Mark My Words: I'm Among The "Never Trump" Crowd Whom Would Die If Trump Wins And "Never Trump"ers Would Have To Die

I've written similar words before, and I—as a Jewish Christian and person with Cerebral Palsy that is comrbid with mental illnesses—have received even Anti-Semitic and other—including ableist—threats to basically speak for the following words:

If Trump and Reince win—and, for whatever reason, Trump's and Reince's willing extension known as Pence wins—I will willingly die in one of Trump's and Reince's murder camps if I must. "If I must", meanwhile, means "if I can't make aliyah or immigrate to Canada"—unless I'm very blessed, I doubt that hiding will do me any good if I can't make aliyah or otherwise flee the U.S. if Trump wins.

Since—even though I'm a laywoman—I've been one of the outspoken "Never Trump" people, I'm pretty sure that Trump, Reince, and Pence will have me on at least a—so to speak—"small fry" section of a hit list. After all, for example:

1. I'm a Jewish Christian, and being a Jew alone has caused Anti-Semitic Donald Trump—a lauder of My New Order, a friend of David Duke, and a slanderer of the Republican Jewish Coalition.
2. I have Cerebral Palsy and—comorbid with Cerebral Palsy—Obsessive Compulsive Disorder/Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, and Attention Deficit Disorder. Given that Trump is—for a lack of better terminology—a posthumous disciple of the Nazis and hates Sergei Kovaleski, he will go after me.
3. One threat that I received from an obvious Trump voter: "As a physically fit German American, I can think of a place for you."
4. A threat from a Colin Kaepernick supporter whom clearly shares sentiments with Trump read something along the lines of, "Hitler details why [Jews are at the top of the crime-victims list] in Mein Kampf."
5. Trump attacked Marco Rubio because he is Hispanic, and I've made clear that I'll write in the should've-been-GOP-VP-nominee Marco Rubio  
6. Trump attacked John Kasich by, e.g., falsely linking to him to George Soros, and I've made clear that I'll write in the should've-been-GOP-POTUS-nominee John Kasich.
7. Given the two points mention above, Hispanophobic and Slavophobic* Trump will have no problem going after a person—let alone a Jewish-American woman—whom has been vocal about supporting a Hispanic-and-Czech-American GOP ticket, let alone a conservative Hispanic-and-Czech-American GOP ticket. By the way, keep in mind that the National Socialists—contrary to revisionist history—were Far Leftists, and that is why revisionists paint the Nazis as Far Right, conservatives like Rubio and Kasich as RINOs, and Trump as Reaganesque: revisionists who are promoting Trump have the goal of obscuring Modern Conservatism/Classical Liberalism and Classical Conservatism/Modern Liberalism, pushing one form of Far Leftism against another form of Far Leftism—a la Naziism against Stalinism, and then later blaming the right if push comes to shove—and sadly, Trump does like on track to win if Reince stays as the GOP Chairman.

As I've also said before, I and others will at least have the pleasure of being considered martyrs of the will-be-modern-Weimar-Republic-equivalent if Trump becomes POTUS—mind you that the pleasure will be posthumous, as it was for those whom warned about the Nazis. 

*By the way, the equally-Anti-Semitic wife of Donald Trump is a Balkaner, not a Slav—Slavs and Balkaners are as different from each other as Jews and Arabs are. Also, Jews in Eastern Europe and Southeastern Europe are separated along Ashkenazi and Sephardic lines—I know this because, e.g., my father's paternal grandmother was a descendant of the Legradi Family, whom have roots in the kehillah that was in Legrad, and Croatian Jews are considered Sephardic Jews.

Even If I Wrote This Before, I'll Write It Again...

1. Whenever I hear "Pigs in a blanket; fry them like bacon!", I am reminded that we still called "pigs" and other slurs; and we face threats of Auschwitz again.
2. When "Black Lives [Really Don't] Matter" targets Jewish bastions and the bastions' vicinities—e.g., Ferguson in St. Louis' vicinity, Northwest Baltimore, where Park Heights is; Baton Rouge, and Dallas—I think of the pogroms, especially since kapo Glenn Greenwald blamed the Mossad for Ferguson (which makes Glenn Greenwald a kapo) and fellow Anti Semites of the "Black Lives [Really Don't] Matter" Movement—such as the Nation Of Islam and the Black Panthers—have joined "Black Lives [Really Don't] Matter".
3. If Black lives really mattered to them, where are they advocating for groups like the Lemba and Falasha? If they're going to parallel Israel:"Palestine" to the police:Black men, why don't go after the real trouble in Israel and its perpetuators: not the "occupation" of "Palestine" and "racist" Jews, but the chokehold of Agudat Yisra'el and Netanyahu on Israel? After all, many Lemba, Falasha who were supposed to make aliyah, and other Black Jews would like to go home; thanks—so would a lot of us Non-Black Jews!

I'd write more if I could (and trust that I wish that I could write more!). Nonetheless, I think that many will get—even if they don't like—my point.

July 5, 1945: On This Day

1. 71 years ago, the USSR murdered resistance fighters in Augustów. Among them were Andrulewicz cousins of mine, as well as a Margiewicz cousin. Because we were and are Anusim and bnei-Anusim, their sides were never recognized as Jews until now. Also, the Holocaust was never recognized as having been in Russia beyond 1945—until the gulags were closed in 1960, Stalin's attempt at a "Final Solution" continued. May all of the more than 6 Million Jews whom were murdered in the Holocaust be counted as Holocaust victims.
2. Also on this day, Julia Fosko Rusnak blessedly died and did not have to see the horrid days coming. Granted that she died a horrible death, which involved surgical complications due to appendix-removal surgery. Still, she was taken from her own bed in the hospital:

"The righteous perisheth, and no man layeth it to heart, and godly men are taken away, none considering that the righteous is taken away from the evil to come. He entereth into peace, they rest in their beds, each one that walketh in his uprightness."

