007. *BTW, her mother's original surname was (not "Monková", but actually) "Munková", feminine for the Czech Jewish dimunitive of "Shlomo"--"Munk[a]"--as Ancestry.com noted re "Munk[a]". Also BTW, a cousin told me that "Trudn[y]ak" came from Old Church Slavonic "trojdnik", "warrior". Whether of Yissachar ("...who understood the times..."), I don't know--though I, incidentally, do know that a Trudnyakov branch sadly was murdered in the Sho'ah in Odesa. 7) With that, laila tov/gute nacht/dobru noc.

Part Three

Meanwhile, we have our eyes on and prayers for Reilly--in fact, my eyes are on and prayers are for Reilly as I write this, and with my palms covered in anointing oil which I used to pray over Reilly and beseech Yehovah in regard to her--and pray for Reilly with me, that Yehovah would bless her and protect her and/or heal from Giardia. Yehovah willing, we'll find out if she has Giardia at her next appointment. By the way, continue to pray for Camille.

Part Two

...prayers, our and Mom's insistence on calling multiple Banfields, and my leveraging to get Camille an emergency appointment at our local Banfield worked--and I did not call to cancel when Camille seemed better. Had I called to cancel the appointment, we would have fatally mistaken Giardia for dehydration--and a just-in-case follow-up appointment affected caught-in-time, early-Stage-One Giardia to not turn into a terminal gastrointestinal infection that would've eventually taken a now-five-pound runt of her litter from us--and we loved (and love) the scrappy, belying-her-age-with-her-size, match-of-Reilly Camille too much to lose her due to any preventable occurence, such as Giardia. Also, Reilly would not be able to bear losing her closer-than-a-sister friend, whom is also Reilly's adoptive cousin and biological twice-removed cousin--since she is my sister's "dogter" and the daughter
of Apple's grandnice Tootsie...

Short Account Part One: Camille and Giardia

Needless to say, "the Giardia" is not an airport ("LaGuardia") or a pizza ("Digiorno")--as one sees per the earlier picture, the Giardia in question is one of many disease vectors. Upon diagnosis reception and research discovering, Michelle and I found out that Camille's lack of usual appetite, energy, digestive-normalcy, and comfort levels resulted from a parasite known as "Giardia". Therefore, my taking of Camille's pale-face picture, people's

A Hypocrisy Which I Don't Understand

How can certain loved ones of mine be against the decision of "Charlie Hebdo" to cease their portrayals of Muhammad, and how can they state that "Charlie Hebdo" is "caving in" to the Islamists? After all, they are attempting to ensure that I will not speak out against certain
other Anti Semites and racists.

My problem, then, is not with my loved ones' disagreement with the magazine: my problem is that they are doing to me exactly what they oppose that "Charlie Hebdo"'s editors are doing to themselves. How can they complain about, for example, the following re the Islamists when they complain about me fighting against particular groups whom support groups like "Charlie"'s enemies?

“We have drawn Muhammad to defend the principle that one can draw whatever they want. It is a bit strange though: we are expected to exercise a freedom of expression that no one dares to.”

I'm at a loss for words when they support "Je suis Charlie" at the same time that they tell me "Don't provoke crazies" and "Don't stir up the hornets' nest." While I'm not "Charlie", I'm certainly:

1. Nicole
2. Juive (i.e., Je suis Juive; or "אני יהודית.")
3. Intent on not caving in to the Anti Semites

Meanwhile, God willing, I'll (so to speak) come back up from the underground eventually.

PS: Advice for the day as I told a loved one: Do more than admitting that you n

PS: Advice for the day, as I told a loved one: Do more than admitting that you need to work yourself. Start trying to do it. Even no fruit with worthy effort is better than even good fruit with no effort--after all, Paul had to plant and Apollos had to water, whether God grew or left ungrown--and no fruit with worthy effort is certainly better than bad fruit with even good effort.

Why I've Been Unable to Blog &c.. This Week

I apologize for not blogging much this week--and even having to delete three blog entries. Because of, e.g., family tension (and, e.g., Depression flareups as a result), busyness with Reilly and Camile, and a lack of time and space, I've just been unable to write--a case of "the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak" and "what I want to do, I don't do; and what I don't want to do, I do"--I'd love to, e.g., not feel tired, depressed, held back, and demotivated to write. I want to have energy, strength, freedom (e.g., time and space), and motivation to blog daily--and do other things--like I used to do. By the way, as usual and once again, I need prayers on my behalf--sorry to be a pain and bother.

