After a YouTube video on BuzzFeed's channel that would have been generally funny until Buzzfeed made fun of the last "first-world problem" (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GjIHQuZEfmY), a conversation started; and let me tell you, I had insight to give to that conversation—in fact, the latest episode of my being abused and misunderstood includes being told to "get over it" when I finally confronted my dad on my granddad's laudatory and otherwise-mostly-dishonest obituary (Let me tell you, being listed after my stepsisters, having two maternal relatives and a co-worker of Mom's talk about it, and having debated over who wrote the obituary hurts—especially when you figure out that no matter who wrote the obituary, your granddad let everyone know that his son's stepdaughters are more important than his own grandchildren.). Then, while I was doing a Google search and browsing, I came across this "First World Problems" meme picture—and one that I've seen used in relation to domestic violence. Then I was reminded of the conversation on YouTube—and that's how this meme came about. I'm amazed and stunned that DIY LOL would use a picture like this to both mock legitimate problems and satirize "first world problems" that could actually, believe me or not, be the final straws that break the camels' backs for some. Then again, maybe I couldn't raise domestic-violence (e.g., emotional-abuse) awareness if they didn't do so.
I have been going through a lot (as some have read in the past, and as I see that a Ms. Sandubrae tries to use against me—you are not funny; you are not cool, and you are proving to be the "snotty" person that L. Kay and one of your high-school classmates stated that you are, Mrs. Sandubrae. I continue to record visits of my blog from you and/or your followers who are trying to intimidate me. You are also only adding to the through the Hell which I'm going), and that includes being on the verge of suicide, having a cold (My immune system finally wore down—and partly due to what trouble you have caused me, Mrs. Sandubrae; and remember that my threat of prosecution is not idle. Where in the law can one read that public figures may harass and intimidate other public figures as you and your followers have done to me? Get a life and wise up, Mrs. Sandubrae, or you may well be prosecuted.).
Meanwhile, I'm figuring that I'm going to need some life-changing event (as if—and since—having an ITB Pump and being on the verge of suicide several times, for example, apparently—and evidently—doesn't count) in order for those who haven't been supporting me and praying for me to even notice what's going on my life. The event includes the choices of, but is not limited to, getting into my final relationship (I'm not getting into another relationship unless the relationship is with whom I know and am sure is the one.), having a baby (which is not going to happen until after I'm married, if I ever am able to marry), having a grandchild (like lucky Geraldo Rivera did—497 likes and 56 comments in about an hour, and six retweets with 21 favorites and 12 comments in about an hour [at last count]—and which will not happen for me anytime soon unless I adopt a kid who is expecting and/or has kids of his or her own shortly after he or she is adopted), and becoming famous (That's how I'll really get people to notice and give a **** about anything that I say, do, or go through at all.).
By the way, as much as I forgive people, I certainly think that when bad comes to them for what they've done to me and/or others serves them rightly. For example, Liz's prophecy came true, and I was humbled (and served rightly) when it came true—and while Pop-Pop is not dead, he is certainly not alive—he's one of the deadest living men of whom I have ever heard, and he is served rightly for what he's done to his mother (z"l), his daughter, and others.
Liz told Aunt Mary (Pop-Pop's only daughter) that Pop-Pop wouldn't be alive within five years of January-February 2007—and he has pneumonia and other issues for which he is hospitalized. Indeed, "Let God be true and every man a liar"—and it frankly serves Jack Czarnecki rightly. How dare he commit second-degree murder with murder-malice intent and Social Security fraud! And how dare he affect his daughter—his only daughter!—to be driven to a suicide attempt!
Firstly, look at the history of all of the stars who have used their parents' or other relatives' names, etc. to get far. With exceptions, very few or none have broken that "They're their [whosever's] [whichever relative's]" rule (e.g., "Rosanne Cash is Johnny Cash's daughter", "Ali Lohan is Lindsay Lohan's sister".). Secondly, look at the ones who have foregone using their parents' names, connections, etc.. Kate Hudson (who deliberately turned down a role with her stepddad and did not use her mother's name), Whitney Houston (who could've ridden on Cissy Houston's and Dionne Warwick's coattails, but didn't), and Hank Williams, Jr. (who had his name thrust on him and deliberately broke away to develop his own style) made their own names in their own rights. Thirdly, Crystal Gayle is an example of whom learned the lessons in the first two points--she tried Loretta's name, style, etc.; then she came back as Crystal Gayle with her own style. Fourthly, Krystal Keith's first single already failed, peaking at #53 on the country charts and #27 on the general charts; and she can never get away from being only her dad's daughter now.
