Originally On LinkedIn: Re Sexual Harassment In the Workplace As Manifested By Roger Ailes

Let's face that Roger Ailes sexually harassed Gretchen Carlson, and even an intellectually-honest layperson—including an intellectually-honest aspiring professional—can see that—and at least aspiring professionals can learn from this tragedy while they look to enter the workforce, which may sadly hold incidents of harassment in their futures.

Everyone needs to note, for example, that:

1. Gretchen Carlson filed the lawsuit after she was terminated, and she finally felt free to speak up.
2. Roger Ailes has not pressed criminal-libel and fraud charges. He, however, did try to get the case moved from a New Jersey state court—neutral territory—to federal court—and he, having worked for Richard Nixon, has connections in the federal government.
3. Given that Gretchen Carlson wrote those notes asking for more airtime, one can bet that her contract was breached against her multiple times—e.g., that she was not getting the airtime that her contract stipulated.
4. One can also bet that praise for Ailes that she wrote in her 2015 book was blackmailed out of her.
5. Not only has Gretchen Carlson reached a point—so have six colleagues whom spoke to "The Blaze", with two publicly identifying themselves.
6. Only three ex colleagues have vocally spoken in favor of Roger Ailes and against Gretchen Carlson.
7. One has to now wonder why Alisyn Camerota really left Fox News—what did "more opportunity" really mean?

The victim shaming that Gretchen Carlson has endured, by the way, goes to prove that sexual harassment and other abuse against women is indeed still rampant in the workplace, and inexcusably rampant. In other words, is abuse against women in the workplace excusable since "it happens all the time"?

Good luck to the likes of Roger Ailes, though—Roger Ailes and his ilk will need luck when their careers are ended because of their mistreatments of women and their subsequent inabilities to recruit women as employees.

Even If I Wrote This Before, I'll Write It Again...

1. Whenever I hear "Pigs in a blanket; fry them like bacon!", I am reminded that we still called "pigs" and other slurs; and we face threats of Auschwitz again.
2. When "Black Lives [Really Don't] Matter" targets Jewish bastions and the bastions' vicinities—e.g., Ferguson in St. Louis' vicinity, Northwest Baltimore, where Park Heights is; Baton Rouge, and Dallas—I think of the pogroms, especially since kapo Glenn Greenwald blamed the Mossad for Ferguson (which makes Glenn Greenwald a kapo) and fellow Anti Semites of the "Black Lives [Really Don't] Matter" Movement—such as the Nation Of Islam and the Black Panthers—have joined "Black Lives [Really Don't] Matter".
3. If Black lives really mattered to them, where are they advocating for groups like the Lemba and Falasha? If they're going to parallel Israel:"Palestine" to the police:Black men, why don't go after the real trouble in Israel and its perpetuators: not the "occupation" of "Palestine" and "racist" Jews, but the chokehold of Agudat Yisra'el and Netanyahu on Israel? After all, many Lemba, Falasha who were supposed to make aliyah, and other Black Jews would like to go home; thanks—so would a lot of us Non-Black Jews!

I'd write more if I could (and trust that I wish that I could write more!). Nonetheless, I think that many will get—even if they don't like—my point.

Reilly Agrees With Her "Momma": Reilly Needs A "Poppa"

Reilly's "momma" asked Reilly if she would like a "poppa". If "Momma" should ever be able to find a "Poppa" for Reilly—and obviously, a man for herself—Reilly would prefer to call him...

1. "Tateh"—at least she indicated yesterday.
2. "Daddy", or...
3. "Poppa"

"Poppa" ended up winning out.

To All Philadelphia-Area And Other Christians, Catholic And Otherwise....

Someone needs to break down the controversy regarding Pope Francis And Bishop Chaput in a Biblical manner. Allow me, although I am imperfect, to do that. Thus, let's start with the first point—after all, first things come first:

"Francis didn’t create a church wide admission to Communion for divorced and civilly remarried Catholics as some progressives had wanted. But in the April document, he suggested bishops and priests could do so on a case-by-case basis in what could become a significant development in church practice."

