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Sunday, September 15, 2013

The Disgustingness of Legalism

I'm embarrassed that many here are forgetting Genesis 50:20, 1 Samuel 16:7, Acts 15, Romans 14, and Colossians 2:13-17, among other verses. First of all, Yeshua made a New Covenant and nailed the 613 mitzvot to the Cross (though some remain--see Acts 15, e.g.). Secondly, a holiday that Yeshua celebrated, namely Hanukkah, comes from a pagan tradition. Thirdly, your Yahushua or Yahushishi or whoever you worship in the place of Yeshua is not the Mashiach. "I marvel that you are turning away so soon from Him who called you in the grace of Christ, to a different gospel,  which is not another; but there are some who trouble you and want to pervert the gospel of Christ." (Galatians 1:6-7) Yeshua is clearly useless to you, since you pursue your own righteousness through Torah. "I do not set aside the grace of God; for if righteousness comes through the law, then Christ died in vain.”" (Galatians 2:21) Only non-believing Jews are still under the Old Covenant. "For they being ignorant of God’s righteousness, and seeking to establish their own righteousness, have not submitted to the righteousness of God.  For Christ is the end of the law for righteousness to everyone who believes."

By the way, Sha'ul once persecuted Yeshua. Think about that if and when you persecute Sha'ul and say that Sha'ul (who became Paul) was not following Yeshua. "But I make known to you, brethren, that the gospel which was preached by me is not according to man. For I neither received it from man, nor was I taught it, but it came through the revelation of Jesus Christ." (Galatians 1:11-12). You are doing to both Sha'ul and ultimately Yeshua what Sha'ul once did to Yeshua.

Object as you will, but then why does Yirimiyahu prophesy the following? "“Behold, the days are coming, says the Lord, when I will make a new covenant with the house of Israel and with the house of Judah— 32 not according to the covenant that I made with their fathers in the day that I took them by the hand to lead them out of the land of Egypt, My covenant which they broke, though I was a husband to them,[a] says the Lord. 33 But this is the covenant that I will make with the house of Israel after those days, says the Lord: I will put My law in their minds, and write it on their hearts; and I will be their God, and they shall be My people. 34 No more shall every man teach his neighbor, and every man his brother, saying, ‘Know the Lord,’ for they all shall know Me, from the least of them to the greatest of them, says the Lord. For I will forgive their iniquity, and their sin I will remember no more.”"

You've made Yeshua quite useless, then; and I don't go after the majority to do evil. Also, many didn't believe that Yeshua was and is Mashiach.

Thursday, December 22, 2011

I Will Never Talk About Chapelgate Presbyterian Church After This Again...

I have blogged all too copiously and extensively about Chapelgate. I have made my point unequivocally clear. I will never talk about Chapelgate again and do not want anyone here to talk about it unless you absolutely must-- which I assure that you probably musn't. If you'd had a bad experience with Chapelgate, however, feel free to share your experience on your own volition-- I will not pursue anyone to share anything and will also not publish anything that anyone does not want me to share.

As with Notre Dame, I once loved Chapelgate, was once a member of its community, and was very stunned to learn that it defines its own motto differently than I thought that its motto meant. Even though I now rank Notre Dame and Chapelgate as similar and a harbor a dislike for them in general, I still have to love and pray for them; and I certainly do not dislike or expect everyone there to hold themselves to account-- not everyone there has wronged me and my family, and anyone else. I can tell you that others besides me were wronged both at Notre Dame and Chapelgate, by the way; which is all I will further say besides that I draw parallels between Notre Dame and Chapelgate for good reasons.

I stand by everything which I have said about both Notre Dame and Chapelgate, even if I could've been more patient and civil in my tone. I mean only to be honest about both, especially Chapelgate at this time. An honest person is obviously about those about those who he or she loves, for good or bad. "Open rebuke is better [t]han love carefully concealed. Faithful are the wounds of a friend, [b]ut the kisses of an enemy are deceitful." (Proverbs 27:5-6) 

But as I stated, I will never talk about Chapelgate Presbyterian Church after this again. Even if I lose friends over what I have said and over not talking about Chapelgate anymore, so be that "[t]he poor man is hated even by his own neighbor, [b]ut the rich has many friends." (Proverbs 14:20).

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

I Can Only Bear So Much For So Long, And Am Extremely Patient Considering...

Isaiah 42:13-15

New King James Version (NKJV)
13 The LORD shall go forth like a mighty man;
      He shall stir up His zeal like a man of war.
      He shall cry out, yes, shout aloud;
      He shall prevail against His enemies.

