My Final D'varim L'Shalom Regarding Trump And the 2016 Election—At Least For A Little While

Trump's trying to make people think that what he did was only rough-and-tumble dirty politics, and that he'll now be uniting. People who've endured abuse like I have and refused to deny the abuse see Trump exactly for who he is.

Besides, I didn't lose relatives in the Holocaust and World War Two for nothing, did I? Some died even in the Russian part, and some fighting at Augustow when the Soviets, Putin's inspirations, invaded Poland—which was already left vulnerable because of the German part of the Holocaust. About three years after the massacre at Augustow, by the way, Stalin implemented his own "Final Solution".

As a Jewish Christian and bat-Anusim with Cerebral Palsy and mental illnesses, I've said "Never Trump" and "Never Hillary"—as a bat Yisra'el and an albe-imperfect Evangelical Christian, I wrote in Kasich knowing that I'd disavow everything from Anti Semitism to ableism to abortion. By the way, mazel tov v'yasher ko'ach to Poland—called "Polinyah" in Hebrew—on Poland's willingness to help provide for infants with disabilities instead of leaving them to face being aborted for "medical reasons".

Speaking of Poland, the U.S. had an opportunity to have a historic Slavic-Hispanic ticket voted into the White House because of the would've-been second on the ticket—Marco Rubio—would've been the VP to a son of an immigrant from Poland's fellow Slavic state Czechia—John Kasich. The U.S. would've also elected a historical third-generation-American ticket—as John Kasich is the son of a second-generation Czech-American father and second-generation Croatian-American mother (and may their memories be for a blessing), and Marco Rubio is the grandson of a first-generation Cuban-American refugee.

Besides, as Larry Sabato and other political analysts stated, a Kasich-Rubio ticket would've easily beaten a Hillary-Kaine or another Hillary ticket.

Nonetheless, whether you intended or didn't intend malice, those of you who voted for Trump proved that those who fail to learn from history doom themselves to risk repeating it. I can only hope that Trump will not be able to be another Pharaoh, Prince of Tyre, Nebuchadnezzar (although to be fair, at least Nebuchadnezzar did teshuvah later), Haman, Nero, Titus Flavius, Stalin, or ****** (although he does keep "My New Order" by his bedside, e.g.; so don't be surprised if he ends up being like ******).

By the way, don't be surprised if—on the other hand—Trump tries to bring Clinton into his administration somehow—though he'll be liable to throw her under the bus as he threw her under the bus when his ego became too big even to collude with her—"Never Trump" and "Never Hillary" go hand in hand for a reason, and as a Freedom of Information Act release proved.

Part Of My Take On Trump's 2016 "Win"

I don't know why, e.g., Ignacy and Feliksa Andrulewicz went back to Warszawa (though they were from now-Podlaskie Province), but maybe they made a right call. Maybe they foresaw something that Aleksjondria (z Andrulewiczόw) and Julian Czerniecki did not.

I say this as a Jew in dread for my life right now. Given that David Duke, e.g., is excited about Trump's victory and what many Never Trumpers have been saying will come to pass unless God delivers us, I am trying to figure out what to do.

At least:

1. I wrote in Kasich.
2. I was born and grew up in a country where I could—at least for a time—vote for whomever I wanted to vote.
3. I may be able to make the aliyah that Aleksjondria and Julian did not get to make—as immigrating to "Palestine" really wasn't on their minds at the time that they became Anusim to avoid being murdered in pogroms. Julian's parents were Anusim whom became ba'alim teshuvim, and Aleksjondria's parents permanently settled in Bosse after tuberculosis claimed a Morgovich relative in Stakliškės in April 1882—two months before Aleksjondria was born—considering all that, then, they had enough of a time becoming Anusim and immigrating to Pennsylvania after their families sat shiva for them. By the way, they continued to be Anusim when they joined kerovot whom were Anusim there—perhaps maybe they did foresee someone Anti Semitic winning Pennsylvania, then, and they knew to at least some extent how American politics worked—by the way, Julian's niece Katherine Chokola (z"l) had in-law family who,m were beer brewers and politicos.

I could write more, I suppose—by the way, maybe this part of why I didn't find out that I'm Jewish until later: i.e., having my faith in Jesus established first and then finding out that I'm Jewish, I got a whole new angle on what being a bat-Anusim and Jewish Christian is like. In other words, I may have had, e.g., a different perspective on the Trump "election" had I found out that I'm Jewish at a different time and/or not had my faith established in Jesus.

