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Showing posts with label great_grandparents. Show all posts
Showing posts with label great_grandparents. Show all posts

Monday, April 17, 2017

An Example Of A Hurt That Only Truth Can Heal (To At Least Some Extent)

"Notwithstanding the opportunity to reach for a better outcome, there was no need for Jonathan, or for us, his parents, to live in shame, and certainly no benefit in living with the weight of such a lie."

This is the exact opposite of how my father feels; and this is notwithstanding that I inherited his OCD/Anxiety, Depression, and ADD. I found out from one of his maternal cousins that his paternal grandfather committed suicide, not died of Black Lung. When I confronted Dad, he gave the excuse that I was too young to know the truth about Great-Granddad's death; and this is despite that the sons of my Granduncle Tony (z"l) was honest with his own children upfront about how their grandfather died, meaning that Dad could've been as honest with me as Granduncle Tony was with his children.

Too often, people who have other things that they want to hide, hide whatever they can with bubbe meises instead of telling the stranger-than-fiction truth; and it has only "certainly no benefit in living with the weight of such a lie." In fact, the bubbe meises make it worse, especially when the truth hits—and when you, for example, ended up in Sheppard Pratt for threatening suicide before you knew what partially explained it: i.e., that your father's paternal grandfather actually committed suicide and passed on his Depression to your grandfather (and you've figured out that your late grandfather had Depression, and that he passed it on to his oldest child), your father, and you.

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Why I Disagree With The Following Proverb

"The kind of ancestors you have is not as important as the ones your children have." Amish Proverb, as seen on Twitter.

My take: the kind of ancestors whom you have is as important as the ones that your descendants have; because if you don't understand your ancestors to some extent, you're not going to learn from and be better than them--after all, "You're only as good as your parents" (as my friend Jim states) and "Those who do not learn from history are destined to repeat it."

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Someone Searched That Cruz Rivera Is "Illegitimate"...

That Cruz Rivera is "illegitimate" is bullshit. As Michael Reagan (himself an "illegitimate" child and one who was adopted) once reiterated, the parents-- not the children-- are the illegitimate ones. In fact, if children were illegitimate, my cousin Kevin would be an illegitimate great grandchild-- after all, his great-granddad George cheated with Kevin's great-grandmom. But as is, Great-Great-Granduncle George was the illegitimate great-granddad.


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Tuesday, February 7, 2012

If Anyone Knows Anything About These Family Members Buried At New Cathedral Cemetery...

Please let me know. Thanks.

I'm Basically Getting "Peh"ed and "Meh"ed With This Discouragment In Family Research....

I mean, nothing-- nothing-- on direct relatives and other relatives who I'm specifically looking for information on... and I have hints on other relatives and relatives of relatives (and relatives of relatives of relatives...) who I'll worry about later. I couldn't even get DNA tests-- and they were going to be gifts for the benefit of the whole family.
I'm not trying to get caught up in genealogy; I just want to establish what I can: e.g., find out if I'm a kohenet or Levit (and Kevin luckily didn't need DNA to find out that he's a Levi, by the way; but what we don't know if he's also a Levi on the Fosko and Hanzok sides-- meaning guess who also would be m'bnei Levi)? Also, who is the real "John McCoy" (the Spaniard that he was, not the Irishized "McCoy" that he became when he fled Spain and married MaryAnn Elizabeth McCoy); and was he a Sephardic Jew?

(Hey; none of his daughters were named "Mary" or "Maria"-- they were Rosalita "Rose" or "Rosa", Lavinia Teresa(?), Lucy, and Jane--, and his granddaughters were Anne, Alice Marie (Notice that Grandma was MaryAnn.), Loretta Rose, Sara Catherine, Helen Lavinia, and Agnes Genevieve "Sister Mary Rosalita" (which she took upon herself).).

Does any family member want to step forward, do the right thing, and help me figure out some of the (so to speak) roadblocks? 

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Why I've Suffered So Much: At Least Partly Because of That Kapo Mary Rusnak Gaydos

I don't exactly remember who Jack Feldman is descended from, by the way; but I begin to suspect more and more that his Chron's-- besides his trief eating-- comes from his Fosko-Rusnak matriarch being a kapo as well. My side (the Fosko-Rusnak-Gaydos side) has been visited for certain:

Numbers 14:18
‘The LORD is longsuffering and abundant in mercy, forgiving iniquity and transgression; but He by no means clears the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children to the third and fourth generation.’



I mean, I don't think that we can any more into entering the abyss zone than having four of the five Rusnak-Gaydos children (Grandaunt Mary Ann and Grandma included) being absolutely wicked (The only one who would not be wicked by doing or enabling any wickedness was Grandaunt Helen, who I didn't know was habat tzedekah until after she was gone.), having even some of habnei v'banot shel habat tzedekah take after the bnei-v'banot ra'im (Ashley and Matt, I'll name you as two of them. Shame on you for not acknowledging our Yiddishkeit and Eloheinu v'Elohim Avinu.), and having some of us bnei v'banot suffer abuse which we have not (or at least tried not to have) perpetuated the cycle of.


