Reilly's Exceptional Vet Visit & A Clarification By "Momma"

Even though—according to "Mom-Mom"—Reilly "peed on the scale" when they weighed her, since she was "nervous" and hadn't "peedied" when "Momma" took her "potty" beforehand, she behaved very well for the vet. The vet even said that despite that "Reilly was mad at her", she was "'a dear'" and "'a special dog'"—in fact, she even "gave her 'kisses'" while she was getting her regular checkup and a booster shot. Meanwhile, as one should except, Camille provoked Reilly when Reilly and "Mom-Mom" came home—as for "Momma", she herself'd take Reilly to the vet if she could drive.

By the way, "Momma" does know that she seems to come off as desperate regarding a "Daddy" for Reilly and a helpmate for herself—and she nonetheless wants the best for Reilly and herself, such as having someone other than "Mom-Mom" to take Reilly to the vet. Besides, 26-year-old-and-only-getting-older "Momma" would be embarrassed to ever come along when "Mom-Mom"—her mother—takes 2.75-year-old-and-getting-older-as-well Reilly to the vet—at 26 and having disabilities (including mental illness), "Momma" feels like an inadequate "Momma" to Reilly and embarrassed enough, thanks.

Somewhat Offbeat: Asking God For One Thing Re Reilly's Possible "Daddy"

If God could move "Momma"'s possible helpmate & Reilly's possible "Daddy" to do something for Hanukkah & Christmas, it's that He'd move him to at least contact "Momma" to explain what he wants exactly or doesn't want exactly, and Reilly could certainly benefit from getting a "Daddy" this Hanukkah and Christmas—after all, Reilly certainly loves to meet new people and could certainly use a "Daddy" to help "Momma" manage her—besides, Reilly and "Momma" are only getting older.

Is that too much to ask? Is anything too hard for יהוה?

Countdowns To Birthdays, An Anniversary That Happened Re Writing About Reilly Two Weeks Ago, &c.

Reilly will be three years old in five days on the Gregorian calendar, and Camille will be two years old in a week. Meanwhile, "Momma" is also remembering another milestone: exactly two weeks ago, two years passed since "Momma" became a mentoree to the main person whom inspired her to write about Reilly and become an author in general; and three weeks and two years will have passed since "Auntie Nicole" became a mentoree on Camille's birthday.

Of course, Reilly has example after example of when she's spoiled, whether it's her birthday or any other given day. As for "Momma", not so much—in fact, "Momma" wonders if God loves Reilly more than He loves her—apparently, for example, it's good for "Momma" to be alone while it's not good for anyone else, notwithstanding that "Momma" needs a helpmate and Reilly needs a "Daddy". Also, how will "Momma" surely know, for instance, whether the guy is a total stranger or even one of the guys among guys and gals whom inspired "Momma" to write about Reilly, no matter what "Momma" thinks in regards to who is or might be Reilly's "Daddy"?

"Momma"'s New Year's Resolutions To Reilly (God Willing)

While "Momma" grants that even Kirk Douglas doesn't have tomorrow unless God wills that he does, "Momma" makes these resolutions to Reilly—and assuming that she's even alive by January, "Momma" will try to fulfill (if Yehovah wills) the resolutions to try to:

1. Not fail Reilly
2. Find whoever Reilly's "Daddy" is for Reilly—whether he is who "Momma" thinks (or at least hopes that he is) or she has to settle for whom she can get
3. Somehow get out of the U.S. or die trying if Trump gets his way
4. Be a better "Auntie" to Camille for Reilly's and Camille's sakes

יהי רצון יהוה לעשות הרצון שלו.

PS After "Momma" got offline after checking some things (including the status of her hopefully-soon-to-be-published second book), "Momma" saw a resemblance to her—and thus to Reilly's "Pop-Pop", and thus Kirk Douglas—in Reilly—"Momma" was both amused and unamused.

Somewhat Offbeat & Since Puppies Are Family Members, Too...

Maybe If "Momma" Can Take Reilly On A Trip To Pennsylvania Someday...