Don't tell me that I'm "picking" on anyone or that I need a "hobby". Besides, having famous and somewhat-famous relatives, I know about what I speak.
I'm watching you, and you are not getting any comments published. Caught you once, shame on you; caught you twice, you're just a plain idiot; caught you three times, God help you--I don't have time for people like you, and I discourage people like you from reading my blog.
As I wrote to someone who apologized if his or her actions merely offended me (and not for the actions themselves), "I do not feel that the apology was sincere or for the actions themselves. I will not remove anything since it was on a public forum and it is evidence that I need to use to prove that I am not the first or last victim of UMBC JSU/Hillel. I understand that I am not the only victim, and who one of the victims is was disclosed to me in confidence partly because of how he or she has been bullied by UMBC JSU/Hillel.
"As I stated, my promises are not idle. I will not be back and allow others to get hurt by UMBC JSU/Hillel. As Gamali'el once stated,'Men of Isra’el, take care what you do to these people.Some time ago, there was a rebellion under Todah, who claimed to be somebody special; and a number of men, maybe four hundred, rallied behind him. But upon his being put to death, his whole following was broken up and came to nothing. After this, Y’hudah HaG’lili led another uprising, back at the time of the enrollment for the Roman tax; and he got some people to defect to him. But he was killed, and all his followers were scattered. So in the present case, my advice to you is not to interfere with these people, but to leave them alone. For if this idea or this movement has a human origin, it will collapse. But if it is from God, you will not be able to stop them; you might even find yourselves fighting God!'
"Perhaps instead of bullying me and others, UMBC JSU/Hillel and those associated with it can take Gamal'iel's words to heart. "Forgiven" does not mean "forgotten" or "like the situation never even happened", since I am neither the first to whom it has happened nor will I (I'm afraid) be the last."
UMBC JSU/Hillel is only one group of bullies who I have faced, and they are rightly held out as an example of bullies--since the evidence shows that they are. As Hillel the Elder once stated, "If not me, then who?" Someone needs to stand to bullying in general, and UMBC JSU/Hillel are just an example of bullies.
Imagine if Anan ben David had not stood up to the P'rushiyin of his day. Would there even be a Masoretic Text--which the Kara'im scribed? Imagine if Jan Hus and John Wycliffe had not stood up to the Roman Vatican "Church"--would the Reformation and all that resulted from or because of it have happened? (Bullies such as Martin Luther--a virulent Anti Semite--and John Calvin--a known hater of the disabled and of children--deserve no credit for the Reformation. While God can and did use evil for good, Luther and Calvin were snake-tongued Pseudo Christians. Luther is known about, but that Calvin thought disability to be an automatic sign of predestined damnation is a dirty secret that so-called "Christians" among the Church keep. However, that Calvin thought a span of babies to be in Hell is oft too quoted by Anti Messianics/Anti Christians who want to paint Christians with the brush of Calvin.)
More examples come to mind as well. Nonetheless and in conclusion, I've given enough examples of why I myself am not going to be intimidated when I stand up for myself and others--"If not me, then who?" After all, I have a mitzvah to do tikun-ha'olam--and to do so begins with fixing my world within the world, and fixing my world within the world includes standing up against those who have bullied me and others.
As a Messianic and what I consider a "Messianic Karaite" (as much as I love Nehemiah Gordon, and I know that he and other Karaites don't like that term--as he's made clear), I learned the hard way at the hands of those like Emily Katz Boling and "Rabbi" Jason Klein will attack you as a person if they can't attack what they consider the problems of Karaite and Messianic Judaism. By the way, I never submitted Jason's name, although I certainly found comfort in someone submitting it.
"Rabbinical Judaism is the Catholicism of Judaism."--a friend of mine (and I don't think that he'd care if I named him; I'm just too lazy to name him right now). Re Points 1 and 2, and looking at groups like Hillel, Outreach Judaism, and MERCAZ, one can see that Pharisee Judaism is indeed Judaism's "Catholicism" or Vaticanism ("Catholic" just means "Universal", and I hate when words are perverted. There are Evangelical "Catholics"/Vaticanists, by the way; just like there are Karaites who follow some Pharisaic customs that are acceptable in light of Tanakh and do not contradict it--e.g., wearing kippot, celebrating Hanukkah. Remember that G-d looks at intent [cf. 1 Samuel 16:7].).
