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Showing posts with label Holocaust. Show all posts
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Monday, September 30, 2013

From a While Ago, But...

I had read that "Rabbi" Ovadia Yosef is in the hospital and seriously ill, likely to the point of death if his age and condition are considered. In that same article, I read that he had made the remark that Holocaust victims are reincarnated sinners who weren't punished enough the first time. Meanwhile, "Rebbe" Schneerson had made similar comments during his lifetime—that is, he stated that that Anti Zionists were like a gangrene to Israel that needed to be treated.

Clear enemies of their own people (and examples of why Yeshua warns us not to clear clergymen "rabbis"), "Rabbi" Yosef and "Rebbe" Schneerson should have at least reviewed Tanakh. Abilene clearly did, and reached the obvious conclusion: Anti Semitism sometimes just happens! Even though one Messianic community was spared in Bulgaria, Messianic Jews like Sister Edith Stein were not. Even though Zionists escaped the Holocaust, not all Zionists did—and many would have made aliyah if they could have. For example, Vilmosz Rusznak had three children—Yehoshua, Shabbati, and Fredi—with whom he could not just leave Kassa, Hungary—the worst part being, of course, that Mary Rusnak Gaydos (who I still have a hard time forgiving) knew that (and she should have understood—she had four to five young children herself [Tina was born in 1943, and the correspondence had to have begun when Iwan was murdered.]). Anusim weren't spared, either—Jozsef Foczko is an example of this (with his death date unlisted, his burial date in 1941 when then-Czechoslovakian Aranyidka was occupied, and Lo-Anusi relatives in the Lodz ghetto—do I look stupid? And if the correspondence wasn't with the Rusznaks, it was with the Foczkos—again, do I look stupid? And money for what, and from a worse-off country?).

Again, Anti Semitism sometimes just happens—and no Jew is to blame for Anti Semitism that doesn't spare even Messianic, Zionist, and Anusi Jews.

    
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Thursday, September 12, 2013

One Thought That Occurred To Me After Engaging With Marianne Theresa Johnson-Reddick's Obituary

The first time that this has really turned over in my mind, much less even occurred as a thought: every day that Joan Gaydos Czarnecki had to deal with her mother, she probably had her questioned what her mother could do to her. She never has even visited her mother's grave. This is part of why the horror that Mary Rusnak Gaydos committed cannot be covered up--that is, not just for Vilmosz's et. al.'s sakes (though they will never come back in this lifetime and age--and do I believe that Yeshua was with them in their final moments at Auschwitz, so I'm willing to bet that we will see them with others who are asleep in Yeshua and will rise at the Rapture).

Tell me how that Grandma still won't even admit the indirect abuse that she received is okay. Tell me how that her mother ultimately turned relatives over to the Nazis is a form of abuse that she, then a six-to-eight-year-old child, should get over--especially when her older sister is holding back those supposedly-innocuous letters that were exchanged. Tell me how she can even speak about the abuse when Dr. MaryAnn Gaydos, who wields quite a bit of power in the family, won't speak about it and even once told me that she didn't want to be part of the family tree that I made--and she knows as much as I know that she said that because I found out that we are Jewish.

Keep in mind that if Dr. Gaydos tried to kibosh me from piecing together and telling our real story, she's making sure that younger sister Joan shuts up (and that others shut up) about Joan's and her mother refusing to help Vilmosz, Zoli, et. al. when they literally risked their necks and reached out to the Anusi branch for the sake of piku'ach nefesh (After all, we were minim, koferim, v'meshumadim to them; yet they somehow took a chance at trusting us and asking us for help.).

Again, and to sum up, let's just say that the fact that Great-Grandma Gaydos ultimately turned relatives over to the Nazis is a form of abuse that Grandma, then a six-to-eight-year-old child, rightly could never get over and probably had her questioning every day what her mother could do to her. She never has even visited her mother's grave.

By the way, Iwan Rusnak was murdered in 1942; Vilmosz, Zoli, et. al. in 1944.

Thursday, July 11, 2013

From a Question on Yahoo! Answers: "How Do You Reconcile Daniel In the Lions' Den With Six Million Daniels in the Gas Chambers?"

