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Showing posts with label abuse. Show all posts
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Sunday, January 26, 2014

Who Am I More To Complain Than Anyone Else; Right? Well...

Example One and Example Two might give you a clue. Also, I majored in Political Science at UMBC, and I thought that majoring in Poli. Sci. might get me picked up by someone, especially if I was already blogging, on LinkedIn, etc.. I also always heard about how UMBC grads get so hired, and even how one of Fox News' contributors (Kirsten Powers) is a UMBC grad! Either I'm the exception to the rule (since, as I recall, Megyn Kelly and Laurie Dhue are two of numerous examples of Political Science majors who have careers and have even taken off in them), or (if some articles that I've read are correct) I fell for the exceptions (since Poli. Sci. majors are among the least likely to get employed).

If you didn't read Examples One and Two, by the way, keep reading: I'll gladly add for you why being a possibly-unemployable person who went through college just to be stuck on SSI benefits and perhaps even better off in a corner drinking myself to death might be my life (and then you'll see why I might be better off in a corner drinking myself to death, although I surely as Heaven and Hell wouldn't do it):


  1. I'll have gone through all the crap in my life for, at best, just the same or, obviously at worst, even worse in the end.
  2. Since I'll have gone through what I've gone through for just more of the same or even worse, then (for instance) getting a ITB pump and going to physical therapy will really have been a worthless, meaningless, waste of time.
  3. I'll be living as an alteh moid (read: "spinster") in my mom's house until (unless the Rapture comes) she dies (and she's in her late 50s; so, God forbid, anything could happen within 10-15 years at minimum); and I'm not going to be able to take care of her like I otherwise could if something does happen and/or she doesn't live up to or beyond 70-80 years.
  4. Again, I'll be on SSI benefits. So, I won't have my own income. Besides, who is going to want to take in the disabled relative or friend who might cramp his or her style and/or inconvenience his or her life? He or she might say that he or she would be wiling to take me in, but push to shove will tell both of us quite differently (and he or she will either prove to have not known him- or her-self well enough or come to light as a lying hypocrite who doesn't want the disabled around). After all, one can ask the Delta Airlines crew who shoved the crying Marine in the back of the plane, and Texas State Senator Wendy Davis—their victims weren't even born disabled, and they were more than willing to put them out of sight or use them as open targets.
  5. I won't be exalted above my enemies (including my unforgivers), and God's promises will seem to mean nothing for me. My enemies will roundly say, "Aha! We knew that, that bitch wouldn't go anywhere. We knew that we'd beat her!"—or (as the Psalms can be applied to my situation) "They also opened their mouth wide against me, And said, “Aha, aha! Our eyes have seen it." (Psalm 35:21) Then what will God's promises about being humble, etc. (e.g., Psalm 70:2-4, Matthew 23:12, and James 4:6-10) mean for me and in my life? My enemies will, thus, have reason to gloat.
I could go on, but I already know at least some the responses that I'm going to get:
  1. "Oh, poor baby....Shut the fuck up!"
  2. "You think that you have it bad? Bullshit!"
  3. "You might have it bad, but some people have it worse than you!" (as if that takes my pain away. Cue Response One or something similar—e.g., "Get over yourself!" or "Suck it up!")
  4. "Other people are going through things, too." (Again, as if that takes my pain away! Nonetheless, Cue Response One.)
  5. "You're proving your enemies' points!" (Or, if you are my enemy, "You're proving my point!")
  6. "You'll get better when you get to Heaven!" (Sure; and even if I do, have you read about David and Solomon, for example—and they got the best of both worlds?!)
  7. "You can't have your cake and eat it, too, anyway." (Again, what about David and Solomon?)
  8. Eye rolls
  9. "By the way, if you wanted to be a voice for people who are going through crap or someone to whom they can relate them, you surely aren't that voice or that someone. Nice try, though—oh no; wait: your effort makes you look pathetic and worsening your fate at best, and adding to even others' miseries at worst."
  10. Just being ignored (And Job and Jeremiah had it better. I even sometimes wish that my enemies would yell at me and say, "I hate you!" or "I hate you because...". At least Jeremiah had his enemies hate him to his face. Mine, whether I'm wrongly hated or just plain unforgiven, usually leave me to guess what I apparently or actually did and won't tell me.).
The even-sadder part is that I'm going these kinds of responses from supposed or even actual friends as well. At least Job had friends who could simply keep their mouths shut and comfort him for a while. Heck, I even got relatively-little support during my ITB Pump surgery in the end, for example. 52 likes on a post at max by one of my uncles, a couple of visits, and returned comic books from my dad, for instance—and I was on anesthesia for two consecutive days, I was throwing up from caffeine withdrawal (I couldn't even hold water down.), and I was in the hospital from July 17-August 2, 2013! I've seen and heard people get more support and well wishes for even less! 