Pope Francis is right, and Bishop Chaput is wrong. According to the Bible (and I'm using the NRSV for the benefit of Catholics here, since many would consider reading a Protestant translation to be heretical and I consider the NIV a heretical translation for good reason):

1. "He said to them, “Whoever divorces his wife and marries another commits adultery against her; and if she divorces her husband and marries another, she commits adultery.”"
2. Look at how I linked "adultery" in Mark 10:11-12. The root of the word for adultery can also refer to idol worship—arguably, then (as I'd pondered before), adultery can be more than sexual—"lust" (per Matthew 5:27-28) can (as I stated, arguably) be, for example, a lust for power and control, or a lust for alcohol and/or drugs (not legally-prescribed and -used drugs, by the way). In other words, a spouse is technically cheating on the other spouse if he or she is abusive or refusing to be treated for alcoholism and/or drug addiction—he or she is putting his desire for power and control, or his or her craving for alcohol and drugs in the place of his or her spouse.
3. You don't need any understanding of Greek or a concordance to agree with Pope Francis that forbidding widowed spouses and Biblically-divorced divorcees to civilly remarry is wrong.

On the second point with the exception of the subpoint regarding civilly-remarried couples, Bishop Chaput is right:

"The Philadelphia guidelines say Catholics in same-sex partnerships, civilly remarried parishioners and unmarried couples living together should not be permitted to serve on parish councils, instruct the faithful, serve as lectors or dispense Communion."

On this one, I don't even need to quote Tanakh (the Old Testament) or the New Testament. In terms of same-sex romantic relationships of any kind, both Tanakh and the New Testament unequivocally state that same-sex romantic partnerships of any kind—whether same-sex dating, same-sex civil unions, or same-sex marriages—are wrong. Both also state that fornication is wrong, and the case of the Samaritan woman demonstrates that fornication includes non-marital cohabitation that is sexual in nature—remember that she was living with a man to whom she was not married—and as I said, I really didn't need to use quotes: any Christian (Jewish or gentile, Catholic or Non Catholic) and many Non Christians (including many Anusim) are familiar with the prohibitions against homosexual activity and non-marital cohabitations of sexual natures.

(By the way, as I found out a long time ago and for example, my late paternal grandfather used to fall asleep in the back of the church while my paternal grandmother, my father, and my father's two siblings would sit for Mass—trust me when I say that Pop-Pop was a Anusi whom had no interest in Jesus, and I could both give other examples that I haven't given before and regive examples that I have given before. Incidentally, maybe it was actually Pop-Pop whom was more shomer kashrut when he was still alive.

(My point is, of course, that other Non Christians would know since even my Anusi grandfather—a Rushisher-Ungarisher Yid with a father from Lipsk in Suwalki Gubernia and a mother whose parents were from Budapeszt and Locse—knew, and at least his ancestors were well aware of what even the Talmud says about same-sex marriage, and they knew that Tanakh prohibited man-man and woman-woman same-sex romances.).

In conclusion, Score One for Pope Francis—case-by-case analysis per remarriages counts—and Score One for Bishop Chaput—same-sex romantic relationships and non-marital cohabitions of sexual natures are wrong. 

July 5, 1945: On This Day

1. 71 years ago, the USSR murdered resistance fighters in Augustów. Among them were Andrulewicz cousins of mine, as well as a Margiewicz cousin. Because we were and are Anusim and bnei-Anusim, their sides were never recognized as Jews until now. Also, the Holocaust was never recognized as having been in Russia beyond 1945—until the gulags were closed in 1960, Stalin's attempt at a "Final Solution" continued. May all of the more than 6 Million Jews whom were murdered in the Holocaust be counted as Holocaust victims.
2. Also on this day, Julia Fosko Rusnak blessedly died and did not have to see the horrid days coming. Granted that she died a horrible death, which involved surgical complications due to appendix-removal surgery. Still, she was taken from her own bed in the hospital:

"The righteous perisheth, and no man layeth it to heart, and godly men are taken away, none considering that the righteous is taken away from the evil to come. He entereth into peace, they rest in their beds, each one that walketh in his uprightness."