Re Point 3, remember how Vaticanists (including Byzantine Vaticanists--though their Vaticans are their various flagship episcopates in places such as Constantinople [now Izmir]--and Jerusalem) used the Inquisitions, pogroms, tribunals, and other tactics to attack Jews, Protestants, and others who weren't "Catholic" or "Catholic enough". This is what groups like Yad L'Achim, MERCAZ (who "[o]ppose any change in ‘Who is a Jew’ and ‘The Law of Return’"), and Outreach Judaism do to those who "aren't Jewish" or "aren't Jewish enough".
Just because I don't respond to
or engage with everything doesn't mean that I don't have a view on it. Maybe,
e.g., I could just be letting you look stupid after a certain point in a
conversation. Don't think that you've won the argument because maybe you haven't.
In fact, you might've lost it so badly and I'm trying to save you for
embarrassment even, even while I'm letting you look stupid enough.
And one last word toEmily [Entry Two here],
by the way: my mistake was giving you a chance to understand my comment. You
twisted my comments about Non-Orthodox Jews who care about Shavu'ot intolashon-hara, and I should've
reported and/or blocked you right there and then. By the way, I'd take
"Katz" out of your name--you are nokohenet-tzedek and
do not deserve a name that means "Kohen-Tzedek". You walk in
the ways of theLevi'im-rahim, notTzadok.And you give the priesthood
to "rabbis"like
Jason--how dare you! If you keep that up, you will be cursed as was Uzziah and Jeroboam--and more so
because you are akohen who
gave the priesthood to Non Kohanim.
I hope that I was clear enough
to you and the other revisionists, Anti Messianics, Anti
Semites and/or Self Haters, and others about whom I'm thinking. By the way,
don't comment on this entry--I will not publish your comments or any comments
of those in your circle. As I stated, I should have blocked you last time and
will block you this time to save you for embarrassment even--you
embarrassed yourself last time by twisting mylashon-tovintolashon-hara.
Also, forgiving doesn't mean forgetting.
Entry Two
"Emily Katz Boling
·Please remove the tweet you posted with a
link to our conversation. It has my name on it and I would not like that on
Twitter and then you proceed to talk badly about me and my boyfriend (who has
done nothing) on there.
Thank you
"
I'm not removing anything. You commented on something that I
shared publicly (e.g., on the article itself, and as I would've shared in
general on Facebook had I looked at the privacy settings more closely--and
"Friends of Friends" is public enough, anyway); you're held to
account publicly. After you slandered me when I exemplified UMBC JSU/Hillel as
a Non-Orthodox community that cares about Shavu'ot, I owe you no favors.
Besides, I removed Frank as well. I don't keep non-friends'
boyfriends as friends. Besides, what does that say about him that he's dating
you--someone who would slander someone just because he or she is Messianic? If
Frank has a problem with it, he can come to me. You're his girlfriend, not his
mother; and he's old and mature enough to talk to me (I can only hope,
anyway.).
Let me tell you something else, Emily. What I said and what you
said is in replay all over again. Don't lie about me, and you won't be held to
account for doing so:
As a Messianic Jew, I
find two of the comments really problematic:
1) "The event it
commemorates—God giving the Torah to the Jews at Mount
Sinai—is arguably the most pivotal in the narrative of the Jewish
people. But from the treatment it receives next to its more popular siblings—at
least within non-Orthodox American communities—you wouldn’t know it." I
care about Shavu'ot, and even admire what people like UtahSoccerMom do. Also,
the Kosher Korner at UMBC (which is Non Messianic and has mainly Non-Messianic
patrons, mostly those who go to the JSU/Hillel events headed up by a
Reconstructionist) is closed beyond the Shavu'ot holiday (May 13-May 19,
although Karaites and Messianics like me celebrate Shavu'ot on only the 19th).
2) "Hanukkah is
so visible that conservative talk radio hosts think it threatens
Christmas." I have never heard talk-radio hosts say that. They're more
worried about the Atheists and Agnostics who threaten the legality of Christmas
and Hanukkah celebrations within the United States.
When it comes to theological significance, the late-spring
festival of Shavuot is no slouch: The event it commemorates—God giving the
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And to message me on my public-figure Facebook page when I blocked
you. How dare you! I want nothing to do with you, and I made that I want
nothing to do with you quite clear. Besides, people like you are part of why
UMBC JSU/Hillel involvement and Jewish communal life in general at UMBC is
declinining. People who try to walk in Tanakh can and should not stand those
who deliberately have walked off of thederech-Yehovah
v'Tanakh, and persecute those who do walkb'haderech-Yehovah
v'Tanakh. People are quickly figuring out that people like you, like Jason,
and like others are those kinds of people who do all kinds ofchullil-Yehovah b'HaShem-Yehovah--thus
breaking the third of theAseret
HaD'varimin particular.