Let's look at the following Scripture:


"24 Then Nebuchadnezzar the king was alarmed, and rose up in haste; he spoke and said unto his ministers: 'Did not we cast three men bound into the midst of the fire?' They answered and said unto the king: 'True, O king.' 25 He answered and said: 'Lo, I see four men loose, walking in the midst of the fire, and they have no hurt; and the appearance of the fourth is like a son of the gods.' {S} 26 Then Nebuchadnezzar came near to the mouth of the burning fiery furnace; he spoke and said: 'Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-nego, ye servants of God Most High, come forth, and come hither.' Then Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-nego, came forth out of the midst of the fire. 27 And the satraps, the prefects, and the governors, and the king's ministers, being gathered together, saw these men, that the fire had no power upon their bodies, nor was the hair of their head singed, neither were their cloaks changed, nor had the smell of fire passed on them. 28 Nebuchadnezzar spoke and said: 'Blessed be the God of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-nego, who hath sent His angel, and delivered His servants that trusted in Him, and have changed the king's word, and have yielded their bodies, that they might not serve nor worship any god, except their own God. 29 Therefore I make a decree, that every people, nation, and language, which speak any thing amiss against the God of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-nego, shall be cut in pieces, and their houses shall be made a dunghill; because there is no other god that is able to deliver after this sort.' 30 Then the king promoted Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-nego, in the province of Babylon. {P}"


Who is the Angel of the Lord?


"20 Behold, I send an angel before thee, to keep thee by the way, and to bring thee into the place which I have prepared. 21 Take heed of him, and hearken unto his voice; be not rebellious against him; for he will not pardon your transgression; for My name is in him. 22 But if thou shalt indeed hearken unto his voice, and do all that I speak; then I will be an enemy unto thine enemies, and an adversary unto thine adversaries. 23 For Mine angel shall go before thee, and bring thee in unto the Amorite, and the Hittite, and the Perizzite, and the Canaanite, the Hivite, and the Jebusite; and I will cut them off."
We know, then, that the Angel of the Lord IS the Lord (thus, why He is Yehovah-Tzva'ot--Yehovah of Hosts). Thus, Yeshua was with the Holocaust victims as much as He was with Daniel's friends--even if he did not save them from physical death. For what has Yehovah stated? "Behold, they may gather together, but not by Me; whosoever shall gather together against thee shall fall because of thee."


Sometimes, evil happens; and even if Yehovah does not rescue us from every consequence of it, He is with us in it--just like He was with the Holocaust victims.


Source(s):
Daniel 3:24-30, JPS; Exodus 3:20-23, ibid.; Isaiah 54:15. Also, I lost relatives in the Shoah--I do not believe that Yeshua was not with them, especially the children, when they were in Auschwitz and the other murder camps.

Sunday, April 7, 2013

The Holocaust, Reform Judaism, Anti Zionism, and Jesus

 People blame the Holocaust on many things. I have heard sickos like Ilan Bergman and James Walker (Y'Sh'v'z) blame the Holocaust on Non (or even Anti) Zionism, and Reform (Liberal) Judaism . If Mr.s Bergman and Walker were correct, Zionist and Non-Reform Jews would not have been murdered in the Holocaust. David Brickner of Jews For Jesus insinuated that every catastrophe on Israel, including the Holocaust, has been due to Israel's general rejection of Jesus. Luckily, Jews for Jesus immediately reprimanded David Brickner for such lashon hara. After all, Messianic Jews like Sister Edith Stein and Yosef Vaktor went through the Holocaust (and Yosef Vaktor became Messianic after the Holocaust, whereas Edith Stein was murdered in the Holocaust).

The only incident since Jesus' coming that has had anything to do with Israel's general rejection of Jesus was the Fall of the Temple, though that is another discussion for another time. All Anti-Semitic incidences after AD/CE 70 (AM 3830) have been solely Anti Semitic and not a punishment on Israel. In fact, there is a Scripture verse (though I can't find the verse) that talks about what will happen to any nation who attacks Israel and God did not plan that such would happen. That's what's the Holocaust was--that is, the avodah zarah of a nation who attacked Israel and God did not plan that such would happen.

Anti-Semitic Country Music? Or Is Country Music Anti Semitic In General?