By the way, I know that my family gets mad at me for having found out and acknowledged what Andrew Rusnak and Mary Rusnak Gaydos did. Nonetheless, I can and will not change the past, and I have already made clear that I will not blame the Foczkos.

Originally On LinkedIn: Why I Have Nine Pending LinkedIn Invitations: Hint: I'm Not Here To Facebook

The theme of how LinkedIn has gone from a professional-networking forum to a social-media forum with even some cesspool parts has obviously become a recurring theme. I myself have been will be the first to admit that I've probably or even definitely contributed to that in part: i.e., I've likely posted more Facebookesque content and/or content in more of a Facebookesque way than I should have. 

I nonetheless have tried to keep LinkedIn a professional-networking forum on my end, and I've written that I hope that Microsoft's buyout of LinkedIn would affect LinkedIn to rebecome LinkedIn instead of another Facebook, Twitter, or WhatsApp or whatever other "What's that app?" social-media application. By the way, "application" is of course the term that most professionals are supposed to call an "app"—after all, a separation of standard language and colloquialisms/dialects/"slang" exists along with the separation of the professional and personal realms—unless one has to utilize slang terms in his or her field (e.g., if he or she is a general-demographics researcher with Pew or a TMZ reporter, or an analyst and a commentator), he or she might as well leave his or her colloquial way of speaking in his or her personal realm (e.g., at home)!

On that note, one ought to leave—or at least try to leave—his or her way of connecting with people in his or her personal realm—including in regard to how he or she uses social media—within his or her personal realm. For my part, I've either rejected LinkedIn invitations, held off on accepting LinkedIn invitations, and even removed LinkedIn connections; and I've even reported people whose LinkedIn profiles have looked suspicious. 

In conclusion, I suggest that my currently-backlogged connection inviters and others understand—especially if I did not make clear in many of my previous LinkedIn posts—that I'm here to professionally network, not open another social media account, and that I won't be reaching out to or accepting the reachings out of many people—and even on Facebook and other social-media forums that I do use, I don't reach out to or accept the reachings out of many people, even though I'm aspiring to be an analyst and a commentator whom needs to network as much as any other aspiring and professional analyst-commentator needs to network.

Incidentally, while I believe that "to network" is a professionally-acceptable infinitive, and the conjugations thereof are professionally acceptable, I want someone to correct me if my belief is erroneous. 

Originally On LinkedIn: Why I Don't Want To Start Off With An Entry-Level Job: Hint: It's Not Because I Feel Entitled

It's because an entry-level job may be my only job if I were to take one. Having Cerebral Palsy as well as OCD/Anxiety, Depression, and ADD, I am not viewed as an employable person whom happens to have a physical disability and mental illnesses—I am viewed as an unemployable disability and cocktail of mental illness whom is good enough only for an entry-level job if I'm good enough even for that, and never up able to move in the career ladder because I am a disability and cocktail [of] mental illnesses—I am viewed as a would-be embarrassment, liability, expense, and burden to employers.
I know how I'm viewed because I've lived it in all realms of my life—e.g., familial, romantic, academic, and obviously professional. 


That's part of why I'm working on becoming an analyst-commentator and author—I do not want to be viewed as an unemployable disability whom's good only for entry-level jobs if I'm ever be employable at all. I also do not want to be defined by my disabilities—in fact, I just yelled at my sister as I was about to type "stop telling me to be an advocate for people with disabilities":

There you ******* go.

Too many a family member, friend, and other kind of person have suggested that I be an advocate for people with disabilities—just as my sister suggested that I start an organization for people with disabilities—I compare it to when African Americans were viewed as disabilities because of their skin color and definable only by their skin color, which was viewed as a disability.

Just like Martin Luther King, Jr. and other African Americans whom did not want to be defined "by the color of their skin, but by the content of their character", I did and do not want to be viewed as and defined by my Cerebral Palsy, OCD/Anxiety, Depression, and ADD—I want to be defined as an employable person and contributing member of society whom happens to have Cerebral Palsy, OCD/Anxiety, Depression, and ADD.

