Reilly's Super-d'oh! Prediction

Reilly licked and nosed "Momma"'s hand more times for the Patriots for whom she wants to win the Superbowl and for whom she thinks will win the Superbowl. At one point each, she licked "Momma"'s hand for "just don't care", "just like what's on ["Momma"'s] hand" (maybe a pizza smell?), and (at least once) for the Falcons for whom she wants to win the Superbowl. 💔

Luckily, neither the Ravens, the Steelers, nor the Eagles are playing the Patriots; and the neither the Ravens nor the Eagles are playing the Steelers—Reilly would give "Momma" a double 💔 if the Ravens or Eagles were playing the Patriots or the Steelers, and she predicted that the Patriots or the Steelers (unless the Steelers were playing the Patriots) would win the Superbowl! Camille already gave "Auntie Nicole" a heartbreak when she voted for the Broncos last year!

Besides, "Momma" has enough heartbreak upon heartbreak in her life.

Jump, Slide, BOOM—Right Into A Chair Leg!

Maybe that was payback for Camille being mean to Reilly when Reilly came near her and the wishbone toy today? 😉 As "Mimi" described what happened when "Auntie Nicole" asked what happened, "Camille jumped off the couch, slid on the blanket, and hit one of the chairlegs very hard. But she was not hurt. It sounded like a shoe hit the couch."

Maybe Camille's just a klutz! 

The Condemnation Of An 8-Year-Old Nora Whom Did Not Choose Her Family Or Her Family's Crimes

The amount of cruelty that is in the comments section of my share of the "Hindustan Times" article re Nora (whose last name I will not use due to its despicable connotations) is unbelievable. Why should an eight-year-old child be condemned for what her father did? Also, as I said, perhaps refugees that were informants could've prevented deaths like this. How many more innocent children will have to die, especially if no refugee who has any relevant information can come forward?

For example, another eight-year-old girl may have her life in the balance but for a refugee whom could speak up for her, such as a young Yazidi girl—whom would be currently stereotyped as a Muslim and an equivalent of "Jihadi Jane"—or a Chaldean Christian man—who might be libeled as a "Palestinian" Muslim who's doing taqiyya (the Mohammedan/"Muslim" form of deception practiced by Orthodox Mohammedans/"radical Muslims", "Islamic extremists", etc.).

Perhaps even a man among the Jadid al-Islam (Mohammedan Anusim) who could be a refugee may be an informant regarding the insidiousness of Iran, and may prevent something that Iran could be planning—for example, what if the Iranians who attacked the Saudi ship may have eight-year-old girls whom they will attempt to barter as sex slaves in order for other terrorists to keep quiet? You never know what sociopathic and narcissistic terrorists plan or could plan; and we may never know if something would (God forbid) happen unless we have refugees whom are informants, will we?

The xenophobes, Muslimophobes (notice that I didn't say "Islamophobes"), and simplistic dread mongers can keep their divisive hate and intellectual dishonesty to themselves—either that, or (while they're spreading their bigotry) they can advocate kicking out people like Mosab Yousef (the "son of Hamas") and eight-year-old girls whom have been rescued from Orthodox Mohammedan traffickers, and they can also advocate doing the un-Christian and un-American thing of punishing children for the sins of their fathers.

As for me, I won't punish the eight-year-old girls whom were born of terrorists, captured by human traffickers, and otherwise forced to live hard lives because of what their fathers did—and I'll hope that more innocent refugees (like Yazidi girls whom testify before Congress) and repentant refugees (like Mosab Yousef) come forward.

"Momma" Finally Wrote And Published "Reilly Rosalita the Maltipoo"

"Momma" used Kindle Direct Publishing to publish "Reilly Rosalita the Maltipoo: A Lovable & Quite-Often-Beleaguering 'Dogter' To Her Loving-And-Beleaguered 'Momma'". The book is not exactly an in-all-of-its-glory book, especially since "Momma" had to create a manuscript to upload instead of use the option to directly create the book within the KDP module itself, which she might've been able to do prior to creating the cover. About five to seven hours later, the book was finished—and a day later, "Momma" is still recovering from those five to seven hours—and those five to seven hours left her extremely tired yesterday.

By the way, the other manuscript would've taken too long and was more intense to complete in a short amount of time.