Meanwhile, some in my own family disappointingly voted for Trump—I can say that at least I didn't allow history to be lost on me. 

An Issue That's Been On My Mind: How 400-430 Years Could In A Parallel Way In Post-Ancient And Post-Medieval History

I didn't say "exactly 400-430 years". Nonetheless, I've concluded that that 400-430 years again applied to Jews from the time of the Alhambra Decree—when a disgusting practice of throwing Jews whom paid ship captains overboard happened—to either the time of the Dreyfus Affair—which began with his May 1892 arrest—or May 6, 1922, when strokes incapacitated Lenin and effected that Stalin would become Lenin's successor. At those points, Jews knew that making aliyah would be a wise action:

"13 And He said unto Abram: 'Know of a surety that thy seed shall be a stranger in a land that is not theirs, and shall serve them; and they shall afflict them four hundred years; 14 and also that nation, whom they shall serve, will I judge; and afterward shall they come out with great substance. 15 But thou shalt go to thy fathers in peace; thou shalt be buried in a good old age. 16 And in the fourth generation they shall come back hither; for the iniquity of the Amorite is not yet full.'"

This time, the Moseses were Herzl and the B'nei Akiva branch of HaPoel HaMizrachi—which was founded in Yisra'el 22 days after Lenin's stroke. Granted that both events occurred in Iyar instead of Nisan in the respective years, and that the Alhambra Decree happened in Adar II of 5251—right before Rosh HaShanah 5252. Still, right in the middle of Adar—the month in which Hadasah saved Persian Jewry from Haman, whom made a decree of ethnocidal murder in Nisan—and Iyar—in which Yisra'el was refounded—is Nisan:

"And the LORD spoke unto Moses and Aaron in the land of Egypt, saying: 2 'This month shall be unto you the beginning of months; it shall be the first month of the year to you[']."

By the way, a generation is 20 years, though generations and lifespans were usually longer back then (cf. the passage from Exodus 6 below. The 120-year life expectancy that was declared in the time of the Flood, by the way, began when Moses died.):

"And the LORD spoke unto Moses in the wilderness of Sinai, in the tent of meeting, on the first day of the second month, in the second year after they were come out of the land of Egypt, saying: 2 'Take ye the sum of all the congregation of the children of Israel, by their families, by their fathers' houses, according to the number of names, every male, by their polls; 3 from twenty years old and upward, all that are able to go forth to war in Israel: ye shall number them by their hosts, even thou and Aaron. 4 And with you there shall be a man of every tribe, every one head of his fathers' house.[']" 

Also, Iyar is the second month—again, when the Dreyfus Affair began and Lenin had his stroke—and Iyar was the time for Zionism to begin—after all, Adar and Nisan were the months that culminated the buildup to the Dreyfus Affair and the beginning of Stalinization. Remember, by the way, that the 12 sons of Ya'akov and others had to pass away before slavery in Egypt began:

"1 Now these are the names of the sons of Israel, who came into Egypt with Jacob; every man came with his household: 2 Reuben, Simeon, Levi, and Judah; 3 Issachar, Zebulun, and Benjamin; 4Dan and Naphtali, Gad and Asher. 5 And all the souls that came out of the loins of Jacob were seventy souls; and Joseph was in Egypt already. 6 And Joseph died, and all his brethren, and all that generation. 7 And the children of Israel were fruitful, and increased abundantly, and multiplied, and waxed exceeding mighty; and the land was filled with them. {P}"

"These are the families of Simeon. 16 And these are the names of the sons of Levi according to their generations: Gershon and Kohath, and Merari. And the years of the life of Levi were a hundred thirty and seven years. 17 The sons of Gershon: Libni and Shimei, according to their families. 18 And the sons of Kohath: Amram, and Izhar, and Hebron, and Uzziel. And the years of the life of Kohath were a hundred thirty and three years. 19 And the sons of Merari: Mahli and Mushi. These are the families of the Levites according to their generations. 20 And Amram took him Jochebed his father's sister to wife; and she bore him Aaron and Moses. And the years of the life of Amram were a hundred and thirty and seven years. 21 And the sons of Izhar: Korah, and Nepheg, and Zichri. 22 And the sons of Uzziel: Mishael, and Elzaphan, and Sithri. 23 And Aaron took him Elisheba, the daughter of Amminadab, the sister of Nahshon, to wife; and she bore him Nadab and Abihu, Eleazar and Ithamar. 24 And the sons of Korah: Assir, and Elkanah, and Abiasaph; these are the families of the Korahites. 25 And Eleazar Aaron's son took him one of the daughters of Putiel to wife; and she bore him Phinehas. These are the heads of the fathers' houses of the Levites according to their families." 

