Commentary: "Who Wants To Live Forever", "Senseless Violence", Names, and a Nightclub in Re 9/11

So was about to go a reply to the following comment on a music video for a Queen song:

BreatheFree1 month agoThank you for listing the names. As Bono has said, no family member wants to think they've buried a statistic. Each was a person with a name and family and a life that mattered. Each was a unique person whom a domestic terrorist treated like one in a crowd. We know differently. RIP all who are victims of such violence.

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​ BreatheFree , I know what you mean. On September 11, 1897, a massacre against miners happened in Luzerne County, PA, as I found out today via Wikipedia (since I try to look up events for every day in history). The miners were all apparently Slavic and other gentiles. Looking at those names and the location, though, I knew that an apparently-Slavic (or any other apparently-gentile) Jew could be among them (even if any of his blood was gentile).There was such a one on September 11, 1922, indeed 50 years later. In a mine accident, an apparently-passed-for-gentile Jewish miner named Julian Charnetski (Julian Czarniecki), 46, died (His death certificate read 1879, though.). Before, I'd've looked at the list from 50 years before and not thought much. I'd also not thought of 9/11 as affecting this Jew (namely, myself) as much as it does, even though it did affect me and although I didn't lose any close relativesCANCELREPLY

Then I stopped. I would've continued until I thought that this needs to be shared with others as a reminder that indeed "no family member wants to think they've buried a statistic", and that anyone can be affected. Continuing, then:

....as far as I know. 9/11 affected me, but I didn't know that part of it was a neshamah Yehudit (a Jewish soul) in me responding. Page 251 of the 9/11 Commission Report states that the main target of 9/11 was "Jews, and not necessarily the United States". Then after doing family research, I figured out part of why, and moreso as I subsequently researched: some suspicions that I had were confirmed. Great-Granddad "Charnet-ski" was indeed a Jew; and that, that did indeed explain why my father would pronounce "Czarnecki" as "Charnetski" seemingly randomly enough, although it was really hint dropping. Of course, now that I figured out the heritage and what happened, he denies a lot of it, though I understand it: it can be painful when you're a third- and fourth-generation pogrom survivor (as he is, and his grandfather Anthony Czarnecki's parents survived by becoming b'nei ba'alei teshuvah [children of returnees to Judaism] that returned to Catholicism [as their parents were Anusim and B'nei Anusim whom became ba'alei teshuvah) and your kid figures out what happened after you told her a whole other story (especially when your whole life is based partly on telling lies to keep secrets and for other reasons, with the main reason for that being the big family secret about your heritage). By the way, the age given on the death certificate as well as the name was a lie: he was in fact born Julian Czerniecki (perhaps Julian Zernetzky) on December 24, 1875; and he often gave conflicting information in life to hide his identity.

There it is. The very violence that affected everyone on 9/11 included its effects on this unbeknownst-to-herself Jew on 9/11. The death certificate that she saw on July 25, 2008 confirmed that she was a Jew alone through Anthony, one of whose grandparents was "Katarzyna Danilowicz" (which was omitted from his uncle's death certificate, as "Danilowicz" apparently was a clear giveaway as to one's heritage at that time), and that put what happened almost seven years before she found it out and 79 years after it happened in a whole new light for her. She can then say, "Never think that it may not affected you if you can't be sure that it didn't," and that now she looks at that list on Wikipedia and wonders if those "Slavic" and other miners had any among them whom were like Julian, perhaps even relatives of his, and had or would have descendants whom were a general target for the 9/11 terrorists, whom did not like "Jews and Crusaders".

Now for the whole commentary outside of what would have been the comment:

One commenter posted the following in reply to another on Queen + Adam Lambert's music video for "Who Wants To Live Forever", which they dedicated to the Pulse Nightclub Shooting victims and other victims of "senseless violence" throughout history:

"Thank you for listing the names. As Bono has said, no family member wants to think they've buried a statistic. Each was a person with a name and family and a life that mattered. Each was a unique person whom a domestic terrorist treated like one in a crowd. We know differently. RIP all who are victims of such violence."

I know what he means. On September 11, 1897, a massacre against miners happened in Luzerne County, PA, as I found out today via Wikipedia (since I try to look up events for every day in history). The miners were all apparently Slavic and other gentiles. Looking at those names and the location, though, I knew that an apparently-Slavic (or any other apparently-gentile) Jew could be among them (even if any of his blood was gentile).  