One Reminiscence Over Two Pictures, A French-Bulldog Video, A Laugh Because Of A Maltipoo In A Picture, And...

The story of Dixie Mirabelle Madeline Dominquie Camille Dominique (Wierzbinska Czerniecka Czarnecki)* comes to mind to tell. Like Reilly, except not like Reilly:

1. Camille was going to be "Dixie Mirabelle"—and you can guess why that one, and any name with "Dixie" in it, was kiboshed!
2. "Mirabelle"
3. "Madeline"
4. "Madeline Dominique"
5. The dark apricot one, "Mimi" thought
6. The black one, "Auntie Nicole" thought
7. One of the boys in the litter

Camille Dominique ended up being a girl after all—and her human family should've known that she is the light apricot one, as she is the unique one in the pictures—and she ended up being related to Reilly!

Joyce sent "Auntie Nicole" these photos of the yet-to-be-named Camille upon "Auntie Nicole"'s request

"Mimi" took the pictures of "Auntie Nicole" meeting Camille, whom came home on June 10, 2015

Camille developed a rapport with her human family.

Camille had been home for about a month and a half by this time.

Meanwhile, some things have yet to change—for example, Reilly and Camille still don't have Reilly's "Daddy"/Camille's "Uncle ___[?]" in the picture. Also, "Momma"/"Auntie Nicole" has "just" Depression, ADD, &c.—as opposed to Hypothyroidism—in any case, she's not as good a "Momma"/"Auntie Nicole" as she could be.


* "Mimi" is going to kill "Auntie Nicole" for this. Incidentally, Camille was captivated by an electric-violin version of "Hatikvah" on YouTube minutes ago.

A Contrast Between Reilly & Camille That "Momma"/"Auntie Nicole" Will Never Understand

Even tonight, Reilly was very disobedient about going "peedy" before her evening nap—and now "Mom-Mom" had to take her potty for "Auntie Michelle"—and Reilly's disobedience is a frequent occurrence for "Momma" during the day, and it was similar today to how it was yesterday.

In contrast to Reilly, Camille (generally) goes "peedy" when she goes outside—whether she rings the bell on the backyard-door handle or is taken outside to "go potty" before she goes "night nights", takes a nap, etc.—she doesn't take up to at least half an hour when she goes to go potty, and she (generally) finds her "potty spot" within seconds to a minute or two minutes. She also does not get distracted and tries to stay within the radius that "Auntie Nicole" gives her—unlike Reilly, whom tries to go to "Mom-Mom"'s garden, near the holly bushes, etc. even when "Momma" gives her leeway with the extendable leash to find a "potty" spot closer to the backyard fence.

At least Reilly goes into her crate (for the most part) when she's supposed to do so—unlike Camille, except for when "Auntie Nicole" goes on walks, and "Auntie Nicole" has given up on trying to get Camille in her crate (for the most part). Even "Mimi" and "Mom-Mom" have a hard time getting Camille in her crate when she's supposed to be in her crate—not to mention that Camille tries to pull stunts in trying to get food when, for example, "Auntie Nicole" is eating her lunch and can't help but laugh as Camille tilts her head to her right side and persistently and beggingly looks at her to try to get some of her food.

At least Camille does eventually try to hang out by "Auntie Nicole" and Reilly during their afternoon nap (Incidentally, for "Auntie Nicole"/"Momma" to have hypothyroidism—of which she has a family history—would be great in a way, as that would explain a lot about—for example—her Depression flareups—meanwhile, let's see if Camille obeys "Mom-Mom" and gets into her crate before "Mom-Mom" has to drive "Auntie Nicole" to her doctor's appointment.).

Meanwhile, the only explanation that "Momma"/"Auntie Nicole" has for Reilly's and Camille's "going potty" and cratetime contrasts is their overall-contrasting personalities. 

