Camille Is In Love With Her New Toy, Hedgehog

"Auntie Nicole" deliberately left the videos shaky to show the effects of her Cerebral Palsy, including her myoclonus flareups.

Cam unintentionally looks like a hedgehog in this creative-effects shot!

More of Camera-Hating Reilly, And...

Shelby turned 11 months old today; and she'll be followed by to-be-2.5-years-old Reilly on the 25th, and to-be-1.5-years-old Cam on the 27th. Meanwhile, you haven't seen how Reilly hates the camera and tries to avoid it if you thought that she hates the camera as she indicated when the aide took the pictures of Reilly while "Momma" was stretching:

By the way:

1. Reilly and Camille wish all September babies happy birthdays.
2. "Momma" thinks that she knows and would like to know whom Reilly's biggest fan besides "Momma" might be:  someone from either California, North Carolina (or Iowa, as his or her IP address seems to be registered in North Carolina while his or her location seems to be Iowa), Maryland, or Pennsylvania—of course, "Momma" would never share which cities without the express permission of the possible biggest fans (or fan if he or she uses different locations, devices, and/or IP addresses for whatever reason); and Feedjit and Clustrmaps are useful tools to know, e.g., who's engaging with Reilly's page. 

Confession: I Can Be Self Hating (And/Or Unnecessarily Guilt Tripped), Too

Admittedly, the disgusting part is that I look like a szlachta posing like this. I suppose that if there was a portrait of a szlachta żydowska, I could get away with this (and there apparently were some Morgiewiczes who were szlachty [if they're Morgiewiczes who are related to us, I mean]; and given that they were targeted in the January Uprising, they probably are. If you think that the Russians didn't like Polish and other Non-Russian szlachty [much less Poles and other Non Russians], you can imagine how they treated szlachty żydowscy as well as Yehudim ha'aretz).



That's the only part that I'm honestly not proud of (unless, again, a szlachta żydowska posed like this. Otherwise, I've touched my own nerve here; especially since my family was deliberately falsely connected to the Anti-Semitic Stefan Czarniecki, and the sad part is that we did that in order to conceal that we are Litvak Czernieckis.

(Granted that there were also Philosemitic szlatchy [and szlachty żydowscy]. Still, I feel pretty bad about posing like this, especially if I was bringing to mind Anti Semites like the unfortunately-iconic Stefan Czarniecki. Then again, my OCD/GAD could be bringing on or exacerbating unnecessary guilt about this photo.).

Please Help...

For all I know, this could be what I'm looking for! My great-granduncle Bernie (Pfc. Bernard S. Czarnecki, WW2) had five nieces: Alexandria "Sandy" Guhanick (now Horoschak), Charmaine Czarnecki (now Cline. Her dad, Joseph, also served.), Gloria Guhanick (now Pushman), Irene Czarnecki (m. Gavrish; d. 1993), and Jane Gladey (a stepniece or an adopted niece who kept the name "Gladey", now).

His sister Alexandria Alice Czarnecki Dombroski (a widow with a son named John, Jr.) took care of him because he was injured in WW2 and DOW in 1963. Their sister Cecelia "Celia" Czarnecki Guhanick died in 1994, and their brothers John (Jane's stepfather), Joseph, and Stanley (Irene's father) died (respectively) in 1995, 1978, and 1995 (Stanley was the last one to die and died shortly after John.).

Please help!

Update On Reilly

All groomed
- Nicole Czarnecki

A Few Fosko-Rusnak Pictures Later, And...

I'm learning that: 

1. I wasn't kidding about Vilmosz et. al., was I? "Who has believed our report? And to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?" What the Hell did you do, Great-Great-Granddad? Besides the obvious (You, along with your daughter, destroyed many of Vilmosz's side of the family.), you destroyed yourself. Unlike Moshe achinu—whose "eyes were not dim nor his natural vigor diminished" when he was 120—, you looked like you came from the crypt at 69—and you left behind a curse, too: "‘The Lord is longsuffering and abundant in mercy, forgiving iniquity and transgression; but He by no means clears the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children to the third and fourth generation.’" I gave you the benefit of the doubt because you were so old—and the picture shows that Vilmosz reached out to you! You worked as a church sexton for years after you had to quit working at the coal mines—your wear and tear came from your destruction of Vilmosz, Zoli, et. al.; from your sending them to their murders!
2. We assimilated. Yes; we can eat treif, but Jewish—let alone Levite—systems weren't made for that. "All things are lawful for me, but not all things are helpful; all things are lawful for me, but not all things edify." "Jeshurun grew fat and kicked; You grew fat, you grew thick, You are obese! Then he forsook God who made him, And scornfully esteemed the Rock of his salvation."
3. I'm proud to have escaped. "I will take you, one from a city and two from a family, and I will bring you to Zion."
4. I don't need your recognition: 

And of Levi he said:

“Let Your Thummim and Your Urim be with Your holy one,Whom You tested at Massah,And with whom You contended at the waters of Meribah, Who says of his father and mother,‘I have not seen them’;Nor did he acknowledge his brothers,Or know his own children;For they have observed Your wordAnd kept Your covenant. They shall teach Jacob Your judgments,And Israel Your law.They shall put incense before You,And a whole burnt sacrifice on Your altar. Bless his substance, Lord,And accept the work of his hands;Strike the loins of those who rise against him,And of those who hate him, that they rise not again.”