Promise of the LORD’s Help
    14 “ I have held My peace a long time,
      I have been still and restrained Myself.
      Now I will cry like a woman in labor,
      I will pant and gasp at once.
       15 I will lay waste the mountains and hills,
      And dry up all their vegetation;
      I will make the rivers coastlands,
      And I will dry up the pools. 

Since the L-rd will get impatient, how much more a human? "‘The LORD is longsuffering and abundant in mercy, forgiving iniquity and transgression; but He by no means clears the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children to the third and fourth generation.’" (Numbers 14:18) Humans aren't like this, and I'm not the most-patient person in the world; and I can only take so much.

For example, at Notre Dame: I talked to Dr. Weiss, Dr. Berry, et. al. before telling Dr. Weiss "I'm tired of your Anti Semitism". I long had to hear how the Exodus was merely "an ancient peasant rebellion" according to Dr. Lyle Weiss, STD (who is no such position to be a Sacrae Theologiae doctor). I had to hear how the prophets may've been possibly inspired by the devil when a girl asked if that the prophets may have been so inspired was possible. And when my mom came in, I had her stay out of it until that awful conference with Dr. Franklin, Sister Sharon Kanis, and hoodwinking Melissa Lees (who made herself seem like she was against Drs. Weiss and Berry, and the whole RST Department, were teaching).

Also re Chapelgate: the only thing that I regret is ever apologizing to Mike Khandjian when he called the Ark of the Covenant "a holy piece of furniture" and I apologized for confronting him. Never will I apologize for confronting someone when they call what held the Ten Commandments and the Mercy Seat "a holy piece of furniture" again. And Cathy Dallwig (as far as I know) was in church that day. Where was the Caring Coordinator when Jewish members had to face an Anti-Semitic attack from the pastor? How caring is to say to Jews, in other words, "Your Ark of the Covenant was nothing more than a piece of furniture"?

And then the ride thing, of course. Imagine that I not to come to church for so long because I committed suicide or died of a disability-related accident? Can the dead reach out and ask for help? A Caring Coordinator or Director of Caring is supposed to notice when a member doesn't show up for a while, care that the member's not showing up, reach out to the member, and say, "Hey; you haven't shown up to church for a while. Is everything okay?"

I am more than patient; I just don't tolerate b***s***. 

For Any Jew, Disabled Person, and Divorcee or Child Thereof, I Do Not Recommend Chapelgate Presbyterian Church...

Being a Jewish child of divorce with Diplegic Spastia Cerebral Palsy, I actually recommend against Chapelgate Presbyterian Church. Having experienced quite the opposite of "Healing, Renewal, Peace"; I can tell you that I experienced hurt, apostasy, and chaos. I vowed not to run from Chapelgate; but as stands, I more than consider myself churchless at this point, and for good reason as many other people (including fellow Messianic Jews) do. By the way, I leave apostate Chapelgate with the following from the non-apostate New King James Version (since the NIV has been proven to be utmostly apostate):

The Lukewarm Church
14 “And to the angel of the church of the Laodiceans[f] write, 
‘These things says the Amen, the Faithful and True Witness, the Beginning of the creation of God: 15 “I know your works, that you are neither cold nor hot. I could wish you were cold or hot. 16 So then, because you are lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot,[g] I will vomit you out of My mouth. 17 Because you say, ‘I am rich, have become wealthy, and have need of nothing’—and do not know that you are wretched, miserable, poor, blind, and naked— 18 I counsel you to buy from Me gold refined in the fire, that you may be rich; and white garments, that you may be clothed, that the shame of your nakedness may not be revealed; and anoint your eyes with eye salve, that you may see. 19 As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten. Therefore be zealous and repent. 20 Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with Me. 21 To him who overcomes I will grant to sit with Me on My throne, as I also overcame and sat down with My Father on His throne. 
22 “He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches.”’”

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Why I'm Not Running From Chapelgate Presbyterian Church, Even Though...

The pastor hates me. He's a real Anti Semite and hates that I confronted him over calling the Ark of the Covenant "a holy piece of furniture" and that I once mentioned on Facebook that Togarmah (Armenia) is mentioned in Ezekiel 38. But I didn't ask ol' Mike Khandjian whether a disabled, mixed-blooded Jew is welcome to Chapelgate or not. Meanwhile, I take that apology for confronting him back. The Ark of the Covenant is no piece of furniture.