By the way, I know that my family gets mad at me for having found out and acknowledged what Andrew Rusnak and Mary Rusnak Gaydos did. Nonetheless, I can and will not change the past, and I have already made clear that I will not blame the Foczkos.

Originally On LinkedIn: The Brexit (Soon To Be Bregret) And The Workforce

1. Are you a Jew, Pole, Syrian or Iraqi (perhaps even a Syrian or an Iraqi Jew) or other person whom's part of a Non-United Kingdom ethnic group? If so, get ready to be stereotyped—as if you haven't already been—whether or not you're legally in the United Kingdom. You'll be treated as a foreigner whom's encroaching on the United Kingdom's job market, whether or not you already have a job and are a person with a good work ethic. By the way, read some of the posts on Polish Forums if you don't believe me in regards to the United Kingdom's Polonophobia—I have read about how Ethnic Poles and other Poland-connected people are treated.
2. Did you already read about how the NYSE and French, German, AsiaPacific (e.g., the Japanese Nikkei), and even the UK stock markets were hit? If you pay attention to history, you know that the Brexit-affected hits could lead to another Depression—and of course, more Anti Semitism (which may include another Holocaust), Polonophobia, and other xenophobia. Remember that Anti Semitism (and other xenophobia) and the 1929 NYSE Crash exacerbated each other—and a "Deutschland first" eerily echoes into almost 87 years later with "America first" (the slogan of a certain businessman whom hates Jews and exploited Polish workers in the United States) and "Britain first" (the slogan of the British National Party). Also remember how, e.g., a certain Otto Frank lost his job at his company and had to hide in an Annex at his former company's building.
3. Do you follow how the number of joblessness claims in the United States constantly rises and falls, and often comes in lower per the estimated amount of rising and higher per the estimated amount of falling? If you are in the United States, do not think that you are immune to being among the jobless someday—after all, many people during the Great Depression thought that they would be immune until, for example, the bank runs started happening in even the small towns.

Do not think that, for instance, giving the wolves Cameron and Merkel—two of the greatest allies of Israel, the people from whom many great professionals came—will not affect you, especially since not every Jew was able to bless the world like Drs. Einstein and Salk were. Also, many startups and other businesses that are in or linked to Israel will be hit—as if, for instance, Sodastream being hit and many gentile workers losing jobs wasn't enough. By the way, I can reasonably guess that at least one former Sodastream employee may be among the refugees, many of whom are escaping Daesh (now called the "Islamic State in Iraq and Syria".

Incidentally, why we call Daesh a state is beyond me—since Daesh is not a legitimate state. By the way, "ISIS" does not like the name Daesh, which is exactly why I call them that—I refuse to recognize an aspiring state whom plans to be a terrorist state, and whom is already taking livelihoods and lives away from many people. Besides, all one needs to do is look at terrorist states like North Korea, where the economy is abysmal and echoes of the Holocaust—including the German and Russian parts (with the gulags being a part of the Russian part)—permeate the lives of the North Korean people.

אה, לא!

Ah, lo.

"“Nothing will separate us, against our will, from such men and women, whether they live in Israel or in any other country. Universities were born before the nation states; they have reasons that overcome any raison d’état.”"

The comments were good until then. Firstly, nation states were the norm back in ancient days (e.g., Yisra'el/Judaea/"Palestinia"; Roma, Hellas). Secondly, without batim-midrash and similar educational institutions, universities would've been nothing. By the way, that "Israel is part of [Italians'] identity," is drek. With the exception of the Roman, Tuscan, and other Italian remnants, Italy and Israel have nothing to do with each other but the pain that Italians caused Jews over the millennia.

What the Italians have right, though, is this: "going against Israel means going against ourselves". The Italians know that any nation who curses Israel will be cursed in turn, and the Romans down to the modern-day Italians would've gotten nowhere without (among other Jewish groups) sabras, Romani'otim, Sephardim, Italqim (obviously, since Italqim are Italian Jews), and Ashkenazim (including, I'm pretty sure, Pope Yochanahn Sha'ul ben Malka Chanah. Don't believe me? Go search on "Emilia". Also, Kaczorowska could easily be "bat ka'tz u'rov". By the way, Pope John Paul II really helped improve Christian and Jewish, including Jewish Christian and Non-Messianic Jewish, relations.).

The Italian Anti-BDS legislation, then, may be opportunistic and not out of a genuine love for Israel. 

A Darker Side Of D-Day

D-Day came too late for many Jews and others whom were trapped in Nazi and Soviet Europe. One of them was one of the Andrulewiczes, Antoni Andrulewicz (חנניה בן יוחנן הכוהן אנדרולוביץ, ז''ל והי''ד). 

According to what Ogrodywspomnien.pl cited, he was "arrested" (read "kidnapped"), "held hostage in the Suwalki prison" for almost three months (March 13-June 6, 1944), and murdered by asphyxiation with other victims of a "mass execution" (read, quite frankly, "mass lynching"), and put into a mass grave at the murder site.



