People, I'm Realistic; I'm Not Just a Disabled Depressive Who's a Pessimist

And it ain't just what I described in the video. Oh, I've read the horror stories-- e.g., one non-disabled girl was laughed at and ignored by boys in her church because of her breast size. Also, the actress from "Facts of Life" (I stand corrected for saying "Different Strokes")-- her story didn't end like J.R. Martinez's did, and she was born with a disability: she couldn't have gone and served, let alone bravely gotten injured, in the military if she wanted to.

I appreciate and value who I am in the eyes of even the Church and G-d, or else I wouldn't be honest about it: I'd pretend that everything's going to be okay, and that everything work out like it does for a typical person or even for Cinderella. As I said, I wouldn't be honest about who I am if I didn't value and appreciate it; and valuing and appreciating it means accepting it and accepting the reality of it, and accepting the reality (even the cold, bitter reality) that it brings and has brought.

If I Were Tiki Barber, I'd Go Home And Seek Forgiveness and Reconciliation...

Tiki Barber can hopefully come to his senses and realize that a for-the-time-being ex-wife and children at home is enough. Sure Traci Johnson may get hurt, but who was hurt first? A college sweetheart and pregnant wife with two other kids to raise as well. Tiki Barber can come home to Ginny Cha, beg forgiveness for his affair, beg forgiveness of Traci Johnson and wish her the best, and try to reconcile with Ginny Cha and the Cha-Barber kids.

Or maybe Ginny Cha won't take him back, figuring "He Ain't Worth Missing", but a try while there's still time is worth a try.

I'm Probably In Big Trouble For Some of My Confessions...

I know that I should be thankful for some things (After all, that was a heck of a blog prayer to write.), but now I'm probably (maybe I'm freaking out,  probably) for the worst being followed on Twitter by Geraldo Rivera's producer-- I'm probably being watched like a hawk watches a mouse or a bear watches whoever goes after its young.

This is why I surprisingly, for wanting to bring so much to light, don't confess a lot of my own thoughts, reservations, etc.-- if and when I do, I usually get shunned or in trouble for them as though I'm worse than anyone else. I admit that I'm imperfect, which is part of why I fight to have a moral compass-- having one makes easier that a brother or sister (or other fellow human being) should not be affected or effected to stumble. But I normally don't confess things lest I get shunned for them-- and I normally do.

If I Were To Write A Quick Blog Prayer To G-d, Well...

Let me for once have a break. Sure, I've had blessings; and I'm not asking for my thorns in the flesh to be taken away-- in fact, I've dreaded what'll happen if you do. You'll make me give up politics and go into math and science, for example; because then I won't have CP and OCD and be physically healed and able to go into math and science. In fact, you didn't take Paul's thorns in the flesh away-- or Nick Vujvicic's. Let me at least manage my OCD, etc. for once.


I could go on and on, but this is why I don't pray a lot-- not long prayers, anyway. Besides, you can read my thoughts; and you have answered my prayers, and many not always in a way which I've liked or prayed for.

A Scary Realization About My Own Life-- At This Rate, It Might Not End Well Either Way

This is not a Halloween joke or Halloween scary story-- though incidentally, October 31-November 1, 1877 is the Gregorian equivalent of the Holocaust enabler (Great-Grandma Gaydos)'s dad's birthday (The P'rushi date was Cheshvan 25, 5638.). On that same-- the Holocaust enabler's-- side, I come from a great-great-great-granddad (Istvan Foczko) and with at least two great-granduncles (Andras "Alexander" and Ferencz "Frank, Sr.") who all committed suicide. Then I have Great-Granddad Czarnecki, and who the hell knows if the "sudden fall of rock" that killed Great-Great-Granddad Czarnecki wasn't a deliberate suicide attempt? (My friend may have a point-- that it wasn't just an accident? And Great-Great-Granddad was an Anusi and schicker with a meshugene vayb who obviously didn't pass Yidish or Yidishkeit down to her grandchildren and their grandchildren, either; but had no problem causing her son's Yidishe froyen-- e.g., Teresa nee Makaczyk and Mary M. nee Trudniak-- tsuris, because they apparently weren't Yidishe or Anusit enough for her. )

I guess that I gave enough examples as to why my life is careening toward suicide as alternative one-- couple the statistics with the meshuges un tsuris in di mispoche, and I'm in trouble. The second alternative is just to wait for the Rapture and figure, "Ah, it's all going to Gei Hinnom for the rest, anyway-- and in many ways, for me". Then I remember Eliyahu, Yirimiyahu, etc.-- they were all told to get the geihinnom up and keep going-- and as for the guy who buried his talents, though he wasn't saved...