More About Deeply-Thought-Of Considerations: Why I've Become A Skeptic About Finding Someone (e.g., More Of Part Of the Ugly Part)

Since I have, e.g., Cerebral Palsy and Depression, I might be a burden and medical expense in of myself to many a guy, which is part of what I've considered: I know that many a guy would not end up staying with someone like me in the long term—besides, I need someone whom's physically and mentally stronger than me, and would be willing to be strong enough for me.

I've seriously become a skeptic about finding someone because of that—that is, because I have C.P., Depression, etc.. On one dating website, I had to block one person because of his ableism, etc.. Another, I'm pretty sure, rejected me because of my disability:

"Thank you for the kind message, but unfortunately I'm looking for a different type of girl." 

Yeah; "[d]ifferent type of girl" my tuchus—he could've just been honest instead of backhandedly polite. I also think that prospects have gone down since I posted a picture with me with my cart (What did they want me to do: lie?!). 

As I stated, I've seriously become a skeptic about finding someone because of that—not to mention the rampant ableism in our society, anyway; such as regarding the awful case of the ableist (and perhaps Anti-Semitic) TSA agent whom battered a girl named Hannah Cohen.

If I Didn't Keep Asking People To Pray For Me (And For Others), Then...

People would have to worry. Right now, I'm only getting older every day and not strong enough for myself—I'm still, e.g., jobless, single, etc.—and I've blogged and otherwise written, as well as spoken about, my struggles with Cerebral Palsy, mental illnesses, etc..

Besides, I can ascertain that many other people with disabilities and mental illnesses can relate—and who knows whether or not they feel like they wish they had the courage to speak up like I'm speaking up; despite that I'm just talking about what I endure in part to keep myself from doing something detrimental to myself, as opposed to being courageous? After all, addictions (e.g., Alcoholism) and suicide run in my family; and bottling anything up can become dangerous to the point of fatality.

If nothing else, keeping myself alive for some reason is somehow being for others and not just myself, isn't it?

This one is a Vincent van Gogh drawing that found on Wikimedia Commons.

This one I found on Facebook as I was browsing. This speaks to a lot of what I'm enduring—the loneliness, missing a lot of people, some secrets that even I, the type that believes in as much full disclosure as possible, have; and, in my case, knowing that people like me are out there and wondering why I have to numb, mitigate, or suppress my own pain just because others are suffering. Incidentally, I think about my two ex boyfriends, each of whom I had to report to the police and should not have dated in the first place—I dated one from August 4, 2004 to about May 19, 2005; and the other one I dated for literally six days, or at least I initially remembered from about February 26, 2013 to March 2 or 3, 2013. Maybe it was 10 days, from about February 20th to March 2nd—either way, that came after almost eight years of being single again and is being followed by over three years of being single again for a second time.

Originally On LinkedIn: Posts About Brexit-Turning-Bregret Are More Proof That LinkedIn Is Being Misused? No.

As I replied to someone whom observed that 10,000 Brexit-turned-Bregret posts is more proof that LinkedIn is turning into another social medium as opposed to a professional one, I'll observe here: 10,000 Brexit-turned-Bregret posts is actually not a part of that proof.

In fact, since Brexit-turned-Bregret-hopefully-turned-Bredemption affects the UK's and other countries' workforces, 10,000 posts about what could eventually be Britain's Kol Nidre moment demonstrate that LinkedIn is a professional forum wherein Britain's possibly-eventual Kol Nidre moment is concerned. After all, LinkedIn users seem to have concern about, for example, Jewish, Polish, and other workers whom could be forced to leave the United Kingdom's and other workforces if Brexit ends up not turning into Bredemption.

These LinkedIn users understand that these discriminated-against citizens and legal non-citizen workers could be forced to leave the workforces, leave empty professional niches behind them, and leave already-vulnerable economies more vulnerable along with the global economy which each country's economy affects in some way—and the BNP/"Britain First" crowd will have Britain be the first to professionally and economically crash if they have their way.

Originally On LinkedIn, With Some Additions And Revisions Here: Can "Bregret" Turn Into "Bredemption"/"Breversal"/The UK's "Kol Nidrei" Moment? | Nicole V. Czarnecki | Pulse | LinkedIn

When I wrote about "Bregret", I did not write about it for no reason. As Labour Party MP David Lammy and other UK citizens are begging, "Let us not destroy our economy on the basis of lies and hubris...".