Then people wonder why I complain, ask for prayer, etc....and add something like one of the 10 example responses above!  

Saturday, December 28, 2013

"First World Problems": Some Are Actually Legitimate Problems

What is behind closed doors, Domestic violence is not just a third-world problem

After a YouTube video on BuzzFeed's channel that would have been generally funny until Buzzfeed made fun of the last "first-world problem" (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GjIHQuZEfmY), a conversation started; and let me tell you, I had insight to give to that conversation—in fact, the latest episode of my being abused and misunderstood includes being told to "get over it" when I finally confronted my dad on my granddad's laudatory and otherwise-mostly-dishonest obituary (Let me tell you, being listed after my stepsisters, having two maternal relatives and a co-worker of Mom's talk about it, and having debated over who wrote the obituary hurts—especially when you figure out that no matter who wrote the obituary, your granddad let everyone know that his son's stepdaughters are more important than his own grandchildren.).

Then, while I was doing a Google search and browsing, I came across this "First World Problems" meme picture—and one that I've seen used in relation to domestic violence. Then I was reminded of the conversation on YouTube—and that's how this meme came about.
I'm amazed and stunned that DIY LOL would use a picture like this to both mock legitimate problems and satirize "first world problems" that could actually, believe me or not, be the final straws that break the camels' backs for some. Then again, maybe I couldn't raise domestic-violence (e.g., emotional-abuse) awareness if they didn't do so.

Monday, November 4, 2013

PS: Stephanie Metz Doesn't Understand Abuse, And...

I like everything that she said but for the following:

"There was a time – not too long ago – when bullying was defined as slamming someone up against a locker and stealing their lunch money. There was a time when kids got called names and got picked on, and they brushed it off and worked through it (ask me how I know this). Now, if Sally calls Susie a bitch (please excuse my language if that offends you), Susie’s whole world crumbles around her, she contemplates suicide, and this society encourages her to feel like her world truly has ended, and she should feel entitled to a world-wide pity party. And Sally – phew! She should be jailed! She should be thrown in juvenile detention for acting like – gasp – a teenage girl acts."

Mrs. Metz, with all due respect, you don't understand real verbal abuse. You don't just "[brush] it off and [work] through it." Susie may be abused at home, and Sally's abuse may be the proverbial straw on the camel's back. Verbal (and emotional, physical, mental/psychological, spiritual and—the only one which I never had to experience as far as I know, thank God—sexual) abuse is no joke, and not something to "[brush] off...and [work] through."

I hope that you don't verbally abuse your own kids, because you and they are in for a hard reality check—and you may be in for a hard reality check at their hands:

  1. Verbal abuse leaves intangible, internal scars.
  2. Verbal abuse is a form of emotional and mental abuse.
  3. Verbal abuse can lead to physical abuse.
  4. Verbal abuse can lead the Susies of this world committing suicide—in your words, "ask me how I know this"—and God forbid that you should ever have to ask your kids or find out (My own mom has had to find out, for example, and that's because she's dealing with quite a bit of the fallout of Dad's verbal and other abuse.).
  5. Verbal abuse may affect the setting off of psychological and psychiatric conditions (again, in your words, "ask me how I know this").
I am more than willing to challenge your naive (or what I hope is a naive) view on abuse, and God forbid that you have ever abused or are abusing your kids—and if you are abusing your kids, I hope that someone gets involved really quickly in rescuing your kids from you. By the way, you say that you're 29 years of age. I'm 23, and I can tell you that people like you leave me hopeless about our generation. If you really think that parents who know the realities of abuse are included among those who have "taught that [their kids] shouldn't have to ever put up with anything doesn't make their hearts feel like rainbow colored unicorns are running around pooping skittles onto piles of marshmallows", you are out of your mind—either you need serious help or your kids need serious help. Either way, you need help—whether psychiatric help due to delusions or psychological help due to sociopathy.