1. "Momma" might try to make aliyah with Reilly from Philadelphia (God willing), since there are relatives there and an airport there.
2. "Momma" has many sites that she wants to visit before she, God willing, makes aliyah with Reilly—among them are the port through which Great-Great-Grandma Gaydos came, Harvey's Lake (where the Rusnak Family reunions are held, just to get Reilly to learn to swim and recall what was good about those reunions), 207 Freed Street (which probably looks a good deal like it did when Great-Granddad and his family lived in 203-207 Freed Street; and Holy Family Cemetery in Sugar Notch (If "Momma" can, she'll have the bodies of relatives exhumed from there, and from wherever else she can, and reburied in Israel.). "Momma" also wants to take Reilly to some of those sites.
3. "Momma" wants Reilly to meet relatives, friends, and other loved ones and associates thereof in Pennsylvania.

Besides, Reilly is "Momma"'s dogter. So, why can't Reilly know about the history of her human family? If only Reilly had a "Daddy" to get her and "Momma" up there, meanwhile!

Yesterday, Reilly begrudgingly looked at the camera here and waited for a walk. Besides, she's got to get bored of "Momma" being one of the few human family members around once in a while.

Somewhat Offbeat: One Heartbroken & Confused "Momma" That Keeps Failing Reilly

As "Momma" has written, she doesn't know what who she thinks (or at least hopes) that Reilly's "Daddy" sometime in the future—though she doesn't know exactly when—wants. She keeps getting mixed signals—which hurt like Hell—and thus failing Reilly. Even again, Reilly is exhausted—as "Momma" is exhausted—due to—besides that "Auntie Michelle" failed to bring Reilly down on time again—being awake due to feeling heartbroken and confused, and trying to figure out what's going on as far as he's concerned.

Maybe "Momma" just ought to give up hope and wait for someone else for her and Reilly's sakes, though whether "Momma" will find a helpmate for herself and a "Daddy" for Reilly if she moves on is questionable. 

Somewhat Offbeat: Speaking Of Pet Owners With Disabilities...

"Momma" is really considering DBS Surgery. Of course, "Momma" also has to consider a few factors that she didn't have to consider during ITB Pump Surgery. For example:

1. Of course, how Reilly will be affected overall.
2. Having to have a shaved head, which might scare Reilly . Besides, one DBS patient, for example, has a supportive spouse and a head covering. "Momma", on the other hand, doesn't (at least yet) have her helpmate/Reilly's "Daddy" there in her life or their lives; and having a shaved head might alone further stigmatize her, even in the eyes of "Momma"'s possible helpmate/"Reilly"'s possible "Daddy"—any unattractiveness (as if "Momma" was ever really attractive, anyway) could have anyone revulse from her all the more; and that might affect Reilly and not even make the DBS Surgery worth it in the end.
3. The albe-remote-and-nonetheless-existent risk of a brainbleed—and "Momma" already had a Category-Three one at birth, thanks (Not being disrespectful to God; just saying.)
4. Will "Momma" be able to go home relatively right away or have to be in a rehabilitation-and-recovery center and not see Reilly for while? Will Reilly be able to be brought at least to the hospital to see "Momma" at all (as some puppies have been allowed to do for their owners?)

"Momma" Gets Acute Reillyitis When...

Reilly barks like a banshee or even a klipeh. Even this morning (and as "Momma" types), Reilly has been barking ceaselessly—and her friend which is known as the spray bottle was utilized multiple times—not to mention that Camille was sprayed, too.

Of course, working-from-home-today "Mom-Mom" was of no help—had she rolled over Reilly and asked "Who rules?" like a friend of "Grandaunt Frannie" taught "Momma" while they were visiting her, Reilly would've stopped barking. As "Momma" has written:

"This is also another reminder of why "Momma" needs a "Daddy" for Reilly as both "Momma" and "Reilly" get older—besides, an as-possible-as-able man would be able to have authority over Reilly than 5'1.75"-and-afflicted-with-CP-and-Scoliosis "Momma". Granted that, for example, the main person who inspired "Momma" to write about Reilly got frustrated when "Momma" once complained about her state in her life—as he understandably viewed "Momma"'s complaining as being a pity-party schtick, as most other people view it because they don't get how hard it is for "Momma"."

Seriously, the sooner that God sends "Momma" a helpmate and Reilly a "Daddy", the better.

The Week-Until-Christmas-and-Hanukkah—And Week-Until-Reilly's-Month-Birthday—Countdown

"Momma" will not "dance" with Reilly, though—she doesn't want to get bitten!—after all, getting her face and/or hands bitten would not help her to spend as much time as possible with her.