Remember that not all Sho'ah victims fit the profile of the oft-described Sho'ah victim—and certainly, not all lived to be victims whom became liberated survivors. Because he was a ben Anusim, he (like other bnei Anusim in Non-Hispanic Europe) got overlooked (despite that Anusim and bnei Anusim were not only in Iberia and not only during the Spanish Inquisition). Also, an account from another Andrulewicz—Boleslaw Andrulewicz—makes quite clear that the Andrulewiczes were not counted as Poles; and there is no record of any Andrulewicz ever smuggling or helping smuggle papers or ration cards—in fact, one Andrulewicz kept under the radar of the Nazis and the Soviets by moving from parish to parish in Lithuania with constant and seemingly-chaotic movements between 1938 and 1948.

As has been said, ****** didn't care whether Jews were Rabbinical, Karaite, or Non-Rabbinical and Non-Karaite Jews; and many continue to leave millions of those whom were counted for murder out of the count of those whom are to be remembered ("[B]ut for Thy sake are we killed all the day; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter."). 

Even 72 years after D-Day, only 6-11 Million victims of the Sho'ah (not counting the gentile ones) are counted and remembered for a blessing; and Stalin, despite that he had his equivalent of a "Final Solution", is remembered as part of the Yalta Three whom led the armed forces that liberated Jews from Auschwitz and other murder ("concentration") camps (and lets be clear: the "concentration" camps were not designed to be anything but murder camps). 

Even 72 years later, then, Israel is still not even remotely close to liberated from the Nazis—how can Israel even begin to be liberated when his murdered sons and daughters are still not fully counted and what he endured in, e.g., murder camps is minimized? 

Originally On LinkedIn: Regarding Government And the Workforce

I will (at least try to) never forget when Former Pakistani Prime Minister Bhutto was murdered on December 27, 2007—and I will never forget the clip in which she highlighted her philosophy on government: "Where the madrassas won't get involved, the government will." 

The equivalent of the late Bhutto's statement for Non-Muslim (or at least Non-Muslim-majority) countries: the government has to and will get involved when the churches, synagogues, mosques, etc. won't get involved. Taking the examples of my people in the Desert and churches in particular—since I'm a Jewish Christian—I highlight why OSHA had to be created and why legislation such as the Civil Rights Act had to be written (Incidentally, what a shame that Barry Goldwater did not support the Civil Rights Act.)

The first example comes when God spoke to Moses about when a house is being built:

“When you build a new house, then you shall make a parapet for your roof, that you may not bring guilt of bloodshed on your household if anyone falls from it.

So much for that being applied and happening in the Judeo-Christian United States! Thus came along the Occupational Health and Safety Administration, since its predecessors weren't adequate enough—and even after Upton Sinclair exposed the equivalent of "guilt of bloodshed...if anyone falls from [a being-built roof]" in the meat-packing industry! By the way, when I Googled to find out when OSHA was founded, I was surprised to see that it was not founded until 1971, long after "one nation under God" should have had an organization to hold the reckless employers and overseers accountable.

Also by the way, OSHA came too late for those such as coal miners in Northeastern Pennsylvania—with my great-great-grandfathers Michael Gajdos, Sr. and Julian Czarnecki among them—and groundskeepers such as Julian's son Anthony (whom, as I've written before, severed three of his toes and his leg up to his knee as he mowed a lawn at the apartment complex which hired him—and his work-related accident partly affected his suicide just months later). 

Were their churches there to raise a voice for them and other workers, to hold their congregants' and community members' employers accountable for the employees' safeties. After all—as especially the Bible-literate ones, including my family whom needed someone to speak up for them as workers, would have known—"Justice, justice you shall pursue!" Yet, not even a layman or laywoman rose his or her voice enough to affect that an organization such as OSHA would be unnecessary.

The same laymen and laywomen also neglected to raise their voices enough when civil rights were an issue, even though "You shall love your neighbor as yourself" automatically implies that nobody should discriminate against anyone else. Because not enough men or women raised their voices until laywomen like Rosa Parks spoke up through their civilly-disobedient actions, and clergymen such as Drs. Martin Luther King and Abraham Joshua Heschel marched as they called for freedom for all Americans, the derogatory signs such as the horrid ones against Jewish and Irish men remained on business-owners' doors and windows, and Blacks and women were lucky if they were paid even remotely close to fairly. Never mind that a Jewish man whom wouldn't have been allowed to apply, James by name, admonished fellow followers of another Jew, Jesus of Nazareth:

Indeed the wages of the laborers who mowed your fields, which you kept back by fraud, cry out; and the cries of the reapers have reached the ears of the Lord of Sabaoth." 5 You have lived on the earth in pleasure and luxury; you have fattened your hearts as in a day of slaughter. You have condemned, you have murdered the just; he does not resist you.

How many church-going businessmen "condemned...the just" such as the Jews (including church-going ones) and Irishmen whom they would not hire, despite that these Jews and Irishmen would have gladly "mowed [their fields]?" How many of these same church-going businessmen had "wages...which [they] kept back by fraud" from sharecroppers, shoeshiners, maids, nurses, and other laborers?

(Incidentally, I have questions for you if you wonder—or, if you knew, still wonder—why my paternal family remained Crypto Jews in even the United States—after all, "No Jews" still reeks of the albe-far-worse Anti Semitism that they escaped when they left Imperial Russia and Austria Hungary. If my family isn't enough of an example, look at the family of lucky-to-be-a-businessman, Austria-Hungary-born Fritz "Frederick Kerry" Kohn.)

Because apparently-pious, God-and-country, "Bless your heart" businessmen withheld wages from and otherwise discriminated against Blacks and women (even with intimidating maxims such as "It's a man's job" and "A woman's place is in the home."), and refused to hire Irishmen and Jews (all while slandering and libelling Jews as conspirators whom owned every business), the Civil Rights Act (including Titles VII and IX) had to be written and signed into law. By the way, in terms of Title IX: you try getting a decent job without some kind of college degree (whether you'd've gotten an Associate's Degree or a four-year-degree), let alone if you had to leave college because you faced horrid discrimination, and tell me when you get that job. 