So, a generation's life expectancy by that point—at least among HaB'nei Levi—was 137 years. So, go for 120*4 and 137 * 4, and you get 480 and 548 years. The average is 514 years, and enough below 514 years had passed between 1492-1892 and 1492-1922. Also consider this: the max life expectancy for those whom the Spirit is with (cf. Genesis 6:3) will someday be 100 years, and is pretty much the max life expectancy that by now—which is why centenarians and those whom are older than centenarians are celebrated and make the news:

"19 And I will rejoice in Jerusalem, and joy in My people; and the voice of weeping shall be no more heard in her, nor the voice of crying. 20 There shall be no more thence an infant of days, nor an old man, that hath not filled his days; for the youngest shall die a hundred years old, and the sinner being a hundred years old shall be accursed"  

We can see here that the sinner will die at 100 years and that the redeemed will go on to live past 100 years. By the way, 25 is close enough to 20; and that's when the brain reaches its full-development point. So, generations in terms of biology could really be argued to begin at 25 at max and 20 at minimum.

If you don't believe me, look at both Tanakh and at these Google searches, and peruse the sources that you find:

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As I concluded, then, 400-430 years on a literal level and on parallel levels have applied to Sephardi, Ashkenazi, Mizrahi, and other Jews to this day.

I Thought That "Lugenpresse!" Is German...And Is Italian-Style Anti Semitism In Tandem As Trumpism Rises?

"Two ordinary dudes who randomly happened to know the term Nazis used to denounce the press in the 1930s. At a Trump rally. https://t.co/7djlKvafYo"

— Brian Murphy (@Burrite) October 23, 2016

Meanwhile, for valid reasons, one side of my Lehr family "were not allowed to speak German" during World War Two—per a cousin in Baltimore. The same went for an off-color joke that my grandmother—whom we call "Mom-Mom"—made, whether she knew or didn't know that she is Jewish—and Pop-Pop Pundt, one of Dora Lehr Pundt's grandsons, understandably chased her with a belt around the kitchen when she jokingly called Granduncle Jack (of blessed memory) "just like Hitler".

Also, incidentally, some of the DeBoys were indeed Jews—as a DeBoy cousin told me when I asked, and I'm pretty sure that Catherine Peltz DeBoy was one of them (Rosina Braun DeBoy may've been one, too, though I can't be sure.). By our time, the majority of DeBoys ended up in Germany—though we liked to pretend that it was Alsace-Lorraine (which our branch left in about 1630—perhaps we were far from thrilled that Anti Semitism was creeping into every echelon of German society, including Prussian society, at the same time that the Haskalah was occurring)—and, as my cousin explained, some DeBoys did marry Jews—and perhaps that's why Nana Pundt slapped Mom-Mom on the face during this exchange (not to mention that she was Roman Catholic at the time, though the DeBoys had actually been Lutheran for quite a while at that point—even her father's uncle for whom her father was a namesake was Lutheran. I'm not exactly sure where being Catholic reentered for the DeBoys—maybe Catherine Peltz was a Jewish Catholic.).

While I grant that I was not even born until well after this exchange, I understand that Jewish-Italian relations have often been as fraught as Irish-Italian relations. Besides, the Romans breached our walls, later tried to make Vatican Hill the New Zion, and exalted one of their bishops as basically the New Kohen HaGadol.

"If you date an Italian, I will disown you."

"What about the Pope? He's Italian."

*slap across the face* 

(By the way, she of course did not mean that she would date the Pope.)


Besides, the first good Pope in a long time—with few exceptions here and there, if any real exceptions—was John Paul II, a Matrilineal Jew with a Polish father. Also, a good Pope was actually Cardinal Ratzinger, whom is actually Jewish and whom actually resisted the Nazis. (Being a bat-Anusim, I understand the danger of identifying as Jewish once you find out and/or decide to reveal that you are Jewish. Incidentally, Marie Curie—for another example—may've been Jewish. Too bad that many Italians envied and/or otherwise hated that, and their hatred of us only led them to persecute us and deprive themselves of many of the blessings that have been brought into the world through us.).

