I Lied When I Said That "It's [only] the Depression again."...

For example, when dogs and cats (like Moki, Mishka, Laika, Skeen, Winston, Cassy, etc.) are more famous than me, that's not only depressing; that's also (or so the situation seems that) G-d seems to be rubbing in my face that dogs and cats are more famous and loved than me. Then there's that (and I've blogged about all this before; but there's still that) sense of loneliness, injustice, etc.. I know that others are going through worse (which is another way of G-d rubbing my pain in my face-- "You know, there are people going through worse than you.")-- but my pain is not mitigated or taken away from.

I know why I'm lonely-- I'm an OCD/Anxiety-, Depression-, Cerebral Palsy-diagnosed, also ADD and IBS-afflicted, Anusi-born Messianic Jew with divorced parents and (with few exceptions) a Hell of a meshuga family and family history on both sides-- and I've already given you the megillah of my dad's family history (with yet more for me to find out and give, I'm guessing-- and the roadblocks in finding out the family history, including my meshuga family being deliberate roadblocks-- is depressing).

I've also given you a little of my mom's family history with the roadblocks in finding more out about it-- and, for example, try being cursed because your great-great-great-granddad was a Confederate veteran; and I've discussed how inquity visits the third and fourth generations continually, even to the thousandth-- the 250th of fourths of-- generations.

I mean, let's face very clearly that Pop-Pop Farrell's daughters and granddaughters, among others, suffered post-partum depression because "‘The LORD is longsuffering and abundant in mercy, forgiving iniquity and transgression; but He by no means clears the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children to the third and fourth generation.’" By the way, if you think that having to know that many in your family suffered terribly under post-partum depression is just another facet of life, you're meshuga-- and you don't understand that one begins to suspect that the post-partum depression was just a manifestation of depression within the family or genepool.

In conclusion, I lied when I said that "It's [only] the Depression again."... es mi pinche vida y mi historia que puede me deprimir.

Hi, Mia; I'm Not Afraid Of Your Lawsuit or Other Threats...

   

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Let be known that as a fellow American, I have the right to call against you a boycott for your mistreatment of family members and others. I have called out your cousin and my granddad Jack Czarnecki for being a Self-Hating Jew who is not proud to have been an IRS Agent who brought down the Anti-Semitic Watergate causer, Richard M. Nixon. I have also called out Pop-Pop Czarnecki for the second-degree, malice-intent murder of his mother and my great-grandmother, Mary Trudnak Czarnecki. I also have called out our very distant cousins Kirk and Michael Douglas-- Kirk Douglas for his known rape of the late Natalie Wood, Michael for cheating on his then wife with his now wife, Catherine Zeta-Jones.

I will continue to call you for threatening me with a lawsuit over putting factually-correct information on UrbanDictionary.com that you merely did not like. I will continue to call you out for calling me  "fucking psycho". I intend to be no respecter of persons-- even myself-- whatsoever. Until you apologize for your mistreatment of me, I will continue to call for a boycott against you; and I will certainly reach no olive branch toward you until you extend to me a request for forgiveness for the way that you treated me.

As I've Blogged Before, I'm Not Going To Be Or Asking To Be Popular; Though...

I do want to be famous. However, I'm not asking or going to be loved by everybody-- case in point, many of my own family (including Matt Turner and Mia Danilowicz, and my dad and his parents) hate and/or want nothing whatsoever to do with me (which is part of why I want to be famous-- to show them; "How Do You Like Me Now", if you know what I mean. Anyway, if and when I'm famous, they'll probably even want to associate with me even if only because I'm famous.).

However, I'm not looking to fulfill the following:

"³ For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine, but according to their own desires, because they have itching ears, they will heap up for themselves teachers; ⁴ and they will turn their ears away from the truth, and be turned aside to fables." (From 2 Timothy 4, NKJV)


I'm not looking to lie to people. As my estranged cousin Kevin Miskell said, "I'm not selling my soul for money." In my case, I'm not selling my soul for money, family, etc.. In fact, in regards to my family, I love and hurt for my family so much that I refuse to sell my soul for and even to my family.