Even I have a B.A. in Political Science from UMBC, and—according to the National Association of Mental Illnesses' recent newsletter—I am statistically doomed because of mental illnesses, which make me three times more likely to be unemployable than someone with a physical disability—and here's the kicker: I have both mental illnesses and Cerebral Palsy. So, think again if you don't think that Title IX relates to the workforce as much as it relates to the educational system.

I also note that Titles VII and IX far from help me, and they also far from help others—since the government is made up of people whom should be getting involved in their communities both within and outside the government sector, Title VII and IX often fail to be enforced. After all, many of the people who are supposed to be enforcing the Civil Rights Act—not to mention the Americans With Disabilities Act—are the same kinds of people who look down on the kind of people on whom the oh-so-pious businessmen of back then looked down. Therefore, quite a bit of government involvement that's supposed to make up for the lack of community involvement actually becomes a Catch-22.

Nonetheless, the government has to be involved when the communities won't get involved—even when the government gets involved too late for those like Michael Gajdos, Julian and Anthony Czarnecki, and Frederick Kerry, not to mention the Irishpersons, Blacks, and women whom were in similar positions to the positions of the Gajdoses, the Czarneckis, and the Kohns.

Will Great-Granduncle Bernie Ever Rest In Peace? At Least Until He Gets A Purple Heart...

Great-Granduncle Bernie won't ever rest in peace as the hero that he is. Granted that I've written about Great-Granduncle Bernie before, though today's Memorial Day and a post-Holocaust victim of the Holocaust still goes unacknowledged:

Bernard Stanley Czarnecki (Benyamin Shmarya Tshernyetski ben Yehudah-Yochanahn Efryaim v'Sara Osnat, z"l) was born on March 15, 1920 to Julian John Felix (Yehudah-Yochanahn Efryaim ben Chananiah v'Sarah, z"l) and Alexandria Alice (Osnat Sarah bat Yosef HaKohen v'Sarah, z"l).

Born into a Anusi family, he was born into a family whom posed as Polish-Lithuanian Catholics in order to avoid Anti Semitism in America after the first three members (including his brother Anthony) emigrated from Poland Russia after becoming Anusim to avoid Anti Semitism there and, thus, estranging their openly-Jewish family. When Bernard "Bernie" Czarnecki became of bar-mitzvah age, part of why his parents had become Anusim was becoming clearer every day in especially Germany and the Soviet Union: the brutal and ethnocidal Anti Semitism that had permeated pogrom-riddled Russia was on an extreme resurgence. Only under a year into his adulthood (since his 20th birthday was March 15, 1940), he would enlist in the U.S. Army 111th Infantry Division Medical Corps.

Receiving a head wound due to shrapnel that hit him during combat, Pfc. Bernard S. Czarnecki had a failed operation to remove the shrapnel and was discharged from the Army on December 12, 1945. Not really being able to live at home (despite what his exploitative brothers John "Jankie" and Joseph "Susi" stated), Pfc. Czarnecki lived at the Lebanon, PA Veterans' Home And Hospital. When he died on July 16, 1963, his brothers Jankie and Susi received his Social Security benefits, which they tricked him into giving him because of his childlike condition that the shrapnel wound and botched operation effected—since he was vulnerable and easily trusting, thus able to be tricked as a child can be.

While "[i]t's a shame what [Jankie and Susi] did to Bernie," even more of a shame is that the United States never gave Pfc. Bernard Stanley Czarnecki the Purple Heart that he deserved, even posthumously. Also a shame is the shanda fur di goyim that Pfc. Bernard S. Czarnecki (WW2, DOW) was never recognized as a post-Holocaust victim of the Holocaust, despite that he died of his wounds and took almost 18 agonizing years to die.

בנימין שמריה צהרנצקי בן יהודה-יוחנן אפרים ואסנת שרה, ונכד של חנניא ושרה צהרנצקי ויוסף הכוהן ושרה  אנדרולוביץ (ז''ל, תרע''ט-תשכ''ג)

Why I Signed Up For MapleMatch.com (And I'm Not Being Paid Or Otherwise Compensated For This Blog Entry)

In short, I'm:

1. "[D]isgustingly Jewish", as a blocked-and-reported Twitter called many of us #NeverTrump people. To Trump and Trumpite zealots, being Jewish is disgusting—and I am among the Jews whom have persecuted by Trumpite zealots. I, reporter Julia Ioffe, and others are clearly not welcome in Trump's America.
2. A person with Cerebral Palsy and OCD/Anxiety, Depression, ADD, and IBS—and a "physically fit German American" who "can think of a place for [me]" (as a Trumpite threatened me on Twitter) and Donald Trump himself as he persecuted Serge Kovaleski made clear that Americans with disabilities will not be considered Americans in Trump's America.
3. Likely to, as a Jewish-American with Cerebral Palsy and other conditions, be forcibly stripped of my native American citizenship—just as Jews born in Germany and the rest of Nazi-occupied Europe were stripped of their American citizenship—and put in a murder camp unless I flee the United States of Donald Trump—and if anyone has to worry about FEMA camps actually being used maliciously, one would have to worry about FEMA camps becoming camps used for malicious purposes instead of shelter from disasters if Donald Trump does become POTUS.
4. Not looking forward to becoming an alteh moid—I even tried Plenty Of Fish at the recommendation of a friend whom found her own bashert there, and it didn't work.
5. Not wanting to resort to being a trophy wife—I even tried getting friends to send around a dating résumé around, and most of them were reluctant and even hostile about doing it.
6. Maybe even likely to have better romantic prospects in Canada in any case—whether MapleMatch.com works out for me or doesn't work out for me—especially if Trump becomes POTUS.
7. Maybe even likely to have better luck making aliyah from Canada than from the United States.