As I Wrote For An Update on IMDB, and Per the AP On Twitter

Married to 34-year-old Alexis Roderick at the age of 66 years, he will have been married for the fourth time and a father to a second child. His expectant girlfriend and he were wed by [[Andrew Cuomo at the groomal manor on Independence Day 2015 in Long Island, New York-and the intimately-sized group of loved ones at the now-newlyweds' yearly Independence Day soirée (whom included to-be-older sister Alexa Ray Joel) were unexpectedly guests at the wedding of the soirée's host and his girlfriend of six years.

Humorously enough, the groom was married on the Fourth for the fourth time in a not-initially-forthright way.

Mazel tov to Mr. and Mrs. Billy Joel, and may the fourth time be a charm (at least for the sake of the child, if nothing else).

"Hark; the Herald Angels Sing" Reclaimed From Charles Wesley

This was written for a couple of reasons:

1. The original lyrics are full of heresy and needed to be corrected. For example, Charles Wesley and the subsequent adapters of Wesley's lyrics claimed that Jesus was "heaven born" and "late in time". According to Tanakh (תנ''כח or תנ''כה for Messianics), however, Jesus was the "Only Begotten Son" and "born of a woman" whom was to be a virgin. 
2. I've been thinking about this since Christmas in December. It is now Christmastime in July.
3. Felix Mendelssohn was a Jewish believer. Ironically, he "felt unsuited to sacred music" the melody that we use today! Thus, stripping the Jewish context of "Hark! The Herald Angels Sing!" is inappropriate! 

Hark; the herald angels sing,

"Glory to the King of Kings!"

Unto us is born a Child

Unto to God, we're reconciled! 

Joyful, all ye nations rise!

Join the triumph in the skies!

With angelic hosts, proclaim:

"Christ is born in Bethlehem!"

Hark; the herald angels sing, 

"Glory to the King of Kings!"

Bless the virgin-born Prince of Peace!

Bless the Sun of Righteousness! 

Light to those in darkness He brings—

Ris'n with healing in His wings!

The King of Kings departs His throne
To live and die like His own

And to raise the sons of man
Given to Him, the I AM!

Hark; the herald angels sing, 

"Glory to the King of Kings!"

Christ by His elect adored
Christ the Everlasting Lord
As promised, behold He's here!
Unto us, our God draws near!
The Son Whom's Begotten, not made
With the wicked, He made his grave

And from the grave, He arose
And gave new life to the dry bones  

Hark; the herald angels sing, 

"Glory to the King of Kings!"

I Knew That The World Views Christianity, Especially Jewish Christianity, As Criminal

With all due respect to Gretchen Carlson​, I had to cringe at the headline when I saw it (Skimming the article made me cringe more.). If she didn't know that the world considers Christianity to be criminal, I don't know what Bible she's reading. The Bible that I've read unequivocally states that the world will hate Christians, especially Jewish Christians. e.g.:

"9 “Then they will deliver you up to tribulation and kill you, and you will be hated by all nations for My name’s sake. 10 And then many will be offended, will betray one another, and will hate one another. 11 Then many false prophets will rise up and deceive many. 12 And because lawlessness will abound, the love of many will grow cold. 13 But he who endures to the end shall be saved. 14 And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in all the world as a witness to all the nations, and then the end will come."

"16 “Behold, I send you out as sheep in the midst of wolves. Therefore be wise as serpents and harmless as doves. 17 But beware of men, for they will deliver you up to councils and scourge you in their synagogues. 18 You will be brought before governors and kings for My sake, as a testimony to them and to the Gentiles. 19 But when they deliver you up, do not worry about how or what you should speak. For it will be given to you in that hour what you should speak; 20 for it is not you who speak, but the Spirit of your Father who speaks in you."

(From Matthew 24 and 10, New King James Version​, respectively)

Now, are there exceptions among those of the world? Yes:

" I wrote to you in my epistle not to keep company with sexually immoral people. 10 Yet I certainly did not mean with the sexually immoral people of this world, or with the covetous, or extortioners, or idolaters, since then you would need to go out of the world. 11 But now I have written to you not to keep company with anyone named a brother, who is sexually immoral, or covetous, or an idolater, or a reviler, or a drunkard, or an extortioner—not even to eat with such a person."