There was such a one on September 11, 1922, indeed 50 years later. In a mine accident, an apparently-passed-for-gentile Jewish miner named Julian Charnetski (Julian Czarniecki), 46, died (His death certificate read 1879, though.). Before, I'd've looked at the list from 50 years before and not thought much. I'd also not thought of 9/11 as affecting this Jew (namely, myself) as much as it does, even though it did affect me and although I didn't lose any close relativesas far as I know. 9/11 affected me, but I didn't know that part of it was a neshamah Yehudit (a Jewish soul) in me responding. Page 251 of the 9/11 Commission Report states that the main target of 9/11 was "Jews, and not necessarily the United States". Then after doing family research, I figured out part of why, and moreso as I subsequently researched: some suspicions that I had were confirmed. Great-Granddad "Charnet-ski" was indeed a Jew; and that, that did indeed explain why my father would pronounce "Czarnecki" as "Charnetski" seemingly randomly enough, although it was really hint dropping. 

Of course, now that I figured out the heritage and what happened, he denies a lot of it, though I understand it: it can be painful when you're a third- and fourth-generation pogrom survivor (as he is, and his grandfather Anthony Czarnecki's parents survived by becoming b'nei ba'alei teshuvah  that returned to Catholicism [as their parents were Anusim and b'nei Anusim whom became ba'alei teshuvah]) and your kid figures out what happened after you told her a whole other story (especially when your whole life is based partly on telling lies to keep secrets and for other reasons, with the main reason for that being the big family secret about your heritage). By the way, the age given on the death certificate as well as the name was a lie: he was in fact born Julian Czerniecki (perhaps Julian Zernetzky) on December 24, 1875; and he often gave conflicting information in life to hide his identity.

There it is. The very violence that affected everyone on 9/11 included its effects on this unbeknownst-to-herself Jew on 9/11. The death certificate that she saw on July 25, 2008 confirmed that she was a Jew alone through Anthony, one of whose grandparents was "Katarzyna Daniłowicz" (which was omitted from his uncle's death certificate, as "Daniłowicz" apparently was a clear giveaway as to one's heritage at that time), and that put what happened almost seven years before she found it out and 79 years after it happened in a whole new light for her. She can then say, "Never think that it may not have affected you if you can't be sure that it didn't," and that now she looks at that list on Wikipedia and wonders if those "Slavic" and other miners had any among them whom were like Julian, perhaps even relatives of his, and had or would have descendants whom were a general target for the 9/11 terrorists, whom did not like "Jews and Crusaders". She's now even thinking of looking up their death certificates to find out—i.e., were they relatives; and were they thus indirect targets of the terrorists? Besides, they have the right to be counted as such for the record if they were, as they were victims of direct Anti Semitism in Polish Russia and elsewhere (including the U.S.) as well as indirect victims of 9/11 (and I'll add those corrections on their death-certificate indexes to note that).

Commentary: How To Repeal the Second Amendment & Still Have the Right To Bear Arms

Mandate the Second Amendment.

• Change the language from "right" to "mandate".
• Emulate Switzerland, though go a lot further:

1. Switzerland "allows [its] citizens or legal residents over the age of 18, who have obtained a permit from the government and who have no criminal record or history of mental illness, to buy up to three weapons from an authorized dealer, with the exception of automatic firearms and selective fire weapons, which are banned." The United States needs to require that each of its citizens who are registered to vote—including those who are registered at 17—and all  citizens as well as legal residents who are at least 18 years old to own at least one firearm except for if he or she has a criminal record or has a legitimate religious objection to owning a gun. 
2. A person who has a mental illness should not automatically be banned from owning a gun, either—in fact, people with mental illnesses are more likely to be victimized and in need to defend themselves than to victimize and harm others.
3. Swiss "men between the ages of 18 and 34 deemed "fit for service" are given a pistol or a rifle and trained." Each American man who is registered with the Selective Service and fit the previously-mentioned criteria (i.e., has no criminal record or legitimate religious objection to owning a gun) needs to be given one firearm and training upon registering with the Selective Service.
4. Swiss "gun owners who want to carry their weapon for 'defensive purposes' also have to prove they can properly load, unload, and shoot their weapon and must pass a test to get a license." That should be a given in terms of what both Swiss and American citizens and legal residents should be trained to do. However, the United States needs to require that each its citizens and legal residents who fit the aforementioned criteria openly carry one weapon at all times for defensive purposes.