As for when you trace back to days from the Reformation to the Renaissance, you will find that the German and other Anti Semites—including that, for a lack of more-polite terminology, piece-of-crap Pseudo Reformer known as Martin Luther—had Roman Catholicism—not Evangelical Roman Catholicism—as their worldview (not that Eastern Roman Catholicism—aka, "Byzantine Catholicism"—was better—in fact, Constantinople was in the Eastern Roman-turned-Byzantine Empire).

My point being, "Lugenpresse!" is rooted in the Ancient Anti Semitism that has its roots in German Paganism and Pseudo Christianity along with Normative—not Evangelical—Roman Catholicism. One can see, then, why Luther-inspired Nazism and Roman-inspired Anti Semitism interweave to form Trumpism.

Jordanian, Suicidally Flying Into Powerlines, And On Visas: Too Eerie Of Him Or Too Bigoted Of Me?

Either way, I can say that the NTSB, FAA, and FBI prevented another 9/11. If this kid (who was 12-14 when 9/11 happened) had that much of a grudge against his instructor, imagine what he'd've done had he survived or even gotten angry with somebody else—after all, the investigation panned out details such as the following:

"Public records show Freitekh has lived in the Chicago suburb of Orland Hills since 2013 and received a federal private pilot certificate last year. He entered the U.S. in 2012 on an M1 visa for flight school and at some point he also aquired [sic.] an F1 visa for language school, CBS News reported."

Being a peer of the for-all-intents-and-purposes suicide bomber, I can ascertain that the aerocidal student remembered—just as much as the rest of the Millennials remember—how details about how the 9/11 unfolded. After all, that the authorities allowed that the 9/11 hijackers overstayed their visas, were in flight schools, etc. never leaves one's memory.

At least this time, the authorities brought to their fronts of their minds what they allowed to occur and prevented it from occurring again—and they'll be keeping an eye on anyone like this apparent aspiring pilot, since for them to screw up 15 years later would effect a repeat in history & the "Not if, but when" that nobody wants to happen.

Originally On LinkedIn As a Commentary Sample Of Mine: A Correlation Between Backlash Against Columbus Day & Anti Semitism?

I'd like to see if someone will undertake a study on whether the increasing backlash against Columbus Day correlates with the recent increase in Anti Semitism—whether the Anti Semitism is intentional or unintentional, and whether it is subtle or brazen—after all, Cristoforo Colombo was an Anusi (Crypto Jew; "marrano"); and increasing exposure of evidence demonstrates this (not to mention that Anti Semites are also picking up on it outside of any context of Columbus Day, as hate-speech websites like Jew Watch show). Of course (and as I'm applying what I learned in my Political Research Methods class here), the following hypotheses would have to be considered:

1. H1: The increase in the backlash against Columbus Day correlates with the recent increase in Anti Semitism, and the Anti Semitism is intentional and subtle.
2. H2: The increase in the backlash against Columbus Day correlates with the recent increase in Anti Semitism, and the Anti Semitism is intentional and brazen.
3. H3: The increase in the backlash against Columbus Day correlates with the recent increase in Anti Semitism, and the Anti Semitism is unintentional and subtle.
4. H4: The increase in the backlash against Columbus Day correlates with the recent increase in Anti Semitism, and the Anti Semitism is unintentional and nonetheless brazen.
5. H5: The increase in the backlash against Columbus Day inversely correlates with the recent increase in Anti Semitism, whether any Anti Semitism would intentional and subtle otherwise.
6. H6: The increase in the backlash against Columbus Day inversely correlates with the recent increase in Anti Semitism, whether any Anti Semitism would be intentional and brazen otherwise.
7. H7: The increase in the backlash against Columbus Day inversely correlates with the recent increase in Anti Semitism, whether any Anti Semitism would be unintentional and subtle otherwise.
8. H8: The increase in the backlash against Columbus Day inversely correlates with the recent increase in Anti Semitism, whether any Anti Semitism would unintentional and brazen otherwise.
9. ∅: No correlation between the increase in the backlash against Columbus Day and the recent increase in Anti Semitism exists.