Destroying an economy includes throwing people out of workforces, for example; and unless Britain can turn "Bregret" into "Bredemption"/"Breversal", the UK is in trouble.

May there be a "Bredmption"/"Breversal" that we can truly call the UK's "Kol Nidre" moment—since Yom Kippur 5776 is coming up in October, anyway, and the UK may have time to reverse their "Leave" votes and keep PM Cameron from stepping down in October. After all, this seems to be the tone of many of the 52% of UK voters whom prohibited the UK from vowing itself to the EU any longer:

"Prohibitions, oaths, consecrations, vows that we may vow, swear, consecrate, or prohibit upon ourselves..."regarding them all, we regret them henceforth."

By the way, PM Cameron is a descendant of Eliyahu HaLevi Levita, and that makes the Yom Kippur connection all the more fitting.

Originally On LinkedIn: The Brexit (Soon To Be Bregret) And The Workforce

1. Are you a Jew, Pole, Syrian or Iraqi (perhaps even a Syrian or an Iraqi Jew) or other person whom's part of a Non-United Kingdom ethnic group? If so, get ready to be stereotyped—as if you haven't already been—whether or not you're legally in the United Kingdom. You'll be treated as a foreigner whom's encroaching on the United Kingdom's job market, whether or not you already have a job and are a person with a good work ethic. By the way, read some of the posts on Polish Forums if you don't believe me in regards to the United Kingdom's Polonophobia—I have read about how Ethnic Poles and other Poland-connected people are treated.
2. Did you already read about how the NYSE and French, German, AsiaPacific (e.g., the Japanese Nikkei), and even the UK stock markets were hit? If you pay attention to history, you know that the Brexit-affected hits could lead to another Depression—and of course, more Anti Semitism (which may include another Holocaust), Polonophobia, and other xenophobia. Remember that Anti Semitism (and other xenophobia) and the 1929 NYSE Crash exacerbated each other—and a "Deutschland first" eerily echoes into almost 87 years later with "America first" (the slogan of a certain businessman whom hates Jews and exploited Polish workers in the United States) and "Britain first" (the slogan of the British National Party). Also remember how, e.g., a certain Otto Frank lost his job at his company and had to hide in an Annex at his former company's building.
3. Do you follow how the number of joblessness claims in the United States constantly rises and falls, and often comes in lower per the estimated amount of rising and higher per the estimated amount of falling? If you are in the United States, do not think that you are immune to being among the jobless someday—after all, many people during the Great Depression thought that they would be immune until, for example, the bank runs started happening in even the small towns.

Do not think that, for instance, giving the wolves Cameron and Merkel—two of the greatest allies of Israel, the people from whom many great professionals came—will not affect you, especially since not every Jew was able to bless the world like Drs. Einstein and Salk were. Also, many startups and other businesses that are in or linked to Israel will be hit—as if, for instance, Sodastream being hit and many gentile workers losing jobs wasn't enough. By the way, I can reasonably guess that at least one former Sodastream employee may be among the refugees, many of whom are escaping Daesh (now called the "Islamic State in Iraq and Syria".

Incidentally, why we call Daesh a state is beyond me—since Daesh is not a legitimate state. By the way, "ISIS" does not like the name Daesh, which is exactly why I call them that—I refuse to recognize an aspiring state whom plans to be a terrorist state, and whom is already taking livelihoods and lives away from many people. Besides, all one needs to do is look at terrorist states like North Korea, where the economy is abysmal and echoes of the Holocaust—including the German and Russian parts (with the gulags being a part of the Russian part)—permeate the lives of the North Korean people.

And Now, For The Recorded Version Of the Webcam-Upload-Technology Argument

See the written argument as well.

Since Reilly Decided To Use Clothespiles For A Temporary Bed And A Pillow, I Have...

