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Saturday, April 22, 2017

Argument Summed Up: It Isn't About Israel vs. "Palestine"...

It's about Agudat Yisra'el vs. 'Am Yisra'el. What's already clear—and what even self haters such as Gideon Levy know—is that "Palestine", including Gaza—was long under Israeli/Iudean control before the Romans entirely took over Israel/Iudea and renamed it "Palestina".

What isn't as clear is that it's the Haredim—and the "Palestinians"—vs. 'Am Yisra'el—and the supporters of the Haredim, including Netanyahu and Likud, are obscuring the issue. The worst part is that even well-intentioned and in-denial people are playing into Haredi hands—after all, few (or at least relatively few) know (and fewer even want to know, let alone even try to research or somehow else find out) how Haredim and Netanyahu:


  1. Demonize all Arabs as Anti Semites at various levels
  2. Paint Non-Haredi Jews as self haters
  3. Believe that Zionism is treif drek—basically, secular trash ("secular" in a pejorative sense)
No wonder, then, that those whom expose (far-from-)"Chabad" Lubavitch and other (far-from-"Hasidi") Haredim are demonized as self haters whom want to destroy the Jewish people and the Jewish nation state—the Haredim want to cover their own tracks as they try to lure people in supporting the idea of a Haredi state which will be governed by whomever Mashiach is or is supposed to be in the eyes of the Haredim.

Until people understand that, the Israeli-Arab conflict will never be resolved. 

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

After the News About Chechen Persecution Camps & Sean Spicer's Comment Re the Holocaust And Assad...

YOU OWN IT IF YOU VOTED FOR TRUMP!

By the way, the "conspiracy theory" that Tr**p colluded with Putin and Assad—which Sean Spicer pretty much just confirmed with his comment re ****** and the gas chambers in the murder camps—is not a leftist one—it is a non-partisan "conspiracy theory" that Sean Spicer just proved!

Also by the way, ****** unfortunately did murder mainly his own people—and we wish that he wasn't one of ours!—one affair during a trade fair in Graz, and all of us (past, present, and future) get murderously blamed for it by a self-hating descendant of the paramours whom acts like nobody else in the world ever had or will ever again have affairs. Similarly hateful, by the way, was a certain Castilian-Aragonese king—and gentiles like Sean Spicer want to emulate self-hating Jews instead of lights unto the nations ๐Ÿ™.

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

I, Too, Suspected That Tr**p Knew...



Remember that I said that Putin was either saving face, facing his Ribbentrop-Molotov moment, or helping Trump divert?



Putin and Assad may indeed have collaborated with Tr**p (which I wondered about, although I knew some would think that I was no better than the 9/11 "truthers"). After all, Tr**p draws parallels to, besides ******, FDR as Putin does to Stalin and Assad to, perhaps, the Grand Mufti of Jerusalem at the time of the Holocaust in Germany:

  1. Neither FDR nor Stalin cared about the Jews.
  2. Stalin had his own "Final Solution", just like Haman had his gallows and Pharaoh had his plans to enslave us and commit ethnocide via Anti-Semitic androcide and Egyptocentric patrilinealist natalism. 
  3. Assad is clearly an Alawite Islamist who works with Sunni Islamists, and the Grand Mufti was a Sunni Islamist.
  4. The "S.S. St. Louis" incident happened under FDR, as happened the turning away of a rabbinic delegation in October 1943.
  5. FDR's VP-turned-POTUS, Harry "'I am Cyrus'" Truman, hired "former" Nazis to work against the Soviets (PS WADR, no, Mr. Truman; you were not Cyrus—and you were neither any type of Nebuchadnezzar nor Artaxerxes—neither Cyrus nor Artaxerxes hired Nazi equivalents whom wanted to go after us and do what they considered to be, as the slur and threat goes nowadays, "finish[ing] the job"—slurs and threats of which I have received equivalents. You were perhaps some Pseudo-Cyrus Pharaoh whose evil got used for good—you got many of us to be able to make aliyah to a refounded Israel, and your plan to hire Nazis and not really participate in the capture of justice-evading Nazis in speedy Nuremburg trials is seen only as another thwarted-by-God plan to get us all into one place and then murder us—nice, or perhaps not-so-nice, try, though.)

By the way, where was Trump offering aid to El-Sisi after the Palm Sunday bombings committed by Da'esh instead of just having "confidence that [El-Sisi] will handle [the] situation properly"?

Sunday, April 9, 2017

Since Da'esh Murdered 49 Egyptians & Wounded Others Today, What About Assad?

In other words, was Assad involved? Even though he's an Alawite, he colludes with Sunni groups such as Da'esh to commit murder. Besides, look at how close enough Syria is to Egypt if Assad wanted to get weapons there within a day:



Meanwhile, the remnant of Egypt (and Egyptian Jews) certainly did not need this during the seasons Passover and Easter, especially after the very-real pain that Egyptians were responsible for the enslavement of Jews—including ancestors of Jesus* and the ancestors of Jews (including Jewish Christians) in Egypt— in Egypt resurfaces at especially this time of year—after all, how would you like to remember that your people (and, if you're a Jew in Egypt, you are among the descendants of those) whom engaged in acts of the kind Anti Semitism that are similar to the kind of acts Da'esh, Assad, and Anti-Semitic other groups and individuals commit today?

