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Friday, February 9, 2018

In Response To A Friend's Public Facebook Post, And What Became A Long Comment(!)



(By the way, he—along with basically everyone else who's ever read what I've written, heard me speak, etc.—knows that I have Depression, OCD/Anxiety, and ADD. He also knows how I've seen my family destroyed by when they've not admitted that they have conditions such as Depression, not to mention comorbid conditions such as Alcoholism—which, for example, destroyed my great-great-granddad Julian Czerniecki as he coped with Depression that was exacerbated by having to live as a Crypto Jew in order to survive the pogroms and then Anti Semitism in the United States.)


At some point, it's wrong of him or her to not admit it if he or she is able to admit it. Jesus, as they say, didn't call us to act like we're perfect and (forgive the language) we have our shit together. Besides, as Jesus Himself said, He called the sick and not the well. How many people without mental illnesses and/or other disabilities and/or circumstances in which all seems well turn to Jesus? Very few if any at all. Why? Again as Jesus said (and He said this through his apostles), He doesn't call many according to the flesh. 

One example of this is when a guy sitting next to Max Lucado (as Max Lucado recounts in 3:16) told him straight to his face that because he has a good life, "I don't need God." People who don't (or apparently don't) have thorns in the flesh and/or bad circumstances don't want to think that they need God. After all, why (they think) should they need God if they don't need a Great Physician, an Advocate, and a Wonderful Counselor, let alone One Whom can guide them to good doctors (including psychiatrists), advocates, and counselors whom are physically present and directly treat them on Earth? 

Of course, very few people would ever say that they don't need God because they have a good life! As I've seen, most people who say that they don't need God say that they don't need God because they think that they can be good enough without Him or think that they already have Him in their hearts.

As I Submitted To the Patients For Affordable Drugs Website: Why I'm For Lower Drug Prices

I am one of the ones whom is both unlucky and lucky. I have Cerebral Palsy, OCD/Anxiety, Depression, ADD, and IBS; and I have to be on three medicines for my mental illnesses. I also have to use a Baclofen Pump for my CP, and at least the medications that I take for my mental illnesses help somewhat with the IBS. I additionally have to be on Medicaid and receive SSI benefits as well as be on my mom's insurance for the time being.

Without being on Medicaid and my mom's insurance (since she's a single mom whom works for the federal government, and I still have to live at home at 28 because of my conditions) at present, I don't know what I do. For example, my psychiatrist doesn't accept insurance; so I have to pay the full $125 every time that I have a psychiatry appointment. I can only imagine, then, how much I'd have to pay without being on Medicaid and my mom's insurance, and receiving SSI benefits in my current situation.

Of course, I'd like to get married and not have to be on Medicaid or SSI benefits, and I'd surely like to not have to be on my mom's insurance. Part of what scares me nonetheless is the idea of never getting married and having to depend on my mom for the rest of her life, and being on SSI benefits and Medicaid for the rest of my life. Another part of what scares me is if I get cheated on and get divorced if I do get married because I'm ableistically seen as worth cheating on, and being cheated on will hurt enough without me having to fall back on SSI benefits and Medicaid to afford the Baclofen Pump appointment followups, medications for my mental illnesses, etc.

I can only imagine, then, the circumstances of those whom are in worse situations than I am. That's why I'm for lower drug prices and reasonable drug prices, and especially for the rich and otherwise better off to philanthropically help the poor and otherwise less fortunate afford the drugs that we need.

Tuesday, February 6, 2018

How Did Reilly And Camille Celebrate The Eagles' Win? And An Incidental Note

In an answer to a family friend's question: No, Reilly and Camille did not celebrate "by dancing on their hind legs". Reilly had been watching the game, though, although (as far as "Momma" knows) she didn't know what was happening.

Incidentally, both Reilly and Camille know "How long can you stand?", and Camille does have an easier time standing than Reilly. Neither have gotten "Turn around," however; so, neither can dance. Nonetheless and as one may recall with or without the picture, Camille was dressed up like a dancing circus poodle on Halloween:


As for Reilly, she doesn't like dancing—at least with "Momma", anyway! (But she does let "Momma" hold one of her paws and sing the chorus of "Cinderella"¹ when "Momma" wants to dance with her—and ends up getting verklempt like she is now.).

¹Of course, the lyrics don't include, "Oh please; Momma, please?" If only Reilly did have someone besides a "Momma" with whom to dance.