Besides, I have Foczko and other kevorim mishpacha in Canada; so, I wouldn't be completely foreign to Canada.

Rejection Hurts. Even For-the-Best-Rejection Hurts.

Examples of hurtful, good and bad, rejections:

1. Societal rejection, which effects mass-scale evils such as the Holocaust and the continuing rise of Donald Trump. For Jews, Blacks, Hispanics, and other peoples; women, people with disabilities, and immigrants to be told, "You don't count;" "you're not a part of America", etc. hurts—didn't Jews already suffer rejection during the Holocaust, including in the U.S. (when, e.g., Bernard Baruch was blamed for the "Jew Deal" and the "S.S. St. Louis" was turned away)? Didn't Blacks already suffer with Jim Crow and the Nadir? Didn't Hispanics already suffer with being stereotyped during "Operation Wetback"? Never mind that women suffered until even decades after Susan B. Anthony came along, and never mind that people with disabilities are still mistreated (by those such as Dana Stubblefield and TMZ, whom went after the rape victim and her "bizarre profile"—shame on TMZ for going after a person with intellectual disabilities, let alone a person with intellectual disabilities whom was trying to find a job and got raped at work!). 
2. Familial rejection—all one, e.g., has to do is read the headlines about how a mother murdered her four-year-old child whom had Cystic Fibrosis and how female middle- and high-school students throw away their newly-born children as if the children are disposable tampons or medical waste such as pushed-out kidney stones.
3. Romantic rejection—especially for people whom've been abused and/or whom are disabled, both having to reject romantic prospects and being rejected as a romantic prospect hurts. I've been on both sides of the rejector-rejectee coin—I had to call the police on each ex after I broke up with him, and I'm a stigma in myself because of my disabilities and having been abused (verbally, emotionally, spiritually, mentally, and physically) in the past. Also refer to the point about societal rejection—I'm not the only person with disabilities (including mental illnesses) who's been seen as a romantic liability and/or undesirable.
4. Professional rejection—e.g., getting a book manuscript rejected (which just happened to me, and I'm trying to find out how I can improve and resubmit the manuscript), résumé rejections, and rejections that stem from societal rejections (e.g., Refer to the point about Dana Stubblefield's victim, whom was raped on the job that she finally found; and read some of Jeff Woodward's writings and writings that Jeff Woodward has shared—which prove my point that ableism is rampant in the workplace because it is rampant in society, despite that my family refuses to believe me).
5. Rejection by friends—or at least whom you thought were friends—and mentors—or at least whom you thought were mentors. Rejection, of course, includes betrayal—and one example of betrayal is Dr. Ben Carson's betrayal of African Americans by his endorsement of Donald Trump and slamming of Harriet Tubman's being placed on the $20 bill.

Most of the rejection types and examples thereof are bad rejections, although even the bad rejections—as hurtful as they are—have at least some good in them. e.g.:

1. Non Trumpites have found out just really how America's colors run or don't run—even if there's a silent majority whom won't speak against Donald Trump (and Donald Trump's friend Hillary Clinton).
2. People whose families rejected them sometimes don't even have to live in an increasingly-cruel and -miserable world, let alone among cruel and miserable families.
3. One finds out and/or is reminded of what true love is and what true love isn't.
4. One is forced to either carry on and/or even improve if doing so is possible.
5. If someone seems too good to be truly good, they may just be—e.g., Dr. Ben Carson has shown how much intelligence does not equal wisdom, and how the supposedly-outsider conservative and retired neurosurgeon-turned-aspiring-POTUS is really a Dixiecrat to the core—one can't be a true Republican and good role model for African-American young men and women if he supports Tammany-Hall Trump and Andrew Jackson over Harriet Tubman.

In Spite Of That Certain People Have Hurt Me, And Because Other Certain People Have Hurt Me...

I think about quite a few of them from time to time, sometimes even often or every day. To some of them, I'd say, "I hate you" or "I hate you, too"—that's how much they hurt me. Not that I was always right—still, a spirit of unforgiveness and hypocrisy hurts; and some would say that I'm being a hypocrite, although my "I hate you"s are quite honestly a way to numb the pain from how they hurt me.

By the way, I told a former Chapelgate member that I'd not name other incidents because I'd made my point. However, I will name one other incident since Anti Semite Donald Trump seems to be on track to winning the U.S. Presidency; and the incident is even more unfunny now:

When I was a student at Chapelgate, I took Mrs. Bonnell's drama class. One of my fellow students (whom I will not name)—whom, by the way, is Jewish him- or her-self—thought funny to give a Nazi salute as apparent satire at the end of his skit during one of the class meetings. When I confronted Mrs. Bonnell about finding it funny, she told me, "I don't see Jesus in you"—and she left me in tears for it.

At the time, I was suspecting that I am Jewish; and before that—during the fallout of 9/11 and when I was learning about the Holocaust—my OCD/Anxiety set off, and partly because (though I didn't know it at the time) God was telling me that I am a Jew whom lost relatives in the Holocaust (Sometimes, one doesn't know what the Holy Spirit was doing until he or she looks back.). Later, she accused me of calling another student a Marxist—which I never did—in her "apology" non apology—someone else had jokingly called her that, and she thought that I did. By the way, why would I call someone whom I didn't even know well a political disciple of a self-hating-Jewish man whom stated, for example, the following?