*Notwithstanding whatever you make of him re whether he was Mashiach.


Sunday, April 2, 2017

"Accident[al]" "Kill" Lists, Etc.: The Trumpian Paradigm

Threatening to leave NATO, murder journalists and silence other journalists whom cover Russiagate, and otherwise destroy republicanism in the U.S.—as well as republicanism and democracy elsewhere—means one thing: the Trump Dictatorship has escalated its Bowling Green Massacre, as if bowling over our stomachs and making us biliously green by attempting to massacre freedom and liberty everywhere wasn't enough.

Also increasing, of course, is attempted and actual mental, emotional, and other non-physical murderousness of the cyberbullying and offline-bullying Trumpites continue to target professionals and even laypeople like me (though I'm an aspiring professional, might I add, and they're seeking to destroy me and others whom are aspiring professionals—especially if we're Jews). That murderous cyberbullying and offline bullying includes ramped-up racism, xenophobia, ableism, sexism, and Anti Semitism (a special kind of racism) and Muslimophobia (and as I've said before, notice that I didn't say "Islamophobia"—contrary to what Trumpites, including narcissistic Trump, and others say, most Muslims (at least in the Western and Westernized world) do not follow the Islam of Mohammed, an Arabian equivalent to White supremacist Trump—after all, Mohammed proselytized to especially Jews and Christians (including Jewish Christians) by sharing his faith unsolicitedly and even after other people asked him to stop sharing it with them, taxing them, or murdering them—and think about whom Trump targets and uses frequently.

The Trumpian Paradigm, then, is this (or at least this): a syncretic paradigm that borrows from the paradigms of Nazism, Sovietism, and Medinan-Meccan Islam—by the way, Mohammed had no patience with or tolerance those with whom he considered heretics and apostates, since freedom of conscience and religion were anathema to Mohammed. 

Saturday, March 25, 2017

As The Old Jewish Saying Goes, And As I've Lived Especially Of Late...

What's keeping calm when you're Jewish? What's not worrying when you're Jewish?

As for me and being a Jewish Christian, I get the whole "Do not worry", "Come to Me, you whom are weary...", "Cast your cares...", etc.. Notwithstanding that (and here goes the "Oh, you of little faith"):


  1. Having Cerebral Palsy and IBS affects worry for good reason.
  2. Having OCD/Anxiety and ADD affects worry for good reason. By the way, I'm actually not the first one to have made an observation regarding whether OCD/Anxiety is inherently Jewish, and I was joking about that more to cope with my own OCD and wondering (so much for Jewish humor, as I got a hard time for making that observation)—the schtick about (I kid you not) OCD being a "Jewish disease" (as Dr. Avigdor Bonchek phrased the schtick whether OCD is Jewish) has been around for a long time. To be fair, look at, e.g., B'midbar 7 alone—having to be perfectly scrupulous about the right number of the right offerings like that could cause anyone to worry—then look at Vaiykra 11 and B'midbar 19—I myself (assuming that I'd survived birth and even had some part in Jewish life) would be washing and extra washing all day. Then try the fences around Torah. Overtime, that has to get embedded into one's genetic code and/or brain chemistry—thus, I think, part of why God desires mercy over sacrifice and obedience over burnt offerings, as His point seemed to be that ritualism as opposed to simply living by faith (e.g., "walk[ing] humbly with your God").
  3. Getting the amount of hate that I get (as I probably will over the observation above, for example), whether rightly or wrongly, affects me to always worry for good reason—even, e.g., who's going to unfriend me on Facebook or unfollow me on Twitter, thus reflecting online how what they think of me both online and offline? After all (as Curt Schilling of all people stated), people online are who they are offline and what they would be offline "if they could get away with it" (which he stated after two of his daughter's high-school classmates used Twitter to send her rape threats.
I could give more examples, though I think that three examples suffice—especially as I brace myself and bide to see how many more instances of Example Three will happen even over the next couple of minutes, especially in regard to Example Two. 



