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Showing posts with label illness. Show all posts
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Wednesday, April 5, 2017

There's Really No Kind Of Brain Tumor—Or, As My Family Should Know, Any Other Brain Or Cranium Damage—That Is Benign

Ask "Eli", for example:

"The father said he son has undergone three surgeries to remove tumors after being exposed to harmful chemicals at his job, and that his son also has a benign tumor in his head. At a court hearing last week, the teen’s attorney presented photographs and medical imaging of a non-malignant brain tumor that the defense says affects his behavior."
Besides, any kind of brain and cranial damage can mess one up. As I've said, I thought that the autism excuse was a poor one until I remembered my great-granduncle Bernie. Remember that Great-Granduncle Bernie had a botched surgery to remove shrapnel from his head and also had the Schizophrenia that would eventually kill him during a Schizophrenia flareup that effected a coronary occlusion. Being childlike and very gullible due to the brain damage that he sustained, he was additionally vulnerable and, thus, exploited by Great-Granduncle John ("Jankie"") and especially Great-Granduncle Joe ("Susi") to sign off his Social Security benefits, which were supposed to go to the sister whom set up the Social Security account, to them.

There are evil people whom will use the vulnerable for their own ends, and only God knows who's ablelistically and Anti Semitically exploiting "Eli" as much as those two kapos exploited Great-Granduncle Bernie—and exploiting a fellow Jewish World War Two veteran and a younger sibling took a special kind of chutzpah that Great-Granduncle Susi (and I'd call him an SOB as Granduncle Tony understandably did, though—since I know that Great-Great-Grandma had Schizophrenia—that would not be fair to Great-Great-Grandma—and to be fair, Granduncle Tony did not know that she had Schizophrenia; and I didn't know until I saw Great-Granduncle Bernie's death certificate and recalled the accounts regarding her.).

Monday, December 12, 2016

Without Trying To Be Funny, Crude, Or Ugly...

I have to ask what will happen if Trump ends up getting Alzheimer's Disease and does end up becoming POTUS (with "P" being "Premier" at the still-bad best, and the "P" being replaced altogether by an "F" at worst).

After all, Trump's father died of Alzheimer's; and I'm sadly pretty sure that Alzheimer's made Fred Trump worse—and let's face that  Alzheimer's, which even affected my stepgrandfather to (for example) call his beloved wife a "dumb bunny", can affect or increase negative behavior (and my stepgrandfather had never verbally abused or otherwise mistreated her before he had Alzheimer's, by the way).

Can you imagine, then, what will happen if Donald Trump becomes POTUS and has Alzheimer's while he's in office—as if his behavior isn't bad enough without his having Alzheimer's? By the way, one reason to hope that reincarnation is not real is the possibility that Barron Trump—or anyone else—would be Fred Trump reincarnated!

Meanwhile, here's—sadly—an example of how erratic someone with Alzheimer's can act as they deal with being ravaged by Alzheimer's:

In conclusion, therefore, I ask you to think about what the Fred Trump-inspired son of Fred Trump will do if he's inherited his father's Alzheimer's and it ever sets him off—after all, it's set off good men like my late stepgrandather and the late Bob Murrell—imagine if it sets off the already-racist, -sexist, -xenophobic, -ableist, -nepotistic, -sociopathic, -dictatorial, and -Anti-Semitic Donald Trump—bad men + Alzheimer's Disease = bad combinations!

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

Why Cancer Survivor Day Is Not (As Cynics Would Allege) Just Another Cancer Lobby Hallmark Holiday

A friend made me aware that today is Cancer Survivor Day and asked that I make others aware of it. I'd be remiss to not do so, given that cancers of all kinds are in my gene pool and in my family otherwise—I have a BRCA mutation for example; and people thought that I was being funny or whatever—they can ask Katherine Czarnecki Chokola, z"l; she died of Breast Cancer. They can ask her cousin Tony's son Jack, whom survived Colon Cancer and later died of Leukemia (partly because, I'm sure, the Colon Cancer affected him despite that he survived it).

With that, Dad has Chron's (which is linked to Colon Cancer) and I have IBS (and I do not buy for a second that IBS and Chron's are not linked). Point being, I am well aware that cancer is not a game, gimmick, joke, etc.; and I would have never claimed to have a BRCA mutation were the evidence of it not in my own family line. By the way, part of why I volunteer for the Bladder Cancer Advocacy Network is because of the medical history of cancer in my family, not to mention that Bladder Cancer patient Kevin Williamson (who takes the newly-discovered drug to treat Bladder Cancer) had "unbearable gas" that made him aware of his Bladder Cancer (and with IBS, gas and the bladder are linked—so, imagine adding Bladder Cancer to that!)