You clearly didn't learn from when Becca persecuted me. You'll
learn this time: I am not a doormat; I am not one about who you may speaklashon-hara, and I am one who
is not coming back to UMBC JSU/Hillel or even the Kosher Korner--after all, I'd
hate to run into you there.
My mistake for ever speaking any lashon-tovabout UMBC JSU/Hillel or even the
Kosher Korner--after all, you and your ilk do nothing but twist what I say intolashon-hara, every bit for
which you deserve to be called out. I also guarantee that if you keep treating
me and others as you have treated me and them (and I rightly group you in with
certain people), you will drive people all the more away from the UMBC
JSU/Hillel and Kosher Korner to the point at which there'll no longer be an
UMBC JSU/Hillel and Kosher Korner. After all, people won't want to try to
derive benefit from them if all they'll get is Hell for doing so.
Besides, as I said, Emily contacted me on my public page and commented regarding my public tweets. Her name will be known; to respond to her using Tanakh is not hate speech, and she will not hurt me and (as I'm sure that she has) others and get away with it--especially since she has a name which means "kohan tzedek", and I guarantee you that she is ironically not. She will not violate my First, Ninth, and Fourteenth Amendment Rights to stand up to her; and she clearly needs lessons in both Tanakhand the Constitution, so I'm going to repost the entries with the original links to Tanakh pirkei and the constitutional amendments (and the relevant articles of the Fourteetnth Amendment) with my emphasis:
"Congress shall makeno law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; orabridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceablyto assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances."I dealt with her on the original post itself several times, and she and whoever is supporting her didn't like that. Guess what; you're part of the government of UMBC JSU and Hillel, whether de facto or de jure, and you will get called out if you bully someone by perverting his or her lashon tov about UMBC JSU/Hillel into lashon hara.UMBC JSU/Hillel is an organization at UMBC, a public/government school; and it has the Fourteenth Amendment, which encompasses the Bill of Rights, apply to it. The Fourteenth Amendment thus applies to the government/public-school organization government that UMBC/JSU Hillel has.
"The enumeration in the Constitution, of certain rights, shall not be construed to deny or disparage othersretained by the people." She may not quash my First Amendment Rights of criticizing her in light of her perversion of my lashon tov and in a religious context as hate speech or personal attacks on her or our shared ethnicity. As I said and demonstarted (including with a link to Ezekiel 48), she is a so-called "Katz" who is of "the Levites [who] went astray" and did not do tzedek when she twisted my lashon tov into lashon hara. As a Jew (and one who is a Levite) myself, anyway, I have the right and even a mitzvah to correct another Jew (let alone another Levite) if he or she (in this case, she) has gone astray (even if, and though, she ranks above me).
"All persons born or naturalized in the United States, and subject to the jurisdiction thereof, are citizens of the United States and of the State wherein they reside. No State shall make or enforce any law which shall abridge the privileges or immunities of citizens of the United States; nor shall any State deprive any person of life, liberty, or property, without due process of law; nor deny to any person within its jurisdiction the equal protection of the laws....The Congress shall have power to enforce, by appropriate legislation, the provisions of this article." Again, UMBC JSU/Hillel is an organization at UMBC, a public/government school; and it has the Fourteenth Amendment, which encompasses the Bill of Rights, apply to it. The Fourteenth Amendment thus applies to the government/public-school organization government that UMBC/JSU Hillel has.
So, Emily, anyone who joined her in falsely reporting my response to her as hate speech, and Facebook could all be easily sued; especially since she first bullied me, then reported my response on my own blog which is protected under the Constitution and various case lawsas hate speech.However, Messianic Jews are not to sue anybody; so I will (luckily for Emily) treated her as she deserves and sue her, let alone anyone who joined her or Facebook.
I will, nonetheless, repost the entries--and that is that.
Unpublished again. Why? Because lie after lie is contained in here:
"Nicole, my intention is not to hurt your feelings, nor am I a bully. I am trying to hopefully help you see what others see of you. Unfortunately most people follow you because your videos are like a car accident; no one wants to look but you can't turn away. Not the way to become "famous". When you cannot think of an intelligent response you resort to name calling and lying. Not very mature or God like. Again, you have lied by omission by publicly sharing only your part of our conversation and omitting my comments. Who's the controlling bully now, Nicole?! Soooo I suppose this comment will not make it either."
I have had quite a few people follow me because they've felt that I have had something to contribute. I don't know who this shame to Perry Hall, Maryland is; but I hope that someone else stops him or her from trying to hurt me and hurting others really soon--before he or she ultimately further hurts only him or her self.
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