Thursday, September 12, 2013

One Thought That Occurred To Me After Engaging With Marianne Theresa Johnson-Reddick's Obituary

The first time that this has really turned over in my mind, much less even occurred as a thought: every day that Joan Gaydos Czarnecki had to deal with her mother, she probably had her questioned what her mother could do to her. She never has even visited her mother's grave. This is part of why the horror that Mary Rusnak Gaydos committed cannot be covered up--that is, not just for Vilmosz's et. al.'s sakes (though they will never come back in this lifetime and age--and do I believe that Yeshua was with them in their final moments at Auschwitz, so I'm willing to bet that we will see them with others who are asleep in Yeshua and will rise at the Rapture).

Tell me how that Grandma still won't even admit the indirect abuse that she received is okay. Tell me how that her mother ultimately turned relatives over to the Nazis is a form of abuse that she, then a six-to-eight-year-old child, should get over--especially when her older sister is holding back those supposedly-innocuous letters that were exchanged. Tell me how she can even speak about the abuse when Dr. MaryAnn Gaydos, who wields quite a bit of power in the family, won't speak about it and even once told me that she didn't want to be part of the family tree that I made--and she knows as much as I know that she said that because I found out that we are Jewish.

Keep in mind that if Dr. Gaydos tried to kibosh me from piecing together and telling our real story, she's making sure that younger sister Joan shuts up (and that others shut up) about Joan's and her mother refusing to help Vilmosz, Zoli, et. al. when they literally risked their necks and reached out to the Anusi branch for the sake of piku'ach nefesh (After all, we were minim, koferim, v'meshumadim to them; yet they somehow took a chance at trusting us and asking us for help.).

Again, and to sum up, let's just say that the fact that Great-Grandma Gaydos ultimately turned relatives over to the Nazis is a form of abuse that Grandma, then a six-to-eight-year-old child, rightly could never get over and probably had her questioning every day what her mother could do to her. She never has even visited her mother's grave.

By the way, Iwan Rusnak was murdered in 1942; Vilmosz, Zoli, et. al. in 1944.

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

"Brilliant or Tasteless?" (Title Linked To Original Post)

As hard as saying "tasteless" is, I have to say "tasteless". Also, as I said before, Hitler (Y'Sh) did have an abusive mother (and, might I add, an abusive stepdad), and that's what adds an element of tastlessness to it. Abuse begets abuse; hurt begets hurt, and evil begets evil. Some of the other most-vile people who ever lived were also subject to abuse by vile people (who were also probably abused). I can only hope that someone who has abused and/or is abusing a child suddenly has the thought that his or her child may turn out like (G-d forbid) Hitler (Y'Sh) and Stalin (Y'Sh). 

Abuse certainly doesn't excuse abuse, but abusers do affect abusees to be abusers in return if the abusees do not get what help they need. 
Also, some of the comments wishing that what happened in the commercial took place are actually against Tanakh. "As I live, saith the Lord GOD, I have no pleasure in the death of the wicked, but that the wicked turn from his way and live; turn ye, turn ye from your evil ways" (From Ezekiel 33:11). Meanwhile, while we're getting into counterfactuals, just imagine that someone could've saved Hitler (Y'Sh) from his abusive household and/or gotten him help--then what? Would the Holocaust have happened if a victim of abuse had not turned into a vile and ethnocidal totalitarian?
We're supposed to be about tikun ha'olam here, and wishing that an abuse victim had been killed when he was a child instead of wishing that he had gotten what help he needed is not in the spirit of tikun ha'olam.