I'm not saying that seeing family un- and de-friend me on Facebook doesn't hurt. But I'd rather be hurt by family for doing the right thing than hurt myself and others-- including my family-- by not doing the right thing.

Please Contribute If You Can (Not An Advertisement, Paid or Otherwise)

I finally read about JewishGen's Miskolc project. This is why part of why I donate what $10 I can to JewishGen each month or so (and I'd donate more, but Mom won't let me due to budgetary and other concerns). Please donate if you can for the sake of the Hanzoks and Fockos (Foczkos) to be found buried there; and for the Molnars, Filczaks, Rusnaks, and whoever else might be buried there (Remember that Diosgyor and Miskolc factor hugely into many Slovakia-born Jews' lives and the lives of their descendants.).

Illegal Aliens and Driver's Licenses

Remember this "bustup" that looked like a Jack and Greg Czarnecki fight (My family will get this reference.)? LAPD Police Chief Charlie Beck and Sheriff Lee Baca want to track illegal immigrants using drivers' licenses. How do this bustup and the LAPD plan connect? Alfredo Ramos could've easily been tracked this way in Virginia Beach (where at least two of my cousins and their sides of the family live, and I wonder how they were affected by the Ramos-caused tragedy).

As a Jewish and Latina descendant of illegal-immigrant Anusim, I might be about the only other Republican who agrees with Chief Beck and Sheriff Baca. In other words, yo acuerdo con Geraldo Rivera en eso sujeto respetando a inmigrantes ilegales.

The Travel Distance For the Fockos...

I should've included the travel distance for the Fockos:

1. Bavaria to Diosgyor, a total of six days and 16 hours to walk-- unlikely
2. Diosgyor to Kosice, 19 hours, 14 minutes-- more likely to walk. Frantisek Gyorgy Foczko (Frank George Fosko) was born in Diosgyor on October 5, 1888. His birth could've been because...
3. Hidvegardo is where Johanna Hanzokova Foczkova's family orginated as well as originating in Diosgyor and Miskolc.
4. Hidvegardo to Kosice, eight hours and 35 minutes
5. Kosice to Zlata Idka, five hours and 11 minutes. Remember that there were no cars and hardly (if any) similar types of transportation in the centuries before the 18th Century. If there were, they were for the rich and the royalty.
6. Zlata Idka into Poland, first stop being Kielce; two days and fifteen minutes. Remember that our branch converted around the 1700s. The first Focko noted so far is in 1735. The other branch or branches decided not to be Anusim, thus fleeing then-Aranyida and Kassa, Hungary for Jewish-tolerant Poland.
7. Kielce to Radom, 15 hours and 40 minutes. Finally we come to...
8. Radom to Warsaw, 21 hours and 12 minutes

If you don't believe me, you may search "Focko" or "Foczko" in Poland on JewishGen. By the way, Anusim married fellow Anusim; so the Hanzoks, Filczaks, Rusnaks (which is a given), Molnars (another given), Novaks, etc. were all-- unless otherwise noted or shown-- Jewish and Anusim. Anusim knew and/or sought out each other, and stuck together as well as their Lo Anusi (openly-Jewish) counterparts. Besides, what was the clime of Hungary like in the 17th and other centuries for Jews? Bad and just as pogromic and Inquisitory as Spain. For example:


"In the late 17th century, the Hapsburgs captured Hungary and anti-Semitism grew, along with expulsions of Jews from the cities. Despite the anti-Jewish feelings, migration from Poland and Moravia to Hungary continued and, in 1735, about 11,600 Jews lived in Hungary. 


"The situation for Jews worsened during the reign of Maria Theresa (1740-80). Jews were forced to pay "toleration taxes" and were subject to persecution."

Or Did the Fockos Get "Focko" Forced on Them? Given Travel Distance...