That's also something about which I ask people to think on Cancer Survivor Day: those charities, walk-a-thons, etc. are not games, gimmicks, jokes, etc.

By the way, I just remembered: Michael Douglas is a cancer survivor, given that he had Throat/Oral/whatever kind of cancer; and his father had some kind of cancer, too (So's being a Danilovich—and I've discussed that whole megillah before!).

Thursday, March 24, 2016

Originally On Writerbeat: A Redacted 2005 Police Report, Depression, and An Ableist

The former two are not fair game. The latter one—a sick ableist—is—and the sick ableist in question is Donald Trump. Heidi Cruz did not wake up one day and decide to have a depressive episode that day (whether or not the depressive episode was a one-time episode or a flareup of chronic Depression). She did not decide to plan to sit 10 minutes away from traffic during a nervous breakdown, and she did not think that someone as cruel as Donald Trump would be cruel enough to use what can be a fatal mental illness to "spill the beans".

Nobody forced the aspiring First Lady Melania Trump (then model Melania Knauss) to pose nude for "GQ". Circumstances in Heidi Cruz's life, for whatever reason, did force her to have some kind of mental breakdown (regardless of whether the breakdown was a one-time depressive episode or just another flareup of Depression—flareups to which each Depression patients gets resigned in some respect, irrespective of how each of us deals with those flareups.).

Notwithstanding that Heidi Cruz intentionally sat 600 seconds from traffio of six—600 seconds in which she could have had her last breaths and ended her life—she got up and went home. Not everybody does that—in fact, some die at home—ask my great-great-granduncles Frank and Alexander Focko, as the former hung himself at his home and the latter fatally consumed cyanide in his home. 

Ask their dad, my-great-three-times grandfather Istvan Foczko (and while I'm not a mathematician, I know that for a man in his 50s with two sons whom committed suicide—and the sons being two of six sons—to not have committed suicide is statistically impossible—especially since one third of his sons also happened to be two of his seven children.).

Ask my father's paternal grandfather, whom changed his mind too late—he wanted to go home and had already jumped off of Falls River Bridge, blocking traffic with his abandoned-in-the-middle-of-the-bridge car and humiliatedly having drivers, three hunters whom tried to get him to the riverbank, and others watch as he drowned to death from not being able to hold on to a rock in the midst of Falls River currents.

In what year is Donald Trump, anyway—1905? 1913? 1935? 1964? Almost 52-111 years later, can't Donald Trump stop being childish and realize that victims of Depression (let alone Depression-affected suicide) are not stigmas (let alone suicides) in of themselves? At least relatively few—in more Westernized societies, anyway—view victims of suicide as the suicides themselves, even though many still view victims of Depression—and other mental illnesses—as stigmas. 

Donald Trump ought to go live in a shari'a-ruled or other Non-Westernized society if he continues to view people with mental illnesses as shari'a- and other Non-Western-minded people do—and even some Western societies, such as Croatia and Serbia, need to continue to work on Westernizing or even start Westernizing.

By the way, Meliana Trump's precious Slovenia still has its Westernization to implement—why doesn't Donald Trump suggest barring Slovenian immigrants whom are ableist and don't want to take care of their own?—or he could perhaps help Svenica and Ljubljana build adequate mental hospitals instead of focusing on castles. 

Monday, January 18, 2016

More Depression

"A man's soul sustains him, but who can endure a broken spirit?" I am enduring another Depression flareup, loneliness, etc.—I have even suspended working on the manuscript for my next book.

Spiritbrokeness, unlike my sister's stomach flu, is a kind of sickness that doesn't just go away with prayer, fluids, and rest. Spiritbrokeness takes even more than prayer, sufficient hydration, and enough energy to heal—especially when it exacerbates and feeds off of, e.g., Depression in a vicious feed-be fed cycle.

