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Wednesday, February 28, 2018

#WednesdayWisdom: Making A Purim Card With Reilly This Year, As "Momma" Should Have Done Last Year!

Since Purim isn't until Friday and Shabbat is a Shabbat Purim this year, "Momma" at least has time to make the card. She also was able to have costume materials for Reilly procured this year and will actually be able to try to make the costume (which is simple one and one that she can make this year). As for "Momma", she has a puppy mask that she actually was able to cut out of an Amazon box, and she'll wear that even if she won't appear in the card with Reilly.


Friday, February 23, 2018

לשבת שלום מראילי לכולם!

PS Reilly received pumpkin as a treat for letting "Momma" take photos of her in her tallit and with her wearing her kippah!




Sunday, February 18, 2018

Something That I Thought About Re A Friend's Facebook Post Re A TV Character's Comment On Anorexia

(This was originally a reply on Facebook. I have added more thoughts within the thought here.)

To be honest, I've wondered what Holocaust survivors and their descendants think of that, even in regards to the ones whom have Anorexia whether or not it's in remission. Especially were I a first-generation Holocaust survivor, I might be thinking, "I was starved in the [']concentration['] [actually, murder] camps, and you girls and boys are willingly starving yourselves? Don't you realize that you have the privilege to eat?" 

(Let's face, by the way, that "concentration camps" either understates or obscures exactly why the Nazis built the murder camps, which they built solely to hold as hostages and enslave Jews in order to try to commit full-scale ethnocide—and while there were Jews whom were complicit in that, many or most Poles and other gentiles were the main ones whom were either passively or actively complicit in that. To see why my family decided to become Anusim, also by the way, is not that hard, especially when one looks solely at the experiences of my great-grandfather Czarnecki's maternal family during the Holocaust.


On the other hand, I am sadly certain that some Holocaust survivors experienced of some form of Anorexia because they thought that they weighed too much in comparison to other Holocaust survivors and victims whom died of starvation. I've read of parallel cases in which, for example, Holocaust survivors whom have died deliberately had themselves cremated because they felt guilty about surviving while their loved ones and others were cremated either alive or after they were otherwise murdered.



Incidentally, I've also read of first- and subsequent-generation Holocaust survivors experiencing onsets of other mental illnesses, including OCD/Anxiety and of course Depression and PTSD. I can relate to that because mental illnesses certainly onset in family members of mine and in myself after traumatic incidents of lesser degrees except for when those incidents have been almost- or entirely-equal-in-degree Anti-Semitic incidents such as the Belostok Pogrom. After all, for instance, I am a fourth-generation pogrom survivor, and I would not be surprised if the Depression that caused my father's paternal grandfather's suicide was at least partly related to being affected by the Belostok Pogrom. I would also not be surprised if the onset of my OCD/Anxiety and Depression was related to my being a fourth-generation pogrom survivor and being therefore all the more affected by 9/11 and its fallout as well as beginning to learn about the full extent Holocaust during the fallout, although only when I found out that I am Jewish was when I looked back and realized that my nefesh Yehudit was sensing all of the Anti Semitism that my own family endured and responding to what I was learning and 9/11 with its fallout in light of my own family's experiences

Reilly Isn't Taking Camille's Futzing Around, Even (Or Perhaps Especially) On a Weekend


  1. When Camille pawed Reilly in the head yesterday, Reilly growled at her.
  2. As for today, according to "Mimi"/"Auntie Michelle, "Camille tried to engage in a dominance show/play with Reilly, and Reilly was not having it and promptly—dare I say—clomped her nose and mouth as if to say, 'Excuse me—Who's alpha?!' and left it at that. Camille, to her credit, backed off and acknowledged Reilly as alpha. They both went inside after that like nothing happened."
In other words, Camille tested Reilly's boundaries and learned that messing with Reilly in the mornings and after walks—perhaps especially on weekends—are not good ideas. 