Genealoj probably has the more likely theory (and Kevin is a Levi):

"

In some countries, such as the Austro-Hungarian Empire, Jews were forced to take surnames with a German appearance, and they usually could not choose them. These arbitrary family names have no relationship whatsoever with either the trade or craft, nor the physical description, nor the geographic origin of the person so named. We have already quoted SCHWARZ, WEISS, GROSS, KLEIN, and ROTH. But there are also a long series of names formed with two German roots such as MORGENSTERN, MORGENSTEIN, APFELBAUM, BIRNBAUM, ROSENBERG, ROSENBLUM, ROSENBAUM, WEINBAUM, WEINBERG..... Note that the spelling of these names varies considerably, especially when they transited through Poland or Russia."

So, the theory that the Fockos who did not become Anusim left Slovakia for Poland stands.

This Spaniard Hopefully Knows Something About the "McCoy" Family...

    

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I check my Feedjit Live Feed, and let me tell you that I hope that this Madridian knows something about Rosalita "Rosa" ("Rose") Ann "McCoy" Reilly. If you don't think that I'm still looking por familia, you are loco. If you don't understand espanol (which I need to brush up on, anyway; since it is a literal mama lashon), let me put it in Yiddish: you don't think that I'm still looking for mishpacha you are meshuga. Meanwhile, I figure that by now, the DeBoys have to be Jewish. There was at least one Jew who married a DeBoy, and our DeBoy mishpacha probably received a number of Yehudim v'Yehudi'ot as well. Por ejemplo (See how I'm mixing up the Spanish and Yiddish, by the way? Me gusta variedad.):

That's not German hair, as far as I can tell. That's curly, Jewish hair. Also (by the way, sadly we have a Braun in our line; and she'd better not be related to Eva Braun; but anyway), I invite you to look at the family tree and see the variety of possibly-Jewish or Jewish-adopted surnames there: por ejemplo, Erbacher, Pelz, Lambrix (Lambrecht, Lambrich), Pirong, Walker (Valker), Volk (Folk), Meijers (Meiyers), and other names.

I mean, folks (people), I look at my Feedjit and Blogger stats, at my family tree, etc.. C'mon; mi madre es judia problamente, y si no en la familia de "McCoy", entonces en por lo menos una de las familias de los DeBoys. Pueblos, no soy estupida. No fui loca de los Fockos, etc.; fui? 

Not Having a Webcam, I've Really Lost Some Fire...

Not to mention that a sense if loneliness, "Aunt Flo's" visit, my actual aunt (Aunt Mary)'s troubles and other factors have kept me from drawing political cartoons of late (Oh; school is another factor. By the way, some Antimissionaries and others reading this will be eager to tell me that Aunt Mary's following of Jesus-- or Yeshua-- is what's causing her the problems that she's having. In fact, however, following Yeshua is what's actually precisely keeping her sane. So, nice try; but Aunt Mary's way more of a complete Jew than half of you Antimissionaries will ever be.).

I still have been following the news (Really, Michigan? Really, Freiss? Rick Santorum and Bayer between the legs? I'd take Bayer for a headache, but...), and I'll draw political cartoons in the morning if G-d wills. But as I said, the fire (so to speak) has just not been there lately. As I said, loneliness, personal issues, and other issues can really get one down and just feeling like sleeping all day or even committing suicide.

Every Time That Tiki Barber Is On Geraldo Rivera's Radio Show Or Podcast...

I skip the segment. I will not listen to a man who cheated on his college sweetheart is was also his then-8-months-pregnant wife and 11-year bride. I will not listen to a man who badmouthed Tom Coughlin. I urge everyone who's reading this to tweet, blog, and do whatever else to tell Geraldo Rivera, KABC and WABC, and whoever else to boycott Tiki Barber unless and until he repents of his brazen adultery and leaving of four young children (including the two girls who were eventually born and rightly kept from having to see him in the hospital).

So Here's What The Rusnak Family Tree Looks Like Revised (Thanks Kevin!)

Gyorgy's brother is the dad of Shimon and granddad of Moshe and Yoshua. Gyorgy is the dad of Gyorgy, the meshumad (Anusi) and the dad of Ya'akov (Jakub, Jacob) and Gyorgy. By the way, this is what family secrets do: confuse everyone and throw everyone off balance. 