My current phone wallpaper, a picture of my cute, clever, and hilarious dogter

I Don't Care About This Country—It's Not What You Think

I don't care about this country;
I care about only me.
I don't care about this country's people;
I care about only myself within this country.
I don't care about this country's population;
I care about myself as an individual whom makes up a part of it.
I am not responsible for my countrymen;
I am responsible for only myself.
I don't ask what my country can do for me;
I ask what I can do for my country.

אה, לא!

Ah, lo.

"“Nothing will separate us, against our will, from such men and women, whether they live in Israel or in any other country. Universities were born before the nation states; they have reasons that overcome any raison d’état.”"

The comments were good until then. Firstly, nation states were the norm back in ancient days (e.g., Yisra'el/Judaea/"Palestinia"; Roma, Hellas). Secondly, without batim-midrash and similar educational institutions, universities would've been nothing. By the way, that "Israel is part of [Italians'] identity," is drek. With the exception of the Roman, Tuscan, and other Italian remnants, Italy and Israel have nothing to do with each other but the pain that Italians caused Jews over the millennia.

What the Italians have right, though, is this: "going against Israel means going against ourselves". The Italians know that any nation who curses Israel will be cursed in turn, and the Romans down to the modern-day Italians would've gotten nowhere without (among other Jewish groups) sabras, Romani'otim, Sephardim, Italqim (obviously, since Italqim are Italian Jews), and Ashkenazim (including, I'm pretty sure, Pope Yochanahn Sha'ul ben Malka Chanah. Don't believe me? Go search on "Emilia". Also, Kaczorowska could easily be "bat ka'tz u'rov". By the way, Pope John Paul II really helped improve Christian and Jewish, including Jewish Christian and Non-Messianic Jewish, relations.).

The Italian Anti-BDS legislation, then, may be opportunistic and not out of a genuine love for Israel. 

Originally On LinkedIn: Will Microsoft Clean Up LinkedIn? Let's Hope—I Myself've Had Enough Of LinkedIn Being A Facebook | Nicole V. Czarnecki | Pulse | LinkedIn

When I read that LinkedIn will come under the umbrella of Microsoft at a price of $26.2B, I thought, "I just hope that their investment's worth it." Since Bill Gates is a technological pioneer, job creator, and philanthropist, though, it probably is. "Probably", of course, concerns whether Bill Gates has Microsoft and LinkedIn create jobs and retain employees within the United States—and even allied countries, especially where American expats live.

If Bill Gates and LinkedIn under Microsoft outsource (at least to tenuous allies, and somehow even to enemies—which they could scarily do), then LinkedIn'd've been better off remaining under its own umbrella. If, on the other hand, Bill Gates and Microsoft employ within and keep employees from the United States—and allied countries such as Israel, where many America-born olim and their sabra descendants live—then LinkedIn may reform and thrive under the Microsoft umbrella.

Besides, for LinkedIn to hire in, e.g., Tel Aviv and Jerusalem would take ko'ach after they stood in solidarity with Orlando—as opposed to the chutzpah that taking the usual path of least resistance would take. After all, by the way, plenty of out-of-work Sodastream alumni would consider a job at LinkedIn—perhaps especially if they're already using LinkedIn to try to find a jobs in lieu of their jobs at Sodastream, and perhaps if they want to work at LinkedIn to help others find jobs through the company through and at which they find jobs.

As I stated, let's hope that Bill Gates and Microsoft wisely invested $26.2B into bringing LinkedIn under their umbrella—since those who want to use LinkedIn as a professional network, the American out-of-work-for-now workforce, and out-of-work Sodastream almuni are among those whom count on Bill Gates and Microsoft to help put them to work by putting $26.2B to work. 

Deeply-Thought-Of Considerations That I've Made In Light Of Wanting Love While Getting Older And More Vulnerable Everyday

Part of why these past couple of months have been rough for me is because I'm 26 and continuing to be in a bad position simply because of being among the many people whom have disabilities, not to mention being a person with disabilities in other minority groups—the Jewish people and the female gender, for example. Incidentally, this is why I signed up for Maplematch: I prefer to have someone whom would consider moving to Canada (from which I could perhaps make aliyah) or making aliyah with me (despite Netanyahu and Agudat Yisra'el) if Donald Trump or Hillary Clinton becomes the POTUS.