Thursday, March 23, 2017

Re "Christian" As An Adjective

I just have a few thoughts. For example:
  1. Being a non-proselytizing Jewish Christian, I myself agree with many that many so-called "Christians" (including the notorious so-called and David Brickner-run "Jews For Jesus", whom far from actually follow the New Testament) are Christians in name only (Moshe Rosen would be ashamed. Read Stuart Dauermann's open letter to David Brickner re the Anti-Semitic "That Jew Died For You" stunt).
  2. Sadly, Webster wrote the definition for "Christian" back in the days when it was indeed assumed that only Christians can do good, notwithstanding that Tanakh says that nobody is righteous.
  3. "Christian" is used usually only in regard to self-professing Christians such as not-at-all-a-Christian D****d Tr**p.
  4. During "Roe v. Wade", Catholics and Protestants did indeed identify as Catholic Christians because of the anti-abortion tenet within Christianity.
  5. One's politics reflects one's worldview, as can be seen in the "Roe v. Wade" example alone. By the way, real (or at least strong) Christians would be both against abortion and for reforming the adoption system.
  6. Real (or at least strong) Christians condemn racism (especially Anti Semitism), sexism, xenophobia, ableism, and other bigotry, such as Muslimophobia (Islamophobia is another discussion, as Mohammed hated both Jewish Christians—and other Jews—and gentile Christians. One can hate certain ideologies, including religions, without hating their followers. By the way, most Muslims in at least the Western World are moderate, or secular).
  7. "Turning the other cheek" was actually a Samuel Jackson type of defiance. "Say 'what' again..." became "hit me again...", and "turn the other cheek" has been misinterpreted for years.

Monday, March 20, 2017

OSU's Hillel & Real LGBTQ Homophobia ("Homophobia" Being Actually Discriminating Against Someone Simply For Being LGBTQ)

Ohio State University's branch of Hillel engaged in discrimination against LGBTQ students and other LGBTQ people in Ohio. Nowhere in Tanakh (also know as "The Old Testament" or "The Hebrew Bible") does it read, "Thou shalt cut off from thyselves any woman whose heart desireth not a man, and any man whose heart desireth not a woman."

One can oppose the LGBTQ lifestyle (e.g., "Thou shalt not lie with a man as one lies with a woman...") without discriminating against LGBTQ people ("I desire mercy over sacrifice...").

Please remind OSU's branch of Hillel to love their neighbors, including LGBTQ neighbors, as themselves.

Saturday, February 18, 2017

A Jewish "Zhang" In China With MRKH? If So, Another Factor In the "Be Fruitful" Mitzvah To Examine Comes To Light

A 23-year-old woman named "Zhang", possibly "Joshua", had a corrective surgery to improve her marital and fertility prospects:

"As time went by, Zhang's parents became more and more worried that their daughter would not be able to date, marry and have children due to her condition. So the family contacted the No.1 Affiliated Hospital of the Medical School of Xi'an Jiatong University for help.
"Zhang was diagnosed with Mayer-Rokitansky-Kรผster-Hauser syndrome (MRKH), a congenital abnormality characterised by women who have no vagina, womb and cervix...
"A B-scan ultra-sonography revealed that Zhang has no vagina or uterus, but she has functioning ovaries.
"She told the doctors that she had not been able to date any men because of her condition. She also had to turn down many admirers who had asked her out."

As an bat-Anusim, I would not be surprised if she is a Kaifenger Anusit and/or bat-Anusim*. After all, the reproductive aspect of "be fruitful and multiply" is heavily emphasized in traditional Judaism (not withstanding that some did and do focus on the non-reproductive aspects)—and in her case, it may have brought up another issue in Rabbinic halacha: "May one have any corrective or curative surgery that involves grafting a non-reproductive part onto a reproductive part, or would having such be a chillul ื™ื”ื•ื” in that it would involve l'sachek ื™ื”ื•ื”?"




*By the way, you will never catching me using "Anus" or "Anusah". If you can't figure out why, you may have never faced the kind of Anti Semitism that I have.

Saturday, February 4, 2017

Somewhat Offbeat: "And Then One Fine Morning..." Either Way, "Momma" Is Torn



"Momma" is still crying and has cried regarding Reilly many a time. Even in those moments when, for example, "Momma" wonders about a helpmate for herself and a "Daddy" for Reilly, she knows that time passes more quickly every day (even when it doesn't seem like it passes) and that every day, even closer to the day if and when "Momma" does find a helpmate and Reilly's "Daddy"*, is a day closer to "Momma"'s and/or "Reilly"'s death unless God wills that they'd be raptured (and thankfully, animals do have souls).

What do other pet owners do, meanwhile, as they reconcile, deal with, or do whatever it is as they're torn or trying to balance their respective worldviews (faiths/religions/philosophies) and the hopes that their worldviews give them (e.g., Normative Judaism and Christianity; the World to Come, and the Resurrection of the Dead and Messianic redemption at hand) with the reality that the even the best-cared-for and longest-living pets may or will die someday and/or even outlive their owners before they would or will die?

That's something that's honestly kept "Momma" alive for Reilly's and her own sakes, meanwhile—what would happen to Reilly if "Momma" died and left her behind?





* "Momma" still hasn't given up on the one person whom is Reilly's possible "Daddy"—maybe the hopeless romantic in her and the upcoming Valentine's Day explain a part of it.

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

The Condemnation Of An 8-Year-Old Nora Whom Did Not Choose Her Family Or Her Family's Crimes

The amount of cruelty that is in the comments section of my share of the "Hindustan Times" article re Nora (whose last name I will not use due to its despicable connotations) is unbelievable. Why should an eight-year-old child be condemned for what her father did? Also, as I said, perhaps refugees that were informants could've prevented deaths like this. How many more innocent children will have to die, especially if no refugee who has any relevant information can come forward?