We recognize in Judaism, therefore, a general anti-social element of the present time, an element which through historical development – to which in this harmful respect the Jews have zealously contributed – has been brought to its present high level, at which it must necessarily begin to disintegrate.

In the final analysis, the emancipation of the Jews is the emancipation of mankind from Judaism.

The Jew has already emancipated himself in a Jewish way.

“The Jew, who in Vienna, for example, is only tolerated, determines the fate of the whole Empire by his financial power. The Jew, who may have no rights in the smallest German state, decides the fate of Europe. While corporations and guilds refuse to admit Jews, or have not yet adopted a favorable attitude towards them, the audacity of industry mocks at the obstinacy of the material institutions.” (Bruno Bauer, The Jewish Question, p. 114)

As for an example of when I think about certain people in spite of that they've hurt me, I continue to think about (at least whom I thought was) a dear friend, father figure, and writing mentor (whose self estrangement from me still baffles me in many ways—as I've written, that estrangement threw me into a Depression flareup that is still ongoing in quite a few ways, especially as I await an update about the publication status of my second book.). 

As I've stated before, I also think about those whom've hurt me with a spirit of unforgiveness and hypocrisy—and when I didn't even do wrong to them, despite that I might've or did hurt their loved ones—and when I've made amends to those whom I've hurt.

Some—maybe even you—will have read all of this and nonetheless wonder why I think about the people whom've hurt me, and why I sometimes numb the pain with an "I hate you" or "I hate you, too" in my thoughts toward some of them—and especially when I've never forgotten what they said and/or did, let alone how they made and make me feel to this day.

Open Letter To Dr. Ben Carson

I suppose that the cost of human lives during the Jackson Presidency means nothing to you. In 1832, Andrew Jackson sent Native Americans on the "Trail of Tears". 100 years later, an inspiree of Andrew Jackson was elected in Germany and implemented the so-called "Final Solution" 110 years after the Trail of Tears.

Then again, you blamed Jews for being unarmed during the Holocaust. You also stated that the Germans weren't armed, when only Jews were not allowed to be armed. The Germans and others (with few exceptions, among them German Dietrich Bonehoeffer and Dutchwoman Corrie ten Boom) willingly collaborated with the National Socialist party whom Germany elected and Europe overall. 

Yet, here you are supporting a nationalistic socialist. Then again, your support of Donald Trump makes total sense for you, given that you support a racist and an Anti Semite whose inspirations include a Pharaoh of his day (and Andrew Jackson virulently hated Jews, which is why the Anti Semites love and laud him) instead of Harriet Tubman, the African-American female Moses of her day.

Originally On Writerbear Brussels Deserved The Attacks For Anti Semitism...According To, Among Others, Asher Schwartz And

Asher Schwartz and "The Jewish Press" posted a despicable editorial cartoon that blamed Belgium for Daesh's attacks on it. The Facebook page "Documenting Anti Semitism" shared the cartoon, and I began writing the following in the comments section until I realized that reporting such victim-shaming and giving everyone else the heads up might be a better idea.

Needlessly to mention, Asher Schwartz and "The Jewish Press" are also on notice that victim shaming is unacceptable to and unwelcome by the majority of 'am Yisra'el:

"Wow. Victim shaming much? This surely wasn't the attitude of Asher Schwartz and 'The Jewish Press ' about the 9/11 attacks, or after the attacks in Paris?

"The U.S. under the Carter and Clinton Administrations was particularly Anti Israel; so, did the U.S. get what it deserved post Clinton? BTW, Daesh is doing to Europe what Al Qadea did to the U.S.: targeting the Jews among them.

"In other words, are we to blame for what Daesh did to those of us in Paris and Brussels, and what Al Qadea did here? That's ultimately what Asher Schwartz and 'The Jewish Press' are saying. After all, just as Al Qadea wanted to target Jews*, Daesh wants to target Jews; and for 'The Jewish Press' to encourage Asher Schwartz to blame an Anti-Semitic attack on victims of Anti Semitism is akin to what Daesh and its influencers do and did—after all, Daesh's influences include a Nazi government that blamed Jews in Europe for Kristallnacht, don't they?"

*Per Page 251 of the "9/11 Commission Report":

"Mullah Omar is reported to have opposed this course of action for ideological reasons rather than out of fear of U.S.retaliation.He is said to have preferred for al Qaeda to attack Jews, not necessarily the United States. KSM contends that Omar faced pressure from the Pakistani government to keep al Qaeda from engaging in operations outside Afghanistan. Al Qaeda’s chief financial manager,Sheikh Saeed, argued that al Qaeda should defer to the Taliban’s wishes. "

Originally On Writerbeat: If You Still Believe That Donald Trump Is A Christian And Patriotic American...

You couldn't be more wrong. If no other factor highlights that Donald Trump is not a Christian, that Donald Trump is Anti Semitic highlights that he can't even be a Christian. Trump openly attacked Jews such asJon Stewart and Mort Zuckerman, stereotyped Jews as moneycounters whom are "little short guys that wear yarmulkes every day" (and continued to stereotype Jews as fixated with money at the Republican Jewish Coalition forum), keeps a copy of "My New Order" by his bedside, and had a supporter whom openly gave a Nazi salute and threatened a Hispanic man in Chicago.

How can a man like that love a Jewish man named ישוע (in English, "Jesus")? As Corrie Ten Boom noted, loving God without loving Jews is entirely impossible. As I told a professor whom caused me to see part of why my paternal family (and some of my maternal family) became Anusim, "When you affront the Word of God, you affront the Jewish people." (Needlessly to say, I eventually left that college after that.)