How Reilly Marked Her Gregorian Month Birthday—aka, Part Of Why "Momma"'d Like An Answer From Reilly's Possible "Daddy" One Or Another Way

Reilly's day on "Momma"'s Gregorian year birthday was fine enough for Reilly—cue the reverse, inverse, or whatever you want to call how bad "Momma"'s day on Reilly's Gregorian birthday was for "Momma". To be fair, Reilly promised to be a better girl tomorrow when she came downstairs and got scritches just now—nonetheless, Reilly marked her Gregorian month birthday similarly to how she marked her Hebrew month birthday. Here are some highlights:

1. She decided to leave poor Camille inside by herself while she was going potty—and of course, Camille got a short end of one of Reilly's sticks just as she did on Reilly's Hebrew month birthday.
2. Why Camille was left inside is as follows: when "Momma" accidentally did not hook the extendable leash through the other leash's hoop, Reilly decided to let a pupchase ensue—and that pupchase included no less than Reilly eating "nasties" (including mulch), getting into "Mom-Mom"'s garden, deliberately running away from "Momma", and not coming inside until she heard "Camille" bark at something.
3. When Reilly seemed like she was going inside, she tried to run back out in the backyard.

Meanwhile, "Momma" isn't supposed to be frustrated? "Momma" is supposed to accept how Reilly takes advantage of her disability, even though Reilly doesn't know that that's why she can outmaneuver "Momma"? "Momma" is supposed to tolerate and endure the lectures from "Auntie Michelle" about she can do more than she thinks than she can, as if she doesn't know herself well enough?

Also, not having a helpmate for herself and "Daddy" for Reilly continues to exhaust her and Reilly—maybe that's part of Reilly stubbornly went back into "Momma"'s room, jumped up onto "Momma"'s bed, and refused to get off of the bed and downstairs until "Momma" got out of the bed.

Can't she at least get an explanation from Reilly's possible "Daddy" for her and Reilly's sakes? How long must she ask this of  Reilly's possible "Daddy" (since she knows that he wants something and can't figure out just what)—and ultimately יהוה—or she supposed to, for example, depend on "Auntie Michelle" and "Momma" for the rest of her and Reilly's lives?

By the way, it's 1:29 AM EST on January 26th as "Momma"'s finishing this blog entry, and she began writing this at the end of the 25th—and poor Reilly's waiting as patiently as usual.

A Picture Of Two Of Reilly's Fellow Ole Fielders That "Momma" Found The Other Day

"Momma" found a picture of two paternal siblings named "Lola" and "Charlie". Their father—as their owner, Ruth, stated—is Dashing Cream, whom sired Lola with Desiree and Charlie with Penny Lane.

The picture was originally publicly shared by Ruth on Ole Field Farm's Facebook page. Reilly's sort-of doppelganger is on left, and Camille's is on the right. 

By the way, "Momma" found the picture of Reilly's possible relatives on her own Gregorian birthday—and she's celebrating Reilly's 2.83-year Gregorian birthday—thus, finding the picture must've been a gift for "Momma" and Reilly! Also by the way, Reilly had quite an interesting day on "Momma"'s birthday and is a gift whom keeps on giving!

Forget (Well, Sort-Of Forget) "Momma"'s Day—How Was Reilly's Day?

Since "Momma" had her Gregorian birthday today and is "Auntie Michelle"'s twin, Reilly had a very-interesting day with both "Momma" turning 27 and "Auntie Michelle" taking a day off from work to celebrate her birthday. Some highlights:

1. Since "Momma" accidentally pulled the door of Reilly's crate too high up—and, thus, out of its slider—Reilly had to wait until "Momma" got the door back into the slider, and it took quite a while (and with less strength than others and exhaustion, "Momma" couldn't get it back in as quickly as possible. Also, she couldn't get the help from "Auntie Michelle" that she would've liked to get—even after she woke up, was asked to help, and could've reconsidered her "Later" excuse.).
2. Reilly and Camille did get to go upstairs and wake up "Auntie Michelle"/"Mimi"—and part of Camille's wake-up call to "Mimi" was her usual "Good morning; let me in!" scratching on the door!
3. At least "Auntie Michelle" took Reilly "potty" when "Momma" needed her to substitute to her—though "Auntie Michelle" rushed "Momma" to take Reilly "potty" after Reilly ran the bell in the first place, which gave "Momma" no time to quickly finish her coffee or put on a coat—and "Momma" needed "Auntie Michelle" to substitute after she got cold and got Reilly's extendable leash stuck around her cart.
4. Reilly, meanwhile, had to deal with "Auntie Michelle" rolling her over when she barked—and Camille had to deal with "Mimi" rolling her over as well! 
5. Since "Auntie Michelle" was home, "Mom-Mom" was able to take Reilly and Camille for a longer winter-day walk after she came home from work earlier (since she'd normally pick up "Auntie Michelle", whom is still working on learning to drive, from work and thus come home closer to when it's dark).