I also didn't ask the rest of the congregation whether a disabled, mixed-blooded Jew and child of divorce with an abusive and estranged dad could stay. I was already forced to run when I was in elementary school from Christ Episcopal Church in Columbia, Maryland over a whole bunch of issues that I later found out about, though I knew that the former interim pastor Peter was homosexual and actively homosexual. I'm not running from another church.

And I'm a coward for caving in to some family pressure by saying Kaddish and not talking about Dad, Pop-Pop, etc.. I'm not caving in on Chapelgate Presbyterian Church.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Don't Let Legalistic Grinches Steal Christ-Mass, Chag Mashiach

"Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free,[a] and do not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage." (Galtians 5:1, NKJV) If anyone gives you drek about Christmas (Chag Mashiach), Easter (Chag HaT'khiyah Mashiach), etc.; tell them to go do their homework and learn the actual origins, not the origins of what they were alternatives to.

Matters like this have "occurred because of false brethren secretly brought in (who came in by stealth to spy out our liberty which we have in Christ Jesus, that they might bring us into bondage), to whom we did not yield submission even for an hour, that the truth of the gospel might continue with you." (Galatians 2:4-5)

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

When Legalism Sprouts Up The Most

I notice that Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and Easter are the times when legalism sprouts up the most; all because of what each originally historically coincided with and were in fact meant to be alternatives to-- the Celtic Pagan Fall Harvest, the believed-to-be Sukkot celebration of the Puritans gone wrong and long left un-recelebrated, the Greco-Roman Winter Solstice, and the likewise Spring Solstice.

The Early Church created Christmas as 'Am Yisra'el created Hanukah, both to counter the Winter Solstice. The Early Church also created Halloween and Easter to counter the Celtic Pagan Fall Harvest and Greco-Roman Pagan Spring Solstice.

Thanksgiving is another discussion.

Don't let P'rushim and other legalists streal your freedom to observe alternative-to-paganism, Christ-centered mo'edim v'chagim.

Are Christmas and Hanukkah Pagan? The Answer Is, Based On History and Other Factors...

Christmas and Hanukkah are both not pagan, and were actually created as alternatives to (respectively) the Winter Solstice and a Greek Pagan holiday. Google "Is Hanukkah pagan?", by the way. I once did after someone asserted that it may be or is. I was shocked.

Anyway, Christmas was originally "Christ-mass" or Chag Mashiach, created as an alternative by the Early Church to the pagan Winter Solstice and coinciding pagan holidays. Similarly, Hanukkah-- thought by some to be a late celebration of Sukkot-- was created to replace the celebration of the desecration of the Temple and a dedication to a pagan god. Some Hellinized and other Jews would only go so far in terms of Hellenization and toleration thereof, and would certainly not accept the Temple being destroyed.

Therefore, we have two Winter mo'edim v'chagim which are alternatives to Greco-Roman Pagan holidays.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

How Jews Can Celebrate the Day of the Dead-- Exclusively-Shared Political Cartoon

This isn't what his grave looks like, by the way. It's just a Jewish-Hispanic representation. He was an Anusi Ashkenazi Yehudi who was born in the Diaspora in Tsuman, Ukraine (then Cuman, Wolyn, Ukraina, Rusia). His birth name is unknown, and his shem l'mikveh katoli was Antoni Jan Julianowicz Czerniecki (Czarniecki).  

Monday, October 31, 2011

If I Were Tiki Barber, I'd Go Home And Seek Forgiveness and Reconciliation...

Tiki Barber can hopefully come to his senses and realize that a for-the-time-being ex-wife and children at home is enough. Sure Traci Johnson may get hurt, but who was hurt first? A college sweetheart and pregnant wife with two other kids to raise as well. Tiki Barber can come home to Ginny Cha, beg forgiveness for his affair, beg forgiveness of Traci Johnson and wish her the best, and try to reconcile with Ginny Cha and the Cha-Barber kids.

Or maybe Ginny Cha won't take him back, figuring "He Ain't Worth Missing", but a try while there's still time is worth a try.

I'm Probably In Big Trouble For Some of My Confessions...

I know that I should be thankful for some things (After all, that was a heck of a blog prayer to write.), but now I'm probably (maybe I'm freaking out,  probably) for the worst being followed on Twitter by Geraldo Rivera's producer-- I'm probably being watched like a hawk watches a mouse or a bear watches whoever goes after its young.