The Rapture had better come soon or life needs to get better soon or I'm in trouble-- because with OCD/Anxiety/Depression, Cerebral Palsy, and meshuges un tsuris in di mispoche; and in this culture and without a lot of support (or at least close and strong support, as at least even Eliyahu and Yirimiyahu had two or three of at a given time), I'm screwed, I'm done, I'm finished, I'm f_____-- and not in a good way.

Iran Can And Will Not Destroy Israel

Excerpts From Ezekiel 38-39:

1.  ² “Son of man, set your face against Gog, of the land of Magog, the prince of Rosh,^[a] Meshech, and Tubal, and prophesy against him, ³ and say, ‘Thus says the Lord GOD: “Behold, I am against you, O Gog, the prince of Rosh, Meshech, and Tubal. ⁴ I will turn you around, put hooks into your jaws, and lead you out, with all your army, horses, and horsemen, all splendidly clothed, a great company with bucklers and shields, all of them handling swords. ⁵ Persia, Ethiopia,^[b] and Libya^[c] are with them, all of them with shield and helmet; ⁶ Gomer and all its troops; the house of Togarmah from the far north and all its troops—many people are with you.
2. ¹⁸ “And it will come to pass at the same time, when Gog comes against the land of Israel,” says the Lord GOD, “that My fury will show in My face. ¹⁹ For in My jealousy and in the fire of My wrath I have spoken: ‘Surely in that day there shall be a great earthquake in the land of Israel, ²⁰ so that the fish of the sea, the birds of the heavens, the beasts of the field, all creeping things that creep on the earth, and all men who are on the face of the earth shall shake at My presence. The mountains shall be thrown down, the steep places shall fall, and every wall shall fall to the ground.’ ²¹ I will call for a sword against Gog throughout all My mountains,” says the Lord GOD. “Every man’s sword will be against his brother. ²² And I will bring him to judgment with pestilence and bloodshed; I will rain down on him, on his troops, and on the many peoples who are with him, flooding rain, great hailstones, fire, and brimstone. ²³ Thus I will magnify Myself and sanctify Myself, and I will be known in the eyes of many nations. Then they shall know that I am the LORD.”’
3.  “And you, son of man, prophesy against Gog, and say, ‘Thus says the Lord GOD: “Behold, I am against you, O Gog, the prince of Rosh,^[d] Meshech, and Tubal; ² and I will turn you around and lead you on, bringing you up from the far north, and bring you against the mountains of Israel. ³ Then I will knock the bow out of your left hand, and cause the arrows to fall out of your right hand. ⁴
4. ¹¹ “It will come to pass in that day that I will give Gog a burial place there in Israel, the valley of those who pass by east of the sea; and it will obstruct travelers, because there they will bury Gog and all his multitude. Therefore they will call it the Valley of Hamon Gog.^{[e] 12} For seven months the house of Israel will be burying them, in order to cleanse the land.

A remnant of Persia, which is also Elam, will be preserved:

 
³⁴ The word of the LORD that came to Jeremiah the prophet against Elam, in the beginning of the reign of Zedekiah king of Judah, saying, ³⁵ “Thus says the LORD of hosts:


‘ Behold, I will break the bow of Elam,
The foremost of their might.
³⁶ Against Elam I will bring the four winds
From the four quarters of heaven,
And scatter them toward all those winds;
There shall be no nations where the outcasts of Elam will not go.
³⁷ For I will cause Elam to be dismayed before their enemies
And before those who seek their life.
I will bring disaster upon them,
My fierce anger,’ says the LORD;

‘ And I will send the sword after them
Until I have consumed them.
³⁸ I will set My throne in Elam,
And will destroy from there the king and the princes,’ says the LORD.
³⁹ ‘ But it shall come to pass in the latter days:
I will bring back the captives of Elam,’ says the LORD.”

Yet:

²⁷ “ But do not fear, O My servant Jacob,
And do not be dismayed, O Israel!
For behold, I will save you from afar,
And your offspring from the land of their captivity;
Jacob shall return, have rest and be at ease;
No one shall make him afraid.
²⁸ Do not fear, O Jacob My servant,” says the LORD,

“ For I am with you;
For I will make a complete end of all the nations
To which I have driven you,
But I will not make a complete end of you.
I will rightly correct you,
For I will not leave you wholly unpunished.”

So, either way, Iran but for a remnant is going bye-bye.

I'm Probably Masada2000's Next ____ List Candidate For This, But...

"Netanyahu in Nazi Uniform" may not be a far-off Photoshop. Beware Benjamin Netanyahu, Likud, and those like Miriam Woelke: they supports a racist, revisionist book known as Talmud Bavli. Miriam Woelke goes on to say:

"Israeli Left, if it does not fit you to be in Israel, from Gaza, Ramallah or to Ahmadinejad - there's land! There you will see after a few seconds, what your friends-- Arab terrorists-- do with you . If you're lucky, the head comes off quickly. If you get unlucky, you feel the whole range of torture."