Sunday, February 4, 2018

Reilly And Camille Predicted Correctly, And An Incidental Note

While they didn't predict the incredible win that the Eagles would have (since "Momma"/"Auntie Nicole" didn't ask about the score), they predicted that the Eagles would win. Besides:

"Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard that the everlasting God, Yehovah, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? His discernment is past searching out. He giveth power to the faint; and to him that hath no might He increaseth strength. Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall; But they that wait for Yehovah shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; they shall walk, and not faint."

In this case, it did apply to the Eagles 🙂. Besides, Reilly and Camille have human loved ones in and from Philadelphia and vicinity (quite a few of whom they have yet to meet), and Philadelphia does have a certain bell to which this applies—and not to mention that God used two puppies to predict the humbling of Tom Brady by a team whose logo is both the bird with whose wings "they shall mount" and the national bird of the United States:

"The spirit of Adonai Yehovah is upon me; because Yehovah hath anointed me to bring good tidings unto the humble; He hath sent me to bind up the broken-hearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the eyes to them that are bound; [t]o proclaim the year of Yehovah's good pleasure, and the day of vengeance of our God"

Somewhat Offbeat: Getting Reilly's Stinkeye Last Night, And Rightly So

While Reilly has been patient with "Momma", she's also indicated that she wants her to wrap up more quickly at night and just "go night nights" instead of letting waiting for an answer keep her up late into the night. She's indicated such by giving "Momma" stinkeyes multiple times, and last night was no different.

"Momma" understood¹ why she got the stinkeye and even told Reilly that she would not be as patient with her if she were Reilly and Reilly were "Momma". She's lucky that Reilly can't (or at least wouldn't) give her ha'ayin hara (or is that what she's giving her?!).

¹¡Ahora, si solo una cierta persona comprenderĂ­a y darĂ­a la una repuesta a ¨Mamᨠpara los bienes de ella y Reily! ¨Mamᨠnecesita un esposo para ella y un ¨PapĂ­¨ para Reily, y por la tanto una or otra repuesta del cierta persona.

Saturday, February 3, 2018

Somewhat Offbeat: Patient And Understanding Reilly, Whom Teaches "Momma" A Lot About Patience While She Waits For An Answer

How Reilly does that is in quite a few ways, many of which are quite the opposite of each other and thus create a paradox to each other. For example:


  1. She waits once again as "Momma"'s back in that cycle due to waiting for an answer being part of what keeps her up at night.
  2. She waits as "Momma" reads at night and has to take care of a few things before reading at night.
  3. She is very patient as "Momma" tries to get comfortable at night and often tosses and turns.
  4. She sits at the door to wait to go downstairs in the morning when "Momma" tells her to sit before she opens the door.
  5. She reminds "Momma" about patience when she barks to go downstairs and "Momma" has to patiently deal with her barking.
  6. She jumps down off the bed and reminds "Momma" about patience when she has to tell her "Wait." or "Get back up on the bed.", or anything else that reminds to be patient.
  7. She pulls "Momma" when she needs to go outside and reminds Momma to deal patiently as she to say "Wait", "No pull", or anything else to reminds her to wait and not pull her.
  8. She does try to follow "Momma" back inside when "Momma" asks her to follow her and reminds her who leads.
  9. She also often waits by the gate at night and generally follows "Momma" upstairs after she shows her what to do when she wants to go upstairs.  
  10. Right now as "Momma" types, by the way, she's reminding her to deal with her barking patiently. 
Meanwhile, "Momma" has been very longsuffering for an answer for at least Reilly's sake if not her sake, though she's not always patient about it. Especially as often continues to find gray hairs (and she found three or four alone on Thursday morning), quite a few that are probably related to the stress that albe-lovable Reilly can cause, she seems to only be getting older more quickly and needing an answer. Besides, neither she nor Reilly will be young forever (and 28 does feel old, and Reilly will be four in a month and almost three weeks for now! That's how much time passes!).

Thursday, February 1, 2018

Update On Reilly And Her Stuffed Toy, And Other Updates

When Reilly received her stuffed toy last night, she wanted it right away. However, she wasn't willing to pick it up off of the floor when "Momma" put it on the floor for her. She didn't mind that "Momma" picked it up and tried to carry it upstairs, though (and which is part of why "Momma" needs a service puppy to help her and Reilly, and especially because she doesn't have anyone—let alone, if her suspicions are correct, a certain someone—to help her and Reilly).

At least "Momma"'s having to crawl up to steps with the stuffed toy while she led Reilly up was worth it—Reilly ended up snuggling with her stuffed toy, a teddy bear that was subsequently named "Teddy", right before bedtime!