Watching the ACMs in the past, I "was country when country wasn't cool" and wanted to be a country singer. I left country music after "Honky Tonk University" and its title song was released (I've heard few songs, or maybe even only one song, of country music since then.). Seeing the ACMs mentioned on Twitter, I was hit by this fact: not only am I not country anymore--since "country" isn't really country anymore, anyway, but I never should have been country to begin with. I have rarely--if ever--or even never seen country music make a Pro-Israel stance. I also have never seen the ACM recognize even the 6,000,000 recognized and accounted-for Jewish Holocaust victims--and look at this!

Title  AllAcademy of Country Music Awards Air Dates season: 40 40012005-05-17The 40th Annual ACM Awards  AllAcademy of Country Music Awards Air Dates season: 41 41012006-05-23The 41st Annual ACM Awards  AllAcademy of Country Music Awards Air Dates season: 42 42012007-05-15The 42nd Annual ACM Awards  AllAcademy of Country Music Awards Air Dates season: 43 43012008-05-18The 43rd Annual ACM Awards  AllAcademy of Country Music Awards Air Dates season: 44 44012009-04-05The 44th Annual ACM Awards  AllAcademy of Country Music Awards Air Dates season: 45 45012010-04-18The 45th Annual ACM Awards  AllAcademy of Country Music Awards Air Dates season: 46 46012011-04-03The 46th Annual ACM Awards  AllAcademy of Country Music Awards Air Dates season: 47 47012012-04-01The 47th Annual ACM Awards  AllAcademy of Country Music Awards Air Dates season: 48 48012013-04-07The 48th Annual ACM Awards 

Are you following?

ThuMay 52005Yom HaShoah [May 17, 1944 is the day that the massacre of Hungarian Jews took place.]Jewish holiday 
TueApr 252006Yom HaShoah [Three days before the ACMs.]Jewish holiday 
SunApr 152007Yom HaShoah [a month before the ACMs]Jewish holiday 
ThuMay 12008Yom HaShoahJewish holiday 
TueApr 212009Yom HaShoahJewish holiday 
SunApr 112010Yom HaShoah [A week before the ACMs.]Jewish holiday 
SunMay 12011Yom HaShoahJewish holiday 
WedApr 182012Yom HaShoahJewish holiday 
MonApr 82013Yom HaShoah [Begins at sundown, April 7.]Jewish holiday


They've had opportunity after opportunity to at least recognize the victims, survivors, and descendants of surviving and non-surviving victims of the Holocaust. They never did!

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

My Take On the Arab-Israeli Conflict And The Class That I'm Learning About It In [Initial Draft]

I'm going out on a limb here (and as I stated in a previous blog entry, I don't care if I get "C"s to "F"s as long as I'm doing what's right); so here I am. I'm out on the limb. Being "out on the limb" means getting a "C" (if I'm lucky) or even a "F" (which is probably what will happen). After all, this is supposed to be a midterm essay that I'm writing on my blog first (as I've done with other school papers, which makes writing at least some papers a heck of a lot easier).

By the way, I need to make a full disclosure first. That is, I need to confess that I did not do all of the readings that I should have done. Now that I've made the full disclosure, I need to make a statement about what readings I did do (or at least skim over, or even of which I read only the introduction and conclusion). The statement that I need to make is this: for as much as Israel has her own problems, we don't need Anti Semites like Rashid Khalidi and bulls****ers like deterrence theorists adding to our problems. 

In other words, the State of Israel and we who are her people have enough self-caused issues to which we don't need the Rashid Khalidis and the deterrence theorists adding. I should know, since I'm an Israeli who's directly affected by these issues. I'm a Patrilineal Jew whose more-recent ancestors were Crypto Jews, who was born as an Ashkenazi Jew in the Jewish (read "Israeli") Diaspora, and who is a Messianic Jewish Republican (read--for example--so-called "proselytizer", "religious nut", "right winger", and "ultimate sellout"). I didn't even know that I am Jewish until after March 12, 2008 (the date on which I joined Ancestry.com to research if I am Jewish, as I suspected way before. After all, why else--for example--my dad have taken pains to pronounce my name as "Nicole Charnetski"). So, I obviously don't fit into the Israeli Diaspora, let alone Jewish community back in my homeland--to which I have yet to even be able to make aliyah.

So, I've done at least some of my homework over the years--I'd be remiss if I didn't. Based on my homeworking and conclusions that I've formed while and from doing it, my simple statement about the Arab-Israeli conflict is, again, that we have enough self-caused issues to which we don't need the Rashid Khalidis and the deterrence theorists adding. If you want a more-complex statement than that--in other words, the rest of my midterm homily--, keep reading. Now that I'm done the backgrounding work, I can break down the Arab-Israeli conflict in light of my class about it for you. 

