Maybe I Just Ought To Quit Trying To Engage People & Share Any of My Views, or Should I?

And in case anyone's wondering, suicide has been thought of from time to time; but the consequences of a suicide attempt could be dire: e.g., What if I would survive said suicide attempt with consequences of survival making me or others wish that I were dead? What if I end up in Sheppard Pratt again?

And I don't write, make YouTube videos, etc. just for myself; or what would be the point of me even leaving up comments which I mark as spam instead of remove? I mean, as I said, I even leave removable comments up for others to see at their own behest.

If nothing else works, there's either the hope of the Rapture or that I successfully die like Great-Granddad, Great-Great-Great-Granddad Foczko, Great-Great-Granduncles Andras "Alexander" and "Frank, Sr." Foczko. But as I said, the consequences of a suicide attempt could be dire. So, I'm stuck-- stuck alive on this Earth (b'olam haba) feeling hopeless and lonely.

I Never Really Get Feedback On These Posts....

I've gotten some spam comments that I can't mark as spam and leave up for anyone to see at their own behest like I can do with spam comments on YouTube. But on any given post, with few exceptions, I've gotten less than 20 views total, no comments, and no other response. I've also gotten no votes but my own onm the polls which I've put up. What gives?

So I Found Krystal "Krystal Keith" Covel's Twitter Account, But...

I really don't see her promoting it (See @KrystalKeith.). She's also, for example, using her dad's name and not her family name ("Covel") or married name ("Sandubrae"), and her first single is a song that she wrote for her wedding-- "Daddy Dance With Me". She even is on her dad's label and she isn't breaking out as much as she could be even on the label:

 "”She sang all her life, of course. But getting in the studio, she was a little anxious. She sang her butt off today.” He adds, “I’ve never worked in the studio with her very much. When we did ‘Mockingbird,’ I wasn’t there for when she laid her vocals down.” So is dad pretty easy on his little girl? Keith admits, “Unfairly, I’m probably a little harder on her. But the other artists came in and I said, ‘I won’t step in too much until you guys ask me to.’ And with her it’s like she wants me to take the lead on it.”"

You can Google if you want to read more about Krystal. But unless Krystal makes some major changes, she'll be known only as Toby Keith's daughter and not as a country singer in her own right.

We Stopped Talking Because...

And here are a few to whom I've stopped talking, and we stopped talking because:

1. You're a liar & a murderer. You hurt me, your other granddaughters, your great-granddaughter (not Madison, and she's not Great-Grandma Czarnecki's great-granddaughter), Great-Grandma Czarnecki (your good, Jewish Evangelical Catholic mother), your now-former in-law daughters, and your daughter, Mary (not "Mary Jo". Get used to that she dropped "Jo(an)" a long time ago.).
2. You're a Far-Right ideologue and agnostic who persecutes my sister for her faith, and why she continues to hang around you is beyond me. And your Apsberger's is no excuse, whether you use it or deny it as an excuse. I have OCD/Anxiety/Depression and possible Aspberger's myself, and I don't act like you do.
3. Both of you started hanging around Chris Dick. For the life of me-- or rather for the lives of yourselves, you couldn't have kept better company?
4. You care for your music more than you do your cousins. Get used to that I was reviewing your music and using it in a Fair Use way. See if I ever like mjturner916 again. In fact, I would've encouraged people to boycott you if I weren't generous enough.
5. You defended Great-Grandma Gaydos and acted like our trief eating-- besides getting away from our Jewish heritage otherwise-- has nothing to do with why many of us are sick and/or have thorns in the flesh. You're cursed, too, because of what Great-Grandma did and how you'd defend you once you'd found out-- I mean, your divorce and remarriage happened before either one of us (or at least I) knew about what Great-Grandma did. I honestly would not be surprised if you somehow knew beforehand and G-d cursed you with one divorce because of that.
6. You're not proud of our Jewish heritage-- and you might even be like Janet. Good riddance, Kristy and Ally.
7. You removed me. Sorry, but get used to it: your in-law-granduncle Jack is a murderer and murderer your husband's grandmother; and we're Jewish, so get used to it. I hope that you decide to raise Tony the Fourth and the girls with more integrity than your granduncle Jack has ever had. In fact, I hope that you take after your in-law dad and do even better.