In conclusion, the United States needs to essentially mandate the Second Amendment by having a stronger amendment with language such as the following:

"The mandate to bear arms, with the People being the well-regulated militia on the domestic front, shall not be infringed. To this end:

1. Each citizen of the United States who is registered to vote (including those who are registered at 17) as well as each citizen and legal resident who is at least 18 years of age, has no criminal records, and has no legitimate religious objections to the bearing of arms shall be at all times required to possess at least one firearm and openly carry said firearm on his or her person. 
2. He or she is to possess said firearm for the defense of self and the defense of others as well as other lawful and legitimate purposes such as sustenance provision (namely, the hunting of game or the humane killing of an animal that he or she might raise for sustenance).
3. He or she is to openly carry said firearm on his or her person in public at all times for especially the defense of self and the defense of others.
4. If the citizen or legal resident in question is a man who is registered with the Selective Service, he shall be given one firearm and training in the lawful and proper use and handling of firearms upon registering.
5. A citizen or legal resident shall not be denied the ownership or use of a firearm merely because of any mental illness and/or any other infirmity that he or she has unless he or she can be proven beyond a reasonable doubt and with probable cause to be prone or otherwise liable to commit unlawful and/or other unnecessary violence with any firearm due to his or her illness or infirmity. In fact, given that those with such illnesses and infirmities are in fact more than likely to need firearms for the defenses of selves and for self sustenances due to their vulnerable condition, the Congress of the United States shall take into account the needs of self defenses and self sustenances of people with mental illnesses and other infirmities when it enforces this provisions of this article with legislation pertaining thereto and in light thereof.
6. The Congress shall have power to enforce, by appropriate legislation, the provisions of this article."

Commentary: Assuming That DePaul's Like Notre Dame Of Maryland, They Will Support The Anti Semites

Assuming that DePaul is very-traditionally Catholic, it will support the Anti-Semitic students and persecute Dr. Hill. I as a student learned this the hard way when I went to Notre Dame of Maryland University (still then the College of Notre Dame of Maryland) for a time, and I left it for good reason when I did (and why Yehovah, ב״ה, allowed it to become a university is what only He knows, and it became a university within a year after I left. I suspect, though, that NDMU will be another case of the arrogant being exalted by Yehovah only to be humbled by Him.).

In my case, I was a student whom was persecuted by an Anti-Semitic professor and the administration (and I will name names, too: I have no problem speaking up about whom persecuted me). I was even set up by the campus religious director, Melissa Lees, after I confronted the religious studies professor, Dr. Weiss, on his Anti-Semitic remarks—literally, she promised to defend me in a meeting with the administration only to have sided with them in the first place, as became clear when I got into the meeting room. I'm not kidding when I say that Dr. Weiss' remarks were Anti-Semitic, either, and four that still stick out are the lies that: 

1. We stole Passover from the Syrians
2. The Exodus didn't happen and that it was "an ancient peasant rebellion" as opposed to an actual exodus from slavery
3. "It's possible" that "the prophets [were] inspired by the Devil" (a student actually asked if the prophets could've been, and the professor actually answered, "It's possible").
4. Matthew knew that Jesus was born in Nazareth and wrote that he was born in Bethlehem to advance his narrative, anyway

In other words, Dr. Weiss, Melissa Lees, et. al. perpetuated and encouraged these three among other Anti-Semitic canards that are rife within traditional Catholic institutions:

1. That we're thieves
2. That we're liars and perpetual victim-card players
3. That we're demonic and do demonic things in the name of God 24/7 

Meanwhile, someone in a Facebook group asked the following question (which can be publicly seen), and this is why I even wrote all of this in the first place: 

"Funny they are being ugly and racist re Jews but that is okay and doesn't seem to threaten any of them. Do they not have any Jewish students? I would find their attitude threatening and racist. Why is that allowed!" 