(From 1 Corinthians 5)

Gamali'el was an exception; and despite that a myth that he became a Jewish Christian persists, he was tolerant of Jewish Christians (Sadly, the myth comes from a misinterpretation of his tolerance.):

"33 When they heard this, they were furious and plotted to kill them. 34 Then one in the council stood up, a Pharisee named Gamaliel, a teacher of the law held in respect by all the people, and commanded them to put the apostles outside for a little while. 35 And he said to them: “Men of Israel, take heed to yourselves what you intend to do regarding these men. 36 For some time ago Theudas rose up, claiming to be somebody. A number of men, about four hundred, joined him. He was slain, and all who obeyed him were scattered and came to nothing. 37 After this man, Judas of Galilee rose up in the days of the census, and drew away many people after him. He also perished, and all who obeyed him were dispersed. 38 And now I say to you, keep away from these men and let them alone; for if this plan or this work is of men, it will come to nothing; 39 but if it is of God, you cannot overthrow it—lest you even be found to fight against God.”"

(From Acts 5)

By the way, one of the blessings of finding about my Jewish heritage is that I've had my eyes open to just how much the world really does hate Christianity, and that hate stems back to when Pilate maliciously blamed the murder of Jesus on Jews—read the Jewish Virtual Library​ article on Pontius Pilate to see what Pontius Pilate's talk about Jesus being innocent really meant, and you will find that Pilate was sarcastic and Anti Semitic. What should have been obvious to me and others a long time ago, by the way, is that Pilate would not have crucified a man whom he really believed to be innocent. Besides, his reaction after "Ein lanu melekh aval Qeisar [We have no king but Caesar]" was a way of saying, "Oh, ****. I can't get them riled up enough. Besides, they're reminding me that Caesar is my boss. ****; I wanted to cause a riot and make those Jews look bad, though (****) they outsmarted me."^

Remember, too, that we did not know. We thought that Jesus fit Deuteronomy 13, and Paul told Timothy as much for his part in his first letter to him:

"And I thank Christ Jesus our Lord who has enabled me, because He counted me faithful, putting me into the ministry, 13 although I was formerly a blasphemer, a persecutor, and an insolent man; but I obtained mercy because I did it ignorantly in unbelief. 14 And the grace of our Lord was exceedingly abundant, with faith and love which are in Christ Jesus."

(From 1 Timothy 1)

My point being, Christianity has been criminal since the time that Pilate scapegoated Jews—and really, ever since Anti Semitism has existed.

^Incidentally, "murder" is a mistranslation in Acts 5:30 in the New King James Version. 

My Family History Information For Those Whom Also Have Mishpacha In Poland

There are some photos in a Word document in which I first saved this.

 Let me know if you'd like the document.

 (I should note that when I looked for information on, e.g., FamilySearch, I also kept in mind whether the people in question looked like family members. Of course, I kept locations in mind.). Some come from family members and others come from sources such as FamilySearch. 

1. Lipsk (Suwalki Gubernia; today Podlaskie). 
2. Krasnopol and surrounding towns (e.g., Krasne nad Krasnopol)
3. Suwalki
4. Augustow
5. Sejny
6. Kaletnik and surrounding towns (e.g., Bose/Bosse)
7. Boczki
8. Bialystok and surrounding towns 
9. Nowy Targ and surrounding towns (e.g., Jablonka, Kacwin)
10. Lapsze Nizne
11. Bakalarzewo and surrounding towns
12. Warszawa

Families (Some branches of whom later became Anusim during pogroms, etc.):

1. Andrulewicz (originally Andrulevic[i]us of Stakliskes. Kohanim)*
2. Danilowicz (originally "Danilovich" of Dunilavicy, Belarus. Somehow connected to the Chavusy Daniloviches.)*
3. Kruszynski/Krusinski*
4. Wierzbinski*
5. Margevich (in Lithuania in 1818 for Census), Margiewicz, Morgoviciute*
6. Trudnyak**
7. Munka/Monka**
8. Czerniecki (originially Chernetski or variants thereof)*
9. Gajdosz ^
10. Uszinsky/Ushinsky^
11. Foczko/Focko^^^