No matter how cute Reilly is, she cannot get away with biting people! By the way, the Hanukkah card so far is the same one as last time—not much has changed, after all:





PS As "Momma" has written before (though maybe there'll be a Christmas and Hanukkah miracle):

""Momma" thought again of whom she thinks—or at least hopes—will be Reilly's "Daddy"—and she thinks of him everyday (even though thinking of him is part of what exhausts her, albe that thinking of him will be worth if he ends up being Reilly's "Daddy")."

A Weekly Visit To Camille's Maternal Sister Shelby, And...

"Momma" finally told Reilly whom she thinks—or at least hopes—that her "Daddy" might eventually be, God willing, and Reilly wanted to hear who he might be and seemed to approve*—she licked "Momma" twice and touched her hand with her nose once, and after her ears moved when "Momma" asked if she wanted to hear—and this was while "Momma" was stretching and giving Reilly belly rubs.

Before that, "Momma" on a walk and visited Camille's maternal sister Shelby, a daughter of Tootsie and a Maltese named "Booby". Shelby will be 11 months old shortly before Camille turns 1.5 years old and Reilly turns 2.5 years old, and she has already grown so much within her first year and developed a bond with Camille and her twice-removed cousin Reilly.

Shelby when I first met her

Shelby today...

*If any guy who can and wants to know whether he is the person in question, he may feel free to contact Reilly's "Momma" on Facebook, via e-mail, etc.—if he emails, he should put something like "Re About Whom Reilly's Daddy" might be in the subject line. 

#MondayMotivation, #MaltipooMonday, And a Confession From "Momma"

Update per the confession below (1:35 PM EST): Since "Momma" wants to clarify and give no wrong impressions, the person who "Momma" thinks might be Reilly's eventual "Daddy" is someone whom is from one of "Momma"'s ancestral states and whom she has known for some time, and may have made a donation to St. Jude's in her honor.
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While "Momma" is still looking for a full-time job—which reminds her that she needs to finish a project related to job seeking, by the way—she petsits her furniece and watches her "dogter"—both of whom give her two reasons to live and sometimes laugh, not to mention motivations for Mondays and the hashtag "#MaltipooMonday".

She also checks to see if a certain someone, whom she thinks is Reilly's eventual "Daddy", checks her blog (Feedjit and Clustrmaps, e.g., are useful apps 🙂.). Many a nights, that has kept her up—to Reilly's detriment—and unable to get to sleep right away—there's even a loneliness that pets can't fulfill for their owners, let alone that Reilly for "Momma". Especially as life closes in on both her and ever-patient Reilly, she often sighs out of heartbreak.

By the way, Reilly was oddly very playful at dawn as "Momma" woke up for a little while—she gave some kisses and nibbled "Momma"'s hand, and she enjoyed some belly rubs as well as ran around playfully (Eventually, "Momma" had to say that she and Reilly needed to go back to sleep for a while.). Maybe empathetic Reilly sensed some of the pain that Momma's enduring, even during this Thanksgiving month.

Also, by the way, Reilly did lick Momma's ring when she did show her it and asked her if she remembered it when she showed it to her last night—as "Momma" forgot for a moment (The exhaustion and, e.g., ADD get to "Momma".).

Somewhat Offbeat: God Willing....

"Momma" may reveal who she thinks may eventually be her helpmate and Reilly's "Daddy" soon. She's given hints in the past¹ and already told Reilly multiple times. Besides—for example—after having to once again get Reilly's harness and leash on her to eventually get her muzzle on her, "Momma" knows that she needs to deal openly with the subject of many of her blog entries for over a year for her, Reilly's, and others'—including and especially "Momma"'s possible helpmate's and Reilly's possible "Daddy"'s—sakes.

Besides:

1. Reilly's going to have her 3.5-Gregorian-year birthday in a month and a day from now. As for her Hebrew half-year birthday, that's coming up on September 14th at sundown (Elul 23. She was born on 2 Adar 23 or 24, 5774).
2. "Momma" turned 27.5 Gregorian years old yesterday (August 23rd at sundown) and will be 27.5 Hebrew years old on September 16th at sundown (Elul 25th.  the Rabbinic Calendar gave her the best estimate for when Rosh HaShanah 5750 occurred, by the way).
3. In other words, time passes with both Reilly and "Momma" getting only older.