The methodology might be something like the following:

1. Surveying at least 1,000 Pro-Columbus Day Americans regarding a possible correlation between the increase in the backlash against Columbus Day and the recent increase in Anti Semitism.
2. Surveying at least 1,000 Anti-Columbus Day Americans regarding a possible correlation between the increase in the backlash against Columbus Day and the recent increase in Anti Semitism.
3. Interviewing scholars whom study the Inquisition, Christopher Columbus, the Age of Exploration and Colonialism, Native Central Americans (such as the Tainos), and Jewish history and genealogy (including Crypto-Jewish history and genealogy)
4. Interviewing Anti-Columbus Day activists, Pro-Columbus Day activists, and employees and volunteers of organizations regarding Jewish history and gemealogy—including Crypto Jews (e.g., JewishGen—whose database I, I mention for the sake of disclosure, use to research my own family history, since I am a descendant of both Ashkenazi and Sephardic Anusim—and the Society For Crypto-Judaic Studies).

The sample groups, of course, would have to be as randomly formed and equal in number as possible; and the study would be a mixed-type—that is, a quantitative-and-qualitative—study. As for the literature review, it would have to include scholarly and non-scholarly literature on:

1. The Inquisition
2. Christopher Columbus
3. The Age of Exploration and Colonialism
4. Native Central Americans
5. Jewish history and genealogy
6. Anti-Columbus Day activism and activists
7. Pro-Columbus Day activists and activism

Of course, I wouldn't be undertaking the study because I have an inherit bias in the subject and a hard time with both Excel and advanced statistical math (as my "C" grade in my Political Research Methods and my necessity of taking Statistics twice demonstrates), as well as a hard time with Literature Reviews (as I type with only finger on each hand due to Cerebral Palsy and have OCD/Anxiety-related angst over the already-angst-inducing pedantry of the MLA, the late Kate Turabian, and other citation zealots). My inherit bias, meanwhile, is demonstrated in this hypothesis:

"I stand by what I stated re Columbus, Caribeaños Nativos, and the Holocaust—also, I don't recall Jews mitigating, making light of, or denying the horrors of what Columbus did. In fact, a ben Anusim by the name of Bartolomé de las Casas worked to help and pursue justice for mistreated Americanos Nativos in his own day, which followed the day of Columbus."

Therefore, I've set up as much of the study as possible—may a professional researcher undertake the rest of the study, even if he or she gives me no mention concerning or other credit concerning the study.

By the way, Bartolomé de las Casas was indeed a ben Anusim.

Offbeat: Part Of Why Reilly Is My Main Blog Subject Of Late

For one matter, I run Reilly's Facebook page and am her "Momma". For another matter, to do the commentary-and-analysis videos that I do is now basically impossible because of YouTube's phasing out of its webcam-upload technology and failure to replace it with new webcam-upload technology—and while I do record some videos, including videos of Reilly and Camille, on my camera and on my phone, to do so is much harder for me (and others whom are in my type of position). Besides, I don't have all of the fancy equipment to become a professional commentator and to be unable to do anything as even a layperson commentator is frustrating me (and many others are in positions that are similar to mine)—by the way, we can talk when you try being a single, unemployed, and living-at-home Millennial because you're a Millennial with debilitating and draining mental illnesses that are comorbid with Cerebral Palsy and capable of rendering you incapable even of being what kind of pet parent you could be to your nonetheless-as-patient-and-understanding-as-possible puppy, not to mention incapable of typing (among other kind of writings) long commentary-and-analysis (and other types of) blog entries (especially when you type with only one finger on each hand, which takes enough energy to do).

By the way, Reilly—as I've written before—really has been a lifesaver of late.

Originally On Writerbeat: If You Still Believe That Donald Trump Is A Christian And Patriotic American...

You couldn't be more wrong. If no other factor highlights that Donald Trump is not a Christian, that Donald Trump is Anti Semitic highlights that he can't even be a Christian. Trump openly attacked Jews such asJon Stewart and Mort Zuckerman, stereotyped Jews as moneycounters whom are "little short guys that wear yarmulkes every day" (and continued to stereotype Jews as fixated with money at the Republican Jewish Coalition forum), keeps a copy of "My New Order" by his bedside, and had a supporter whom openly gave a Nazi salute and threatened a Hispanic man in Chicago.

How can a man like that love a Jewish man named ישוע (in English, "Jesus")? As Corrie Ten Boom noted, loving God without loving Jews is entirely impossible. As I told a professor whom caused me to see part of why my paternal family (and some of my maternal family) became Anusim, "When you affront the Word of God, you affront the Jewish people." (Needlessly to say, I eventually left that college after that.)