Meanwhile:

1. Reilly and "Momma" thank everyone for the birthday wishes for "Momma", and Reilly and "Momma" send their love to Reilly's family, friends, and fans!
2. Speaking of love, "Momma" and Reilly would've loved to get one birthday wish from someone whom'd they've hoped (or at least "Momma"'s hoped) would say something by now—and "Momma" definitely would read the birthday wish to Reilly if she got one—besides, Reilly recently celebrated her month birthday for Tevet.

To Mark The End Of Her 2.83-Year Birthday Day...

Reilly decided to steal the plastic-toy wishbone from Camille, and then she growlingly snarled at and bit the attempting restitutee—and she did this after she'd already jealously bitten her toy-bereft victim. "Momma" found all of this out after she asked "Mom-Mom" and "Auntie Michelle" what just happened in there—"there" being the family room from which "Momma" heard Reilly's growly snarl.

As "Momma" wrote before, "2.83 years don't always make a puppy more obedient". 

Why Is Kirk Douglas Still Not Admitting What He Did To Natalie Wood?

As I said, it's called being a Danilovich. That I could tell you what my paternal grandfather (of not-exactly-blessed memory) was like; and I will never forget what Granduncle Tony (of blessed memory) replied when I wrote something about my father and grandfather, and Pop-Pop's and Granduncle's father (the paternal grandson of a Danilovich). "Like father like son".

Lana Wood & Robert Downey, Jr. have experienced from outside of the family—at a much-more extreme level than most outside of the family do— what dealing with the...eh...non remnant of the Daniloviches is like. Insofar as I know, those of us who are the remnant of that family—at least on our side—either from the beginning or at least at some point—even if it's at the end—stop tolerating the ******** (Before I knew who exactly I am, I stopped tolerating the Danilovich ********—not that our other families didn't have issues, though something was in that Danilovich water—and I didn't even know that I'm a Jew, let alone a Danilovich through my paternal grandfather father's paternal grandfather, until I was 18.).

Even my Great-Granduncle Stanley (of blessed memory)—as his grandson told me—had stopped dealing with the Danilovich ******** as much as he could for not having the Gospel, and he been cold to the Gospel all of his life—understandably so as, though his grandson didn't know at the time that, our family were Anusim, and the Danilovich ******** from Great-Great-Granddad Czerniecki far from helped. When his grandson did share the Gospel with him and ask if he wanted to pray to receive Jesus into heart, he nodded his head as tears were in his eyes—and that helped him to begin to dispel and heal from the ******** like never before, and he saw that Jesus was neither the real motivation for so-called Christians to persecute his family nor the Jesus in which his family pretended to believe (that is, the Roman Catholic—and, by extension, the Polish Catholic—Church's version of Jesus).

Meanwhile, I'm guessing Great-Granduncle Stanley and others had and have stood in a position in which is now filled by—among others—perhaps one of the Danilovich-Douglas family members who's still living (in contrast to, e.g., Eric Douglas, who was—as someone who knows enough of any of the Danilovich history can see—a victim partly of the Danilovich ******** that passed down through his line).

In conclusion, then, one can imagine what Lana Wood & Robert Downey, Jr. have dealt with as Non Daniloviches if he or she s a Danilovich has both dealt with and seen as others have dealt with Danilovich ********—and as I've said, you don't need to be on the Douglas side of the family to see it.

"Momma"'s Not Exactly A Gift To Her Two-Year-10-Month-Old Birthday Girl...

She tolerates "Momma" and probably has to "Keep Calm And Pray On" to tolerate her. By the way, Reilly gets every month birthday marked in some way—even with just a sentiment such, "It's your [e.g., 2-year-and-10th]-month birthday! Happy Birthday, Reilly!" 

Maybe she'll be able to mark this birthday with a special gift. 

PS Getting chased by a jealous Camille who just pawed Reilly up to five times after she bit her cheek in a dominance display does not help the poor birthday girl (or "birthday pup?).

I Remember Where I Was When...

I heard the full "I Have a Dream" speech, at least really for the first time and at least the part that's usually heard. It was in my dad's former church, Epiphany Episcopal in Odenton (Remember that Dad's an Anusi—still unhappy that I found out that we're Jews—and I had to spend every other weekend at with my dad until November 2006—that weekend was worth it.).