¹Another hint, by the way:  

בעיר באזור בעיר האהבת אחים,  לא בעמק ורד בארץ של מרים

Somewhat Offbeat: Something That "Momma" and Reilly Still Do Every Day

They persist in praying for whomever "Momma"'s helpmate and Reilly's "Daddy" is, and praying for an answer from a certain someone. Reilly has been quite patient about that, might "Momma" add, despite that she still makes when her patience is stretched to the limit from time to time. Truth be told, Reilly's running downstairs one night probably had to do with impatience in part (notwithstanding that night-owl "Momma" went to bed quite early that night) and even her knowledge that "['Momma'] isn't as strong or as fast as Mom-Mom and Auntie Michelle" (which she has explained to Reilly multiple times, and of which Reilly gladly takes advantage—albe in a toddler-like way as opposed to a malicious way).

This isn't to mention that Reilly's been patient with "Momma" and praying with her about it for about two years now.

One Rare Time That "Auntie Nicole" Laughed Of Late

With "Auntie Michelle" withholding Reilly from "Momma" once again, at least "Momma" has time to write another quick entry—an entry that is actually a little upbeat for a change. At least in the painful moments, "Momma" can think of moments like the one in which poor Reilly bested her toy-stealing cousin, whom "Auntie Nicole" first mistook for a toy—and quickly realized that she mistook for a toy as she went to reach for her and play with Reilly.

In between being mistaken for a furry toy and getting an actual toy taken from her snatch by Reilly, Camille decided to keep stealing a destuffed-and-desqueakered ball from "Auntie Nicole" every time that she would try to give it to Reilly—run in between "Auntie Nicole" and Reilly to get it, play tug of war, etc.—Cam insisted on Rei's lack of being able to get the toy.

Finally, "Momma"/"Auntie Nicole" threw the toy for both of them—and Reilly got it! Of course, "Mom-Mom" later had to remove the piece of cloth that Camille tore of it from Reilly's mouth—and that "Momma" tucked into the ball when she threw it for Cam and Ri.

Incidentally:

1. The laughter, of course, was marred by the OCD/Anxiety, etc.
2. "Momma"/"Auntie Nicole" still thinks about how Reilly doesn't have a "Daddy" and Camille doesn't have an "uncle" with whom to share moments like that—so, loneliness definitely marred the laughter in Camille's bratiness. 

"I Could've Danced All Night"...And Gotten Severely Bitten

"Momma" told "Mom-Mom" that Reilly doesn't like "dancing"—holding her front paws while she stands on her back paws and singing "I Could've Danced All Night" is a sure way to get bitten. Each of the times, in order of each time:

1. Reilly tried to bite "Momma"'s right hand.
2. Reilly bared her teeth, hissed, and gave "Momma" an angry look.
3. Reilly was getting ready to growl and bite.
4. Reilly did at least nibble "Momma"'s hand when "Momma" moved her hand around playfully and sang the only part of "I Could've Danced" that she knows.
5. After asking Reilly if she wanted to "dance" and singing "Here we go...", Reilly jumped out of "Momma"'s arms on went to "Mom-Mom" in the kitchen.

"Mom-Mom" still assures "Momma" that Reilly likes when she "dances" to "I Could've Danced" with "Mom-Mom".

By the way, "Momma" saw this all-too-memorable and -relatable cartoon yesterday:



How "Momma" wishes that God her a helpmate and give Reilly a "Daddy" for Christmas!

A Short List Of Reilly's Saturday Antics

1. Going into the upstairs bathroom and sniffing the toilet rim—as "Momma" later found out, that was not the first time that Reilly had done that—and this is part of why Reilly is not allowed in the bathroom.
2. Begging to go on a walk when "Mom-Mom" was taking Camille to the vet—Reilly wondered why she couldn't go, and she looked out of one of the family room windows as "Mom-Mom" and Camille drove by the side of the house.
3. Taking a chunk of peanut butter that "Auntie Michelle" accidentally dropped on the floor and biting "Auntie Michelle" as she refused to drop it—and even as she came over to "Momma" and went outside with "Auntie Michelle" to "go potty", she was still licking the peanut butter!

Incidental note: While "Momma" has some ideas about whom Reisy's "Daddy" might be (or at least whom she hopes that he might be), she's not sure that she's currently—and she's more sure that she's currently not—in a position to share her specific thoughts about that with anyone but God, Reisy (even though Reisy is a canine—specifically, an adult puppy known as a "dog"—as opposed to a human), and a few other people. If anything, the case seems to be that whoever Reisy's "Daddy" is might have to tell "Momma"—especially if he's among those whom "Momma" thinks strongly might be Reisy's "Daddy".