Monday, April 6, 2015

Bladder Cancer And Why I'm Volunteering for the Bladder Cancer Advocacy Network

By the way, the BCAN Baltimore Walk is on:

Sunday, May 3rd, 2015 at Canton Waterfront Park (Registration begins at 9 am and Walk begins at 10 am)

BTW, I did not share this in the video: look at the following two pictures:


Then imagine how having a condition such as IBS or an Enlarged Prostate would exacerbate Bladder Cancer (


PS The BCAN website states "Bladder cancer is the sixth most commonly diagnosed cancer in the U.S.". I was either told or thinking that I heard "most diagnosed".

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Please Report James Walker On Facebook If You Can...

By the way, I am not deleting the conversation that occurred between me and James because: 

  1. Facebook may need to see it. 
  2. We need to show Facebook an example of why there need to be reports to report people who can be and are reasonably suspected of mental illness, including sociopathy and psychopathy, and can be reported by non guardians. 
  3. People need to see what kind of person to avoid.
Please report James. His username is Yaaqov1.

sees almost every day, if not every day, why Non-Messianic Jews have an excuse to laugh at us: our hypocritical, out-of-bounds legalism. For example, as much as I love Samuel Rodriguez, there is no way that I'm letting him get away with connecting Ash Wednesday to Tammuz. Even if (as his legalistic friend alleges, and he realleged) the sign of the Cross is connected to Tammuz and a costume thereof (of which I have never seen nor heard), the Church redeemed it. Ever heard of tikun-ha'olam? We don't implement it, though we have the strength given to us by Yeshua Ha'Mashiach; and then we wonder why Non-Messianic Jews find us to be hypocrites who have no real interest in tzedek.

Yo veo casi todos los días, si no todos los días, por qué Judios quién son no Judios Mesiánicos tener una excusa para reírse de nosotros: nuestra hipócrita, fuera de límites legalismo. Por ejemplo, por mucho que me encanta Samuel Rodríguez, no hay manera de que yo voy a dejar que se salga con la conexión del Miércoles de Ceniza a Tamuz. Incluso si (como su amigo legalista alega, y él re-alegó) la señal de la cruz está conectado a Tamuz y un traje del mismo (de la que nunca he visto ni oído), la Iglesia ha redimido. ¿Has oído hablar de tikún-Haolam? No lo ponemos en práctica, aunque tenemos la fuerza que Ha'Mashiach Yeshua nos da, y luego nos preguntamos por qué Judios quién son no Judios Mesiánicos encuentran que somos hipócritas que no tienen ningún interés real en tzedek.
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  • James Walker I thought non-messianic Jews *are* legalists... why would they fault legalistic messianics for being legalists?

    Furthermore, even your NT says:

    Matthew 6:16 “Moreover, when you fast, do not be like the hypocrites, with a sad countenance. For they disfigure their faces that they may appear to men to be fasting. Assuredly, I say to you, they have their reward. 17 But you, when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face, 18 so that you do not appear to men to be fasting, but to your Father who is in the secret place; and your Father who sees in secret will reward you openly."

    Where does having a clergyman paint a black cross on your forehead as a sign of starting a fast, and going on telling your friends for a month and a half what you gave up for lent, fit in even with the above commandment of your messiah?

    Thus, I'm not following your logic either from the Judaism side, or Messianic side.
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  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki Firstly, many Non Messianics follow the spirit of Torah as opposed to the letter--even if they do not believe in the inerrancy of Torah or the rest of Tanakh, much less in Yeshua as Masiach. In fact, Reform Judaism is very clear: "This early radicalism was mentioned in the 1885 Pittsburgh Platform, which dismisses "such Mosaic and rabbinical laws as regulate diet, priestly purity and dress" as anachronisms that only obstruct spirituality in the modern age. The platform stressed that Reform Jews must only be accepting of laws that they feel "elevate and sanctify our lives" and must reject those customs and laws that are "not adapted to the views and habits of modern civilization."" (Jewish Virtual Library)

    Reform Judaism continues this thinking today: " Some institutions are considered to be a product of the cultural milieu and societal norms of the ancient Near East when the Hebrew Scriptures were written down, and do not speak to our lives today. In addition, Reform Jews do not ascribe to the Mishnah and Talmud the same authority which Orthodox Jews do. While the Talmud and law codes guide the lives of Orthodox Jews, it is more accurate to say that they inform the lives of Reform Jews." (

    Reform Judaism even mentions that Judaism is, or at least should not be, "frozen in time". Therefore, legalism would be--for example--following some "societal norms of the ancient Near East when the Hebrew Scriptures were written down"--giving over a slave's wife and children to his owner unless he has ear awled into a door. 