This is why I surprisingly, for wanting to bring so much to light, don't confess a lot of my own thoughts, reservations, etc.-- if and when I do, I usually get shunned or in trouble for them as though I'm worse than anyone else. I admit that I'm imperfect, which is part of why I fight to have a moral compass-- having one makes easier that a brother or sister (or other fellow human being) should not be affected or effected to stumble. But I normally don't confess things lest I get shunned for them-- and I normally do.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

"I'm Gonna Smile"- And Not Because I'm Happy, But Because I Can Be Joyful

And even though there are moments where I don't feel that I forgive you and I say the opposite of it, I forgive you and I'm going to forgive you-- not because I forgive you, but because I've been forgiven. And I'm going to have moments when I say that I hate you, but I have to love you even if I intensely dislike you-- because I was loved first, and not by you. And it's like I told someone in the Casey Anthony case:

 I don't agree with Geraldo and the jury, but I agree that the hate against Geraldo is uncalled for. Not that I think that hate against anyone else-- even against Casey and Jose Baez-- is okay, but I understand people being very angry about what happened. I think that we can hate what happened without hating any of the parties involved.

Same thing with you and Great-Grandma Gaydos-- among others-- regarding Pepi, Vilmosz, and others who you have hurt and betrayed over the years (and you've ultimately hurt yourselves)-- I'm learning to forgive you all.

I'm learning to forgive and forget-- not forget as in forget to ponder in my heart, but forget as in don't begrudge even though I'll have learned from experience and still be wary, and understand and know what to do (and because G-d will help me deal with what I need to deal with, and help me deal with who I need to deal with).

Monday, July 18, 2011

Kevin Still Hates That We're Jewish-- He Thinks That I'm Advocating Apostasy; But I'm Actually, Among Other Things, Holding Great-Granduncle Carl Up As a Hero

First, the part where I supplemented my original reply:

Even more pro-FDR sources are conceding (even if between the lines) that FDR was a notorious, pro-Grand Mufti, pro-Hitler Anti Semite.

In a message... [I wrote]:

So why did Great-Grandma let the Anti Semites and Anti Missionaries scare her into enabling the murder of Vilmosz, David, Pepi, and their side of the family? Great-Granduncle Carl didn't.

In a message, [Kevin, who is being cocky and actually being rude as well as assuming in his position that the letters couldn't have been translated or that I could read at least the dates in Slovakian and/or maybe even Yidish] writes:
No mistake was uncovered. You wouldn't be able to read the letters anyway because they are written in Slovak. I don't appreciate your rudeness after the help I gave you in your genealogical quest...

My original reply:

I'm not trying to be rude, but I'm being blunt. Besides, as I said, " if the letters weren't so bad, why did Grandaunt Mary Ann not give the dates or specific contents of the letters?" Both of us have seen that this is a clear pattern in certainly the Fosko Family (I never heard that your great-granddad was sent away, let alone that you existed, for example!).

These cover ups (so many of them) have divided our family on our common and all sides right here in America; and some of us aren't even talking to each other because of the "Who's not telling what?" and "Who's hiding what?" games? Besides, how can we forgive and bring redemption into and out of family situations which we don't even know-- or talk-- about?

Whenever I heard Andrew and Julia Fosko Rusnak spoken of-- they were immigrants from Slovakia or Czechoslovakia who married in 1905, had kids, etc.. Never did I know that our family (even if I disagreed with some of the intent of their decisions)-- for example-- came over here to escape persecution after we couldn't assimilate in Slovakia; and many of us weren't just Crypto Jews (although some were, which is where I disagree with the intent: regardless of the meshuga AntiSemitism in the Church, we should've given Jesus a chance in our lives; and if and when our relatives thought that we were joining the traitors, so what?! And many of us were Jews who believed in Jesus; we were just too damned afraid and too damned quiet to emphasize that part) .

Truth is a lot better (even if stranger and more disquieting) than fiction. By the way, I look at Great-Granduncles Andy, Carl, and Joe all the more as heroes for their going over there (Well, Great-Granduncles Carl and Joe were able to; but on the homefront, there was still Anti Semitism and also that "You can't be a Jew for Jesus!" attitude that Great-Granduncle Andy had to deal with every day!).

And for example, with Great-Granduncle Carl; how would you have liked to ever have the possibility that you may have to step into especially Czechoslovakia and Hungary if the war took you there, particularly when the Germans were looking for Jewish (even Messianic (Christian) Jewish) military personnel and civilians to kidnap and ship off to murder and POW-murder camps? And given that the Rusnaks were a prominent family in Kosice, (Czecho)Slovakia (Kassa, Hungary); the Germans and other Anti Semites would be on the lookout for Rusnaks trying to come in and help Vilmosz et. al.-- and other Jewish people trying to help others.