For example, another eight-year-old girl may have her life in the balance but for a refugee whom could speak up for her, such as a young Yazidi girl—whom would be currently stereotyped as a Muslim and an equivalent of "Jihadi Jane"—or a Chaldean Christian man—who might be libeled as a "Palestinian" Muslim who's doing taqiyya (the Mohammedan/"Muslim" form of deception practiced by Orthodox Mohammedans/"radical Muslims", "Islamic extremists", etc.).

Perhaps even a man among the Jadid al-Islam (Mohammedan Anusim) who could be a refugee may be an informant regarding the insidiousness of Iran, and may prevent something that Iran could be planning—for example, what if the Iranians who attacked the Saudi ship may have eight-year-old girls whom they will attempt to barter as sex slaves in order for other terrorists to keep quiet? You never know what sociopathic and narcissistic terrorists plan or could plan; and we may never know if something would (God forbid) happen unless we have refugees whom are informants, will we?

The xenophobes, Muslimophobes (notice that I didn't say "Islamophobes"), and simplistic dread mongers can keep their divisive hate and intellectual dishonesty to themselves—either that, or (while they're spreading their bigotry) they can advocate kicking out people like Mosab Yousef (the "son of Hamas") and eight-year-old girls whom have been rescued from Orthodox Mohammedan traffickers, and they can also advocate doing the un-Christian and un-American thing of punishing children for the sins of their fathers.

As for me, I won't punish the eight-year-old girls whom were born of terrorists, captured by human traffickers, and otherwise forced to live hard lives because of what their fathers did—and I'll hope that more innocent refugees (like Yazidi girls whom testify before Congress) and repentant refugees (like Mosab Yousef) come forward.

Monday, January 9, 2017

Watergate Looks Like A Koi-Garden Fence Compared To Trump

I've said this on Twitter, and I will say it again here: Watergate was not as bad as Trump is! 

At that time, we had IRS Agents to help bring him down—and my granddad was one of those three IRS Agents whom served tax papers to Nixon via his attorneys in 1973. This time, we—unless ื™ื”ื•ื” wills otherwise—won't have any IRS agents to help bring tax-fraud Trump down. 

We also—unless ื™ื”ื•ื” wills otherwise—won't have my grandfather, whom—unless ื™ื”ื•ื” wills otherwise—despite that he was a shanda for the goyim in many other ways—unless ื™ื”ื•ื” wills otherwise—was a Jew whom did not like Anti Semites. Remember that he himself an Anusi, since his parents were b'nei Anusim—and his father was a pogrom survivor, since his parents became Anusim to survive the pogroms when he was two or three years old. 

Also keep in mind that he came here in 1908 with his mother to join his father, and all of them remained Anusim for their entire lives—and that my granddad followed in his footsteps—not to mention that my granddad was the same Jack Czarnecki whom begrudgingly admitted that we're Jews after pretending that we are related to the notorious Anti Semite Stefan Czarniecki for years: "If we had any Jewish blood, I don't know about it," as he suddenly changed his years-of-denial tune in our final phone conversation.

Meanwhile, I'm not sure what he'd do now—he died in 2013—I'm guessing that he'd harden his resolve to deny that we're Jews. After all, 1936-2013—with 1973-1974 in between that 77-year timespan—is a long time to hide and deny that we're Jewish, isn't it?

Friday, November 18, 2016

I Will Not Register As A Muslim—And I Won't Pass, Either

As the old saying goes, we've "been there [and] done that"—we passed during from the later 1700s until today; some other branches of the family did the same, and (even though I'm a Jewish Christian) passing for gentile to me is as good as returning to Crypto Judaism was for my great-great-grandparents—even though God used the non ideal for the ideal, it still didn't work in the end for them. Given that their parents were Orthodox ba'alei teshuvah, they might as well have stayed Orthodox—their cycle ended up being Orthodox -> Anusim -> ba'alei teshuvah -> Anusim.

In terms of my family being known as Ethnically Jewish—whatever anyone thinks of those of us whom are Jewish Christians—it's come full circle, at least for me: especially because I'm a Christian, I'm not passing for gentile—and I defy Trump to drag me to "the ashbin of history" in the name of whatever Jesus he worships, because it's not the One whom he's never asked for forgiveness.

Wednesday, November 9, 2016

Part Of My Take On Trump's 2016 "Win"

I don't know why, e.g., Ignacy and Feliksa Andrulewicz went back to Warszawa (though they were from now-Podlaskie Province), but maybe they made a right call. Maybe they foresaw something that Aleksjondria (z AndrulewiczฯŒw) and Julian Czerniecki did not.

I say this as a Jew in dread for my life right now. Given that David Duke, e.g., is excited about Trump's victory and what many Never Trumpers have been saying will come to pass unless God delivers us, I am trying to figure out what to do.