PS "Reisy" is one of Reilly's nicknames.

Cam's Learning To Lay Down ("Lie Down")! Other Notes As Well

On Camille's birthday, Camille is learning "lie down". If Cam can fully and succesfully "lie down" without having to be prompted by treats right in front of her first, "Mimi" will be impressed 🙂.

Meanwhile, on th not-so-good notes:

1. Reilly "peedied" in the house twice today, and once in front of "Momma"—either Reilly is (as "Auntie Michelle" thinks) entering her "terrible threes" or (as "Momma" thinks) jealous of Cam and trying to reclaim alpha status (since she perceives that she lost it), has drunk more water than usual, or has a UTI (🙁).
2. As Camille and Reilly get older, "Momma" is re-reminded that everyone else is (or at least quite a few others are) getting married, started on having families, promoted at work, living out other dreams that they've had, etc., while "Momma" and Reilly are not getting younger. Meanwhile, "Momma" just wishes that a certain person whom might be "Momma"'s helpmate and Reilly's "Daddy" would just give her answer as to whether he thinks that he is one or the other way. After all, for example, another case of trying to roll Reilly this morning failed again.

Camille Fights Back And A Wondering That "Momma" Has

Camille let jealous Reilly know that she was not having it. Two instances stick out:

1. When Reilly tried to get possessive and block Camille from getting further affection, Camille growled at her and let her know that she could have affection from Reilly's "Momma", "Auntie Nicole", too.
2. As "Auntie Michelle" reported, Camille stood up to Reilly when Reilly tried to block Camille from interacting with her own sister Shelby.

Incidentally, "Momma" thinks that someone may have been romantically jealous like that over "Momma" once—and it baffles "Momma" why even Reilly as a "dogter" would be grateful for her "Momma", let alone that there may actually be some chance that "Momma" will ever have a helpmate and a "Daddy" for Reilly—especially since "Momma" has disabilities and Reilly so far seems to have not been an incentive for any potential guy for "Momma".

In Any Case, Camille's Hebrew Name Is Easier Than Reilly's; And...

"Camille Dominique"—per "Mimi", "perfect chosen one of God"—is...

1. מושלמת ("Mushlemet")
2. נבחרה-לאל ("Nikvarah-L'El") 
3.  מושלמת נבחרה-לאל ("Mushlemet Nikvarah-L'El")
4. Literally, "Perfect, she was chosen for God"

Google Translate, Milon, etc. helped "Auntie Nicole" greatly—nonetheless, coming up with Camille's Hebrew name was hard—and "Mushlemet" or "Nikvarah-L'El" might have sufficed, and "Mushlemet'el" may be controversial. As for Reilly's name...for starters, had "Momma" known that "Rose" is Vered...

Updated: Maybe it should be (שליחיה(ו—"Shliachyah(u)"—or (נביאהיה(ו—"Nevi'ahyah(u); or  "נבחרה מושלמת"—"perfectly chosen". Then again, Reilly has a middle name; though "Auntie Nicole" ("Momma" to Reilly) does not want to imply that Camille (or Reilly) is perfect, since only God is perfect.

(PS Speaking of names, "Momma" still won't reveal the name of whom she thinks her helpmate and Reilly's "Daddy" is. He'll have to confirm or deny "Momma"'s suspicions before she reveals it.)

Somewhat Offbeat: Two Things That "Momma" Has Explained To Reilly Multiple Times, One Of Which She Has Also Explained To Fellow Humans Of Hers

As patient Reilly continues to wait for night-owl "Momma" on a daily basis, "Momma" thinks about something that she's explained to Reilly multiple times: "Momma" even sometimes gets a goofy look on her face when she thinks about a certain person whom could be in her and Reilly's lives; and to not have an answer from that certain person gets hard especially since "Momma"'s pretty much implied here and explicitly to Reilly how she feels about him, and Reilly seems to think that he's a person whom should be in her and "Momma"'s lives.

By the way, let's just say that "Momma" has a few not-so-nice words for those whom can't figure out by now why she frequently mentions that she needs a helpmate for herself and a "Daddy" for Reilly—especially because many of them don't want to figure it out, and how (un)fortunate they are to have never suffered quite a bit of what "Momma" has suffered or have had anything that they've suffered affect them or their pets (since, for example, they apparently have no need for compassion).

Reilly waits patiently for "Momma" on a pile of "blankies" as "Momma" wraps up for the night.