PS L'Chodesh Adar Tov—and if there's no Second Adar this year, Reilly's going to be four on March 12 or 13 this year on the Hebrew calendar!

Saturday, February 17, 2018

Friday, February 16, 2018

#FluffyFriday: Somewhat Offbeat: Why Reilly Deserved Some Peanut Butter Last Night

Again, Reilly was incredibly patient with "Momma" and even laid beside her for a while as she was wrapping up last night—and for some reason (a certain reason¹, as far as "Momma" can tell and as she again explained to Reilly last night), "Momma" keeps failing Reilly even though she promises to be a better "Momma" (Besides, once "Momma"'s night-owl and OCD/Anxiety-, ADD-, and Depression-affected mind gets going at night, it gets going at night and "Momma" suddenly decides to look up a lot of things while—for example—she's waiting for a certain answer for her and Reilly's sakes). Thus, "Momma" gave Reilly the peanut butter that she promised her—and Reilly of course very much enjoyed having a spoonful of peanut better.

¹ P.D. Una nota incidental a una cierta persona: Como ¨Mamᨠdijo, "[ella] y Reily rezan por tí todos los días, y ellas piensen de tí todos los días...o al menos ¨Mamᨠpiense de tí todos los días; y Reily piense de tí cuando ella y ¨Mamᨠy Reily rezan por tí, y cuando ¨Mamᨠmenciona tí a ella."


On Mitt Romney's Senate Run, Rick Gates' Finalization Of His Plea Deal, Etc.


  1. Good. We need a common-sense and #NeverTrump (in other words, a real) conservative, not RINOs or those whom dread Hillary Clinton more than fear God.
  2. Good. By the way, the probe that Special Counselor Mueller's conducting is (so to speak) getting down to the wire, and it's only a matter of time before ***** is indicted like his equivalent Netanyahu and his "natural partners" will be by the prosecutors in Israel.
  3. On North Korea: South Korea is either trying to trojan horse North Korea in turn or desperate to make peace and/or avoid trouble with Kim Jong-Un, and to pay North Korea for the Olympicsis a bad idea if the latter is the case.
  4. On the shooting in Florida: as someone in a Facebook group pointed out, the majority of victims of Jews and the media's hardly covering that. Sadly, that makes sense, as the shooter was a White Supremacist. Also (and forgive if I'm being racist), I think that the media would cover it a lot more if the majority of the victims were Black or Hispanic. Of course half of the media hardly to not at all cover when an Anti-Semitic hate crime has occurred. By the way, the shooter was adopted by a Hispanic family; and whether or not he himself is even ethnically Hispanic or at least has of some Ethnic Hispanic heritage, pulling the "White card" is as racist as if someone pulled an Anti-Hispanic card. Whites can't be blamed as a general rule in this (and quite frankly, I thought that the shooter was Hispanic until the news that he was adopted came out)—point being, a person of any given ethnic group can be a racist and an ethnocentrist, and the Florida shooter was clearly an Anti Semite (Incidentally, I have no idea whether his ex girlfriend or his ex girlfriend's current boyfriend is Jewish, although it wouldn't surprise me if either one of them is and were victimized for that reason—and many abusive people are also racists and ethnocentrists—hateful does and hateful is, and the Florida shooter is clearly a hateful person.).
  5. Of course the mental-illness card was pulled by the shooter—the convenient excuse that many mass shooters seems to be that ableist one—and in any case, as I said, the Florida shooter effected the clock to be set back for those of us with mental illness. Besides, he didn't have to shoot anybody even if he really does have Schizophrenia and will be found not even competent to stand trial—those of us with mental illnesses are not inherently evil just because of mental illnesses, and many of us even need guns to protect ourselves from ableist people whom would target and otherwise abuse us. In addition, I have ancestors and other belated relatives whom had Schizophrenia and never even attempted to hurt anyone—in fact, at least two of them were exploited due to their mental illness and other factors.
  6. Of course ***** the hypocrite pretends that he cares about anyone with mental illnesses. By the way, my mental illnesses have honestly flared up in part because of an ableist, racist, and otherwise-bigoted and lawless person whom is not being indicted by Special Counselor soon enough being in the White House.
  7. The most-dangerous weapons are the brain and the heart, not guns. Furthermore, no amount of gun control will change anybody—only Yehovah can change anybody. As I tweeted:

Thursday, February 15, 2018

Three Moments Of Sanity Or Shalom Or Something

Only just a few minutes ago did "Momma"/"Auntie Nicole" fully grasp that the following were moments of reminders of sanity¹, shalom, or something:




  1. In the first two pictures, Reilly is content just to lay by "Momma" and try to receive belly rubs from "Momma" and "Mom-Mom" (whom was off work). The pictures were taken after the shooting after the NSA Shooting occurred,
  2. In the last three pictures, Camille is being her cute self and kind of trying to avoid when "Auntie Nicole" is taking a picture. Nonetheless, Camille doesn't mind that "Auntie Nicole" gave her "Bucky", her favorite of toy of late, with which to pose. These were taken as the fallout of the Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School Shooting unfolded and was being covered in the news cycle, and they were taken quite a bit after Reilly and Camille were perhaps consoling a whom-they-could-sense-was-distressed "Momma/Auntie Nicole" as they gave kisses, asked for belly rubs, etc.
  3. The following video shows Camille "Klutzmille" Dominique Czarnecki going on a ball-playing spree which confuses her cousin Reilly, and it was recorded shortly after midnight in the EST Time Zone:

These pictures and videos, not to mention the moments which they captured, also helped remind "Momma" of how loving and sweet her "dogter" was last night, as "Momma" once again had a lot on her mind. Of course, they also help remind "Momma"/"Auntie Nicole" of two of her top reasons for living in this world anymore, as she honestly doesn't know if she could make it if she didn't have a "dogter" and a furniece to love and for whom to care as much as she can².


¹Though as "Momma"/"Auntie Nicole" knows, one can't really call moments that simply involve evil and not mental illness "moments of insanity".
² And not having someone to love, let alone an answer from a certain someone whom could be her someone to love, and help her be a "Momma" to Reilly is making her "die a little...everyday".

Wednesday, February 14, 2018

Valentine's Day Card From Reilly

P.D. Una nota incidental a una cierta persona: ¨Mamᨠy Reily rezan por tí todos los días, y ellas piensen de tí todos los días...o al menos ¨Mamᨠpiense de tí todos los días; y Reily piense de tí cuando ella y ¨Mamᨠy Reily rezan por tí, y cuando ¨Mamᨠmenciona tí a ella.

Tuesday, February 13, 2018

When Reilly and Camille Can Tell That Others Are Treating "Momma"/"Auntie Nicole" Poorly

Without going into details, "Momma"/"Auntie Nicole" will say that she's seen when Reilly and Camille have sensed that others are treating her poorly. She might've mentioned before that Reilly's sensed that, though she's not sure if she's mentioned that Camille can sense that. Nonetheless, it's worth (re)mentioning about Reilly and worth mentioning about Camille because of how recently it's happened.

Even tonight, for example, Camille ran away from someone whom was not being nice to "Auntie Nicole" when the someone in question wanted to give scritches to Camille after the situation that occurred devolved. As for Reilly, she's given "Momma" kisses when she's sensed that "Momma"'s not been treated well and has even had some hopeless thinking as a result.

PS On a more-cheerful note, here are two memories for #TimeTravelTuesday and for #MemoryMonday west of the EST Time Zone:


  1. From exactly a year ago today (in Gregorian terms)
  2. From a year ago on this coming Thursday

Monday, February 12, 2018

On a Wilkes-Barre High School Debate, Fragmented Computers, and Segregation

I think that Vice President Walker knows what he's saying. Besides, the two schools have clearly worked together in the past (I did my research here.), and consolidating them would just make their working together (among other things) permanent. Also, think about Coughlin-Meyers JSHS like a computer: if you don't want a fragmented computer with too many files in the first place, you don't want what could easily be one school continuing to be two schools. In addition, Vice President Walker (quite literally) is putting the schoolboard's money where his mouth is: for the people whom actually want to have the concept of school choice, he's giving it to them.

