I Should Look Back At My Old Posts More And...

I should see who, how, what, and where I've been; and why I've been who, how, what, and where I've been. I see that quite a few people read my older posts, and maybe I should start rereading them-- reading them again for the first time (and not like Marcus Borg suggests doing with the Bible, either. I hope that every day, Dr. Weiss and others will remember and know that I've not forgotten that drek called Reading the Bible Again For the First Time).

By the way, Dr. Weiss; when you do affront the Word of G-d, you affront the Jewish people. And you and Sister Eileen, and the others, don't scare me one bit now that I look back. The more I've grown in understanding the Word of G-d, the more I've grown in understanding my Jewish heritage, or visa versa. I don't need your or the rest of Notre Dame's Anti Semitism to affirm or deny the Bible for me: in fact, the more that you deny the Bible, the more that students and former students like me will only affirm the Bible.

PS The only "ancient peasant rebellion"-- which the Exodus was not; and the only "ancient peasant rebellion"-- going on is the one in your hearts, the same one that your lowly and fallen fathers-- Adam and the Devil-- committed when they said that G-d's word was not his word and fell from their exalted places--Adam when he partook with Eve and fell from the glory which he had in the garden, and the Devil fallen from being the archangel known as Lucifer. "Those who are first will be last, and those who are last will be first"; so your doctorates in the Vatican and other degrees help youu not. 

My Relatives Are Gonna Start Wanting To Associate With Me More If...

I ever become rich and famous. I guarantee that if I ever become rich and famous, they'll funnily (so to speak) come out of the woodwork and admit or tell that they're related to me. Even the ones who hate me and would even like to see me dead or fumigated out of their and our common genepools will share or introduce themselves as distant cousins, grandaunts, uncles, etc..

How people (especially your own family, distant and closer) want you more when your rich and famous is funny-- that is, strange. Not shocking, not unusual, but strange-- and it says a lot about human nature and behavior.

I Guarantee That Some Relatives Are Reading This Blog And Not Coming Forward And/Or Introducing Themselves

I know that my dad and others read this (Hey, Dad; I'm not going to retract that Pop-Pop's a murderer just because you refuse to give me copies of the family pictures. And I know that Social Security law stipulates that regardless, you always put the address of the beneficiaree-- not the POA, the exectutor of the will, or anyone else. And Aunt Mary told me the facts of the case; I put them together and came up with second-degree murder with murder-malice theory and Social Security fraud-- which, by the way, is how I knew that he intended to get rid of Great-Grandma Czarnecki and make her death as painful as possible.

(Also, not thanks for not telling me that Great-Grandaunt Helen died in 2008, which I found out a way while back through the internet. I'd like to know who else has died and you haven't told me. I know that some Gaydos cousins and others have.).

As for the relatives who I haven't met yet, Shabbat Shalom v'Shalom. I'm sorry that our side of the family is particularly meshuga, and I deeply apologize to the Rusznyaks for Mary Rusnak Gaydos and Janet Rozzi. If Great-Grandma Gaydos could've been tried at Nuremburg for refusing to write back to Vilmosz et. al., let me know: Fredi, Sandor, Miklosz, and the other Rusznyaks who were murdered did not deserve to die like that, nor did Tibor deserve to feel that guilt for surviving. They all should've been able to make aliyah to Tel Aviv and other cities with our help and unscathed, or at least been able to come here like Tibor did-- even if they never talked to us, like Tibor understandably did not because of Great-Grandma Gaydos' actions toward your side of the family.

If you want to meet me or introduce yourself or come forward, e-mail me. I'm willing to talk.

Even Though I Want To Find the One, I Want To Be Sure That I've Found the One

Of course, I can't fast and pray like the comedian Nazareth did-- I have medication issues. And I can't stalk someone to the bathroom and claim that the urge to stalk him was from the Holy Spirit like Michael W. Smith claimed that stalking Deborah was a call from G-d. I also can't go on Match.com, Chemistry.com, E-Harmony.com, whatever-else-.com:

"1 Corinthians 7:26-28

New King James Version (NKJV)

²⁶ I suppose therefore that this is good because of the present distress—that it is good for a man to remain as he is: ²⁷ Are you bound to a wife? Do not seek to be loosed. Are you loosed from a wife? Do not seek a wife. ²⁸ But even if you do marry, you have not sinned; and if a virgin marries, she has not sinned. Nevertheless such will have trouble in the flesh, but I would spare you."

Besides, I have Cerebral Palsy, OCD/Anxiety, Depression, and possible Aspberger's-- I need someone to provide and care for me. But I can't go out of my way to deliberately seek a spouse or fast like the comedian Nazareth-- or stalk someone like Michael W. Smith and claim that the stalking is from G-d. 