Speaking of Anusim, meanwhile, why would Mexicans and Muslims be on on Donald Trump's hit list? Anusim anyone? That's what's scary: among Mexicans are many conversos, and among Muslims are quite a few "Jadid al-Islam". Don't think that Donald Trump is not knowledgable about this: he knows exactly what he's doing.

In fact, I had to warn an in-law cousin's grandnephew about this; and two of my Anusi ancestors are technically responsible for my cousin's branch's murders in the Holocaust—and I told him that I wish that I wasn't right about Donald Trump when he conceded that Donald Trump is dangerous.

Given that I had to warn my cousin's in-law grandnephew whom was more directly connected to my cousin and what happened (since he thought that thinking of Trump was a stretch, although he also disliked Trump), I can see that even Non Christians are and were being fooled by Trump (and, incidentally, I should mention that the Nazis' claims of being Christians and what my Anusi ancestors did is likely to affect him to not become a Christian.).

Thus, I—as a Jewish Christian whom is a bat Anusim and has ancestors whom used the name of ישוע to hurt one of their openly-Jewish family's branches—warn you: do not vote for Donald Trump, a man whom I and others see as really having "[n]ever asked God for forgiveness". Moreso, might I add, Donald Trump has made the sacrifice of ישוע useless for himself.

On Ted Cruz's 'Reputiat[ion]' of Mike Bickle's Statements

Ted Cruz's basic non apology is pretty pathetic to me:
"'Pastor Bickle and the International House of Prayer have devoted decades to promoting prayer, and to improving the lives of those who are suffering,” the statement said. “Nevertheless, the statements from Pastor Bickle concerning Adoph [sic] Hitler are not statements with which Senator Cruz agrees.'"

A real apology (in this case, using verses from the NKJV Version*) would've been a statement like:

"The Gospel of Matthew reads that Jesus admonished the following:

"'Many will say to Me in that day, ‘Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name...?’ And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!’

"What Senator Ted Cruz has come to realize is that Mike Bickle is among 'false prophets, who come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravenous wolves.' Senator Cruz has also quoted, 'You will know them by their fruits' when he has talked about the likes of Donald Trump.

"Clearly, the self-titled 'Pastor' Mike Bickle does not even know the following from the Book of Isaiah: 'Indeed they shall surely assemble, but not because of Me. Whoever assembles against you shall fall for your sake.' Any real pastor would've known this, and self-professed 'pastors' who are 'false prophets...[and] ravenous wolves' have no knowledge of what the Scriptures mean.

"Therefore, Senator Cruz and the Cruz 2016 Presidential Campaign have taken upon themselves the disavowal of and disassociation from Mike Bickle from hereon out, and Senator Cruz will be rejecting any and all further endorsements from the circles of Mike Bickle and the International House of Prayer." * The use of "murder" in Acts 5:30 in the New King James Version is unacceptable and incorrect, by the way.

Well, We Know Where An Egyptian Prince Went

From time to time, I browse Wikipedia outside of looking for basic facts just to see what they're thinking. Per Wikipedia, I realized that the story about Lazarus and the rich man is actually about a Lazarus and Khaemweset the Egyptian Prince. Wikipedia tries to imply that the New Testament stole the Tale of Khaemweset, though they succeeded only in shedding light on an account in Scripture for the first time for me.

By the way, the Egyptians used Matrilineal Descent; or at least Khaemweset did, since he had more than five brothers. Through his mother, he had at least three brothers; and he cleverly tried to use the Abrahamic excuse of a sibling being the child of only the common father and, thus, not a sibling—remember "Besides, she is my sister—she is the daughter of my father, but not of my mother, and so she became my wife"? Incidentally, this is probably way Israel viewed Matrilineal Descent as pagan, despite that Tanakh (and Yigdal) allow for Matrilineal Descent (Remember haben Sh'lomit bat Divri and Kavod-l'El ben Netzkiyah-Tovah—aka, Timotheos ben Eunice? By the way, Google it if you don't believe that my translations are correct. Also, Kavodlel ben Netzkiyahtovah or Kavodlel ben Netzkiyatovah—or the two contractions with "Kavodl'el"—probably work sufficiently.).

Abraham knew that Khameweset was trying to pull what he himself pulled. 

Also, Khawmweset's father was highly Anti Semitic—and Mereneptah knew enough about Torah to try to destroy Israel.

On the 71st Anniversary Of the Liberation Of Jews From Auschwitz And Other Murder Camps, I Remember The Life Of...

My distant cousin✡ Antoni Andrulewicz (אנתוני בן יוחנן הכוהן אנדרולוביץ, ז''ל והי''ד).

When I was doing more family research, I found out about him (and found this picture) and read about the horrid circumstances of his death.

According to what Ogrodywspomnien.pl cited, he was "arrested" (read "kidnapped"), "held hostage in the Suwalki prison" for almost three months, and murdered by asphyxiation with other victims of a "mass execution" (read, quite frankly, "mass lynching"), and put into a mass grave at the murder site.

Remember that not all Sho'ah victims fit the profile of the oft-described Sho'ah victim—and certainly, not all lived to be victims whom became liberated survivors. Because he was a ben Anusim, he (like other bnei Anusim in Non-Hispanic Europe) got overlooked (despite that Anusim and bnei Anusim were not only in Iberia and not only during the Spanish Inquisition).