As I replied to his or her question, "[m]y guess is that any Jewish students who are part of their student body either are self hating or are being persecuted like the professor is"; and "any Jewish students that have spoken up against Anti Semitism at DePaul, then, have probably been in the same position that I was in when I went where I went."

I didn't name Notre Dame or Dr. Weiss or Melissa Lees in the group, as I didn't want to try to make the thread in re Dr. Hill and DePaul about me. At the same time, I almost left this commentary as a comment in response into comments such that "the school needs to support the professor". So, I decided to turn what was going to be a clearly-too-long comment into this warning—essentially, that
one has to either understand or learn the hard way that Catholic Anti Semitism like that at DePaul is as Catholic Anti Semitism that Dr. Weiss, Melissa Lees, et. al. taught at NDMU, is as Catholic Anti Semitism anywhere and everywhere else:

1. It is sadly not a "paradox", despite one commenter's giving of the benefit of the doubt: it is run-of-the-mill Pseudo-Christian Anti Semitism that Non-Evangelical (Non-Christian) Catholics still perpetuate. 
2. It is the kind of Pseudo Christianity that caused my father's family to hide and deny our heritage, and I learned the hard way that Non-Evangelical Catholicism is indeed a cult. 
3. It is what Martin Luther harbored: when he said that he never wanted to leave the Catholic Church, he meant that he never wanted to leave it; and he harbored its Pseudo-Christian Anti Semitism until his dying day (Besides, Luther was an opportunist and wanted to steal the work of the real reformers—Hus and Wycliffe—to make himself look like a real reformer—and were he a real reformer, he would've been a martyr like Hus was and even like Wycliffe was, as the persecution that Wycliffe endured fatally wore down his health.)

Commentary: Raising the Red Flag Re *****

I and quite a few others told everyone this for a reason! If you don't believe us, believe someone who worked with ***** when he says that and is a takes-one-to-know-one type!

Bing-*******-o! If someone who worked with Trump says that and is a takes-one-to-know-one type, listen! https://t.co/T67JoRPBPm

— N.V. Mara Czarnecki (@Nickidewbear) April 6, 2019

Also, again, the narcissist and sociopath who first convinced the psychiatrists that narcissism and sociopathy are mental illnesses either is or was (depending on if he's still alive and) sitting back laughing!

Meanwhile, ***** is sitting back and laughing: "Look at these idiots. They really think that I have Dementia or some cognitive issue. Well, **** them. 'I don't play games,' I said. Oh yes I do. Of course I was projecting & acting like everyone else plays games.

"If they don't want to catch me at my game, they won't hold me as accountable as they should; and it's even better that my father did have Dementia: I can use my family history to fool them."

Think about that. He has fun lying, he has fun watching everyone go loopy over all his lies. It’s all a big game to him, AND HE’S GETTING AWAY WITH IT ALL.

— Sharon (@SharonWillow54) April 5, 2019

no - it's not joking or needing translation @Scaramucci - it's emotional abuse and dangerous

— Bb 🇺🇸 🇺🇸🌟 (@babbdbd) April 6, 2019

As for his IQ, it definitely is high; and sociopaths with high IQs are like particularly cunning, calculative, and frightening, especially when they try to look unintelligent to attempt gaslighting.

For example, even his recent comments about "Judge Flores": he knows the actual judge's name and acted like he doesn't to demean "Little Miss Judge Flores". Just ask "Miss Nicole" or "Miss Nick", among the plenty of other "Miss" types that I apparently am—and the memories of my grandfather calling me that have never gone away, even though he's now been deceased for six years this December, and he was not a nice person at all!

And give in to him demeaning her as "[Little Miss] Judge Flores"? Read between the lines: he's trying to pass her off as a sympathy pawn just because she's a Hispanic girl, and he is a xenophobic misogynist and child hater.

— N.V. Mara Czarnecki (@Nickidewbear) April 6, 2019

If nothing else, at least take it from a survivor of childhood abuse (with even some of it being physical, though at least thankfully not sexual). As I explained, with a few of the tweets shown here:

He doesn't. He's xenophobically and sickeningly calling the child essentially the judge and sees her as a proxy for the actual judge.

— N.V. Mara Czarnecki (@Nickidewbear) April 6, 2019

He's doing it maliciously. Trust me; he's calling the child the de-facto judge in all of this. His thinking is essentially, "If it weren't for Little Miss Judge Flores, the judge wouldn't have ruled in her favor."