(By the way, I'm not saying that, that excuses Great-Grandma's stopping to write either: letters seemed bad enough to smuggle; but Great-Granduncle Carl put himself there for his country and fellow Jews in and who were certainly at risk because the Holocaust-- even if you were in a Jew in the Allied Countries, you were at risk; and actually, that's part of why Great-Grandma should've helped instead of hurt Vilmosz et. al. all the more: so to speak and pardon my language, screw FDR and his isolationist, pro-UN and pro-Grand Mufti, Anti-Jewish and Anti-Israel policies!

(FDR was a known Anti Semite who wanted to not just stay out of ending the Holocaust and out of World War, but also to hurt the Jews and-- for a lack of a better term and if you will, since this how Anti Semites like FDR would've thought-- "let Europe take care of the Jews". FDR actually even wrote a letter saying that he did not support the founding of a Jewish state in the Middle East, and he appointed Bernard Baruch as his scapegoat to take blame for what was often called "The Jew Deal".)

Given, then, the example of the recollection of FDRs and other Anti-Semitic WASPs-- and Anti-Semitic Europe-- on one hand, and the Antimissionary (Anti-Messianic-Jewish) crowd on the other; Great-Granduncles Carl, Joseph, and Andy, and others who have a place of honor within the family history and within history; shouldn't we at least tell what really happened to honor those who did the right thing and brought redemption into and out of our family, instead of covering even the good up with the bad?

As I said, for instance, Great-Granduncle Carl did put himself over there knowing that the European Theater could take him in the footsteps of his parents and right into the hands of Germans who were looking for more Jewish Rusnaks and other Jews to kidnap and imprison in murder camps-- and what Mary Rusnak Gaydos did makes her brother Carl all the braver and more righteous: Sgt. Carl Rusnak basically stood up and said by standing up, "I'm going to go over there and help our family, help our fellow Jews, and help my native country-- even if many of them don't like Jews! I'm not going to let the Anti Semites and Antimissionaries scare me out of doing the right thing."


Saturday, July 16, 2011

Part of This E-Mail Had To Do With Certain Relatives, But There Was A Bigger Picture

Besides Chron's and OCD, there's much worse plaguing the Fosko-Rusnak Family: it's a spiritual sickness-- and one that might justly cost us any chance to make aliyah.

By the way, this e-mail correspondence is chronicled in recency order; because I frankly didn't feel like copying and pasting, and putting things in standard chronological order-- and besides; family history is often discovered via recency (instead of standard) chronology, and keeping the e-mail correspondence in backward order may provide comic relief for the fact that you have to read it in a down-to-up-- not up-to-down- order (Then again, the suggestion of any comic relief probably is a little sick.).

Neither did the prosecution in Casey Anthony's case, right? Unlike you and the rest of the family (or at least certain people in the family), I know that common sense allows for circumstantial evidence. By the way, if the letters weren't so bad, why did Grandaunt Mary Ann not give the dates or specific contents of the letters?

I am ashamed that some in the family are so corrupt as to hide what is a forgivable mistake that-- as forgivable as it is-- still needs to be dealt with. I am further ashamed that said forgivable mistake is being made to be unforgivable by being hidden and then, once uncovered, excused and/or justified.

I understand that US foreign policy at the time was isolationist, times were bad especially for Crypto and Messianic Jews in America (where being Jewish and a Christian was apparently supposed to be okay; but the "G-d forbid if you even act like a Jew for Jesus, let alone are a Jew for Jesus" and "the Jews are Christ killers" attitudes still applied), etc.

Nonetheless, Great-Grandma was reached out to by relatives who had that very "G-d forbid if you even act like a Jew for Jesus" attitude, because they trusted that even who they considered a meshumadah and koferah would do the Christian thing that she claimed to live by and follow the higher good. And Great-Grandma (so to speak) dropped the ball and cost lives by her actions.

By the way, there are those who would get word of what Great-Grandma did and snicker, "Oh; not only are Jews the Christ killers, now they even betray their own-- as if they didn't betray one of their own before!" Are you honestly okay with that, and all because we justify a significant reason why many of our relatives continue to hate the very name of Jesus (or at least our use of it), and why many gentiles continually blaspheme G-d and attack the Jewish people?