I also did and have done way more than just sign up for MapleMatch. For example:

1. I once dabbled in online dating on, e.g., DateMySchool because I got a random invitation to that website. Needlessly to say, it didn't work out.
2. I've even used at PlentyofFish at the recommendation of a friend whom met her own bashert on there, for example. I know what I want in and with someone, and why I want what I want. I've also made sure to warn others why they might not want me, even if they would claim otherwise—and if you're a potential prospect whom's reading this, you might be among those whom might not want me despite what you might claim. Of course, that's part of what hurts me repeatedly; though it is what it is.

That's why I'd let any prospect know—or be reminded of—and be aware of  whom he'd be getting involved if I were a prospect of his. After all:

1. I have Cerebral Palsy—which is why I can't drive and am still looking for full-time work, for which I'm using volunteering as a stepping stone in part
2. I have mental illnesses: OCD/Anxiety, Depression, and ADD—all of which I am getting treated with medication and counseling
3. I want to thus spare him from having to deal with that, including having to help me with any medical and other expenses—e.g., I have an Intravenous Bacloften  Pump and, as I stated, I can't drive.
4. I want to also spare myself from being hurt by anyone whom cannot handle that

In other words, I don't want to be any kind of liability or burden to any man, let alone be hurt in the process of being a liability or burden to any man—I'm already a liability and/or burden in non-romantic relationships as is, despite that others claim that I'm not at all a liability or burden. Thus, any prospect of mine'd need consider if he'd be able to deal with me in the long term and not just in a moment or just the short term. I also hasten to add that—besides that I can't drive—I can't swim or participate in risky activities such as rock and mountain climbing, motorcycling, messing with pyrotechnics such as fireworks, and ice skating—besides, one of my mother's second cousins died in a motorcycle accident, and I've heard and read the horror stories about amateur fireworks users losing their limbs and/or lives.

Also, I can't just snap up and out of anything, and be healed of everything with which I'm dealing—life doesn't work like "name it, claim it" faith healing—I'd've been healed by now if God willed to heal me, and He didn't will to heal me:

1. I'm 26; I got the ITB Pump when I was 23.
2. My mental illnesses set off in the timespan of 2001-2013, from when was 11 to 23.

Getting worse overtime's not what I call healing, let alone healing overtime. I can only, then, guess why His strength is made perfect in my weakness, as His strength was made perfect in Paul's weakness*.

Besides, I've been hurt enough in my lifetime; and I want to just find someone and/or have someone find me at this point, and I just want the one whom God wills to somehow come into my life:

1. 26 is quite old for someone like me to have never been married, and 26 is older for people like me than it is for most, given how ableist society is.
2. Since I've never been married and I'm still—if you know what I mean—waiting for marriage, I'm really getting old and—at least in the eyes of many, if not most, in this ableist society—losing time and viability. 
3. I prefer to in a same-faith relationship, as interfaith dating backfired on me twice despite that each of my two exes claimed to be a Christian at a point in the beginning of the relationship.
4. While I'm not looking for Mr. Perfect or going to turn down anyone just because of a few bad choices and/or mistakes, I also prefer to avoid being used by or dealing with any man whom lives by being a player and/or other type of backstabber, an ableist and/or other type of bigot, and/or otherwise a man of bad character—each of my two exes was enough of that.

*Incidentally, perhaps I will be healed if I am able to make aliyah—Jesus did all of His known healing in Israel, and Jewish Christians were the ones whom healed others, both Jewish and gentile, as the Gospel was spread throughout the Roman Empire. Even, for example, Ananias healed fellow Jewish man Paul.

Let's Clear Up One Matter...

Terrorists are not animals. Since animals behave better than terrorists, animals like Reilly would find the charge that terrorists are animals to be insulting to animals and all loving owners of animals.

Re A Rough Couple Of Months (BTW, Thanks To Those Who've Borne With Me)—And I'll Hopefully Be Able To Help Anyone Whom Can Relate

"A merry heart is a good medicine; but a broken spirit drieth the bones."