— N.V. Mara Czarnecki (@Nickidewbear) April 6, 2019

He knows. He's essentially saying, "Little Miss Flores was the de-facto judge." He is xenophobic and hates children, wants to think that the actual judge ruled in her favor because she's a Hispanic child.

— N.V. Mara Czarnecki (@Nickidewbear) April 6, 2019

Nope. Sociopathy. Trump is essentially saying, "Look at Little Miss Judge Flores, a Hispanic child. That's why the judge ruled in her favor: because she's a Hispanic girl." Keep in mind that he hates children, Non-White people, and girls and women.

— N.V. Mara Czarnecki (@Nickidewbear) April 6, 2019

He could. He's accomplishing his goal: making himself look unintelligent to avoid accountability for being a xenophobic misogynist and child hater.

— N.V. Mara Czarnecki (@Nickidewbear) April 6, 2019

He could. He's accomplishing his goal: making himself look unintelligent to avoid accountability for being a xenophobic misogynist and child hater.

— N.V. Mara Czarnecki (@Nickidewbear) April 6, 2019

As I've said, that's the only reason that I'm glad that I went through childhood abuse and dealt with other narcisstic-sociopathic abuse: that is, I can see right through people like ***** because of what I've endured!

Re A Matter About Which I've Posted On Facebook And Twitter In the Past Few Days

Since the time is sadly closer, I might as well just say it: my mom's mom has metastasized Lung Cancer that metastasized to her liver and bones, and she was admitted to the hospital a week ago tomorrow. They thought that Pneumonia and Shingles were the cause of her severe pain (and, oh man, was she in pain when I talked to her the night before!). They ran tests on Friday only to find that a spot on her liver and (as she told me) something "on the lungs", and then (according to one of my uncles or aunts) the "really bad" tests results showed that she has cancer that they somehow caught way too late.

She is under hospice care and has only days to weeks to live; and my own hope, truth be told, is that she dies on New Year's Eve if she has to go so soon, since that is my late maternal grandfather's (her first husband's) birthday (She even requested to be buried with "something of his" that he had passed down to their children when he passed away in 1974; and that was the first time that she was widowed, by the way 😢. She remarried in 1979 and was widowed again in 2004. She's also had other losses and sufferings throughout her 91 years, and now she has to endure terminal Lung Cancer 😢.)

Please pray that she goes in her sleep (since that what's she wanted) and/or surrounded by loved ones when she goes. She is sleeping more and more lately as well as eating and drinking less due to severe pain. She has been ready to go for a long time, even before her Lung Cancer diagnosis.
PS To loved ones (family and friends): please call and/or visit her if you can; and please pray for her. Also, as she once told my sister, "Never start smoking" (although she knows that Michelle would never smoke), and she quit cold turkey at 77 years and after 55 years of smoking. She even mentioned something about it to Mom today.

PPS May Yehovah comfort us among the mourners of Tzion v'Yerushalayim, and may her memory be for a blessing when & after she passes. For those whom want her Hebrew name, meanwhile, since she is of Jewish ancestry (although she does has gentile ancestry as well): Miriam Eliora bat Yochanahn Chaim* v'Miriam Margolit**. ***

*(ben Gdaliya ben Binyamin Yochanahn v'Natan'elah)

**(bat Yochanahn Toma v'Eliora)

*** Her dad (his everyday name having been John Carroll Pundt, z"l) was a son of George August Pundt (z"l) and Jewish especially on his paternal grandma's side (And her Hebrew name would've likely been Natan'elah bat Shlomo v'Amalia was she given one. Her everyday name was Dorothea "Dora" Lehr Pundt the daughter of Frederich and Amalia Gunther Lehr.). As for her maternal heritage, I'm pretty sure that she had Crypto-Jewish heritage on at least her mom's paternal grandfather's side, which is another discussion for another time.

