Somewhat Offbeat: "Momma"'s OCD/Anxiety Is Flaring Up Because...

Her possible helpmate and Reilly's possible "Daddy" won't reach out to her and give her a clear answer, thus affecting her to be anxious, exhausted, etc.. Even last night, "Momma" stayed up thinking about her possible helpmate and Reilly's possible "Daddy"; and she's anxious enough to be nauseous right now.

She is not looking for any easy way out of anything at all—in fact, she's writing the books about Reilly and other books partly to be able to become an author with enough money to provide for Reilly and stand in her own right—nonetheless, that doesn't change that, for example, she needs help rolling over Reilly when Reilly barks inappropriately and carrying Reilly's water bowl back and forth (and "Mom-Mom" and "Auntie Michelle" criticize her for simply having to pour new water into Reilly's water bowl instead of dump the old water and pour completely new water). Besides, she wants to be able to walk Reilly  in the future and have someone with whom to walk with her and Reilly.

In any case, "Momma" thinks that her possible helpmate and Reilly's possible "Daddy" love her and Reilly, though she's just not sure. In addition and as aforestated, not having a clear answer from Her possible helpmate and Reilly's possible "Daddy" affects her to OCD/Anxiety flareups, etc. and be a bad "Momma" to Reilly. Furthermore, neither "Momma" nor Reilly are getting younger—and Reilly's Gregorian birthday is on the 25th of March.

Also, "Momma" has asked before what she needs to do to get her possible helpmate and Reilly's possible "Daddy" to reach out to her—the case isn't, as far as "Momma" knows, that he isn't strong enough to help her—in fact, he's quite strong enough to help her and Reilly. 

How Did Reilly And Camille Mark The Publication Of The New Book About Them?

How else did they mark the publication but by running outside when they weren't supposed to be in the backyard, eating nasties, and having to be bribed with treats? De-ja-(Malti)poo!

PS:

1. "Momma" knows that puppies really can't mark publications of books like that (or can they? At least Reilly did seem to understand "Momma" when "Momma" talked about how people read about her and Camille. Pets, and other animals, do have uncanny abilities to at least sometimes understand what humans think that they can't understand).
2. Speaking of de-ja-(Malti)poo...a certain furball was curled up on a family-room chair and is now staring down and waiting for "Momma" in a "dogterly"-equivalent way to how "Momma" is waiting for the other person to whom Reilly is also supposed to be a "dogter". Maybe if "Momma" and Reilly have Jirish luck by St. Patrick's Day and/or one of Reilly's birthdays (be the birthday her Hebrew birthday or her Gregorian one....yehi ratzon Yehovah la'asot ratzono). ✡☘

At least Reilly and "Momma" have consistency in their lives...though it's not all good consistency.

Reilly's And Camille's "Stella" Snow Day 2017

In short:

1. Reilly and Camille ate "nasties" such as bird food, notwithstanding the snow or "Mom-Mom"'s explicit instructions to not eat the bird food.
2. They enjoyed running in the snow, chasing snowballs that "Auntie Michelle"/"Mimi" threw.
3. Camille did not want to come inside, in contrast to unusually-obedient Reilly.

Incidentally:

1. "Momma"/"Auntie Nicole" had to stay on the porch to photograph and videograph Reilly's and Camille's snow day.
2. Trying to get all of the pictures into another way to document it flared up "Momma"'s ADD, etc. severely.
3. "Momma" and Reilly hope that Reilly's possible "Daddy" got through Snowstorm Stella safely and warmly, since Stella hit and may continue to hit the area in which he lives. "Momma" and Reilly also wish other loved ones in that area—including distant family—safety and warmth as Winter 2016-2017 wraps up with it's last hurrah! 

A Few Examples Of How Reilly Is One Spoiled Puppy, And In Contrast To Other Puppies

She has human loved ones whom:

1. Get her toys and treats for even occasions that one would not expect—she even got made-for-puppies hamantaschen in lieu of a hamantaschen-like toy and at "Momma"'s behest—in other words, Reilly gets gifts even for occasions for which "Momma" doesn't get them!
2. Talk about what a special puppy and lifesaver she is—for example, she has a "Momma" whom devotes a significant chunk of her blog to writing about her and admits what a ****-up of a "Momma" that she can be. As far as "Momma" knows, many—if not most—puppy parents actually won't do that—that is, they'll just fall back on "Be the person that your dog think that you are" instead of say "You might as well admit to even your undyingly-devoted dog what a ****-up you are."
3. Talk about her on a significant level on Facebook, even try to get the word out about her in their writings, and even try to relate seemingly-not-related-to-her subjects—such as the death of her fellow canine Bodza—to her.
4. Have spoiled her doubly when they've given her belly rubs, scritches, etc. on multiple occasions. For example, Reilly has had her head and belly rubbed at the same time (sometimes with one person giving a belly rub while the other gives her scritches on the head), paws massaged by at least one human while Camille has cleaned out her ears ("Spa treatment" indeed, as "Auntie Michelle" puts it!), and belly rubbed when she's been asked to move—and how many other puppies would be allowed even once to exploit that loophole of moving by rolling over for a belly rub, thus technically moving?
5. Consider her in their life-changing aspirations and decisions—including a certain one that "Momma" has had for a while in terms of another person in both her life and in Reilly's life.