• * The paternal grandmother of my father's paternal grandfather was "Katarzyna" Danilowiczowna Czerniecka, having become an Anusit in February 1843. She was born in October 1838 to Wojciech (likely originally "Avraham") and Marianna/Maryanna (likely originally "Mariam Hanah") Kruszynska (or Krusinska) Danilowicz (She and her parents were deliberately ambiguous on her baptism and marriage records). She married "Antoni" Czerniecki (a son of "Pawel" and "Dominika" Wierzbinska Czerniecki) in Mackowa Ruda in 1860 and gave her birthdate as 1843 there, and had to swear that she did not sign a "prenuptial agreement" (viz. ketubah). Both were born in Krasne nad Krasnopol. I know of no t'vilah or t'vilah l'Anusim of "Antoni" or his parents, or "Katrarzyna"'s parents.
• *Julian Czerniecki was the paternal grandfather of my paternal grandfather. His parents had, from what I understand, become ba'alim teshuvah when they moved to Lipsk. He married Aleksandria Alicja Andrulewiczowna (b. June 26, 1882) of Bosse, whose parents were an Andrulevicus and a Morgoviciute from Stakliskes prior to the death of Shmuil Morgovich (d. April 4, 1882 of tuberculosis).
• **The Trudnyaks claim to have been originally from Kacwin. They were from Jablonka nad Nowy Targ, and there were Trudnyakovs in Odesa, Ukraine who died in the Shoah. My branch ended up as Anusim in Vel'ka Frankova, Slovakia and Budapeszt, Hungary. The paternal grandmother of my father was Mary Trudnak Czarnecki, a daughter of Mihaly "Michael Trudn[i]ak" Trudnyak (the son of Mihaly and Maria Nagyova Trudnyak. The Nagys had been Anusim of Budapeszt and Obudai.) and Anna Amalia Munkova "Anna Monka" Trudnyak (who was named after a daughter of Samuel and Rosalia Korschova Munka. The daughter had a t'vilah l'Anusit and died shortly thereafter. 
• Foczko/Focko: My branch became Anusim and left Radom, Warszawa, and Lodz for Upper Hungary (Slovakia) in the 1770s.
• Gajdosz (Hom[m]a and Gajdosz) and Uszinsky: My branches ended up in what are now Gaboltov and Secovce, Slovakia. For the Uszinskys, Anna Jas[z]ova (of Jan and Eva Polin/Palin Uszinsky) married Jan Haszlinsky (d. unknown) then Uszinsky (transliterated "Ushinsky"). Mihal "Michael Gaydos[h]" Gajdosz and Katarina "Katherine Ushinsky" Uszinskyova Gajdosz became Anusim as adults. Their son Michael was the maternal grandfather of my father, and married Marysia "Mary" Elizabeth Rusnak (the daughter of Anusim Andras "Andrew Rusnak" and Juliana Foczkova "Julia Fosko" Rusznak).

Nicole Czarnecki

The Night Owl: aka, An Explanation Of My Writing and Commentating-Analyzing Processes

I write, and I do commentary and analysis—of that fact, I've made no secret. I'm also a night owl, and my being a night owl explains—and, in turn, is explained by—my writing, commentating, and analyzing. On that point:

"I have set watchmen upon thy walls, O Jerusalem, they shall never hold their peace day nor night: 'Ye that are the LORD'S remembrancers, take ye no rest, And give Him no rest, till He establish, and till He make Jerusalem a praise in the earth.'"

And the word of the LORD came unto me, saying: 'Son of man, speak to the children of thy people, and say unto them: When I bring the sword upon a land, if the people of the land take a man from among them, and set him for their watchman; if, when he seeth the sword come upon the land, he blow the horn, and warn the people; then whosoever heareth the sound of the horn, and taketh not warning, if the sword come, and take him away, his blood shall be upon his own head; he heard the sound of the horn, and took not warning, his blood shall be upon him; whereas if he had taken warning, he would have delivered his soul. But if the watchman see the sword come, and blow not the horn, and the people be not warned, and the sword do come, and take any person from among them, he is taken away in his iniquity, but his blood will I require at the watchman's hand.
So thou, son of man, I have set thee a watchman unto the house of Israel; therefore, when thou shalt hear the word at My mouth, warn them from Me. When I say unto the wicked: O wicked man, thou shalt surely die, and thou dost not speak to warn the wicked from his way; that wicked man shall die in his iniquity, but his blood will I require at thy hand. Nevertheless, if thou warn the wicked of his way to turn from it, and he turn not from his way; he shall die in his iniquity, but thou hast delivered thy soul. 