As far as segregation, real segregation "is the unjust or prejudicial treatment of different categories of people or things, especially on the grounds of race, age or sex"¹. By the way, I as well know what I'm saying²: any of my ancestors and their relatives who attended Coughlin³ didn't get a choice as to whether they'd be openly of their ethnic group ("race") or open about their religious choices—consolidating schools and giving school choices are as related to bigotedly segregating as defragging and cleaning up computers is: they aren't! Let me know, though, when saving taxpayer money and real-estate space, and giving school choice are related to—for example—being implicitly and explicitly hostile to Jews on ethnic and/or religious grounds, and then we'll talk! 

¹Or ability, though never mind us people with disabilities, again 🙄
²Except apparently about people with disabilities—but hey, what's new? 🙄 Ableism is ingrained into the culture and as old as the Anti Semitism that my ancestors faced—when a third of the angels fell, they were intent as bringing ableism into the to-be-created world as they were to bring Anti Semitism, perhaps especially because they foreknew that many Jews would have disabilities.
³Paradoxically enough, the one who I know attended Coughlin ended up being a busha and a boged—never mind that he was one of the ones given a Yiddish diminutive and a second-generation pogrom survivor whose first-generation-pogrom-survivor mother was closest to him and my other great-granduncle whom she gave a Yiddish diminutive. In his (and the other great-granduncle's) eyes, exploiting another one of my great-granduncles—and probably my great-great-grandma, too—was totally okay!

Saturday, February 10, 2018

Belated #FunnyFriday Post: Maybe Camille Should've Been Named "Snappy"!

When Reilly was annoying Camille and not listening to "Mom-Mom", Camille took the matter into her own hands. Actually, she took the matter into her own paws. In fact, she literally took the matter into her own teeth—she growled and snapped at Reilly! She even had her "Auntie Nicole" being a bad "Momma" to Reilly and laughing about it—"Momma" definitely saw another example of Reilly's having met her match in that cousin of hers!

Of course, "Momma"/"Auntie Nicole" did console Reilly all while she made clear that she understood why Camille snapped and nonetheless needed to apologize to her and give her kisses. Camille did not feel like apologizing, nonetheless, and did not—as "Auntie Nicole" recalls—stay around "Auntie Nicole" and Reilly too long after that—she knew that she was in trouble!

As a result, "Auntie Nicole" quipped that Camille definitely could've been named "Snappy" after tonight when what Camille could've been named!

Friday, February 9, 2018

In Response To A Friend's Public Facebook Post, And What Became A Long Comment(!)



(By the way, he—along with basically everyone else who's ever read what I've written, heard me speak, etc.—knows that I have Depression, OCD/Anxiety, and ADD. He also knows how I've seen my family destroyed by when they've not admitted that they have conditions such as Depression, not to mention comorbid conditions such as Alcoholism—which, for example, destroyed my great-great-granddad Julian Czerniecki as he coped with Depression that was exacerbated by having to live as a Crypto Jew in order to survive the pogroms and then Anti Semitism in the United States.)


At some point, it's wrong of him or her to not admit it if he or she is able to admit it. Jesus, as they say, didn't call us to act like we're perfect and (forgive the language) we have our shit together. Besides, as Jesus Himself said, He called the sick and not the well. How many people without mental illnesses and/or other disabilities and/or circumstances in which all seems well turn to Jesus? Very few if any at all. Why? Again as Jesus said (and He said this through his apostles), He doesn't call many according to the flesh. 