At least:
  1. I wrote in Kasich.
  2. I was born and grew up in a country where I couldat least for a timevote for whomever I wanted to vote.
  3. I may be able to make the aliyah that Aleksjondria and Julian did not get to makeas immigrating to "Palestine" really wasn't on their minds at the time that they became Anusim to avoid being murdered in pogromsJulian's parents were Anusim whom became ba'alim teshuvim, and Aleksjondria's parents permanently settled in Bosse after tuberculosis claimed a Morgovich relative in Stakliลกkฤ—s in April 1882—two months before Aleksjondria was born—considering all that, then, they had enough of a time becoming Anusim and immigrating to Pennsylvania after their families sat shiva for them. By the way, they continued to be Anusim when they joined kerovot whom were Anusim there—perhaps maybe they did foresee someone Anti Semitic winning Pennsylvania, then, and they knew to at least some extent how American politics worked—by the way, Julian's niece Katherine Chokola (z"l) had in-law family who,m were beer brewers and politicos.
I could write more, I suppose—by the way, maybe this part of why I didn't find out that I'm Jewish until later: i.e., having my faith in Jesus established first and then finding out that I'm Jewish, I got a whole new angle on what being a bat-Anusim and Jewish Christian is like. In other words, I may have had, e.g., a different perspective on the Trump "election" had I found out that I'm Jewish at a different time and/or not had my faith established in Jesus.

Meanwhile, some in my own family disappointingly voted for Trump—I can say that at least I didn't allow history to be lost on me. 

Sunday, October 23, 2016

I Thought That "Lugenpresse!" Is German...And Is Italian-Style Anti Semitism In Tandem As Trumpism Rises?



Meanwhile, for valid reasons, one side of my Lehr family "were not allowed to speak German" during World War Two—per a cousin in Baltimore. The same went for an off-color joke that my grandmother—whom we call "Mom-Mom"—made, whether she knew or didn't know that she is Jewish—and Pop-Pop Pundt, one of Dora Lehr Pundt's grandsons, understandably chased her with a belt around the kitchen when she jokingly called Granduncle Jack (of blessed memory) "just like Hitler".

Also, incidentally, some of the DeBoys were indeed Jews—as a DeBoy cousin told me when I asked, and I'm pretty sure that Catherine Peltz DeBoy was one of them (Rosina Braun DeBoy may've been one, too, though I can't be sure.). By our time, the majority of DeBoys ended up in Germany—though we liked to pretend that it was Alsace-Lorraine (which our branch left in about 1630—perhaps we were far from thrilled that Anti Semitism was creeping into every echelon of German society, including Prussian society, at the same time that the Haskalah was occurring)—and, as my cousin explained, some DeBoys did marry Jews—and perhaps that's why Nana Pundt slapped Mom-Mom on the face during this exchange (not to mention that she was Roman Catholic at the time, though the DeBoys had actually been Lutheran for quite a while at that point—even her father's uncle for whom her father was a namesake was Lutheran. I'm not exactly sure where being Catholic reentered for the DeBoys—maybe Catherine Peltz was a Jewish Catholic.).

While I grant that I was not even born until well after this exchange, I understand that Jewish-Italian relations have often been as fraught as Irish-Italian relations. Besides, the Romans breached our walls, later tried to make Vatican Hill the New Zion, and exalted one of their bishops as basically the New Kohen HaGadol.

"If you date an Italian, I will disown you."

"What about the Pope? He's Italian."

*slap across the face* 

(By the way, she of course did not mean that she would date the Pope.)


Besides, the first good Pope in a long time—with few exceptions here and there, if any real exceptions—was John Paul II, a Matrilineal Jew with a Polish father. Also, a good Pope was actually Cardinal Ratzinger, whom is actually Jewish and whom actually resisted the Nazis. (Being a bat-Anusim, I understand the danger of identifying as Jewish once you find out and/or decide to reveal that you are Jewish. Incidentally, Marie Curie—for another example—may've been Jewish. Too bad that many Italians envied and/or otherwise hated that, and their hatred of us only led them to persecute us and deprive themselves of many of the blessings that have been brought into the world through us.).

As for when you trace back to days from the Reformation to the Renaissance, you will find that the German and other Anti Semites—including that, for a lack of more-polite terminology, piece-of-crap Pseudo Reformer known as Martin Luther—had Roman Catholicism—not Evangelical Roman Catholicism—as their worldview (not that Eastern Roman Catholicism—aka, "Byzantine Catholicism"—was better—in fact, Constantinople was in the Eastern Roman-turned-Byzantine Empire).

My point being, "Lugenpresse!" is rooted in the Ancient Anti Semitism that has its roots in German Paganism and Pseudo Christianity along with Normative—not Evangelical—Roman Catholicism. One can see, then, why Luther-inspired Nazism and Roman-inspired Anti Semitism interweave to form Trumpism.