Firstly, I will address the--and I say this with all due respect--ridiculous statement that "States cause war; wars cause states." Maybe states affect wars, and wars affect states; but neither states nor wars cause each other. Then who causes states and wars, you ask? As the Traditional Jewish Bible (that is, the Bible without the New Testament) states, Yehovah "form[eth] the light, and create[th] darkness; I make peace, and create evil; I am the LORD, that doeth all these things."

The same Yehovah, "[w]hen [He] gave to the nations their inheritance, when He separated the children of men, He set the borders of the peoples according to the number of the children of Israel. For the portion of the LORD is His people, Jacob the lot of His inheritance." Yehovah also guaranteed, through the prophets Isaiah and Jeremiah, "it shall come to pass, that as the chased gazelle, and as sheep that no man gathereth, they shall turn every man to his own people, and shall flee every man to his own land." For, "for fear of the oppressing sword they shall turn every one to his people, and they shall flee every one to his own land."

The old sayings go that safety is found in numbers and that family is one of the most imporant factors in a person's life. The sons and daughters of Adam have been and are still quickly carving out their respective nation states and returning to them in at least trickles, if not droves. For example, Syrian statelessness ended in 1947. Indians and Pakistanis finally had their own united states in the same year. The Czechs and Slovakians peacefully split up into Ceska Republika and Slovenska Republika  in 1991 (Let's face that they were geared to split up with the 1989 Velvet Revolution; the USSR fell on Christmas 1991, and--as I found out when double checking the 1991 date with the "CIA World Factbook"--, they had their respective constitutions well before New Year's Day 1993). The Bangladeshis became a reunited family with their own land twenty years before the Czechs and Slovakians became reunited, nation-stated families.

The final example of a reunited, nation-stated family who I'll give as an example is my own family--'am-Yisra'el b'Ha'Eretz Yisra'el--the People of Israel in the Land of Israel. Yehovah indeed kept His promise to "bring Israel back to his pasture, and he shall feed on Carmel and Bashan, and his soul shall be satisfied upon the hills of Ephraim and in Gilead. In those days, and in that time, saith the LORD, the iniquity of Israel shall be sought for, and there shall be none, and the sins of Judah, and they shall not be found; for I will pardon them whom I leave as a remnant." We were officially given our homeland back on May 14, 1948.

The foolish Arabs knew that, as Masada2000.org taught me (and for as much as they sometimes go too far). I used to fall hook-line-and-sinker for the idea that the Arabs are the "Palestinian" people. Then, as I looked at the Bible and sites like Masada2000.org, I learned the following--which brings me to the second point:

  1. Ishmael, one of the patriarchs of the Arabs, "hall be a wild ass of a man: his hand shall be against every man, and every man's hand against him; and he shall dwell in the face of all his brethren." Thus, Ishamel hates Isaac.
  2. Esau, who married his cousin who was a daughter of Ishmael, "saith: 'We are beaten down, but we will return and build the waste places'; thus saith the LORD of hosts: They shall build, but I will throw down; and they shall be called the border of wickedness, and the people whom the LORD execrateth for ever. And your eyes shall see, and ye shall say: 'The LORD is great beyond the border of Israel.'" Esau. like Ishamel, is one of the patriarchs of the Arabs. Esau has long hated Jacob, and the "Palestinians" complain that Israel "occupies" the land of "Palestine", which they have attempted to rebuild since the "Nabka".
  3. The Philistines are also patriarchs of the Arabs, and David has never been liked by Goliath.
Therefore, Yehovah stated, "They have roused Me to jealousy with a no-god; they have provoked Me with their vanities; and I will rouse them to jealousy with a no-people; I will provoke them with a vile nation." Because of our iniquities  He has roused and provoked us with the "Palestinians"--not a people, but a mix of peoples. Thus, concerning longstanding rivalries (the second point), the long-term rivalry between the "Palestinian" Arabs and Arabs goes as far back as Ishmael and Isaac down to Goliath and David--and is an example of why long-standing rivalries can and need to be used to study crises and wars.