As I recall, it was on the left side of the front of the sanctuary, and there was certainly a speaker (or projector or other kind of media-playback device) on that side—and because it was within the time of MLK Day or one of the anniversaries of the "I Have a Dream Speech", the pastor had it played in the sanctuary after the service and encouraged people to listen to it.

While I can't exactly remember the details, I remember the impression that it left—and now I'm wondering how after that long ago (when a Jewish boy had just turned three years old five days before) anyone could've voted for Donald Trump (and gave to that now-almost-57-year-old Jewish man more reason to have an excuse to deny being a Jew) and how anyone could've voted for Donald Trump in the Name of Jesus (a Jew whom created women like Epiphany's priest and one of Epiphany's African-American congregants whom I shall never forget—and I'd mention her by name if I wasn't in dread that someone would use my mention of her by name to hurt her).

For Donald Trump voters whom were alive at the time of the March on Washington, old enough to remember, and/or even in Washington, by the way, did you forget where you were when you voted for Donald Trump; or was the March on Washington a joke to you; or do you have another reason as to why you voted for an embodiment of the nightmares of Dr. King (not to mention the embodiment of the nightmares of Rabbi Abraham Joshua Heschel and others whom marched with Dr. King)? 

The Inaugural Pupresidential Portraits And Still Waiting On Reilly's "Daddy"

These are actually more pre-birthday portraits than they are inaugural portraits. Besides, Reilly could never be a president of any country—as she's proven at just shy of 2.83 years old—and she's quite a bit for "Momma" to handle, and "Momma" could use a little help from whomever Reilly's "Daddy" is (especially if he is who "Momma" thinks that he is).

If There's Ever An Example Of A Human Rubbing Off On A Puppy...

Maybe "Momma" does rub off on Reilly, just like "Mom-Mom" thinks (e.g., "Just like her 'Momma'".). Then again, Reilly in at least a few ways is a better example—speaking of examples, one example is the way that Reilly can be much more patient than "Momma" and with "Momma"—even when she is understandably mad and tired because "Momma" stayed up a little too late due to worry (albe justified worry, which Reilly does understand is justified—even though Reilly can't understand like humans can ).

For "Momma", While Reilly As a "Dogter" Is Somebody To Love...

She can be a brat—a lovable brat, and nonetheless a brat—and she even ate some of "Mom-Mom"'s parsley plant (or at least some of the dirt in the pot), stole a treat from Camille, and barked inappropriately instead of set a example for her cousin (from whom she stole a treat, anyway!).

Especially when she eats "nasties" like parsley, she flares up "Momma"'s OCD/Anxiety—which is already increased because of "Momma" trying to figure out how she & Reilly will survive of Donald Trump ends up becoming POTUS.

(Anything can happen: he's not inaugurated yet, and he's apparently taking the first two days of his presidency off—and "Momma" and Reilly need a miracle. "Momma" has a hard-enough time taking care of Reilly for how much she can—she doesn't need to end up another victim of Donald Trump, and that Sergei Kovaleski was a victim of Trump and his ableism is quite enough.).


Believe "Momma", by the way, when she tells you that puppy owners—and other pet owners—do consider their furmily—and other famimals*—when they vote ("Momma" also didn't vote for Clinton, and Reilly is apuplitical.).

As for Reilly's turning a month older...2.83 years don't always make a puppy more obedient—although at least Reilly's baby-puppy-like instead of completely-adult-puppy-like, or even senior-puppy-like.


* "Famimals" is, of course, "family" and "animals".

In Order To Mark Three Days Until Her Hebrew ~2.83rd-Year Birthday...

Reilly, the birthday girl, decided to throw up in her "blankie" and a little on the backdoor mat after she had eaten "nasties" and barked for quite a bit of the previous Hebrew day—and as when "Momma" got into trouble for the recent toilet-paper incident, she got into trouble for "not watching her closely" and had to explain that she told Reilly "No nasties" and even thanked her when she drop a "nasty" (a leaf). If Reilly's foreshadowing what "Momma's" 27th year is going to be like for "Momma"...welcome to Hell, "Momma"—as if "Momma"'s life isn't Hell enough or affecting her to be a bad "Momma" to Reilly.