Friday, August 2, 2013

I Don't Hope That Nehemia Gordon's Happy With Himself, And...

Why should he be? After all, he took what I said--that "Rashi" ("Rabbi' Shlomo Yitzchaki) was Anti Messianic--and twisted it into some horrid and perverted rhetoric that I would never say. After I exposed him for doing that with a certain video, I got this strike on my YouTube account and had to later repost the video with the disclaimer that Nehemia is a public figure:



Unreal! And there's no chance to appeal it! As I've said, "My life is driven by being informed and informing others about what I know. After all, 'Tzedek, tzedek tirdof--Justice, justice, you shall pursue.'" and "Pursuing justice, therefore, begins with pursuing justice for my people and within my family--and that includes talking about....subjects which are to my mom's chagrin for me to talk about." And, of course, Mom and Michelle wouldn't want me talking about Nehemia--they'd just want me to let the whole situation go!

But as the situation stands, my moving forward as a commentator and pundit is hampered by him; and I'm also quite sure that he's still out there verbally abusing others and trying to wreck their lives all the more while abusing them! From what I understand, the guy still has a career--and that he does is rotten!

He also still has sleep at night! And how does he? That's part of why I get pretty riled up in my latest video--that is, I get riled up when I reflect on the fact that abusers and otherwise-jerky people like Nehemia Gordon can hamper and even destroy aspirations, careers, and lives of the very people who used or even put aside their own careers to support them. Remember that, for example, I would constantly refer and link to Karaite Korner on this blog, in my YouTube videos, etc.--and I had my defense of one of Nehemia's arguments twisted into horrid, perverted, Anti-Semitic rhetoric that Nehemia tried to put into my mouth!

And, again, that's part of why I'm moving forward with my aspirations and career as a commentator and pundit--so that people like Nehemia Gordon don't have careers and can't destroy the careers and lives of others (let alone of others who used or forewent their careers to help them). 

Friday, July 5, 2013

From a Yahoo! Comment: To Sum Up the Matter re Toby and Krystal Keith...

I see that most of the comments here (that is, in the article to which the title links) are proving my point--that is, that she's nothing more than a nepotist who people care about only because of her dad. I honestly couldn't care less about her weight (That's her business, as far as I'm concerned.). As far as her personality, that's another matter. She couldn't be more or less than a jerk than her dad (From what I saw on TMZ, some people gave the heads up that he is abusive to others as well--see "Toby Keith Opens Can of Whoopass -- On Tape!" Having been through abuse myself, I believe that they would have no reason to lie about that--and this isn't the only place that I've read horror stories about him [e.g., I'll link you to one--L Kay's comment, by the way--Google around [if you don't believe me that is].).

Then came the way that I was abusively treated by Krystal Keith--I got treated like Hell for suggesting that she, as a public figure, use her own name, not have her dad as a producer, not be on his record label, etc. if she wanted to make her own name and career in her own right--and I was one of the first people to follow her on Twitter (Again, too easy. "@KrystalKeith". Follow her at your own risk, and follower beware!). She said that she didn't have time for people like me, joined one of her fans in accusing me of being a Dixie Chicks fan, and later proceeded to block me like I had done something wrong.

Don't even try to give constructive criticism about her as a public figure--she is just like her dad, and that is neither compliment nor something that I want others to learn the hard way.


[PS If you couldn't read L Kay's comment:


["When my little brother was playing baseball against TK's son's baseball team, a few boys went over to him after the game and asked for his autograph. He took one of them by the head and pushing him away. He told the kids to get away. I know he probably gets this all around norman, but he's not that bad. In fact, whenever the two teams would play, my father would go stand on the field with him and chat. Sure, his daughter was a little snotty from (personal experiences & stories), but he's just a normal, scruffy-looking guy who drives a H2 and who happens to live in a huge house on beautiful land."

[By the way, to L Kay, shoving a kid by the head is never acceptable; and anyone who would shove a kid by the head ought to have Social Services or the police called on him or her.]