Several Reasons Why I'm An Introvert-- Not Anti Social, By the Way

1. The fighting-- for example, my mom and my extrovert sister were fighting as my sister was finalizing plans for tonight (She's going to a friend's birthday party.). There's too much fighting with self and others-- the conflict with others such as Mom and Michelle fighting, the conflict with self such as trying to figure out what to wear, how to style hair, etc.
2. My disability-- Brian Ferrick knows what I'm talking about, and he's an example of (for a lack of a term, and excuse my incivilty) a so-to-speak "weasel". He damned well knows that he didn't invite me to that one event because he didn't want to make accomdations for me-- and he's a weasel especially for trying to make excuses for it and not apologizing. Besides, especially because of the Brian Ferricks in and of this world, to do what everyone else is doing-- i.e., dancing-- is both physically and socially hard; and in terms of the social aspect, you're a saint or a liar if you say otherwise: how many of you would honestly dance with the girl with Cerebral Palsy, or chat with the girl with Spina Bifida?
3. The fallout from all that I've had to deal with besides my disability.
4. The fact that I'm a Jewish Christian, conservative-but-Non-Far-Right Republican. Most of my peers are either Far Right or Far Left, Drudge or ABC/CNN/CBS/(MS)NBC/BBC, Rush Limbaugh or "The Daily Show" and "The Colbert Report", and otherwise-polarized people. I don't look forward to being perceived as the "fundamentalist" and "right wing" (in a derogatory way) or "libtard" and "Christian and Republican In Name Only" guest at the party.
5. My family gatherings are enough, and my family exemplifies the aforementioned and following reasons well.
6. Much of the food-- I'm a kosher foodie. If you offer pork and sauerkraut, I may take it; but I would prefer that you offer all kosher and organic food without artificial sweeteners, hydrogenated oils, etc..
7. The noise and music-- I'm not interested in Slipknot, the more-recent stuff from Toby Keith, etc.
8. The uselessness of being social when all I enjoy at parties is the food, picture and video recording, and a few other things, anyway; and that sense of loneliness.

A Jewish Evangelical Catholic Shares the Struggle of an Evangelical Catholic Thailander Against Roman Catholicism

Aron Ben Gil'ad gives us insight into an Evangelical Catholic Thailander's struggle against Roman Catholicism. Keep in mind that I have made the distinction between Evangelical and Non-Evangelical (Regular, Actual Orthodox) Roman Catholicism several times. Evangelical Catholics-- even if they share differences with us Non Catholics (e.g., Protestants and Anabaptists), Jewish and gentile, re Miryam Ha'Almah v'Ima shel Yeshua, Kefa, etc.-- believe the following:

1. The inerrancy of Tanakh
2. That Tanakh ze d'var l'dvar shel Adonai, lo shel ha'ishim u ishot (i.e., Tanakh is ad verbatim from G-d, not any words of any man or human)
3. That enumah, lo avodot, ze haderekh el yeshuat (i.e., faith, not works, is the way to salvation)

And I could go on, but you get the point.

Anyway, here's part of what the Thailander Evangelical Catholic struggled against:

"He was liked and respected by his priests until he had a conversion to orthodox Catholicism. Most of his priests turned on him except for a handful. Any one who knows the church in Thailand knows that its priests are very arrogant and full of their own importance. They all want to be in charge of big Catholic Schools that have over 90 percent Buddhist teachers and students not because they have a missionary spirit but because they want to make money. Many of the priests have girlfriends or boyfriends and are not very spiritual at all. They have no sense of mission (even to the refugees in camps on the borders of Thailand)."

The Thailander bishop actually converted to Evangelical, and away from Orthodox, Catholicism (Given that I went to the Orthodox Roman Catholic College of Notre Dame of Maryland, and come from Anusi v'Katoli families, I should know.). The Thailander bishop dealt with a similar problem to that at Notre Dame and in the rest of the Roman Catholic Church-- they do not believe in the inerrancy of the Word of G-d, target Evangelical (Christian) Catholics and Non Catholics as "fundamentalists" (in the derogatory sense; and at Notre Dame, "fundamentalists" were often very persecuted), and specifically fill their institution with Non-Evangelical Roman Catholic and even other Non-Messianic (Non-Christian) people.

By the way, for example; I can name you a Non-Messianic professor who teaches at Notre Dame and openly admitted that he is not a Christian: Dr. Alan Walden, and Dr. Walden was one of the very few people at Notre Dame by whom I not even at all persecuted (though we had our disagreements and tiffs, none of which were persecutory) and for whom I had kavod. As much as we have the First Amendment and the Vatican is their own schtick; Dr. Walden, Buddhists, and other Non Messianics would not be hired at Roman Catholic schools were Roman Catholicism actually Christianity.

And the Evangelical Catholic Thailander bishop faced Roman Catholic opposition to Tanakh for all of his days. I just hope that Aron ben Gil'ad understands that he and the Thailander bishop have been among the very few Evangelical (Christian) Catholics throughout history.

Can There Be A Nonpartisan Feminist Movement? Likely Not

On one hand, you have the creeps at the College of Notre Dame of Maryland (e.g., Dr. Jeanne Del Rosso, a total creep and Dr. Susan Barber-- both Anti-Protestant, anti-moderate, anti-conservative, Anti-Republican creeps), NARAL, Feministing, and the Women's Media Center. On the other hand, you have the Ann Coulters, Michelle Malkins, and Sarah Palins; who Dr. Del Rosso and Dr. Barber love to lump people like me in with (and I may be being a grump here again, but they were maybe even Feminazis. Ann Coulter's also a Feminazi, and a plan Nazi-- or rather, a female Ron Paul-- nonetheless, creepy).