Also, I've done family and other research; so:

• Even though she is religiously Catholic (as were her parents), she in my opinion (especially since she believes in a Jewish man as the Messiah) should have the honor of her Hebrew name (notwithstanding that she knew most about her Irish and German heritage, and nothing about her Jewish heritage until I found out about it and brought it up. Her dad, from what I understand, did know about it and never told her about it, which is a long discussion.).
• I could not find a suitable Hebrew equivalent for "August" or for her maternal grandmother's middle name, "Agnes". Her father's Hebrew would've likely been "Binyamin Yochanahn" for "William John", and his mother was an Elizabeth Müller Pundt the daughter of a Johann Conrad Müller and Margarete Siedenburg Pundt, both of Jewish ancestry. Again, long discussion.

Originally On Quora: If I Had A Child With Diplegic Spastia...

Truth be told, I’d honestly not hold my breath and expect his or her father to stay or otherwise not abuse him or her especially because he or she has DSCP. I’m honestly surprised at the previous answers, as I honestly expected to see the same ableist and when-push-actually-comes-to-shove—with the answerers, though, I’m not holding my breath, as saying that you wouldn’t be ableist is a lot different than actually having a child with any disability—let alone DSCP—and seeing if you mean that you won’t be ableist.

With 28 years of DSCP after a neonatal stroke due to premature birth, I am not trying to be funny or ugly—though plenty of people in my life have ugily tried to amuse themselves at my expense.

Cry, Cry, "Recall the Fifth Of July!"

On a Thursday, July 5th 73 years ago today, these two men were part of an uprising that is overlooked by historians and others alike: these two, Franciszek and Witold Andrulewicz, were part of the Augustów Resistance. They didn't have to fight the invading Soviets. They did. Why?

Why they didn't have to do it and why they did it are on the one in the same (and I can tell you that the sides of our family back in Europe were aware of it, no matter denials, etc. on all sides now): they were B'nei Anusim whom had seen it before, and they were not going to see it again, even if they had to die to try to make sure that nobody else would see it—and they did die.

Even if Holocaust historians and others overlook the Russian part of the Holocaust, I won't. Even if Holocaust historians and others don't consider the time from Stalin's reign to the closing of the gulags as part of the Holocaust, I will. Even if the Augustów Resistance isn't remembered even much in Poland—let alone as much as other defenses that Jewish and other partisans undertook—I will remember it.

אפריים בן אביגדור (פרנטישק בן וינצנטי) ופעידל בן יוסף (ויטולד בן יוסף), זיכרונם לברכה; וכל אחרים קדושים באוגוסטוב, זיכרונם לברכה

As I've Stated, I Assure You That It's Not "Typical Narcissistic Hollywood". It's Nothing New That...

It's more like typical Danilovich narcissism. As I've said, I have seen that ugly **** on my side of the family. I'm distantly related to her husband's paternal family and arrogance like this is par-for-the-course classic on at least my side of our common family, so I should've figured that another in-law family member would be like this (and we've had plenty of like-in-law-like-member in laws).

Refresher:

Long story short and/or just as a refresher, someone once asked me if I am related to Kirk Douglas since the paternal grandmother of my great-grandfather Anthony Czarnecki was a Danilovich. I said that I'm not, as I thought that his surname was "Demsky".
Count One against that assumption: he was born a Danilovich. Count Two: he even looks like a relative, and I figured out quickly that the apparently-"Czarnecki chin" is a Danilovich one. Count Three, the big one: he has wreaked havoc on the world such as raping Natalie Wood (and as if our side didn't wreak havoc on the world, thank you very much!). I don't know (forgive the language) WTF was in the water of Dunilavičhy, the former shtetl whence the Danilovich/Danilowicz name comes, although something was.

Of course, "[p]ride goeth before the fall," and "God resisteth the proud, but giveth grace unto the humble." Sadly, though, some people become more arrogant when they fall—and you can guess how I know that from familial experience.

"How does depression kill people?"

My great-grandfather did exactly this [that is, "jump[ed] out of a burning building to escape fire"], except that he jumped off of Falls River Bridge. His final Depression flareup killed him inside, and he got to the point of wanting to commit suicide. As for me, I could’ve died [due] to starvation due to a Depression flareup that caused me to oversleep and even miss much of my puppy’s first year:

Reilly and Camille are a main reason why she is alive right now—and, to the chagrin of many, she has said this before. She wonders what would happen to especially Reilly if something ever happened to her, and something almost did happen to her before she got Reilly—she overslept to the point at which she could have died due to starvation due to oversleeping because of a Depression flareup had the flareup become worse than it already had been.