Friday, October 14, 2016

My Favorite Version Of "Hallelujah", Though I'd Change Some Lyrics—And A Few Reasons Why I'd Change Them


  • I'd switch around "minor" and "major" and "minor fall and major lift".

  • I'd change "but" to "though" for all of the verses
  • I'd change Verse 3 to:
"Baby, I've been here before—I can't count how many times I've walked this God-damned floor—and this was all before I ever really knew ya"

  • I'd add this verse (and if anyone is guessing, you're right that this is a "**** you" to Amy Grant's and her songwriters' incorrect theology—plus, an allusion to Job):
"The LORD, Who gives and Who takes away,
"Deserves my praise; that's all that I'll say—
"And as for your 'broken melody'—well, screw ya!
"And what you've done's worse than how I said
"'If Jesus really rose from the dead,
"'There's nothing 'better than a "Hallelu YAH!"'"

  1. For me, this song doesn't have to necessarily be romantic (or at least exclusively romantic).
  2. My paternal grandfather did not like music (or at least didn't like it until. as I found out later, his final days, to the surprise of my father and my grandmother. When he preferred to watch the live version of "The Sound Of Music" over a football game while he was in the hospital, my father told my sister and me, my father was thinking "Who are you?" and wondering if someone had taken Pop-Pop over.)
  3. I think of every floor that I've walked one too many times (because of, e.g., OCD/Anxiety), and I think of everyone whom's tried to smugly (or however else) lord everything over me (whether they've been right or wrong). I have family members (including belated ones) whom insisted on wanting to think that they were right about everything, etc.
  4. Even though (or because) I'm a Christian, I really dislike (and sometimes even hate, even though I shouldn't hate) the hypocrites and the Bible flouters like the "Better Than A Hallelujah" songwriters—even, e.g., Paul praised Jesus in his weakest moments and the Song in Revelation was a praise, even in so far as the martyrs were (and are, and will be) concerned.
By the way, I probably dislike the hypocrites that much because I'm a Jewish Christian—taking away the Jewish context of the Scriptures will automatically dilute the Holiness of Yehovah in the eyes of others, and taking away (for example) that David and others always (or at least overall) ended with praising Yehovah in even the psalms that were lamentations allows for songs that "are better than a 'Hallelu Yah!'"

Sunday, June 12, 2016

Deeply-Thought-Of Considerations That I've Made In Light Of Wanting Love While Getting Older And More Vulnerable Everyday

Part of why these past couple of months have been rough for me is because I'm 26 and continuing to be in a bad position simply because of being among the many people whom have disabilities, not to mention being a person with disabilities in other minority groups—the Jewish people and the female gender, for example. Incidentally, this is why I signed up for Maplematch: I prefer to have someone whom would consider moving to Canada (from which I could perhaps make aliyah) or making aliyah with me (despite Netanyahu and Agudat Yisra'el) if Donald Trump or Hillary Clinton becomes the POTUS.

I also did and have done way more than just sign up for MapleMatch. For example:


  1. I once dabbled in online dating on, e.g., DateMySchool because I got a random invitation to that website. Needlessly to say, it didn't work out.
  2. I've even used at PlentyofFish at the recommendation of a friend whom met her own bashert on there, for example. I know what I want in and with someone, and why I want what I want. I've also made sure to warn others why they might not want me, even if they would claim otherwise—and if you're a potential prospect whom's reading this, you might be among those whom might not want me despite what you might claim. Of course, that's part of what hurts me repeatedly; though it is what it is.


That's why I'd let any prospect know—or be reminded of—and be aware of  whom he'd be getting involved if I were a prospect of his. After all:

  1. I have Cerebral Palsy—which is why I can't drive and am still looking for full-time work, for which I'm using volunteering as a stepping stone in part
  2. I have mental illnesses: OCD/Anxiety, Depression, and ADD—all of which I am getting treated with medication and counseling
  3. I want to thus spare him from having to deal with that, including having to help me with any medical and other expenses—e.g., I have an Intravenous Bacloften  Pump and, as I stated, I can't drive.
  4. I want to also spare myself from being hurt by anyone whom cannot handle that
In other words, I don't want to be any kind of liability or burden to any man, let alone be hurt in the process of being a liability or burden to any man—I'm already a liability and/or burden in non-romantic relationships as is, despite that others claim that I'm not at all a liability or burden. Thus, any prospect of mine'd need consider if he'd be able to deal with me in the long term and not just in a moment or just the short term. I also hasten to add that—besides that I can't drive—I can't swim or participate in risky activities such as rock and mountain climbing, motorcycling, messing with pyrotechnics such as fireworks, and ice skating—besides, one of my mother's second cousins died in a motorcycle accident, and I've heard and read the horror stories about amateur fireworks users losing their limbs and/or lives.