Friday, June 14, 2013

Another Petition Against Nehemia Gordon (To Which The Title Link Leads)


  1. First of all, Nehemia Gordon violates the tenets of real Karaism. For example:

    1. "Karaites consider traditional Christianity (any form of Christianity which holds that Jesus / Yehoshua has divine or semi-divine status) to be outright idol worship, in that it raises one of Elohim's creations to the level of creator, either in part or in full. Incidentally, this is precisely the view that Islam holds towards Christianity."
    2. Since Karaism holds that "traditional Christianity...[is] outright idol worship", Karaites are to "not consent unto [the Christian, whether Jewish or gentile], nor hearken unto him; neither shall thine eye pity him, neither shalt thou spare, neither shalt thou conceal him;  but thou shalt surely kill him; thy hand shall be first upon him to put him to death, and afterwards the hand of all the people. And thou shalt stone him with stones, that he die; because he hath sought to draw thee away from the LORD thy God, who brought thee out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage. And all Israel shall hear, and fear, and shall do no more any such wickedness as this is in the midst of thee. 
  2. Secondly, as previous petitioners wrote, "That rabbis have good things to say about A Prayer to Our Father is a moot point. That pastors have good things to say about the book is moot as well." Nehemia is profiting off of Tanakh and violations of Deuteronomy 13:9-12. "Ye shall not make with Me--gods of silver, or gods of gold, ye shall not make unto you." (Exodus 20:19)
  3. Thirdly, Nehemia is verbally abusive. Real Karaites do not verbally abuse people.
Again, Nehemia is nothing more than an abusive hypocrite and opportunist

Thursday, June 13, 2013

Petition Against Nehemia Gordon From A Group Of Non-Messianic Karaites That Even Messianics Should Sign

 I advise everyone to sign the PetitionOnline petition against Nehemia Gordon. According to what Nehemia claims is his interpretation of Scripture, he should "shalt surely kill [a Messianic Jew like me]; thy hand shall be first upon him to put him to death, and afterwards the hand of all the people. And thou shalt stone him with stones, that he die; because he hath sought to draw thee away from the LORD thy God, who brought thee out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage. " (Deuteronomy 13:10-11, JPS)

So, Nehemia is not even being consistent towards what he claims is his own interpretation of Scripture--the Karaite one. He is instead deceitfully working in church settings, etc. to attempt to turn people away from Yeshua--thus, he's using (if you will) an Anti-Messianic equivalent of the Mohammedan taqiyya. This is not a Karaite principle in any way, shape, form, manner, circumstance, or fashion.

By the way, see "The Hebrew Yeshua vs. the Greek Jesus". Nehemia is grossly inconsistent, for example. He tells people not to use Jewish tradition that is not in the Tanakh, yet he said "Kaddish" (which is not in Scripture) when his dad died and answered "No, not according to Jewish tradition" when I asked if I could name a pet after a deceased relative.

Also, remember that Nehemia verbally abused me, and he has no problem hurting others. As the petition reads,  Nehemia "is doing more harm than good. We don't care about how your works are received by pastors, rabbis and Christians. We don't care about 'fantastic reviews.' We take no stock in them. Their comments are meaningless to us. Our eyes are on you and the effects your actions are having." Nehemia is nothing more than an abusive hypocrite and opportunist. 

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Update On the Situation With Nehemia: Again, My Warning About Him Stands

I later got a very-manipulative private message from Nehemia. I will not publish the contents of that message, since the evidence here is enough. I will say that I get that hurt people hurt people (as I myself have sadly done several times), but having been hurt doesn't excuse or sanctify hurting others.

Let me also say this: someone gave Nehemia the benefit of the doubt and said that he was using the mentality of a third grader! I wish that, that were true; but that's sadly what verbal abusers want especially their victims to think. "Oh, he's just being childish, having a hard time getting his thoughts together, and unable to cope with the situation as he sees it." It's more of the act of a verbal abuser. Most kids have no clue of how abuse and hurtful certain actions can be. Adults do, and they can use those actions to try to discomfort, manipulate, and control people. Most kids are just trying to feel secure and make sense of matters. Adults, on the other hand, are trying to make others feel insecure and senseless.