As she's also mentioned before, she missed much of Reilly's first year because of her Depression flareup—not to mention "Auntie Michelle"'s Depression-exacerbating insistence that her apparent "experience" was more important than her reading, talking to pet owners in the neighborhood, c..

People get mad when I say that my “dogter” and furniece keep me alive, though I have even thought about suicide despite that they are around. Depression kills one inside first and then may cause him or her to kill himself or herself.

While I'm Not Jumping To Conclusions Yet, I Know That Hate Is More Likely Possible Than Not

To find out that family tombstones were overturned a few years ago is one matter. To think that they could possibly be connected to a hate crime is another. The person who told me didn't specify "a few years ago", so I asked him or her and told him or her my concern. The tombstones were of some of my Irish family whom I will not specify right now, and of more-specific family within that family if my suspicions are correct.

If my suspicions are correct and the stones weren't overturned due to old age (and I don't know of their status now, though I assume that they've been returned upright), I will say this: regardless of whether someone found something out through anything I've written online, by figuring it themselves, etc., that gives them no right to do what they did. What they did also proves part of why certain family members chose to pass for fully Irish, and in a so-called "Christian" society.

That's why even on St. Patrick's Day and ever since I found out about my Jewish heritage, I identify as a Jew. While I'm also Irish among of other ethnic groups, I'm mostly Jewish. My father is a Jew, though he denies it. My mother is a Jew, although she denies it and is my parent of Irish descent. I'm a mostly-Patrilineal Jew and haven't forgotten that since almost 10 years ago, no matter how much any of my family members wants to deny that, and Saint Patrick didn't deny that the Jesus whose message was brought to him through my people (and the Irish people through him) was a Jew¹.

¹ Or as I believe, "Whose Message....Is a Jew".

Something That I Thought About Re A Friend's Facebook Post Re A TV Character's Comment On Anorexia

(This was originally a reply on Facebook. I have added more thoughts within the thought here.)

To be honest, I've wondered what Holocaust survivors and their descendants think of that, even in regards to the ones whom have Anorexia whether or not it's in remission. Especially were I a first-generation Holocaust survivor, I might be thinking, "I was starved in the [']concentration['] [actually, murder] camps, and you girls and boys are willingly starving yourselves? Don't you realize that you have the privilege to eat?" 

(Let's face, by the way, that "concentration camps" either understates or obscures exactly why the Nazis built the murder camps, which they built solely to hold as hostages and enslave Jews in order to try to commit full-scale ethnocide—and while there were Jews whom were complicit in that, many or most Poles and other gentiles were the main ones whom were either passively or actively complicit in that. To see why my family decided to become Anusim, also by the way, is not that hard, especially when one looks solely at the experiences of my great-grandfather Czarnecki's maternal family during the Holocaust.

On the other hand, I am sadly certain that some Holocaust survivors experienced of some form of Anorexia because they thought that they weighed too much in comparison to other Holocaust survivors and victims whom died of starvation. I've read of parallel cases in which, for example, Holocaust survivors whom have died deliberately had themselves cremated because they felt guilty about surviving while their loved ones and others were cremated either alive or after they were otherwise murdered.



Incidentally, I've also read of first- and subsequent-generation Holocaust survivors experiencing onsets of other mental illnesses, including OCD/Anxiety and of course Depression and PTSD. I can relate to that because mental illnesses certainly onset in family members of mine and in myself after traumatic incidents of lesser degrees except for when those incidents have been almost- or entirely-equal-in-degree Anti-Semitic incidents such as the Belostok Pogrom. After all, for instance, I am a fourth-generation pogrom survivor, and I would not be surprised if the Depression that caused my father's paternal grandfather's suicide was at least partly related to being affected by the Belostok Pogrom. I would also not be surprised if the onset of my OCD/Anxiety and Depression was related to my being a fourth-generation pogrom survivor and being therefore all the more affected by 9/11 and its fallout as well as beginning to learn about the full extent Holocaust during the fallout, although only when I found out that I am Jewish was when I looked back and realized that my nefesh Yehudit was sensing all of the Anti Semitism that my own family endured and responding to what I was learning and 9/11 with its fallout in light of my own family's experiences