Also, I can't just snap up and out of anything, and be healed of everything with which I'm dealing—life doesn't work like "name it, claim it" faith healing—I'd've been healed by now if God willed to heal me, and He didn't will to heal me:


  1. I'm 26; I got the ITB Pump when I was 23.
  2. My mental illnesses set off in the timespan of 2001-2013, from when was 11 to 23.
Getting worse overtime's not what I call healing, let alone healing overtime. I can only, then, guess why His strength is made perfect in my weakness, as His strength was made perfect in Paul's weakness*.

Besides, I've been hurt enough in my lifetime; and I want to just find someone and/or have someone find me at this point, and I just want the one whom God wills to somehow come into my life:


  1. 26 is quite old for someone like me to have never been married, and 26 is older for people like me than it is for most, given how ableist society is.
  2. Since I've never been married and I'm still—if you know what I mean—waiting for marriage, I'm really getting old and—at least in the eyes of many, if not most, in this ableist society—losing time and viability. 
  3. I prefer to in a same-faith relationship, as interfaith dating backfired on me twice despite that each of my two exes claimed to be a Christian at a point in the beginning of the relationship.
  4. While I'm not looking for Mr. Perfect or going to turn down anyone just because of a few bad choices and/or mistakes, I also prefer to avoid being used by or dealing with any man whom lives by being a player and/or other type of backstabber, an ableist and/or other type of bigot, and/or otherwise a man of bad character—each of my two exes was enough of that.

*Incidentally, perhaps I will be healed if I am able to make aliyah—Jesus did all of His known healing in Israel, and Jewish Christians were the ones whom healed others, both Jewish and gentile, as the Gospel was spread throughout the Roman Empire. Even, for example, Ananias healed fellow Jewish man Paul.

Thursday, June 9, 2016

Re A Rough Couple Of Months (BTW, Thanks To Those Who've Borne With Me)—And I'll Hopefully Be Able To Help Anyone Whom Can Relate

"A merry heart is a good medicine; but a broken spirit drieth the bones."

Right now, I feel it—not to mention, too, while I often feel guilty about feeling my own pain and dealing with it as others are feeling and dealing with their pain. By the way—as I've mentioned—I'm a Jewish Christian, and I believe in the Parable of the Talents, etc.—and I'm baffled to realize to while some are suffering worse on the equality scare, all of us are suffering the same on the proportionality scale.

Nonetheless, I often feel guilty for feeling my—at least in comparison—1 while someone else feels his or her 2 or 5. Still, 1/1 = 2/2 = 5/5. Thus, it all comes down to a paradox: while some are going through worse than I'm enduring, I'm going through worse than others are enduring; yet, we're all enduring the same proportion of suffering.

Incidentally, I have to take issue with Amy Grant's "Better Than a Hallelujah": I find more Christian a "broken 'Hallelu Yah'" better than no "Hallelu Yah", even when I feel the way that the songwriters of "Better" do. Job knew that a broken "Hallelu Yah" was far better than anything that's apparently "better than a Hallelu Yah". Of course, one doesn't have to vocalize "Hallelu Yah" to say "Hallelu Yah". Notwithstanding, Christians have to try to say "Hallelu Yah" in all of our actions—didn't Paul remind us of that as he wrote down that we're to give thanks in all things?

Meanwhile, this is part of why many among everyone else laughs at, jeers, derides, and otherwise abhors Christians—there is a real problem when Leonard Cohen, who is not a Christian, gets part of the core of Christianity better than those whom profess to be Christians.

This also reminds me of how many other Non Christians—both Jewish and gentile—get that supposedly-Christian Donald Trump's lack of asking God for forgiveness—aka, lack of praising God for what he supposedly professes what the sacrifice of Christ means to him—shows up in his Non-Christian narcissism, greed, racism, sexism, ableism, and Anti Semitism.

On that note, I wonder how Jewish Christians such as Edith Stein (whom, out of strong conviction, became a Carmelite nun and a namesake of another Jewish Christian, St. Teresa), Eduardo Propper de Callejon, Sir Nicholas Wintour—the first having died in the Sho'ah, and the other two having risked their lives to save others from the Sho'ah—would feel about Donald Trump-supporting Jews and gentiles whom profess to have the same Messiah that they professed. Perhaps they would sum up their feelings with gentile Christian Corrie ten Boom's words: "You cannot love God without loving the Jewish people."

I, thus, have felt the weight especially as those whom also profess the Jewish Jesus of Nazareth and support Donald Trump have persecuted me—and others—for pointing out how a man who is his own idol, has an $100-Million jet and other opulence, and loves only White male gentiles cannot genuinely profess to be a Christian—that is, profess to love a self-sacrificing Jewish man whom (as I and other Christians believe) "was despised, and forsaken of men, a man of pains, and acquainted with disease," of which he healed those such a Syrophonecian-Greek girl continuously-bleeding woman whom touched one of his tzitziyot. By the way, I'm pretty sure that Donald Trump would not let in the Syrophonecian-Greek girl and her mother today, since he'd think them to be a part of Daesh instead of gentile Nasara (Note: some, as I learned while I Googled, have objected to "Nasara" because they think that they're being called "Nasara" in the sense of supporting Daesh—despite that Daesh hates "Nasara", Nazarenes, as much as Donald Trump does. Meanwhile, "Christian" was just as derogatory as "Nasrani"; so, the complainers, with all due respect, need to just embrace "Nasarani" as a way to be "Nasara" against Daesh.).