As far as the narrative of the "Palestinians" goes in the Arab-Israeli conflict, then, the narrative affects the Arabs only in that the Arabs have chosen to believe themselves to be the "occupied Palestinians". As goes for any narrative in any conflict, a narrative affects any conflict only insofar as it is believed and perpetuated, whether or not it is a lie. Therefore, in the case of the "Palestinians", they have created an Anti-Israel lie with which they delude themselves and which they perpetuate.

They, therefore, are the suspicious "other" in Zionist identity, especially they make us to be the "other" and destroy us. They also, to this day, resent the Balfour Declaration, Points Declarations by Wilson, the Traty of Versailles, the Locarno Treaty, the King-Crane Commission, and --which really had no contradictions, but just disadvantages for "Palestinian" dominance and Anti Semitism.


They also hate that Yehovah used the Holocaust to motivate Jews, including David ben-Gurion, to get out of Europe and no longer "remain in all the places whither I have driven them", including Europe. They also resent that the refounding of Israel was an idea from 70 CE to 1892 CE, and that Theodore Herzl was the one who gave Proto Zionism the kickstarter jump to become Zionism. They can say that the Holocaust motivated the refounding of Israel all that they want, but they'll have to face history and when it judges them.

Also, their "Nabka" myths are not accurate. Jacob was given Canaan. Then, Moses led the Israelites into Canaan and Joshua to help the other Israelites conquer Canaan. After that, the 586 BCE and 70 CE Exiles happened, but yishuvim were still in the land and olim yishuvim quickly came back into the land. Only when Israel started to take "Palestine" fully back from 1892-1917 did the "Palestinians" have problems.

Thus, the "Palestinian"-Israeli rivalry endures, and rivalries within Pro-"Palestinian" and Pro-Israel communities endure. The Pro-"Palestinian" camp has different approaches on how to commit further Anti Semitism; the Pro-Israel camp has different approaches on how to stop the Pro-"Palestinian" and Anti-Semitic nonsense. For example, some "Palestinians" and Pro-"Palestinian" people are merely propagandists while some are active terrorists. As for the Pro-Israel camp, some Pro-Israel people are merely Philo-Semitic awareness raisers while some go as far--or even farther than--the late Meir Kahane.

The 1948 War or the "Nabka", for instance, was a huge part of that--that is, we Jews wanted to live back in our land peacefully; the "Palestinians" wanted to ragingly destroy us. To this day, though, the Anti Semites like Rashid Khalidi blame the Jews and call the 1948 Israeli victory the "Nabka", "oppression", "occupation", and "persecution" of "Palestinians". Meanwhile, I have no time for the likes of Rashid Khalidi. I also have no time for the likes of traitorous Zeev Maoz, who I will have to discuss later. I further have no time for the "Palestinian" and other infiltrators who invaded Sinai, the West Bank, and other areas--especially since the Anti-Semitic infiltrators became worse overtime.

Therefore, Israel did not do enough in the 1956 War. We shouldn't have let anyone buy Nasser's excuses about the Suez Canal, the "oppressive" Anglo-French forces, or the "Palestinian" infiltrators. Our problem is that we didn't take Nasser out right there and then, and we didn't take care of the "Palestinian" infiltrators who were trying to destroy us. We didn't learn from history--we didn't take out the Canaanites as we were supposed to, and now we didn't defend ourselves as much as we should have against our "Palestinian" enemies. This is also part of why we had to escalate--because we were still surrounded by our enemies and at risk of being destroyed at any time.

By the way, Nasser can also used the Gaza Raid as an excuse. I don't buy it. Zeev Maoz can call Israel the aggressive occupiers and oppressors of "Palestinians". I don't buy it. I also know that Nasser knew better because he tried to mess with us much less up until 1967, despite that other Anti-Semitic Arabs and other Anti Semites were calling him to do so. Even in 1962, the year of refounded Israel's entry into adulthood from teenagehood, Nasser didn't attack when he could have. He knew that "[n]o weapon that is formed against [Israel] shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their due reward from Me, saith the LORD". 

This, therefore, makes any psychological, brinkmanship, strategic rationality, institutional, and any other defense or attempt at defense of Nasser an excuse. Thus, in conclusion, it all boils down to "Palestinian" revisionism and Anti Semitism, and Israeli self defense.