One example of this is when a guy sitting next to Max Lucado (as Max Lucado recounts in 3:16) told him straight to his face that because he has a good life, "I don't need God." People who don't (or apparently don't) have thorns in the flesh and/or bad circumstances don't want to think that they need God. After all, why (they think) should they need God if they don't need a Great Physician, an Advocate, and a Wonderful Counselor, let alone One Whom can guide them to good doctors (including psychiatrists), advocates, and counselors whom are physically present and directly treat them on Earth? 

Of course, very few people would ever say that they don't need God because they have a good life! As I've seen, most people who say that they don't need God say that they don't need God because they think that they can be good enough without Him or think that they already have Him in their hearts.

As I Submitted To the Patients For Affordable Drugs Website: Why I'm For Lower Drug Prices

I am one of the ones whom is both unlucky and lucky. I have Cerebral Palsy, OCD/Anxiety, Depression, ADD, and IBS; and I have to be on three medicines for my mental illnesses. I also have to use a Baclofen Pump for my CP, and at least the medications that I take for my mental illnesses help somewhat with the IBS. I additionally have to be on Medicaid and receive SSI benefits as well as be on my mom's insurance for the time being.

Without being on Medicaid and my mom's insurance (since she's a single mom whom works for the federal government, and I still have to live at home at 28 because of my conditions) at present, I don't know what I do. For example, my psychiatrist doesn't accept insurance; so I have to pay the full $125 every time that I have a psychiatry appointment. I can only imagine, then, how much I'd have to pay without being on Medicaid and my mom's insurance, and receiving SSI benefits in my current situation.

Of course, I'd like to get married and not have to be on Medicaid or SSI benefits, and I'd surely like to not have to be on my mom's insurance. Part of what scares me nonetheless is the idea of never getting married and having to depend on my mom for the rest of her life, and being on SSI benefits and Medicaid for the rest of my life. Another part of what scares me is if I get cheated on and get divorced if I do get married because I'm ableistically seen as worth cheating on, and being cheated on will hurt enough without me having to fall back on SSI benefits and Medicaid to afford the Baclofen Pump appointment followups, medications for my mental illnesses, etc.

I can only imagine, then, the circumstances of those whom are in worse situations than I am. That's why I'm for lower drug prices and reasonable drug prices, and especially for the rich and otherwise better off to philanthropically help the poor and otherwise less fortunate afford the drugs that we need.

Tuesday, February 6, 2018

How Did Reilly And Camille Celebrate The Eagles' Win? And An Incidental Note

In an answer to a family friend's question: No, Reilly and Camille did not celebrate "by dancing on their hind legs". Reilly had been watching the game, though, although (as far as "Momma" knows) she didn't know what was happening.

Incidentally, both Reilly and Camille know "How long can you stand?", and Camille does have an easier time standing than Reilly. Neither have gotten "Turn around," however; so, neither can dance. Nonetheless and as one may recall with or without the picture, Camille was dressed up like a dancing circus poodle on Halloween:


As for Reilly, she doesn't like dancing—at least with "Momma", anyway! (But she does let "Momma" hold one of her paws and sing the chorus of "Cinderella"¹ when "Momma" wants to dance with her—and ends up getting verklempt like she is now.).

¹Of course, the lyrics don't include, "Oh please; Momma, please?" If only Reilly did have someone besides a "Momma" with whom to dance.

Sunday, February 4, 2018

Reilly And Camille Predicted Correctly, And An Incidental Note

While they didn't predict the incredible win that the Eagles would have (since "Momma"/"Auntie Nicole" didn't ask about the score), they predicted that the Eagles would win. Besides:

"Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard that the everlasting God, Yehovah, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? His discernment is past searching out. He giveth power to the faint; and to him that hath no might He increaseth strength. Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall; But they that wait for Yehovah shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; they shall walk, and not faint."