I suppose that I'm one of those night watch(wo)men:

The burden of Dumah. One calleth unto me out of Seir: 'Watchman, what of the night? Watchman, what of the night?' The watchman said: 'The morning cometh, and also the night--if ye will inquire, inquire ye; return, come.'

Someone has to know what's going on during the night. Besides, being single and unable to get out much, I have to have some way to contribute somehow to the world and stay in the loop—if I'm not going to help make history and try to affect the world for the better, I might as well stay out of the course of history altogether.

Also, I can hopefully use my own histories—personal, familial, and other histories—to help others discover and/or understand their own histories, and thus help make history and affect the world for the better—it's a cycle in some respects, really.

 The sun also ariseth, and the sun goeth down, and hasteth to his place where he ariseth. The wind goeth toward the south, and turneth about unto the north; it turneth about continually in its circuit, and the wind returneth again to its circuits. All the rivers run into the sea, yet the sea is not full; unto the place whither the rivers go, thither they go again. All things toil to weariness; man cannot utter it, the eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear filled with hearing. 

An Ethnocidal-Religiocidal 21-Year-Old & Nine Innocents: Why?

I am trying to understand how a man who's my age could be so hard-hearted and evil. What was his motive? Infamy? "Revenge" for the racism in this country of late--how does racist violence against innocents rectify any wrongs? Evil for evil?--maybe he had a grudge and racistly scapegoated? Trying to be cool and impress his fellow ex cons? Racism and crime are never cool. Suicide by cop and murder? Why didn't he take just himself in any case? Either way, he needs the death penalty--preferably by firing squad.

My Dad's Paternal Family As a Mix of Anusim and B'nei Anusim, &c. (aka, A Summary For Those Whom Did Not Already Know)

My own family is a mix of Anusim and B'nei Anusim. Some of us are, admittedly, Jewish Christians, and we have become more sensitive to the way that we talk about our faith, etc.—at least I have, since my finding out about my heritage gave me some insight into where to draw lines, explained quite a bit of why, e.g., my family's Christmases and Easter were almost entirely secular in nature, and religious only in a going-through-the-motions way; &c.—c.q., trust me when I say that "The Night Before Christmas" was way more emphasized than the New Testament account of Jesus (if that was even talked about at all except for the going-through-the-motions wafer ceremony at dinner. As I found out later, the Catholic stuff was "tradition" and not at all out of any religious belief.).

Some of us, though, are in denial about our heritage 　. My dad, who'd even been somewhat open to (if he didn't already about our heritage) accepting (or begrudgingly admitting) our heritage (as his dad implicitly did in his final days after years of denial), eventually became hostile to the fact that he we are Jewish. He called it "Jewish crap", too 　.

As for my paternal granddad's paternal grandmother, e.g., she was furious when (as I heard and came to understand) my great-granddad married my great-grandmother, who was a very-committed Jewish Catholic and bat-Anusim. She did not believe in marriage for love, since she came from a family where shidduch was the minhag; and she was unthrilled that her son was marrying a Jesus-believing Jew. After all, she didn't become an Anusit during the pogroms, endure being cut off from her family, and have to live as an Anusit in the United States for her son to marry a, in her eyes, meshumadah.

The Jesus picture was more of Great-Grandma's idea, and the secular aspects in every holiday were way more emphasized. BTW, Dad (left) eventually became one who'd be Reform Jewish were he honest with and for himself.

As with above, the Jesus picture was more of Great-Grandma's idea; and the secular aspects in every holiday were way more emphasized. BTW, I found out later that my granddad (left) used to fall asleep in the back of the church from my aunt Mary (on my great-grandmother's lap. She was also the one who was told to choose between church and Christmas dinner during Christmas because "It's tradition" or something like that. "Tradition" was definitely the word that used, though. BTW, my aunt Mary was named for her grandmothers [the paternal one of whom was not the first daughter of her parents, I should note], not the mother of Jesus; and we have Sephardic heritage.)