Speaking of Anusim, meanwhile, why would Mexicans and Muslims be on on Donald Trump's hit list? Anusim anyone? That's what's scary: among Mexicans are many conversos, and among Muslims are quite a few "Jadid al-Islam". Don't think that Donald Trump is not knowledgable about this: he knows exactly what he's doing.

In fact, I had to warn an in-law cousin's grandnephew about this; and two of my Anusi ancestors are technically responsible for my cousin's branch's murders in the Holocaust—and I told him that I wish that I wasn't right about Donald Trump when he conceded that Donald Trump is dangerous.

Given that I had to warn my cousin's in-law grandnephew whom was more directly connected to my cousin and what happened (since he thought that thinking of Trump was a stretch, although he also disliked Trump), I can see that even Non Christians are and were being fooled by Trump (and, incidentally, I should mention that the Nazis' claims of being Christians and what my Anusi ancestors did is likely to affect him to not become a Christian.).

Thus, I—as a Jewish Christian whom is a bat Anusim and has ancestors whom used the name of ישוע to hurt one of their openly-Jewish family's branches—warn you: do not vote for Donald Trump, a man whom I and others see as really having "[n]ever asked God for forgiveness". Moreso, might I add, Donald Trump has made the sacrifice of ישוע useless for himself.

John Kasich, Women, and Kitchens: Unless You Don't Know History...

You know that John Kasich is right. Each of my parents grew up with a stay-at-home mom, as was common for people in their generation. The 1960s to 1970s are really when women started getting out of the home and politically involved because of the changes in the perception re what women could and should do.

As my dad (of all people) told my late granddad, "You can't change history".

Where I've Been, And Why I've Been So Busy Lately—At Least In Short, Anyway

With my sister having graduated college and gotten Camille (who, by the way, is almost seven months old now), I have hardly had much space to myself of late. Thankfully, though, she finally got a job and will be around a lot less during the day—nonetheless, that does not spare me from, e.g., her random outbursts (and she does not have Tourette's Syndrome—she just likes to vocalize essentially every thought that she can vocalize. In fact, I have no peace right now—as I type, she is pestering me with a lack of peace and quiet; and I, thus, have a lack of focus).

In any case, making commentary-and-analysis—and other—videos has essentially become impossible. Any abstract forcefield of time, space, and other conducive factors that I have to make those videos is virtually gone—penetrated like a bubble that is popped with a needle. 

The same goes regarding my mother, at least because of the fact that her homecoming time and my waking-up time are less distant than they used to be. Hardly being able to sleep at night, I've sometimes slept well into the afternoon—and woken up just hours before she comes home. In the small space between those times is a lot on which a tired-and-frustrated me has to catch up.

Add that these two hardly give me space and time for and to myself, I can't drive, etc.—then you'll see why I can do hardly anything to maintain a conducive forcefield of peace and productivity, and why I'm even unable (read "forbidden") to deal with certain subjects (despite that, e.g., my and others' warnings about certain kinds of individuals and groups on all sides are becoming "I told you so" and "Who hath believed our report?" statements right before many eyes. If you need a hint, I'll remind you about the 20th Anniversary of the Million-Man March on one side, and Netanyahu and revisionism about the Holocaust on another side.).

I've also written and published a book that was written and published because of a God-sent opportunity, and I'm working on another one. Needlessly to say, the book is not yet selling—and I get that the international shipping prices are a part of it—and I'm working on another book in the meantime—and that writing has involved setbacks.

I'm also dealing with flareups of my OCD/Anxiety, Depression, ADD, and IBS—and I have Acute Otitis Media which was just diagnosed yesterday (and while the AOM should, Yehovah willing, go away soon, the OCD/Anxiety et. al. will not). The flareups affected and exacerbated the AOM, too, I bet. Meanwhile, the flareups have been affected by the writing setbacks and other issues—and it's been a vicious cycle. 

Nonetheless, people (at the very least) wonder why I persist in asking for prayer (and at the very most, they ditch me and/or even'd like to have me dead if they could have their way.).

Via http://www.publicdomainpictures.net/view-image.php?image=8945&picture=ocean-waves-hitting-rocks

Why I Do What I Do As A (Hopefully-To-Be-More-Than-Aspiring) Commentator, Etc.