Tuesday, June 11, 2013

I Learned The Hard Way: DO NOT TRUST NEHEMIAH GORDON ON ANYTHING!

Nehemiah is a deceiver and abuser! In fact, I had the unfortunate chance of encountering his verbal abuse. Watch how he twists my words here:

  • Tonya Travis Rabbi Rashi (1040-1105 A.D.) wrote: “Behold the almah shall conceive and bare a son and shall call his name Immanuel. This means that our Creator shall be with us. And this is the sign: the one who will conceive is a girl (Naarah), who never in her lif...See More
  • Nehemia Gordon Hi Tonya Travis, If you are going to quote Rashi, you should bring the whole context. Earlier in the passage Rashi comments: "The maiden (almah) - My [=Isaiah's] wife will become pregnant this year, which was the 4th year of Ahaz." The Greek says parth...See More

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  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki I do recall Rashi being Anti Messianic myself.
  • Nehemia Gordon Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki, I requested carrying out this discussion without the usual Christian rhetoric. Calling a Jewish rabbi "anti-Christ" is extremely offensive. This was the slogan that was shouted at Jews for centuries as they were butchered in...See More
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki I said Anti Messianic, not Anti Christ or Anti Messiah.
  • Nehemia Gordon Are you saying Rashi was opposed to Messianic Jews? In his day the Messianic Jews, if they existed, had far more to fear from the Roman Catholic Church they did from the rabbis. Being a Jew was bad enough. Being a Judaizing Christian was an invitation for torture.
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki Yes. "Anti Messianic" is equivalent to "Anti Missionary". Remember that especially in those days, Messianic Jews were considered traitors for joining the Catholic Church, which told them to drop all and any Jewish roots and practices at the door. So (as Messianic Jews do today), they still get a hard time from both sides.
  • Nehemia Gordon That's the broadest definition of "Messianic Jew" I've ever heard. A Jew who converts to Catholicism is a "Messianic Jew"? Is that your position?
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki A Messianic Jew is simply a Jewish Christian, and Catholicism was (and is still) considered Christianity. I'm pretty offended that my words were taken out of context, by the way--and you know that I've even spoken against proselytization (incuding or forcing conversion).
  • Nehemia Gordon I would like to hear from some Messianic Jews on this page if they agree that "a Messianic Jew is simply a Jewish Christian" and if a Jew who converts to Catholicism is considered a Messianic Jew.
  • Nicole Maratovah Czarnecki You heard from me.


First of all, I never said Anti Messiah or Anti Christ. Secondly, I am a Messianic Jew. Thirdly, while some Messianic Jews were and are Roman Vaticanists, many Messianic Jews recognized and recognize not Roman Vaticanist and know that Roman Vaticanism is a cult--plainly and simply! I could go on, but you get the point!

If you ever want to defend someone, don't defend Nehemia Gordon--he will twist your defense of his arguments (e.g., that Rashi was not talking about Jesus and was actually--like all really-devout P'rushiyin are--Anti Messianic and don't believe Yeshua to have been the Messiah at all!) into something that you never even said!

By the way, I think that I now know why he and his fiancee broke up--I myself wouldn't want to be married to a verbal abuser who twists my defenses of or additions to his arguments into attacks that were never made, and implies that I'm not something that I actually am, for example (Since Nehemia treated me as he treated me, I can imagine how he treated her!) ! Also, if you're in a verbally-abusive relationship--friendship or otherwise--, hightail it as soon as you realize that you are in such a relationship!

By the way, I unfriended you, unliked your page, and am no longer following you on Twitter, Nehemia! What a shame that Isaiah 29:13 applies to you, and all the proof that one needs to see that Isaiah 29:13 applies to you is to ask themselves and answer for themselves this question: Can verbal abusers really worship Yehovah? After all, for instance, "[t]hou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbour." Unredeemed men abuse people; men of Yehovah don't.