While I'm on the subject of Matt, by the way, why does he have Spina Bifida? And why do I have Cerebral Palsy? And why does Jack have Chron's (if his Fosko-Rusnak matriarch was indeed also a wicked kapo)?


Deuteronomy 7:13
And He will love you and bless you and multiply you; He will also bless the fruit of your womb and the fruit of your land, your grain and your new wine and your oil, the increase of yourcattle and the offspring of your flock, in the land of which He swore to your fathers to give you.



Let me give you a hint: Great-Grandma Gaydos and her zerim sure haven't been blessed:



Leviticus 21:17-24

New King James Version (NKJV)
17 “Speak to Aaron, saying: ‘No man of your descendants in succeeding generations, who has anydefect, may approach to offer the bread of his God. 18 For any man who has a defect shall not approach: a man blind or lame, who has a marred face or any limb too long, 19 a man who has a broken foot or broken hand, 20 or is a hunchback or a dwarf, or a man who has a defect in his eye, or eczema or scab, or is a eunuch. 21 No man of the descendants of Aaron the priest, who has a defect, shall come near to offer the offerings made by fire to the LORD. He has a defect; he shall not come near to offer the bread of his God. 22 He may eat the bread of his God, both the most holy and the holy; 23 only he shall not go near the veil or approach the altar, because he has a defect, lest he profane My sanctuaries; for I the LORD sanctify them.’”
24 And Moses told it to Aaron and his sons, and to all the children of Israel.



Hint two: 


While we may not be koheinim, let me ask you this: if being one "who has a defect" (including one that results in the said one being "blind or lame, who has a marred face or any limb too long, a man who has a broken foot or broken hand, or is a hunchback or a dwarf") is even a (for a lack of a better term) just-because curse to zerim shel Aharon; how likely would you think that any one of those defects could be inflicted even on non koheinim who are or whose predecessors were kapos?


Numbers 14:18
‘The LORD is longsuffering and abundant in mercy, forgiving iniquity and transgression; but He by no means clears the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children to the third and fourth generation.’


As I said, by the way, being crippled and being sickened (with me, Matt, and Jack-- if his Fosko-Rusnak matriarch was indeed also a wicked kapo-- included) aren't the only curses which the zerim of the kapo Fosko Rusnaks-- especially those of Mary Rusnak Gaydos-- have had to endure.



Monday, December 26, 2011

Corrections... Well, Not Corrections; Just More That I Found Out....

I said yesterday, "Great-Granddad Gaydos was proud of our Ashkenazic Jewishness, which got him into

trouble during the
 Cold War. One day, he bragged, "We're Russian." Dad retorted, "The only reason that you

say that is  
because you work in the Russian Church" (or something like that). Michael Gajdos, Jr. was a son of 

Michael (né Mihal Gajdosz) Gajdos and Katherine (née Katarina Uszinskyová) Ushinsky Gajdos, son of Jan

and
 Maria Hamaová Gajdos and daughter of Jan and Hannah Hulinskyová Uszinsky. They were born in 


Slovakia and Hungary as ethnic Jews."


"Hulinsky" was actually "Hazlinsky", and Hannah ("Anna") was married once before-- how do you like that?

You'll see the rest of what I found out on the tree-- and to be fair, I was extremely close with "Uszinsky", which

is a form of "Ushinsky", and Great-Great-Grandma Gajdos used "Uscianski" and similar forms to "Ushinsky".

And "sz" and "sc" both become "sh" in certain cases, and "c" can also be "ts". So, Great-Granddad Gaydos

was still an Anusi.

Remembering My Jewishness On Christmas: For Example...


Great-Granddad Gaydos was proud of our Ashkenazic Jewishness, which got him into trouble during the

Cold War. One day, he bragged, "We're Russian."
Dad retorted, "The only reason that you say that is

because you work in the Russian Church" (or something like that). Michael Gajdos, Jr. was a son of Michael

(né Mihal Gajdosz) Gajdos
and Katherine (née Katarina Uszinskyová) Ushinsky Gajdos, son of Jan and

Maria Hama
ová Gajdos and daughter of Jan and Hannah Hulinskyová Uszinsky. They were born in 
Slovakia 
and Hungary as ethnic Jews.

So, in memory of my proud-to-be-Jewish, obviously-in-support-of-Russian-Jewry great-granddad, my

Facebook status read:


‎, in the words of Great-Grandpa Gaydos (Michael Gajdos, z'l): Okay; I'm ready to go now (I'm going to a

family gathering today.).
 ·  ·  · 9 hours ago

Those were words that Great-Granddad Gaydos spoke at his daughter Joan's house during a visit (as Aunt

Mary recalled), and the only words that he spoke at that visit-- right after dinner!

HaMelekh-HaMet used a heart attack to take Great-Granddad Gaydos to Gan 'Eden.

I told you that he was an Anusi.