Many—if not most—puppy parents and puppies' other human loved ones who can do at least something for their canine family members don't even try to do all of that—whether they're poor or rich, with or without disabilities, single or not single, or anything else and/or anything in between on the gamut of human facets. For instance, many puppies' capable-enough human loved ones—in contrast to what Reilly's human loved ones do:

1. Constantly underspoil their puppies or even abuse (including neglect) them. On the other hand, some—such as Paris Hilton and David Best—extremely (and selfishly) overspoil their puppies—such as Mr. Amazing the Pomeranian, à la famille de Hilton with a purchase price of $13,000; and Elvis Best with a "bark mitzvah" party worth $10,000.
2. Consider their canine family members either "just dogs" or more worth being treated like humans than humans, thus finding no reasonable place on the gamut of treatment of pets and other animals. In other words, they see their furmily as either background objects or idols, and they have no idea of how to be healthily involved to be in pets' lives.
3. Detrimentally underinvolve or overinvolve their pets in their lives.

No puppy parent or other puppies' loved ones will be perfect—allpuppies' loved ones willl underspoil or overspoil, take for granted or become a little too obsessed with, and/or underconsider or overconsider their canine loved one to some extent from time to time. Still, one can find a healthy and reasonable way to dote on her or his "dogter" or "granddogter", fur niece or fur nephew ("neph-woof"; or for a kitty, "nephmew"?), or other canine family member or friend.

Offbeat: To "Momma", A Reminder Of the Reilly & Air Force (And Other Military) Personnel For Whom She's Grateful

Upon reading about Bodza Smith (ז'ל) and Sgt. Kyle Smith (USAF), "Momma" once again thought about the Reilly for whom she's grateful (especially as she's reminded that tomorrow was as guaranteed for Bodza as it is for Reilly, and is for herself as it is for Sgt. Kyle Smith—i.e., not at all). She also thinks about especially the Air Force vets and active-duty Air Force members among her loved ones (family, friends, and others)—currently in her life and yet to connect or reconnect with her, known and unknown to her, having met Reilly and yet to meet Reilly, etc..

Remember that Reilly is, for example, a "grandniece" of a retired Air Force colonel and an Air Force veteran whom almost served in Vietnam, and a "great-grandniece" of a World War Two veteran whom served in the Air Force—all of whom are descendants of her name honorees. She's also a writing subject mainly due to the inspiration of another Air Force veteran, although "Momma" doesn't know if he served in Vietnam (She had the impression that he served stateside similar to how one of Reilly's "great-great-granduncles" whom was in the Army served stateside in World War Two.).

By the way, "Bodza" is a name mainly in Poland, Hungary, and Croatia—where "Momma" and Reilly have Jewish (and MaltiJewish) roots.

Offbeat: Reilly Staring Down "Momma" Again, And More On If Reilly's "Daddy" Were In Reilly's And Her "Momma"'s Lives

As "Momma" wrote last night:

"Reilly was actually just staring down "Momma" until "Momma" explained that she is actually just wrapping up right now—and then Reilly began napping and waiting for "Momma" similarly to how (though in a different way than) "Momma" is (and Reilly is also) waiting for a certain someone.

"By the way, "Momma" is (and in whatever way puppies can be aware of life's problems, Reilly is) aware that while "Momma"'s having her helpmate and Reilly's "Daddy" (especially if he is who "Momma" thinks that he is) in her and Reilly's life won't solve everything, it'll sure help "Momma" and "Reilly" with a lot."

This time, Reilly's staring at "Momma" through eyes which she's been trying to keep open, and "Momma" thinks about the question that she asks herself and God re who she thinks might be Reilly's "Daddy": when's he going to admit it—unless "Momma" is misreading something?

After all:

"The spirit of a man will sustain his infirmity; but a broken spirit who can bear?"

And

"A merry heart is a good medicine; but a broken spirit drieth the bones."

And that does not help Reilly.

"A Flying Leap Off Of Mom's Bed," As "Mimi" Describes What Camille Just Did, And Other Moments

Somebody apparently had to "go potty" (and was outside as "Auntie Nicole" began to type), and "Mimi" didn't even have to greet Camille ("...Bingo! She jumped right off!").

When she went outside, "she chased a bunny", whom was her only distraction from being able to "go potty". (As far as the bunny, "Auntie Nicole" has no idea whether it peed itself because it got scared by Camille). Meanwhile, both Camille and Reilly ate "bunny beans" (and "Auntie Nicole"/"Momma" guesses that she knows what the bunny did after all! 😉)

As far as creating earlier memorable moments, Camille decided to create two of those moments when she pawed Reilly from within her own crate earlier today and from outside of Reilly's crate yesterday. Needlessly to say, then, Camille created and helped Reilly create more colorful moments—moments that "Auntie Nicole"/"Momma" needs right now.

PS As "Momma" was just typing, Reilly was actually just staring down "Momma" until "Momma" explained that she is actually just wrapping up right now—and then Reilly began napping and waiting for "Momma" similarly to how (though in a different way than) "Momma" is (and Reilly is also) waiting for a certain someone.

By the way, "Momma" is (and in whatever way puppies can be aware of life's problems, Reilly is) aware that while "Momma"'s having her helpmate and Reilly's "Daddy" (especially if he is who "Momma" thinks that he is) in her and Reilly's life won't solve everything, it'll sure help "Momma" and "Reilly" with a lot.

(Also by the way, Reilly stared down "Momma" again! At least four times total, with one particularly long-sustained staredown, and began napping again after the last one!)