    Besides, Yeshua made a New Covenant, not a "Renewed Covenant". The Old Covenant remains for Non-Messianic Jews (which Karaites like yourself and others frankly get). The New Covenant and the spirit of the Old Covenant are for the Messianic Jew.
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki Secondly, the intent is looked at. People who explain why they have crosses on their heads are certainly not looking for praise for doing it.
  • James Walker And how many ancient Jewish Christians rejected the Law in favor of Catholic traditions? Any sources, my friend? Ebionites or Nazarenes - they both rejected the trinity, were divided on the virgin birth, and united on the binding authority of the Torah. This is proven through documents from the 2nd century onward. Modern Messianic Jews, however, are the opposite, in most cases - being mainline evangelical protestants in beliefs and practice. How do you account for this?
  • James Walker Assimilationist rhetoric from the 19th century does not make it the will of God, just because Jews stated it. Ever read the proposals of Hellenistic Jews in the days of the Maccabbees ?
  • James Walker Just a refresher:

    1 Maccabees 1
    [41] Then the king wrote to his whole kingdom that all should be one people,
    [42] and that each should give up his customs. 
    [43] All the Gentiles accepted the command of the king. Many even from Israel gladly adopted his religion; they sacrificed to idols and profaned the sabbath. 
    [44] And the king sent letters by messengers to Jerusalem and the cities of Judah; he directed them to follow customs strange to the land, 
    [45] to forbid burnt offerings and sacrifices and drink offerings in the sanctuary, to profane sabbaths and feasts, 
    [46] to defile the sanctuary and the priests, 
    [47] to build altars and sacred precincts and shrines for idols, to sacrifice swine and unclean animals, 
    [48] and to leave their sons uncircumcised. They were to make themselves abominable by everything unclean and profane, 
    [49] so that they should forget the law and change all the ordinances.
    [50] "And whoever does not obey the command of the king shall die."
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki I can account for that many modern Messianic Jews heed the warnings in the Apostlic Letters--since the Apostles were writing down warnings about apostasy and legalism like that of the Ebionites and Nazarenes, which has nothing to do with Catholicism unless you consider that Non-Evangelical Catholics learned well from the Christian-in-name-only cults. By the way, Maccabees is not a part of Tanakh or Brit Chadashah.
  • James Walker It's our history, just as the German Reform movement and German holocaust a century later is part of our history
  • James Walker here does the word "legalism" even appear in the NT?
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki The Reformation has nothing to do with the Holocaust. Martin Luther either fell away or was a Christian in name only.
  • James Walker German Jewish Reform
  • James Walker He believed Jesus is Lord, and you can't say that without having the Holy Spirit, right? So whoever calls on his name shall be saved, etc.
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki So, Reform Jewish children are at fault, too? I see. G-d must be a sick G-d to punish children because of Reform Judaism. Look; s*** happens; life happens; the Holocaust had nothing to do with Reform Judaism. Also, not everyone who says "L-rd, L-rd" will enter Heaven; and some who do will still have been fallen away.
  • James Walker It's a covenant, with consequences. It's basic Bible
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki Covenant with consequences for innocent children, like my cousin Fredi, too? I see. So, Fredi, who was Orthodox, was thrown against a fence or burned in a furnace because of what Reform Jews in Germany did. Your thinking is sick, James.
  • James Walker How is it sick?
  • James Walker you're a Bible believer are you not
  • James Walker God punishes and rewards
  • James Walker JC talks plenty about weeping & gnashing of teeth, eternal torment, lakes of fire etc.
  • James Walker Or do you have a dispensationalist excuse for that, too?
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki I'm not a Dispensationalist. Knock it off.
    54 minutes ago · Like · 1
  • James Walker Law done away, it's a new Covenant now... what theology is that?
    53 minutes ago · Like · 1
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki You should know. It's in Tanakh. Now knock it off.
  • James Walker Knock what off? I'm just discussing your post - you called me sick 
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki You're darn right I did. To think that G-d would punish children for what Reform Jews did in Germany is sick.
  • James Walker Exo 20:5 you shall not bow to them, and you shall not serve them; for I am Jehovah your God, a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of fathers on sons, on the third and on the fourth generation, to those that hate Me; 
    Exo 20:6 and doing kindness to thousands, to those loving Me, and to those keeping My commandments.
    47 minutes ago · Like · 1
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki Now you're twisting Scripture.
  • James Walker Read Deuteronomy 28, Leviticus 26, Any given Jeremiad...
  • James Walker What is being twisted. When Jews abandon the Torah, and revile God's covenant, there are consequences
  • James Walker You've heard of exile and captivity, I'm sure.
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki Jeremiah 31:30-34. Tell me if Fredi burned because he didn't follow the Old Covenant after that--and after Matthew 19:14. Fredi was a child! And the Holocaust had nothing to do with any Jew (kapos excepted) or Reform Judaism. You need help, and I am telling you that as a friend.
  • James Walker If he didn't believe in Jesus, he'd be burning in far worse conditions, according to your good news
  • James Walker Do you know the rest of Jer 31 - it seems to be that only one paragraph is cited by you
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki No. Jeremiah 31:30-34 is cited. Besides, children don't burn in Hell; and that is not why the Holocaust happened.
  • James Walker God lowering His hedge of protection against Christian and Secular gentiles is what led to things like the Holocaust. Lutherans have been hating and expelling Jews for much longer, but it took Jews rejecting God and his covenant by the hundreds of thousands in order to assimilate and become German that compounded to the level of the Sho'ah.
  • James Walker Same thing happened in Babylon:

    Ezek 20:32 And what comes up on your spirit shall surely not occur, that you say, "We will be like the nations, like the families of the lands, to serve wood and stone!"
    Eze 20:33 As I live, says the Lord Jehovah, Surely with a mighty hand, and with an outstretched arm, and with fury poured out, I will reign over you. 
    Eze 20:34 And I will bring you out from the peoples and gather you from the lands in which you are scattered among them with a mighty hand and with an outstretched arm, and with fury poured out. 
    Eze 20:35 And I will bring you into the wilderness of the peoples, and I will be judging face to face there with you. 
    Eze 20:36 Just as I was judging your fathers in the wilderness of the land of Egypt, so I will be judging you, declares the Lord Jehovah. 
    Eze 20:37 And I will cause you to pass under the rod, and I will bring you into the bond of the covenant. 
    Eze 20:38 And I will purge from among you the rebels and the transgressors against Me. I will bring them out of the land where they reside, and they shall not enter into the land of Israel. And you shall know that I am Jehovah. 
    Eze 20:39 And you, O house of Israel, so says the Lord Jehovah: Every man go, serve his idols, even hereafter, if you will not listen to Me. But you will not still profane My holy name with your gifts and with your idols. "

    Read every line. You're clearly quick to play the "sick-o" card without examining the record of Scripture.
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki Anti Semitism--not Reform Judaism or other assimilation, or disbelief in Jesus by most Jews--had to do with the Holocaust. Messianic Jews and other Non-Reform Jews, and children also died in the Shoah. Your thinking is as sick as Christopher Dorner's, I'm sorry to say. You need serious help.
  • James Walker See Ezekiel, above.
  • James Walker Was Ezekiel 20 "sick"?
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki As I said, you need help. I am telling you this as a former friend.
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki You are by twisting it.
  • James Walker Was this prophecy "in need of help"?
  • James Walker Gave the full context
  • Audra Hairston 1 Corinthians 9:20 talks about the legalistic perversion of the Torah.
  • James Walker Twisting = you don't like the context? Because it says, many Israelites wanted to be like the nations. God said He would single out them to pour out wrath and fury upon them, etc.
    28 minutes ago · Edited · Like · 1
  • James Walker I don't care what a man wrote in a church newsletter
    29 minutes ago · Edited · Like · 1
  • James Walker that's the direct word of God in the first person
  • James Walker Hence, you are resorting to dispensationalism.
  • James Walker Playing NT vs Words of Hebrew Prophets
  • James Walker I'll drop it - thanks for at least raising the topic. I don't want to be a bother
    27 minutes ago · Like · 1
  • James Walker Layla tov
    26 minutes ago · Like · 1
  • Audra Hairston former friend?
    26 minutes ago · Like · 1
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki Yep. He needs mental help.
    25 minutes ago · Like · 1
  • James Walker I don't doubt that
  • Audra Hairston That doesn't sound good. Have a good night you all.
    19 minutes ago · Edited · Like · 1
  • James Walker I'll take all the help I can get 
    19 minutes ago · Like · 1