PS If you ever try to make aliyah, I won't blame the Israeli government if they won't welcome you-- they would have every reason to use that you justified a traitor to relatives who were trying to make aliyah!

In a message dated 7/16/2011 5:56:29 P.M. Eastern Daylight Time, [Kev] writes:


There is no evidence of any kind of coverup or wrong-doing. The letters I am aware of were written in the late 1940's, after WWII ended and after Julia had died. Mary Ann's mother reached out in a good-will effort to see how people were back home, and probably to also let them know Julia had died. Mary had five children to feed and times were tough here after the War too. How could she be expected to send money overseas?

Andrew Rusnak's parents were married in the same Greek Byzantine Catholic church on Nov 5, 1876 that Andrew and Julia were baptized at. Andrew's naturalization papers state he was born in Aryanidka.

Enough is enough, Nikki, your anger and rhetoric is missplaced. You have a right to your opinion, but you have no facts to back up your accusations.


[Misplaced.... We'll see what happens when we can't make aliyah because of him; then he can talk about "misplaced". Besides, as I mentioned in the video to which this blog entry is a description, the anger is certainly not misplaced.]


From: [Me. By the way, I don't see why they want to think that G-d is kidding about sin visiting the third and fourth generations-- and giving Non-Messianic Jews, or at least those who aren't Crypto and Non-Messianic Jews, and gentiles to blaspheme Yeshua.]

Subject: Re: By the Way....


What I disparage more than anything is the image that we have created of Great-Grandma as such: admirable. I also disparage the same with our family: how can we be admirable in covering up and/or justifying such actions as Great-Grandma did, and ones that were done to and within our own family? With a family-- especially where the Gospel is concerned-- a family must be looked at in how they preached and lived the Gospel within and outside of the family-- and that means admitting, repenting for, and looking for redemption in instead of covering up and justifying inexcusable mistakes.

What admiration is there in stopping correspondence with Vilmosz Rusnak and his brother-in-law (the husband of Pepi Rusnakova Grinfeldova) Zoltan Grinfeld (both of whom had children-- Fredi, hardly a year old; Sandor and Miklos, one of whom was 10 and the other 12) when they trusted even the oldest daughter of who they consider a kofer, a meshud; and she betrayed them and, to make it worse, hid what she did that caused them to both:

1) die in the Holocaust (all of the Rusnaks for whom help was asked died at Auschwitz and other murder camps; except for Tibor Rusnak, who understandably went to Ohio after surviving the Holocaust and did not talk to our side of the family in Pennsylvania)


2) Think all the less of Jesus because of our actions. Their (that is, Vilmosz's) dad Yehoshua Samuel considered Jakub and Maria Novakova Rusnak, the parents of Great-Great-Granddad Rusnak, as good as met (dead) and to sit shiva for over their supposed (Crypto) conversion to Slovakian Byzantine Catholicism. When Great-Grandma did what she did, she left the perception for Vilmosz et. al. that Jesus really did hate Jews and would even have his Jewish followers deliver Jews into the hands of the Pogroms, Crusaders, and now the Nazis.

I don't disparage mistakes as much as I do the unrepentant attitude toward them and the justification toward them. And how are we as Jews, as Rusnaks, as Christians going to be believed that one can be as Jewish as the Kosice and Zlata Idka Rusnaks were and believe in Jesus? That's a question that we as Jews and as a family have to look at-- we can't be preaching the Gospel while being remiss about a most UnJewish and UnChristian thing that was done within and to our family.

Besides, we don't know if Great-Grandma's uncle Stephen really was still alive in 1947 as Great-Great-Granddad's obit claims. He may have died in the Holocaust, too; and then how can we blame when fellow Jews scoff and won't believe the Gospel because of Jews like Great-Grandma, who betrayed her own to the Nazis' will?

In a message dated 7/15/2011 9:58:05 P.M. Eastern Daylight Time, [a cousin] writes:

Hi Nicole,

I do admire your desire to research the family history. That is terrific. And I believe that each person deserves his or her own opinion.

That being said, I have 2 thoughts to share with you:

1. We did not live in such times and I feel strongly that if you have not walked a mile in someone's shoes, then you should not judge that person. Actually, that is my golden role; I am not perfect so I do not feel I have the right to judge anyone. Please give this careful thought.

2. I adore Grandma, her legacy and the family - and I politely request that you do not send me any further correspondence that speaks disparagingly of them.