In sum, then, I've been feeling the pain with which I deal daily (e.g., CP, Depression), fallouts from more-recent pains that I've described (such as the continuing heartbreak of the ongoing baffling estrangement from a dear friend and father figure whom is also a writing mentor—not to mention the long backstory behind it), and the distress regarding the ascent of a modern-day prince of Tyre whom claims to be a Christian as he and supposedly-Christian supporters of his persecute me and others whom point out that he wouldn't let even Jesus into the U.S., let alone love the Syrophonecian-Greek mother whom came with her own "broken 'Halleu Yah'" and a chronically-bleeding and debilitated woman whom would need to come to the U.S. to get treatment if she lived today and God would choose only to show sufficient grace

Tuesday, March 22, 2016

Originally On Writerbeat: Just Like Going To a Normative Jewish Funeral And Saying, "Do You Know Yeshua?"...

Some are using the Daesh terror attack against Brussels to push their own agendas. One of the agendas is Muslimophobia*. Another is Trumpism. Still another is blaming the EU for allowing in Middle Eastern refugees—aka, victim shaming—and still another is xenophobia and racism**.

Now is the time to simply comfort, console, grieve with, and support the Belgians—just like my role at a Normative (i.e., Non-Messianic) Jewish funeral would be to comfort fellow mourners among Tzion v'Yerushalayim, not ask "Do you know Yeshua?" or "Did [the decedent] know Yeshua?" or "Since [the decedent] died without knowing Yeshua, [he or she] is not in Heaven. Would you like to know how to stay out of Hell and avoid [the decedent]'s fate?"

Those who incite Muslimophobia, use Belgium's 9/11 to promote Donald Trump, or engage in shaming the Belgians and stereotyping are no better than, e.g., Jesus For Jesus under opportunistic and Holocaust-exploiting David Brickner or people whom go onto the comments section of "Times of Israel" articles about murder victims to proselytize—whom would similar to me were I to start giving the whole "Let me tell you about Yeshua" schpiel at, e.g., an Orthodox Jewish funeral (which is akin to what has happened in "Times of Israel" comments sections, with one incident in which a friend of a decedent's family friend had to get involved and ask people to refrain from proselytizing).


*Note that I did not say "Islamophobia". I grant that moderate Muslims are really Reform/Liberal/secular Mohammedans—and Jews in Poland were called "Mosaics", similarly and by the way; so, with all due respect, get over your political correctness. By the way, you could call Daesh, Al Qadea, etc. Orthodox Mohammedans or Ultra-Orthodox Mohammedans, since Mohammed was a violent man. By alienating Reform/Liberal/Secular Mohammedans ("moderate Muslims") are you going to help fight against Orthodox Mohammedism and Ultra-Orthodox Mohammedism?

**Stereotyping all Middle Eastern refugees as Mohammedans is wrong and may even be Anti Semitic in some cases, though you can be my guest if you want to risk labeling Jadid al-Islam (Mizrahi Anusim) and other Non Mohammedans, including Egyptian Jews and gentile Coptic Christians.

Monday, March 7, 2016

On Ted Cruz's 'Reputiat[ion]' of Mike Bickle's Statements

Ted Cruz's basic non apology is pretty pathetic to me:
"'Pastor Bickle and the International House of Prayer have devoted decades to promoting prayer, and to improving the lives of those who are suffering,” the statement said. “Nevertheless, the statements from Pastor Bickle concerning Adoph [sic] Hitler are not statements with which Senator Cruz agrees.'"

A real apology (in this case, using verses from the NKJV Version*) would've been a statement like:

"The Gospel of Matthew reads that Jesus admonished the following:

"'Many will say to Me in that day, ‘Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name...?’ And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!’

"What Senator Ted Cruz has come to realize is that Mike Bickle is among 'false prophets, who come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravenous wolves.' Senator Cruz has also quoted, 'You will know them by their fruits' when he has talked about the likes of Donald Trump.

"Clearly, the self-titled 'Pastor' Mike Bickle does not even know the following from the Book of Isaiah: 'Indeed they shall surely assemble, but not because of Me. Whoever assembles against you shall fall for your sake.' Any real pastor would've known this, and self-professed 'pastors' who are 'false prophets...[and] ravenous wolves' have no knowledge of what the Scriptures mean.

"Therefore, Senator Cruz and the Cruz 2016 Presidential Campaign have taken upon themselves the disavowal of and disassociation from Mike Bickle from hereon out, and Senator Cruz will be rejecting any and all further endorsements from the circles of Mike Bickle and the International House of Prayer." * The use of "murder" in Acts 5:30 in the New King James Version is unacceptable and incorrect, by the way.