"For the hurt of the daughter of my people I am hurt. I am mourning; Astonishment has taken hold of me." Nonetheless, I will not be there to help you when push comes to shove. I have found out our past; I intend to help other Jews who are in situations like ours find out theirs. I have acknowledged what we did to Vilmosz and his side of the family; I cannot help you acknowledge it if you won't acknowledge it. I will not assimilate and pass for a gentile when I am a Jew; you do what you want and be warned that "death shall be chosen rather than life by all the residue of those who remain of this evil family, who remain in all the places where I have driven them,” says the Lord of hosts."

I was born a Jew, a Levite, and a bat-Anusim; and I will die or be Raptured as such. PS You cannot change that I am yours; I am a Fosko; I am a Rusnak; and we are Levites:

By the way, I mean "those among the family who hate me" when I talk about  "they", "you", etc..

Maybe I'm Trying To Justify Myself Here, But...

So what? For:

1. , Michelle has a boyfriend; I don't have one. So why not buy myself a few items--some of which are free (excepting the worth-it shipping costs) and promoting charity; others of which are both life investments and going 5% toward charity; and two of which are life investments (one for university spirit , and one for religious reasons)?
2. , it's my SSI Money. Besides, given Reason #1, I'm making life investments with them. Also, why can't I have First Amendment Rights (e.g., the kippah and tallit) if people on welfare can be TVs, cars, blingy jewelry, and X-Box sets--among other things?
3. , I just gave Michelle a bit of it to use for her campus card.
4. , I bought a kippah (which I've needed, anyway; since I don't know what Jason would do if he caught me wearing one of the JSU-provided ones, and wearing kippot is a Biblical option for women) and an American-Israeli flag pin (to replace the one that I lost)--and both of which are the 5%-charity items (since JewishSource partnered with the International Fellowship of Christians and Jews, and the haredim considered the IFCJ trief ). I also bought a Messianic tallit--again, a life investment.
5. , I plan on--G-d willing--wearing the kippah and tallit at least at Shabbat at UMBC and wherever else, and New Heritage Church and wherever else--if not daily--for the rest of my life. I also plan on wearing the American-Israeli flag pin daily for the rest of my life.
6. , Look at the picture and its caption below. Right now, I am wearing five of the free charity items that I've worn daily since I got them--and you can't see the American flag pin that I'm wearing (with will become Dubru's when--G-d willing--I get the other pin), but I'm wearing it. One item I sadly lost (the glass keychain--it fell off and broke), and the bracelet that I first got is now a keychain--since I can no longer wear it, since it was falling apart.
7. , speaking of Dubru the University Spirit Teddy Bear, I actually held him during the debate to keep my anxiety--e.g., over my IBS and peeing myself during the long debate--down; and he's currently sitting on my pillow. I--G-d willing--may also pass him down to any children and grandchildren who I have.
8. I considered and searched a long time for a worthy tallit--G-d led me to a Messianic one.

I could go on, but you get the point.

Guatemalan bracelet, "Home Is Where Your Pet Is" bracelet, grass-woven bracelet, "Live, Laugh, Love" ring--which could fit only on middle finger--, American flag pin--all of which come from the GreaterGood Network. On my person, but not shown: the American flag pin and the keychain, which is on my purse on my said person.

I guess that part of the reason that I'm feeling guilt, too, is that I know that Mom could flip--Jewish guilt, although Mom (as far as we know) is a gentile (or mostly gentile, anyway)! Also, Dad did never give me but $40 for the past four or so birthdays--so, consider the kippah, pin, and tallit (since he claims to be a Messianic Jew, and I'm Jewish through him), and Dubru his birthday presents to me (and treats to myself, since--among the other reasons that I gave--I don't have a boyfriend and I'm making life investments, anyway).   

I Couldn't Resist...

I got him at the UMBC Bookstore for the sake of University Spirit, since it is Homecoming Season (I used Campus Cash.) and so that I could have something by which to remember UMBC--and after all the trouble that I put the cashiers through to make sure that I wouldn't get one made in Indonesia as the others are (since he was made in China--the lesser of two evils). His Spanish nickname is "Oside" (for "Osito de la Espiritu Universitario"), his Hebrew nickname "Dubru" ("Dubi-Ru'ach-Ha'Universita"). 

C'mon, All: Vote!

Which should be my new Twitter avatar? If you don't vote (e.g., leave a comment) by the end of Yamim Kippurim (the 26th for Non Karaites; the 27th for Karaites and those who observe Yom Kippur for two days in the Diaspora), I'm--G-d willing--picking the picture that I like. 

Which Should Be My New Twitter Avatar?