I saw that (who I think is) a relative liked one of my posts on my public Facebook page. See; that's part of why I do what I do, too—to bring my families and families like mine back into the fold of Israel​. Mind you, I am not asking anyone to convert back to Rabbinical Judaism—whether you're Messianic or not is your schtick.

Frankly (and I've said this before), I wouldn't care about my Jewish heritage if Jesus (Yeshua) weren't in my life—or, on the other hand, I'd, with all due respect, end up Reform Jewish—and I myself cannot abide by a doctrine that states:

"[T]he texts are certainly divinely inspired and reflect our ancestors' best understanding of God and their covenant with God, as well as their view of God's will, but that is not the same as being divinely-authored."

I've even said that my own father would be Reform were he honest with himself (and he would; trust me), and other relatives (e.g., certain Daniloviches) have gone this way (and they weren't even among the kevorim whom were Anusim).

(By the way, I can assure that the URJ's position does not reflect the position of all Jews in the city in which I was raised; and I apologize for Rabbi Scheinerman on behalf of Columbia-born and -raised. Whatever any of us think of the Talmud, quite a few of us believe in the Torah m'Sinai.)

I don't want especially anyone in hamishpachot b'mispachah Yisra'el sheli to think that:

1. We ought to disown Yeshua just because we're Jewish and b'nei-Anusim.
2. We ought to disregard our Jewish heritage because of Yeshua.
3. We have no obligation to the rest of Beit Ya'akov. 
4. We have to assimilate.
5. We have any obligation to keep Torah, since it was fulfilled. 

There do not need to be any false mutual exclusions, let alone false dichotomies. As I said, then, part of why I do what I do, too is to bring my families and families like mine back into the fold of Israel​ without forcing them to give up or to accept Yeshua.

I Knew That The World Views Christianity, Especially Jewish Christianity, As Criminal

With all due respect to Gretchen Carlson​, I had to cringe at the headline when I saw it (Skimming the article made me cringe more.). If she didn't know that the world considers Christianity to be criminal, I don't know what Bible she's reading. The Bible that I've read unequivocally states that the world will hate Christians, especially Jewish Christians. e.g.:

"9 “Then they will deliver you up to tribulation and kill you, and you will be hated by all nations for My name’s sake. 10 And then many will be offended, will betray one another, and will hate one another. 11 Then many false prophets will rise up and deceive many. 12 And because lawlessness will abound, the love of many will grow cold. 13 But he who endures to the end shall be saved. 14 And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in all the world as a witness to all the nations, and then the end will come."

"16 “Behold, I send you out as sheep in the midst of wolves. Therefore be wise as serpents and harmless as doves. 17 But beware of men, for they will deliver you up to councils and scourge you in their synagogues. 18 You will be brought before governors and kings for My sake, as a testimony to them and to the Gentiles. 19 But when they deliver you up, do not worry about how or what you should speak. For it will be given to you in that hour what you should speak; 20 for it is not you who speak, but the Spirit of your Father who speaks in you."

(From Matthew 24 and 10, New King James Version​, respectively)

Now, are there exceptions among those of the world? Yes:

" I wrote to you in my epistle not to keep company with sexually immoral people. 10 Yet I certainly did not mean with the sexually immoral people of this world, or with the covetous, or extortioners, or idolaters, since then you would need to go out of the world. 11 But now I have written to you not to keep company with anyone named a brother, who is sexually immoral, or covetous, or an idolater, or a reviler, or a drunkard, or an extortioner—not even to eat with such a person."

(From 1 Corinthians 5)

Gamali'el was an exception; and despite that a myth that he became a Jewish Christian persists, he was tolerant of Jewish Christians (Sadly, the myth comes from a misinterpretation of his tolerance.):

"33 When they heard this, they were furious and plotted to kill them. 34 Then one in the council stood up, a Pharisee named Gamaliel, a teacher of the law held in respect by all the people, and commanded them to put the apostles outside for a little while. 35 And he said to them: “Men of Israel, take heed to yourselves what you intend to do regarding these men. 36 For some time ago Theudas rose up, claiming to be somebody. A number of men, about four hundred, joined him. He was slain, and all who obeyed him were scattered and came to nothing. 37 After this man, Judas of Galilee rose up in the days of the census, and drew away many people after him. He also perished, and all who obeyed him were dispersed. 38 And now I say to you, keep away from these men and let them alone; for if this plan or this work is of men, it will come to nothing; 39 but if it is of God, you cannot overthrow it—lest you even be found to fight against God.”"