Here's the Hat (Among Other Things) Which Dr. Weiss Mocked Me Over, and Hair Thinning in the Family

L to R: Great-Great-Grandma Anna Monkaova Trudniak, Great-Great-Granddad Trudniak with the Trudniak (Trudnak) boys, Great-Grandma in the middle of the picture, Great-Great-Grandma with a much-younger Great-Grandma.

Who do you believe that the hair thinning came from?

What If We Have To Wait Another 400-430 Years? But No Other Generation Saw Israel Reborn...

To watch the world and those in it in the states that they are in (Try saying that a few times. But in all seriousness, watching the world's and the Church's states) is depressing. Parsha Lekh L'kha gives a scary idea:

Genesis 15:12-16

New King James Version (NKJV)

¹² Now when the sun was going down, a deep sleep fell upon Abram; and behold, horror and great darkness fell upon him. ¹³ Then He said to Abram: “Know certainly that your descendants will be strangers in a land that is not theirs, and will serve them, and they will afflict them four hundred years. ¹⁴ And also the nation whom they serve I will judge; afterward they shall come out with great possessions. ¹⁵ Now as for you, you shall go to your fathers in peace; you shall be buried at a good old age. ¹⁶ But in the fourth generation they shall return here, for the iniquity of the Amorites is not yet complete.”

Following up on that is an excerpt from Shemot:

Exodus 12:39-41

New King James Version (NKJV)

³⁹ And they baked unleavened cakes of the dough which they had brought out of Egypt; for it was not leavened, because they were driven out of Egypt and could not wait, nor had they prepared provisions for themselves.
⁴⁰ Now the sojourn of the children of Israel who lived in Egypt^[a]was four hundred and thirty years. ⁴¹ And it came to pass at the end of the four hundred and thirty years—on that very same day—it came to pass that all the armies of the LORD went out from the land of Egypt.

So there were only 30 years of freedom in Mitzrayim:

Exodus 1:5-10

New King James Version (NKJV)

⁵ All those who were descendants^[a] of Jacob were seventy^[b] persons (for Joseph was in Egypt already). ⁶ And Joseph died, all his brothers, and all that generation. ⁷ But the children of Israel were fruitful and increased abundantly, multiplied and grew exceedingly mighty; and the land was filled with them.
⁸ Now there arose a new king over Egypt, who did not know Joseph. ⁹ And he said to his people, “Look, the people of the children of Israel are more and mightier than we; ¹⁰ come, let us deal shrewdly with them, lest they multiply, and it happen, in the event of war, that they also join our enemies and fight against us, and so go up out of the land.”


And there are roughly 10 of 30 weeks of years (300 years) before Hell breaks loose: 1517, the Reformation officially begins; 1815, the Congress of Vienna and the first one-world government. But also, 1517-1917 (The U.S. officially enters WWI.) or 1492-1892 (The Inquisition begins, then the Ellis Island Era begins.). WWI broke out on July 28, 1914, and then the Great Depression began on October 24 ("Black Thursday"), 1929.

 In between those times, Prorto Zionism and Zionism begin, really kicking off in the 1850s (when Messianic Judaism is first officially recognized, according to Dr. David Stern and others) to the 1900s (And actually, Herzl enters the scene in or after 1892 re the Dreyfus Affair.).

No other generation before the 1850s-1950s, and especially the 1890s-1940s, saw the refounding-- the teshuvah v'aliyah-- of Israel. And since there were 400 years between Yeshua and the last of the Nevi'im before Yeshua; you'd think that 1517-1917 (or even 1518-1918, October 31, 1518 - November 11, 1918; if you want to count the First Anniversary of the Reformation to Armistice Day) or 1492-1892 would be painfully enough.

But Yehezkel 38 re Persia is getting ready to happen any day (It's happened with Put v'Kush.), and yet still no Rapture. Do you see why I get depressed in part now?

I Should Definitely Blog About the Addictions Thing, Meanwhile...

I won't elaborate on the inappropriate sexual thoughts here, since some of them could get me further shunned and for the fact that there may be children or teenagers reading this blog (as if teenagers don't have sexual thoughts... but I still want to be a good example for the younger adults and legally-considered-to-be children. I'm well into being a bat mitzvah-- some of these young a just became bnei v'banot mitzvah.).

As for the other addictions, they can be read about on my Twitter (@Nickidewbear) and heard about in a YouTube video which should have led some of you here. I'll blog more b'haboker (and blogging daily or almost daily is a commitment, one which can partly affect one to be worn out). L'Laila v'L'Erev Shabbat Tovim.