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Part Three Of My Stage32 Writer's Submission

For a lack of better termage and since someone in Brooklyn searched, I'll get one of the sensitive chapters (maybe the most-sensitive chapter) over with.


   


I did not find out that Great-Grandma Gaydos was a kapo until much later. I watch my Feeedjit (for Blogger) stats, by the way--so if you are who I think you are (i.e., Ally Shumack or one of the other Rusnaks in New York) and you haven't been following what I've been writing, you're in for a surprise about your cousin, or your grandaunt (if you're my great-grandaunt Agnes Rusnak Shumack's granddaughter or grandson), or whoever she (that is, Great-Grandma Gaydos) is to you--that is, in relation to you.

By the way, I may be jumping back and forth here, but this all connects--and will help you understand why my grandma Joan Czarnecki (nee Gaydos) married Jack Czarnecki. To begin, who else would marry a Crypto Jew but a Crypto Jew (with few exceptions, though--might I add--Anusim did stick together and still stick together)? Who else, also, would marry a Crypto Jew who was good at hiding secrets? I'll obviously get back to Great-Granddad Czarnecki and the Czarneckis in a minute, by the way.

Meanwhile and anyway, I'd give Dr. MaryAnn Gaydos (Grandma's surviving-oldest sister at present) credit for making up such a clever story if the situation for which it was made up wasn't as serious as it was. I have to begin with Dr. Gaydos' story because it'll show you how full of secrets and (for a lack of better termage) crap my family is.

Dr. Gaydos claimed that after the war (according to Kevin, though I've recalled during the war), relatives wrote to Great-Grandma Gaydos asking for money. Great-Grandma Gaydos, according to her daughter, then stopped writing. She, however (and as Kevin reminded me that Dr. Gaydos had stated), sent food.

To make the true story short, records on YadVashem.org (which I found while searching to see if any relatives were mentioned or noted on Yad Vashem's website)--so to speak--poke holes right in Dr. Gaydos' story. Now, is it traumatic for a 10-12-year-child to deal with her mother being a kapo? Yes. Does that excuse the cover-up for her mother years later? No, it does not.

The story (as I figured out on my own and through contacting a relative-in-law's grandnephew) is this: Great-Grandma Gaydos had Non-Messianic Jewish relatives in Kosice, Slovakia (then part of Hungary and then Czechoslovakia) who reached out to their Anusi relative as a final resort--after all, they realized that they had stayed in Europe for far too long and should have made (but regrettably did not make) aliyah or another type of exit from Europe (which, long story short, Tibor Geza Rusznyak eventually did--and after he survived the Holocaust, and by coming to Ohio and understandably never contacting our side of the family for the rest of his life).

They, like all other Orthodox P'rushi ("Rabbinate") Jews, were done with the Gyorgy Rusznak ("Gyorgy Kvetkovits"--in other words, Great-Great-Granddad Rusnak's paternal granddad)'s side of the family--with shiva having been sat for him (that is, Gyorgy "Gyorgy Kvetkovits" Rusznak) years ago. However, since Talmud Bavli states that one may break a mitzvah to save a life, they obviously broke the shiva-set boundary to save their own lives and their families' lives by reaching out to an Anusi relative.

What was at least one smuggled dollar to get Vilmosz Rusznak, Zoli Grinfeld (Vilmosz's brother in law), and their families out of Europe? What was reaching out to Jewish relatives as a (supposedly-) Jesus-believing Jew? What was helping family and exposing one's self as a Jew?

To Great-Grandma Gaydos, it was everything--and she stopped writing to Vilmosz, Zoli, and the rest of the family in Kosice--and that's how she became a kapo. By the way, I now understand the remark that Mom told me that Grandma had once made to her during a conversation about sponsoring needy children--that is, "You keep your money in your own country."

If you think that what Great-Grandma Gaydos did to Vilmosz, Zoli, and their families hit then-10-to-12-year-old MaryAnn, just imagine how it hit then 6-to-8-year-old Joan--and it must continue to hit the self-proclaimed Czechslovakian-American Catholic years later. By the way, Claims Conference Records on JewishGen.org indicate that Vilmosz survived after all. However, neither such evidence nor any other evidence indicates that Zoli and his family did--in fact, the evidences indicates the contrary. Also by the way, one of the Rusznak-Grinfeld children (Sandor) was MaryAnn's age at the time that he was murdered (The other child, Miklosz, was only 10.).