(via Google Translate, corrected and edited for context by me)

Miriam Woelke goes on to state on her "About Me" sidebar:

"After years of living in Jerusalem, I recently left the city and moved first to the north and now to Tel Aviv. Nevertheless, I am still writing about Jerusalem but also include many other places in Israel.  Until some years ago, I was a Yeshiva (Michlalah) student. First with the national religious and later with the Litvishe. First with the national religious and later with the Litvishe. Also got in contact with Chassidut and this subject and lifestyle has never left me."

There you go-- Miriam Woelke learned and supports the Jewish Supremacist, revisionist, racist, anti-gentile Talmud Bavli. Since she supports a book that even those who were not supposed to be cohanim but were cohanim wrote (e.g.,  1 M'lakhim 12:30-32 and Nehemia Gordon's Yom Teru'ah). In fact, Nehemia notes that Miriam Woelke supports outright revisionism and racism:

"During their sojourn in Babylonia our ancestors began to use the pagan Babylonian month names, a fact readily admitted in the Talmud:

“The names of the months came up with them from Babylonia.” (Jerusalem Talmud, Rosh Hashanah 1:2 56d)"

Now here comes the part where Nehemia notes that outright racism is involved; and he notes it implicity:

"At the same time, the form of Judaism commonly practiced today is not authentic Judaism but "Talmudism". The Talmudists corrupt the true message of the Hebrew Scriptures by adding the teachings of the Rabbis found in the "Talmud", which they claim were revealed by God.[7] This despite the fact that there is not a single reference to the Talmud in the entire Hebrew Scriptures. The authentic Hebrew religion is that which is taught by the Creator Himself in the Hebrew Scriptures without addition or subtraction, as it is written: "Ye shall not add unto the word which I command you, neither shall you diminish anything from it, that you may keep the commandments of YHWH your God" (Deuteronomy 4:2)."

"The Talmudists corrupt the true message of the Hebrew Scriptures...." How with racism? That's where some examples from Yaron Yadan come in. And for example:

"The sages of the Mishnah ruled that a Jew is forbidden to board his animal in a gentile's animal boarding facility, because gentiles customarily have intercourse with animals (even dogs), and since according to the Torah even gentiles are forbidden to have sexual relations with animals (one of the Noahide commandments), one is forbidden to lead them into sin.
The Talmudic sages discussed this topic at length, arguing: if gentiles customarily have sexual relations with animals, why is one permitted to buy an animal from a gentile and bring it as a sacrifice in the Holy Temple? An animal which has been bred is not permitted as a sacrifice upon the altar. They answered this question: gentiles are careful not to have relations with their own animals; the female so they do not make her unable to bear offspring and the male so he does not wither away. But an animal which belongs to a Jew -- it would not matter if they caused a Jew's animal to become infertile or to wither away, so the gentile would have sexual relations with a Jew's animal..."

 Tractate Avodah Zarah, Chapter 2 does confirm this:

"CHAPTER II

"MISHNAH. ONE SHOULD NOT PLACE CATTLE IN HEATHENS' INNS,⁹ BECAUSE THEY ARE SUSPECTED OF IMMORAL PRACTICE WITH THEM. A WOMAN SHOULD NOT BE ALONE WITH THEM, BECAUSE THEY ARE SUSPECTED OF LEWDNESS, NOR SHOULD A MAN BE ALONE WITH THEM, BECAUSE THEY ARE SUSPECTED OF SHEDDING BLOOD.

"GEMARA. The following was cited in contradiction: One may buy of them cattle for a sacrifice, and it need not be feared lest it committed, or had been used for, an immoral act, or had been designated as an offering to idols, or had been worshipped.¹ Now we are quite right not to fear about its having been designated as an offering to idols or having been made an object of worship, since if it had been so designated or worshipped, its owner would not have sold it; but we surely ought to fear as to committing an immoral act!² — Said R. Tahlifa in the name of R. Shila b. Abina in the name of Rab: A heathen would have regard for his cattle, lest it becomes barren.³ This would indeed hold good in the case of female cattle but what answer would you give in the case of males? — Said R. Kahana: Because it has a deteriorating effect on their flesh. Then what about that [Baraitha] which has been taught: 'One may buy cattle of any heathen shepherd'; ought we not to fear lest he used it for an immoral purpose?⁴ — The heathen shepherd would be afraid of forfeiting his fee. What then about this [other Baraitha] which has been taught: 'One should not entrust cattle to a heathen shepherd';⁵ why not assume that the heathen shepherd would be afraid of forfeiting his fee? — They fear detection by one another since they know a good deal about it, but they are not afraid of us who do not know much about it. Rabbah said: This is what the popular proverb says. 'As the stylus penetrates the stone so one cunning mind detects another.' In that case, neither should we buy male cattle⁶ from women, for fear of their having used them for immoral practice!"