(From Acts 5)

By the way, one of the blessings of finding about my Jewish heritage is that I've had my eyes open to just how much the world really does hate Christianity, and that hate stems back to when Pilate maliciously blamed the murder of Jesus on Jews—read the Jewish Virtual Library​ article on Pontius Pilate to see what Pontius Pilate's talk about Jesus being innocent really meant, and you will find that Pilate was sarcastic and Anti Semitic. What should have been obvious to me and others a long time ago, by the way, is that Pilate would not have crucified a man whom he really believed to be innocent. Besides, his reaction after "Ein lanu melekh aval Qeisar [We have no king but Caesar]" was a way of saying, "Oh, ****. I can't get them riled up enough. Besides, they're reminding me that Caesar is my boss. ****; I wanted to cause a riot and make those Jews look bad, though (****) they outsmarted me."^

Remember, too, that we did not know. We thought that Jesus fit Deuteronomy 13, and Paul told Timothy as much for his part in his first letter to him:

"And I thank Christ Jesus our Lord who has enabled me, because He counted me faithful, putting me into the ministry, 13 although I was formerly a blasphemer, a persecutor, and an insolent man; but I obtained mercy because I did it ignorantly in unbelief. 14 And the grace of our Lord was exceedingly abundant, with faith and love which are in Christ Jesus."

(From 1 Timothy 1)

My point being, Christianity has been criminal since the time that Pilate scapegoated Jews—and really, ever since Anti Semitism has existed.

^Incidentally, "murder" is a mistranslation in Acts 5:30 in the New King James Version. 

The Night Owl: aka, An Explanation Of My Writing and Commentating-Analyzing Processes

I write, and I do commentary and analysis—of that fact, I've made no secret. I'm also a night owl, and my being a night owl explains—and, in turn, is explained by—my writing, commentating, and analyzing. On that point:

"I have set watchmen upon thy walls, O Jerusalem, they shall never hold their peace day nor night: 'Ye that are the LORD'S remembrancers, take ye no rest, And give Him no rest, till He establish, and till He make Jerusalem a praise in the earth.'"

And the word of the LORD came unto me, saying: 'Son of man, speak to the children of thy people, and say unto them: When I bring the sword upon a land, if the people of the land take a man from among them, and set him for their watchman; if, when he seeth the sword come upon the land, he blow the horn, and warn the people; then whosoever heareth the sound of the horn, and taketh not warning, if the sword come, and take him away, his blood shall be upon his own head; he heard the sound of the horn, and took not warning, his blood shall be upon him; whereas if he had taken warning, he would have delivered his soul. But if the watchman see the sword come, and blow not the horn, and the people be not warned, and the sword do come, and take any person from among them, he is taken away in his iniquity, but his blood will I require at the watchman's hand.
So thou, son of man, I have set thee a watchman unto the house of Israel; therefore, when thou shalt hear the word at My mouth, warn them from Me. When I say unto the wicked: O wicked man, thou shalt surely die, and thou dost not speak to warn the wicked from his way; that wicked man shall die in his iniquity, but his blood will I require at thy hand. Nevertheless, if thou warn the wicked of his way to turn from it, and he turn not from his way; he shall die in his iniquity, but thou hast delivered thy soul. 

I suppose that I'm one of those night watch(wo)men:

The burden of Dumah. One calleth unto me out of Seir: 'Watchman, what of the night? Watchman, what of the night?' The watchman said: 'The morning cometh, and also the night--if ye will inquire, inquire ye; return, come.'

Someone has to know what's going on during the night. Besides, being single and unable to get out much, I have to have some way to contribute somehow to the world and stay in the loop—if I'm not going to help make history and try to affect the world for the better, I might as well stay out of the course of history altogether.

Also, I can hopefully use my own histories—personal, familial, and other histories—to help others discover and/or understand their own histories, and thus help make history and affect the world for the better—it's a cycle in some respects, really.

 The sun also ariseth, and the sun goeth down, and hasteth to his place where he ariseth. The wind goeth toward the south, and turneth about unto the north; it turneth about continually in its circuit, and the wind returneth again to its circuits. All the rivers run into the sea, yet the sea is not full; unto the place whither the rivers go, thither they go again. All things toil to weariness; man cannot utter it, the eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear filled with hearing.