Ba(rke)d(-Up) Start To the Day

As Reilly's 2.83-year birthday is coming up, Reilly started off the morning by barking like a klipeh as she's been prone to do since ~1.83 years ago. From what "Mom-Mom" recalls, she picked up the habit from four much-older adult puppies in the neighborhood—and someone else has picked up on it since—and Camille, in fact, picked up the barking habit in turn so much so that she was even facing the door to the backyard and barking because of some neighbors whom she saw walking!

"Auntie Nicole" would have a hard time rolling over Camille, and she certainly had a hard time trying to roll over Camille's cousin ⃰  earlier—and the only reason that she could even try to roll over Reilly is because she was sitting up on her bed and Reilly was on the bed with her, and Reilly was facing the bedside window. Reilly put up a fight complete with flailing and thrashing around—and "Momma" couldn't roll over Reilly.




⃰  They're actually twice-removed cousins—as Apple, Reilly's mother, is a grandaunt of Tootsie, Camille's mother.

"Momma" & Reilly Kind Of Share Birthdays Next Week & In the Spring, Because...

"Momma" is turning 27 human years old on the 23rd, and Reilly is turning 2.83 human years old on the 25th. On the Hebrew calendar, since the New Moon occured on December 30th, January 23rd is Tevet 25th (when "Momma" was born in 5749—or, by Rabbinical reckoning, 5750)—and (Biblically speaking,) Reilly will have already turned 2.83 human years old on January 21st, or Tevet 23rd (since March 25, 2014 was Second Adar 22-23, 5773).

In other words:

1. "Momma" was born on a 23rd and 25th.
2. Reilly was born on a 25th and a 23rd (unless she was born before sunset on the 25th of March)
3. The 24-year-and-two-month Hebrew birthday of "Momma" occurred on Reilly's Gregorian birthdate, both of which were the 25th day of the month on their respective calendars.
4. 23 January 2017: 25 Tevet 5776 = 25 March 2014: 23 Second Adar 5773—here, the day numbers reverse for the Gregorian and Hebrew months (and to figure out how to phrase that took "Momma" quite a while, by the way).
5. What Adar 23 will be this year is to be determined, and Reilly will have to celebrate her third Hebrew birthday on Adar 23 if a Second Adar 5776 does not occur—and whether that coincides with March 25, 2017 (or even March 23, 2017) is to be determined.

Incidentally, "Momma" has a very-specific gift request to יהוה for herself and Reilly on one of their birthdays—and perhaps on the intersection of "Momma"'s two birthdays (which happens 27 years later after sunset, whereas it happened before sunset 27 years ago.). 

Why I As a Conservative Stand With Avaaz & Other Leftist Or Left-Leaning Organizations In Certain Cases Against RINO Trump

Donald "Insurance For Everybody" Trump is proving to be just as bad as Barack "You can keep your doctor if you like him" Obama to any reasonable mind—yeah; who's really going to repeal Obamacare now? Who's also going to help the least among us—Dr. "Get people off of it" Ben Carson? Not everyone has the (apparently-)good (mis)fortune of not suffering disabilities (such as in the case of those like Dr. Carson, whom might actually need to suffer disabilities for at least a while to see what it's like).

On the other hand, if Donald Trump and Dr. "[I]f the people had not been disarmed" Carson get their way, I (and others) could always die in another T4—and, in their minds, why not, since we'd be decreasing the load on their entitlement system? Besides, especially to Dr. "[I]f the people had not been disarmed" Carson, I as a Jew am expendable—since, after all, Jews were apparently responsible for the Holocaust because we weren't legally allowed to defend ourselves—I suppose, too, that there's "legitimate" Anti Semitism just as there's "legitimate rape", since "you can't rape your spouse", correct? Not that I could defend myself, anyway—and I'd be an easy target for rapists and rape enablers such as Michael Cohen and Dr. Carson—and get real if you don't think that people like me would not be blamed if Donald Trump et. al. get their way.

As for me, I stand with organizations like Avaaz and even Ultraviolet when I need to stand with them—after all:

If Trump gets his way, he's coming for the Jews—

And if I don't speak up for myself, who will speak up for me?

Then he'll come for people with disabilities—

And if I speak up for only myself, who will speak up for others?

Then he'll come for even quite a few women whom support him—

And if women like me who don't support him don't speak up now, when will we be able to speak up?

After all, this isn't just about if he'd come for me and I'd have nobody left to speak up for me.