Right now, I feel it—not to mention, too, while I often feel guilty about feeling my own pain and dealing with it as others are feeling and dealing with their pain. By the way—as I've mentioned—I'm a Jewish Christian, and I believe in the Parable of the Talents, etc.—and I'm baffled to realize to while some are suffering worse on the equality scare, all of us are suffering the same on the proportionality scale.

Nonetheless, I often feel guilty for feeling my—at least in comparison—1 while someone else feels his or her 2 or 5. Still, 1/1 = 2/2 = 5/5. Thus, it all comes down to a paradox: while some are going through worse than I'm enduring, I'm going through worse than others are enduring; yet, we're all enduring the same proportion of suffering.

Incidentally, I have to take issue with Amy Grant's "Better Than a Hallelujah": I find more Christian a "broken 'Hallelu Yah'" better than no "Hallelu Yah", even when I feel the way that the songwriters of "Better" do. Job knew that a broken "Hallelu Yah" was far better than anything that's apparently "better than a Hallelu Yah". Of course, one doesn't have to vocalize "Hallelu Yah" to say "Hallelu Yah". Notwithstanding, Christians have to try to say "Hallelu Yah" in all of our actions—didn't Paul remind us of that as he wrote down that we're to give thanks in all things?

Meanwhile, this is part of why many among everyone else laughs at, jeers, derides, and otherwise abhors Christians—there is a real problem when Leonard Cohen, who is not a Christian, gets part of the core of Christianity better than those whom profess to be Christians.

This also reminds me of how many other Non Christians—both Jewish and gentile—get that supposedly-Christian Donald Trump's lack of asking God for forgiveness—aka, lack of praising God for what he supposedly professes what the sacrifice of Christ means to him—shows up in his Non-Christian narcissism, greed, racism, sexism, ableism, and Anti Semitism.

On that note, I wonder how Jewish Christians such as Edith Stein (whom, out of strong conviction, became a Carmelite nun and a namesake of another Jewish Christian, St. Teresa), Eduardo Propper de Callejon, Sir Nicholas Wintour—the first having died in the Sho'ah, and the other two having risked their lives to save others from the Sho'ah—would feel about Donald Trump-supporting Jews and gentiles whom profess to have the same Messiah that they professed. Perhaps they would sum up their feelings with gentile Christian Corrie ten Boom's words: "You cannot love God without loving the Jewish people."

I, thus, have felt the weight especially as those whom also profess the Jewish Jesus of Nazareth and support Donald Trump have persecuted me—and others—for pointing out how a man who is his own idol, has an $100-Million jet and other opulence, and loves only White male gentiles cannot genuinely profess to be a Christian—that is, profess to love a self-sacrificing Jewish man whom (as I and other Christians believe) "was despised, and forsaken of men, a man of pains, and acquainted with disease," of which he healed those such a Syrophonecian-Greek girl continuously-bleeding woman whom touched one of his tzitziyot. By the way, I'm pretty sure that Donald Trump would not let in the Syrophonecian-Greek girl and her mother today, since he'd think them to be a part of Daesh instead of gentile Nasara (Note: some, as I learned while I Googled, have objected to "Nasara" because they think that they're being called "Nasara" in the sense of supporting Daesh—despite that Daesh hates "Nasara", Nazarenes, as much as Donald Trump does. Meanwhile, "Christian" was just as derogatory as "Nasrani"; so, the complainers, with all due respect, need to just embrace "Nasarani" as a way to be "Nasara" against Daesh.).

In sum, then, I've been feeling the pain with which I deal daily (e.g., CP, Depression), fallouts from more-recent pains that I've described (such as the continuing heartbreak of the ongoing baffling estrangement from a dear friend and father figure whom is also a writing mentor—not to mention the long backstory behind it), and the distress regarding the ascent of a modern-day prince of Tyre whom claims to be a Christian as he and supposedly-Christian supporters of his persecute me and others whom point out that he wouldn't let even Jesus into the U.S., let alone love the Syrophonecian-Greek mother whom came with her own "broken 'Halleu Yah'" and a chronically-bleeding and debilitated woman whom would need to come to the U.S. to get treatment if she lived today and God would choose only to show sufficient grace.