Unfortunately, My Mom's Not the Most-Supportive Mom In the World...

I've had to censor quite a few posts because of her for the time being. As I said in my last post, my mom takes these Antimissionaries and other haters of me seriously when she shouldn't. If she read all of my blog in context, she would know that I'm fairer than I should be to many, including my own people. For a while, I avoided the Sikkut v'Kiyun question and the "Did the Jews kill Jesus?" question-- to which my answer was basically, "Yes, but we did not have mens rea." If I were unfair, I could harp on how especially the Antimissionaries will "look on Me whom they pierced." But I devoted only one blog entry (at least recently) out of many to that.


Also, I do not proselytize and I am friends with many Non-Messianic Jews on Facebook, and I have Non-Messianic Jewish subscribers and followers on YouTube  and Twitter. I am open about my faith-- and by the way, pray for my webcam which is not working at present-- but I do not proselytize. 


By the way, I can't wait to be famous as Whitney Houston-- as I said on Facebook, I "can't wait to be famous. Then I'll be celebrated if I & when I die, & I won't have to worry about being drug addled, wasting my talents, &c.. That's one lesson that Whitney Houston's death leaves me with: you can be celebrated even if you're too selfish to care for your daughter if only you're famous."


My mom will be more supportive of me when I'm famous, even though she denies that she would be more supportive just because I'll be famous. Meanwhile:


For son dishonors father, Daughter rises against her mother, Daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law; A man’s enemies are the men of his own household.


In this case, my mother is set against me; and as I told her in other words:


" “Whether it is right in the sight of God to listen to you more than to God, you judge."

A Blog Visit From My Mom... Oh Good...

Not! She called me to tell that she'd shoot my laptop if she could thanks to one of my blog posts. What's she going to do if and when I'm famous? Confiscate and perhaps shoot my laptop then? That Antimissionary was bluffing. He won't call my mom's workplace. I've had Antimissionaries bluff on me like this before.

Unlike Mom, I can handle when people bluff and persecute me. After all, since my mom raised me in the Christian faith, she ought to know:


⁹ “Then they will deliver you up to tribulation and kill you, and you will be hated by all nations for My name’s sake. ¹⁰ And then many will be offended, will betray one another, and will hate one another.¹¹ Then many false prophets will rise up and deceive many. ¹² And because lawlessness will abound, the love of many will grow cold. ¹³ But he who endures to the end shall be saved. ¹⁴ And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in all the world as a witness to all the nations, and then the end will come.["]


By the way, I told you that I'm hard on everyone. I'm no respecter of persons. For:


³⁴ Then Peter opened his mouth and said: “In truth I perceive that God shows no partiality. ³⁵ But in every nation whoever fears Him and works righteousness is accepted by Him.["]


If I want to be like G-d, I can't be a (as other translations say) "respecter of persons". I have to be harsh even toward my own mom, let alone myself. If and when I'm famous, I'm going to have to take drek from those who don't respect me, as I said. Also as I said, what's my mom going to do if and when I'm famous?


As I've stated before, I'll be more respected if and when I'm famous, anyway. So, Mom won't have anything to worry about. 

   

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As a Jew, I Probably Shouldn't Be Viewing "Incorruptable" Corpses, But...

However, one looks like and probably is the body of Rudy Giuliani's cousin. I had to show my sister Veronica Giuiliani's body (or wax-or-something-covered skeleton). Anyway, you can see part of why I'm not Roman Catholic, though.

Here Are the Pictures Saved From Yad Vashem's Website To Prove That Vilmos et. al. Are Relatives

Vilmos Ze'ev Rusnak. Survived the Shoah. Probably moved to Tel Aviv to join family.

Pepi Rusnakova Grinfeldova. 1888-1944. Murdered in the Shoah.

Aron David "Dudus" Rusnak. 1844-1944. Murdered in the Shoah.

Farrell-DeBoy Canadian, What's Up?

Shalom, mishpachti.

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