Thank you,

[A cousin to whom I had to explain that I owe no apology to Great Grandma for standing up for at least the memories of Vilmosz, Dudus, Pepi, et. al.]

On Fri, Jul 15, 2011 at 7:00 PM, [I]wrote:

Remember that it was the Foskos and Hanzoks who go back to Diosgyor? Also, parish records do follow; and especially in those times for such a significant move, they or copies of them would have. Remember as I said, the parish records would've proved that we weren't Jews if they went with us from Diosgyor. There were no records until 1776, in more-Philosemitic Zlata Idka.

PS Andrew Rusnak claimed that he was born in Zlata. You found the connection to Kosice with Jakub and Maria (around or after the Yad Vashem records for Vilmosz et. al. were discovered by me. I still say that Great-Grandma Gaydos acted traitorous. Given that they viewed her and her dad and siblings as meshudim and sat shiva for him and his parents, no way did they have to ask her for help-- and she only served to turn them further away from considering Jesus as Messiah.

(Meanwhile, "money" en meir tuchus- I wish that Grandaunt Mary Ann, Grandma, et. al. would admit what Great-Grandma really stopped writing for. She and Grandma were 12 and 7 at the time-- about May 17, 1944 when the Rusnaks and Szymon Nowak (Shimon Novak) were murdered; and 10 and 5 or 6 when Iwan Rusnak was murdered. As for the others, we were much younger or not even born yet-- we couldn't have done bupkis. Yet to excuse Great-Grandma's behavior-- or at least hide it-- is entirely wrong, especially when other Jews have married into the family-- the Feldmans and Lavins, for example (and "Lavin" is a form of "Levy" or "Levi"-- "Levite")).

[PS Ally Shumack seems to hate that fact. But I don't mind that Fred McMahon's wife is a Levite. In fact, I kind of envy that-- as far as I know-- I'm a plain old Yehudi'ah-- not a Levi'ah or a koheinah.]

In a message... [Kevin] writes

Parish records don't follow one from place to place. Parish records eventually become genealogical dead-ends because these records don't list the town and place of worship for a child's parents. My baptismal record does not show where my mom and dad were born. But my birth certificate does.

Was Andrew Rusnak born in Zlata or in Diosgyor?

I'm on vacation now but will be happy to look more into this when I get home. Can you send me a copy of Andrew's nat papers and death cert? I don't have them.

Kevin ...
[Weirdly enough, Kevin gave me copies of quite a few of the documents that he was able to get copies of himself. And he brought up the 1776 date. Besides, a Hebrew woman with children-- who did ask Julia Fosko to pair up with her as a traveling partner on the Fredrich der Grosse(?)-- would not have asked Julia to do that were she a gentile girl. Jews and gentiles, especially Jewish women with children and single gentiles who were indeed at risk for being victims of unscrupulous men, did not trust each other back then. No sane Hebrew would've trusted that any unscrupulous man would not use any gentile to get to her and her children.]


From: [Me. By the way, I told that I'm not a complete dummy. I've done my research.]

Subject: Re: By the Way....

As far back as 1776, around the 1787 Hungarian deadline for Jews to take surnames. Also, read again-- "if we were Catholic in Diosgyor, that would've followed us to Zlata Idka. It didn't. You even said that no parish records exist until Zlata Idka, and parish records surely would've followed us because- were we gentile- surely we and/or Diosgyor would've wanted the parish records to follow us to distinguish us from Jews."

We are Jews; those Rusnaks were relatives; and we don't need to convert back to Non-Messianic Judaism-- I by no means indicate falling away or reversion, lest we do exactly what Hebrews 6:4-6 warns against.

[I told you that I don't advocate apostasy. Besides, as someone on the Jews for Jesus forums noted, Talmud Bavli is a "wicked book".]

In a message..[Kevin] writes:

The Zlata Idka parish records show Catholic Rusnaks, Foskos and Hanzoks as far back as 1776. The Rusnaks who died in the Holocaust could have been relatives, but we don't know. Your mom has a Shaw in her line, but separated by probably 10 generations from Jen.

[Appealing to Mom's and Jen's possible connection doesn't help any. Besides, Dad and Vilmosz, and my cousin Greg and Vilmosz's brother David "Dudus" clearly look like cousins.]


From: "Nicole C." [And if you keep reading, you'll see that I know and have learned history quite well, even if I'm not the brightest bulb in the bunch-- and I have to find some Yidish or Hebrew expression to use in place of the "brightest bulb" one. By the way, "Yidish" is an acceptable variation of "Yiddish".]