As has been said, ****** didn't care whether Jews were Rabbinical, Karaite, or Non-Rabbinical and Non-Karaite Jews; and many continue to leave millions of those whom were counted for murder out of the count of those whom are to be remembered ("[B]ut for Thy sake are we killed all the day; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.").

Even 71 years later, only 6-11 Million victims of the Sho'ah (not counting the gentile ones) are counted and remembered for a blessing; and Stalin, despite that he had his equivalent of a "Final Solution", is remembered as part of the Yalta Three whom led the armed forces that liberated Jews from Auschwitz and other murder ("concentration") camps (and lets be clear: the "concentration" camps were not designed to be anything but murder camps).

Even 71 years later, then, Israel is still not fully liberated from the Nazis—how can Israel be fully liberated when his murdered sons and daughters are still not fully counted and what he endured in, e.g., murder camps is minimized?

לעולם לא שיכחו; לעולם לא שוב!


✡ "Andrulewicz" and variants thereof originated with "Andrulevičius" (especially "Andrulevičus") in Stakliškės (as I was told on Polish Forums). However, we also have Sephardi or Mizrachi roots, as two of our cousins were named "Kasis" (not "Kasis" as in "spit" or "Kazys" as in "Kazimierz", since that was a later renaming). As far as I can tell perAncestry.com and other sites, then, "Kasis" probably comes from "Casis", which comes with "Qisis" or "Qasis". 

As far, BTW, as why the various branches were all over the place in terms of not speaking to each other, etc., I do not know. I do know, though, that, e.g., the Andrelewitz branch in Vilna probably was done with most of us long before my branch became Anusim (Rochla bas Gitla was among the Vilna branch). 

As far as the Vil'gel'm Andrulevich branch, we last had contact with them roughly about when Great-Granddad was born in Cuman (now Tsuman), since Vil'gel'm lived in Buzhanka near Zvenigorodka (now Zvenyhorodka). Whether it was before Great-Granddad was born or after he was, I don't know. 

I've had to figure out quite a bit of this through inference, etc.. Ultimately, nonetheless, it won't change that I'm a bat-Anusim whom has a duty to make sure that even distant relatives who were Sho'ah victims aren't forgotten.

Remember That Israel Was Also Attacked On 9/11 By Anti-Semitic Anti Americans

1) At least one of the 9/11 victims was Israeli, and others (e.g., the Falkenbergs and Alan David Cohen) were Diasporan Jewish.

2) One of Israel's allies was attacked, and for that very reason—the "9/11 Commission Report" states that OBL ordered Mullah Omar and KSM, whom wanted "to attack Jews, not necessarily the United States", to attack both "Jews and Crusaders".

3) Saudi Arabia, which may have been complicit in 9/11, borders Israel.

4) Mossad and other Jews have been Anti-Semitically blamed for 9/11.

A Hypocrisy Which I Don't Understand

How can certain loved ones of mine be against the decision of "Charlie Hebdo" to cease their portrayals of Muhammad, and how can they state that "Charlie Hebdo" is "caving in" to the Islamists? After all, they are attempting to ensure that I will not speak out against certain
other Anti Semites and racists.

My problem, then, is not with my loved ones' disagreement with the magazine: my problem is that they are doing to me exactly what they oppose that "Charlie Hebdo"'s editors are doing to themselves. How can they complain about, for example, the following re the Islamists when they complain about me fighting against particular groups whom support groups like "Charlie"'s enemies?

“We have drawn Muhammad to defend the principle that one can draw whatever they want. It is a bit strange though: we are expected to exercise a freedom of expression that no one dares to.”

I'm at a loss for words when they support "Je suis Charlie" at the same time that they tell me "Don't provoke crazies" and "Don't stir up the hornets' nest." While I'm not "Charlie", I'm certainly:

1. Nicole
2. Juive (i.e., Je suis Juive; or "אני יהודית.")
3. Intent on not caving in to the Anti Semites

Meanwhile, God willing, I'll (so to speak) come back up from the underground eventually.

"Hark; the Herald Angels Sing" Reclaimed From Charles Wesley

This was written for a couple of reasons:

1. The original lyrics are full of heresy and needed to be corrected. For example, Charles Wesley and the subsequent adapters of Wesley's lyrics claimed that Jesus was "heaven born" and "late in time". According to Tanakh (תנ''כח or תנ''כה for Messianics), however, Jesus was the "Only Begotten Son" and "born of a woman" whom was to be a virgin. 
2. I've been thinking about this since Christmas in December. It is now Christmastime in July.
3. Felix Mendelssohn was a Jewish believer. Ironically, he "felt unsuited to sacred music" the melody that we use today! Thus, stripping the Jewish context of "Hark! The Herald Angels Sing!" is inappropriate! 

Hark; the herald angels sing,

"Glory to the King of Kings!"

Unto us is born a Child

Unto to God, we're reconciled! 

Joyful, all ye nations rise!

Join the triumph in the skies!

With angelic hosts, proclaim:

"Christ is born in Bethlehem!"

Hark; the herald angels sing, 

"Glory to the King of Kings!"

Bless the virgin-born Prince of Peace!

Bless the Sun of Righteousness! 

Light to those in darkness He brings—

Ris'n with healing in His wings!

The King of Kings departs His throne
To live and die like His own

And to raise the sons of man
Given to Him, the I AM!

Hark; the herald angels sing, 

"Glory to the King of Kings!"

Christ by His elect adored
Christ the Everlasting Lord
As promised, behold He's here!
Unto us, our God draws near!
The Son Whom's Begotten, not made
With the wicked, He made his grave

And from the grave, He arose
And gave new life to the dry bones  

Hark; the herald angels sing, 

"Glory to the King of Kings!"