In this case, it did apply to the Eagles 🙂. Besides, Reilly and Camille have human loved ones in and from Philadelphia and vicinity (quite a few of whom they have yet to meet), and Philadelphia does have a certain bell to which this applies—and not to mention that God used two puppies to predict the humbling of Tom Brady by a team whose logo is both the bird with whose wings "they shall mount" and the national bird of the United States:

"The spirit of Adonai Yehovah is upon me; because Yehovah hath anointed me to bring good tidings unto the humble; He hath sent me to bind up the broken-hearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the eyes to them that are bound; [t]o proclaim the year of Yehovah's good pleasure, and the day of vengeance of our God"

Somewhat Offbeat: Getting Reilly's Stinkeye Last Night, And Rightly So

While Reilly has been patient with "Momma", she's also indicated that she wants her to wrap up more quickly at night and just "go night nights" instead of letting waiting for an answer keep her up late into the night. She's indicated such by giving "Momma" stinkeyes multiple times, and last night was no different.

"Momma" understood¹ why she got the stinkeye and even told Reilly that she would not be as patient with her if she were Reilly and Reilly were "Momma". She's lucky that Reilly can't (or at least wouldn't) give her ha'ayin hara (or is that what she's giving her?!).

¹¡Ahora, si solo una cierta persona comprendería y daría la una repuesta a ¨Mamᨠpara los bienes de ella y Reily! ¨Mamᨠnecesita un esposo para ella y un ¨Papí¨ para Reily, y por la tanto una or otra repuesta del cierta persona.

Saturday, February 3, 2018

Somewhat Offbeat: Patient And Understanding Reilly, Whom Teaches "Momma" A Lot About Patience While She Waits For An Answer

How Reilly does that is in quite a few ways, many of which are quite the opposite of each other and thus create a paradox to each other. For example:


  1. She waits once again as "Momma"'s back in that cycle due to waiting for an answer being part of what keeps her up at night.
  2. She waits as "Momma" reads at night and has to take care of a few things before reading at night.
  3. She is very patient as "Momma" tries to get comfortable at night and often tosses and turns.
  4. She sits at the door to wait to go downstairs in the morning when "Momma" tells her to sit before she opens the door.
  5. She reminds "Momma" about patience when she barks to go downstairs and "Momma" has to patiently deal with her barking.
  6. She jumps down off the bed and reminds "Momma" about patience when she has to tell her "Wait." or "Get back up on the bed.", or anything else that reminds to be patient.
  7. She pulls "Momma" when she needs to go outside and reminds Momma to deal patiently as she to say "Wait", "No pull", or anything else to reminds her to wait and not pull her.
  8. She does try to follow "Momma" back inside when "Momma" asks her to follow her and reminds her who leads.
  9. She also often waits by the gate at night and generally follows "Momma" upstairs after she shows her what to do when she wants to go upstairs.  
  10. Right now as "Momma" types, by the way, she's reminding her to deal with her barking patiently. 
Meanwhile, "Momma" has been very longsuffering for an answer for at least Reilly's sake if not her sake, though she's not always patient about it. Especially as often continues to find gray hairs (and she found three or four alone on Thursday morning), quite a few that are probably related to the stress that albe-lovable Reilly can cause, she seems to only be getting older more quickly and needing an answer. Besides, neither she nor Reilly will be young forever (and 28 does feel old, and Reilly will be four in a month and almost three weeks for now! That's how much time passes!).

Thursday, February 1, 2018

Update On Reilly And Her Stuffed Toy, And Other Updates

When Reilly received her stuffed toy last night, she wanted it right away. However, she wasn't willing to pick it up off of the floor when "Momma" put it on the floor for her. She didn't mind that "Momma" picked it up and tried to carry it upstairs, though (and which is part of why "Momma" needs a service puppy to help her and Reilly, and especially because she doesn't have anyone—let alone, if her suspicions are correct, a certain someone—to help her and Reilly).

At least "Momma"'s having to crawl up to steps with the stuffed toy while she led Reilly up was worth it—Reilly ended up snuggling with her stuffed toy, a teddy bear that was subsequently named "Teddy", right before bedtime!