Subject: Re: By the Way....

As I said, look up Yad Vashem. I can give you various names (and you've seen them for the Rusnaks!). Besides, if we were Catholic in Diosgyor, that would've followed us to Zlata Idka. It didn't. You even said that no parish records exist until Zlata Idka, and parish records surely would've followed us because- were we gentile- surely we and/or Diosgyor would've wanted the parish records to follow us to distinguish us from Jews.

Besides, Foskos and Hanzoks- and Hanzoks and Foskos- have married each other for generations! Have you seen Numbers 36? Besides, no gentile Fosko would've married a Jewish Rusnak!

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From: [Kevin, that cousin about whom I was talking]

Subject: Re: By the Way....

So where are your sources and evidence? Your great-grandma kept correspondence with them until after WWII. Since I don't have, and haven't found any evidence to support your Jewish theory, leave me out of this.


[I honestly do think that Kevin is afraid of being a Jew, and thinks that-- no matter how often I've explained that I'm not advocating apostasy (a return to Non-Messianic Judaism)-- I'm advocating apostasy.]

From: "Nicole C."

Also, not that you might care (I'm not being offensive; just blunt); but we need to get rid of the non-kosher stuff, since (by eating non-kosher, or treif, stuff), we (even inadvertently) dishonor the memory of our relatives lost in the Holocaust (Ask Grandaunt Mary Ann and Kevin Fosko. If you still don't believe me, look up "Rusnak" and "Rusznak" in Kosice and Aranyidka (Zlata Idka) on Yad Vashem's website. This will also explain the business about the relatives writing to Mary Gaydos Rusnak for money- not so much money as help to make aliyah so as to not perish! How Great-Grandma wronged them!).
[I'm actually adding and censoring things in a down-and-up order myself. And besides Great-Granduncle Andy's and Great-Grandaunt Aggie (zichronah l'brakha)'s Alzheimers-- among other health problems that eating treif has caused and/or aggravated in the Rusnak Family--, bringing dishonor upon the memory of Vilmosz Rusnak and his side of the family-- upon bringing further dishonor upon ourselves-- has been an effect of our eating treif.]

-----Original Message-----

From: Nicole C. [Censored. If you think that I've been a total jerk; the fact that I'm censoring plenty of stuff that I might otherwise not should prove that I have some moral, legal, and other conscience.].

Subject: Re: Rusnak Family Medical History


If this helps any, OCD/Anxiety comes from the Foskos (I found this out upon my own diagnosis and finding out that a certain Fosko has Anxiety at least.). Also, my dad and granddad have Chron's; we all know that my granddad had Colon Cancer as well, and I have IBS.

Nicole Czarnecki

-----Original Message-----


Subject: Rusnak Family Medical History [Which Includes the Fosko-Rusnak OCD. Keep Reading]

Hello Rusnak Family,

I know there has been interest in the past few years to gather some family info on health history and have it available for everyone. Being blessed with so many medical professionals in the family, we are armed the right folks to lead us in this task. for thought for next year (we'll want to talk about how we can best go about it this year)...I can create a tab and sheet in the directory for family medical history, so no one has the daunting task of researching family history while overwhelmed with a medical issue. I would love ideas and feedback on how we can best approach this objective.

In the meantime, please see [Censored]'s note below....thank you!


[Censored. PS At least for me, I call bull---- on the hugs, as I think that the certain relative whose name I censored would like to kill me.]

[Censored for privacy reasons. I'd also prefer to keep out of legal trouble.]

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Kvetching About the Casey Anthony Verdict and Other Subjects

  1. Look at unemployment numbers and other things. When the jury decided to go after the majority in and of the world to do evil (cf. Ex 23:2) and disregard tzedek (cf. Micah 6:8), the United States felt the crunch.
  2. Bernie Goldberg pointed out that Geraldo Rivera would feel differently if a border agent murdered a Mexican immigrant. In a reverse and real-life case, a Mexican immigrant murdered a 15-year-old girl as opposed to a border agent, but I wonder how Geraldo feels about that as well (and I hope that this explains the parallel which I was trying to draw).
  3.  Southern Sudan and the Supreme Court pointlessly stood up to a part of the inevitable one-world government (cf. Daniel 7:23-28), but at least the Supreme Court stood up to an organization which the US could disband if Dani'el's prophecy weren't going to be fulfilled anyway (As for Sudan, that's another discussion.).